Simula
I asked myself, what will I do if I fall in love? What if he's a stranger? Or a friend or someone doesn't know I exist? But there's only a question stuck in my head, what's the feeling of being in love? I don't have the guts, I only followed them through my eyes. But still, I just wanna try to fall in love... with real feelings.
Does it hurt? Or it always makes you happy?
Ano bang feeling no'n? When I watched romantic theme movies, the cheesy lines they throw to each other may seem lame but got the impact to the viewers, but when it comes to reality, gano'n din ba ang feeling?
Gano'n din ba ang impact from fiction to reality? Do I need to compare their love stories to what story I have to tell?
There were so many billion people, and I dreamed that somehow, in one of those billion people, there could be the one who can make my heart falls truly.
"Have you ever been in love?"
"Huh?" natanga naman ako sa tanong ng kaibigan ko. "In love? Nakakain ba 'yon?"
Tinawanan naman nila ako, "Ikaw talagang babaita ka! 21 years old ka na tapos no boyfriend since birth at never been touched ang peg!"
"Ano ba!" saway ko naman sa kanila, "hayaan niyo na muna ako."
"Hahayaan ka na lang ba naming tumandang dalaga? Syempre hindi!"
"Oo nga." Sang-ayon pa ng isa kong kaibigan.
Napabuntong hininga na lang ako sa kanila, "if love comes to me, hindi ko naman hahayaan na sayangin 'yong chance pero kung wala naman talaga, edi wala."
Napailing na lang din sila sa akin.
Hindi ko naman pinipilit ang sarili kong mainlove o ma-fall sa isang tao dahil kapag pinilit ko ang sarili ko, love pa ba ang tawag d'on?
Pero no'ng dumating nga, akala ko siya na, akala ko magiging katulad ng mga romantic movies ang lahat ng mangyayari sa amin pero hindi ko inaasahan na masasaktan lang pala ako.
And I still have the reason why we met, with those flyers, he change the meaning of love for me... and this is what I did for love. All of it.