Imagine dedicated to Skittles1713
"Newt, come on, let's talk."
Newt doesn't respond. He doesn't even flinch about what I had just said. He just keep on avoiding me these past few days and I don't know why.
"Newt, what now?"
He looked at me then rolled his eyes. "What."
"Why are you not talking to me? Is there any problem?"
He smirked and rolled his eyes again. I hate it when he rolled his eyes. "Why ask me? Why don't you ask yourself?"
"Newt-"
"Just go. I just don't want you anywhere near me, for now."
The last part of what he just said was almost like a whisper, but loud enough for me to hear.
And that hurts like hell.
He kept a blank expression on his face as he pick one tomato out of Zart's garden. I'm almost about to cry but I know that crying will definitely not help me with our problem.
Twelve days. Twelve days since he went cold to me. I don't know what's up with him. I haven't even have a nice conversation with him. A sweet goodnight. A warm hug. And a . . . a soft kiss.
I don't know what to do.
I sighed. "I will come back and ask you again about what's happening with us. Please stop ignoring me, Newt. Please."
I'm going to cry. I'm going to cry. I'm going to cry.
I turned my back and started to walk the other way. But even if I did, I still heard him say, "Whatever."
There is a problem.
All day, I've been thinking, analyzing, finding out what's really wrong. Have I acted so weird that he can't handle me anymore? Have I done something terrible that he's just so frustrated he can't even look at me in the eye? Did I not obey him according to what he always want? Is he mad because I'm still a Runner?
I don't know.
All I know is, Newt is my boyfriend. I love him. Every single person in the Glade ships us. We've been in a four months relationship, and so far, we are going stronger.
He loves me, I know that. He cares for me, he protects me, he always keep me happy when I'm so distracted, he makes me feel relaxed when I'm so tired of living everyday.
But right now, he can't even give me a nice answer or a warm 'good luck' before I did go run to the Maze.
"What's up, Kels?" Minho said, disrupting any running thoughts from my mind.
I rolled my eyes at him.
"Nothing. And please don't call me 'Kels'. I-It's Newt's nickname for me. . "
He nods slowly and I know that he sensed that there is a problem between me and my boyfriend. "Oh, I get it. You wanna share it with me?"
"I don't think so."
"Come on Kels, I mean, Kelcey. Sorry, I'm just too used to hear Newt saying 'Kels' as your name, so I just thought that I can use it too, you know."
I smiled, but I'm pretty sure I am not really happy. "It's okay, it's just a. . . name."
No, It's not okay.
That was Newt's name for me, nobody in the Glade calls me 'Kels', only him.
"Yeah, but I realized that I would still go with 'Kelcey', it's a lot more prettier. . . that way." he smiled.
"Yeah, thanks."
"So, come on, I am not that good in giving advice, because you know- actually, everybody in the Glade knows that I'm a one big running slinthead and I can't be, will never be. . serious about anything and everything. But I can try, I'm still human, and I can still feel that something is really not good about someone and I am still ready to take all of his or her dramas."
I smiled. Okay, this is a true smile.
"Thanks Minho."
"Why are you thanking me? I haven't yet given my advice. . ."
"Oh, yeah."
"Hurry up, we still have 20 more minutes for our break. And I don't want any of your lovelife dramas while we are running because I need to concentrate especially one of our Runners disappeared again."
I smirked. "Okay." He raised his eyebrows, signalling me to continue.
"It was. . .Newt. Something's wrong with him. These past few days, he's ignoring me. He doesn't want to talk. Whenever I start a conversation with him, he keeps on turning his back to me. I've asked him a lot of questions, 'why?', 'what's wrong'? 'are you okay?' but he just keep on rolling his eyes! And this morning, he just said that. . . he doesn't want me anywhere near him. Do you know how much it hurts? Knowing that he is pushing me away and I don't know why? It's giving me headaches."
Minho sighed and I can feel his concern when he answered, "Well, I don't know how much it hurts, you know, I haven't got a girlfriend. . .Well I did court you like four months ago, but you rejected me-"
"Minho. . "
"Yeah, let me continue. When you rejected me. . " he scratched the back of his neck. "for Newt."
"Okay."
"It was a great competition back then, I mean, I've done almost everything to persuade you, but just one kiss from that british guy caught you."
"Kiss?" I asked, confused.
"Cut the act, you woman. I saw you kissing him that night after our dinner date. It was pretty hot back then, I wish I did have a camera. You two were so cute I almost want to kiss Thomas- " a long pause. "Oh, shit. Shuck. Shit, I did not just say that."
I chuckled. "You did, Minho, you did."
"Shut it."
Oh my god, Minho was so red with embarassment.
"Look, if you really love him, do everything to find out what's really bothering him right now. We all know that Newt had gone in so many troubles in life, and we can't blame him if he's that sensitive. The only thing that keeps him moving right now is you. . you are his strength, his anchor. And whatever it is that is bothering his wide imagination, I'm sure that he still needs you, but is too shy to make you see it." He said so fast but I clearly understand what he is implying.
I smiled again. That was really a relief for me. I wonder if there's no 'Arrogant Minho' in my life.
"Thank you for being a good friend, Minho. I can really rely on you with everything."
"Everything for our girl." He winked.
"For that, I promise I won't tell a word about what you just said about Tho-"
"Let's get going, we should go back early so you can talk again to Newt, right?" He cut me off.
"Right."
-
Chuck pinched my arm.
"Hey, Kelcey. Why are you not sitting beside Newt?"
I looked at Chuck, then to Newt, who is silently eating his soup.
"I-I want to sit beside you. . "
"Is there any problem with the both of you?"
"Yeah, is there?" Thomas also asked, while eating on Chuck's right side.
"Lower your voices, he can hear you." I whispered to them.
Minho burped beside me and all eyes were glued to him, including Newt, which resulted to an accidental eye-to-eye between us.
He looked away.
"Oops, sorry." Minho said, smirking while the other Gladers looked away.
Minho then turned his attention to me.
"Kelcey, I thought you were going to talk to Newt?" He said loud enough for everyone to hear, including Newt.
I froze.
What the shuck, Minho.
Newt looked at me, then to Minho, then he rolled his eyes.
I looked at Minho, who is smirking.
"What are you doing?" I whispered to him but I think it is too loud enough for a whisper because Chuck heard it and he whispered something to Thomas.
"I thought you want to talk to him?" Minho said, innocently.
"Not now, you shuckface, you are making this harder." I rolled my eyes at him, and kicked his right foot. But I immediately regret what I've done because he screamed in pain like a bloody six year old girl.
"What the shuck?! That was way too painful you shuckface! Not my foot! This is the most precious thing I have since I was born! With this, I was able to walk, run, hide, live, and everything! You-"
"Can you just calm down, Minho-"
"You kick like a wild horse!"
God, he is overreacting.
"Okay, stop." I said, trying to smile at Minho's stubbornness.
"No, you-"
A loud sound coming from a breaking plate interrupted our argumentation. We all turn our heads to Newt, who is now struggling to clean the soup out of his shirt.
I thought I heard him curse, which is a first time, but I pushed the thought from my mind because Newt would not curse especially we are all here, watching his every move.
He picked all the broken pieces from his plate, and the other Gladers were just watching him.
I was about to stand up when Minho grabbed my arm and then whispered to me, "No."
I looked at him confused, but he just shake his head.
My eyes turned back to Newt, who wore a blank, cold expression while staring at Minho's hand on my arm.
I immediately got his message so I quickly released my arm from Minho's grip.
"Newt-"
Before I could even say anything about helping him, he stand up, pieces of the broken plate on his hand (which got me worried) and walked out.
Here we go again.
"Yeah, you should go now." Minho said beside me, worried of what his friend will be doing to himself with the use of the broken pieces of his plate.
I nod and went outside to follow him.
At first, I can't see Newt. Actually, it was like 10 minutes and I still can't find him. And I was worried sick.
I know he have a problem. We all know. And he's kinda scary when he have a problem because he is not that of a vocal person. He just keeps it from himself, slowly consuming him, then afterwards, he will be doing something unpredictable.
Like what he did years ago, when I was still not here.
Alby told me that he did lose his hope before, he was so stressed that he can't escape these bloody walls around him, so when he got the chance to let go of his emotions, he climbed halfway from one of those walls and jumped. (a/n : just a thought that will make u cry. sorry guys love u.)
I cried when I heard his story, who wouldn't?
I mean, he is indeed a very gentle boy with brown eyes and a dirty blonde hair and will always make you feel loved every second you're with him.
He doesn't deserve to be here.
Sometimes, I imagined his life outside the Glade. He could've had many girlfriends out there, lots and lots.
Who wouldn't love him, right?
Everyone, and that includes me.
I love him, and I can't stand seeing him being consumed with his problems.
After about three minutes again, I found him standing on a tree near the Deadheads (not on the Deadheads). It was the tree where I first fell asleep beside him. I remembered the memory, it was sweet.
I walked towards him but just halfway before I was at his side, he saw me and started to walk towards the Deadheads.
"Newt, wait!" I stopped him, running as fast as I could, following his limping figure towards the darkest side of the Deadheads.
He was so fast, I lost him.
All I can see is darkness. There were no stars above, even the moon we used too stare at. It was a cloudy night, and it was cold out here. I wonder where he is now, shit I am so worried.
I walked. . and walked, but still no traces of Newt.
My feet is starting to hurt and I think it is so late now. I have to get up early again tomorrow, Minho warned me about being late. I can't lose my job being a Runner.
It was when after twenty good minutes and I still can't find Newt around so I decided to go back to the Glade.
Maybe he went to sleep.
And I was right. Actually, half right.
When I came back to our room, he was preparing to sleep, preparing his pillow and his blanket.
He was about to lay down when I entered, slightly annoyed because of his actions.
"Where were you? I am worried sick when I can't find you in the Deadheads! I thought something happened to you!"
He continued positioning himself to lay down and when he got his most comforting position, he closed his eyes but coldly answered, "Nothing's going to happen to me, okay? Just go to sleep, we have so much work to do tomo-"
"Why?" I snapped, trying not to cry again by what he is doing to me.
He opened his eyes. "What."
"Why are you doing this to me? What is your problem?"
"I told you to ask yourself."
"Yes! I always ask myself Newt, these past few days. But I don't recall any actions I've done to upset you! Tell me, what is your problem?"
One tear falls out on my left cheek, and I let out a small sob as I hugged myself.
"Why are you cry- Kelcey, will you stop crying? This is so- stop crying!"
He stand up and walk towards me, I was expecting he will hug me but he didn't, he just. . .stands there.
And one thing, he calls me by my true name, not 'Kels'.
"Just tell me what is the problem." I said between sobs. He let out a quick "shit" and then he puts both of his hand on his face.
"Just go to sleep, Kelcey. Go. To. Sleep."
He goes back to our bed and as he lay down, he said, "I'm tired of all the works today, you should be tired too. Come on, just. . .lay down."
I don't know what had gotten into me when I said, "Maybe you're not just tired of all your works here?"
He rolled his eyes again, I hate it. "What do you mean?"
"Are you tired of this relationship?"
He didn't answer. He just looked at me dead in the eyes.
I walked towards our bed, grabbing my pillow.
"Goodnight, Newt." I said to him then walked out, trying to find a place where I can have a peaceful night sleep outside.
-
It was twenty minutes before the door of the Maze closes and I was near the Glade when I bumped into someone.
And I am so sure that if it wasn't for the almighty curse words and a big slinthead wearing a blue sleeve, I thought that this thing was a big moving rock.
I almost got a concussion when I did bump to Minho.
"What the shuck, Kelcey! Look where you're going you klunk!"
I sighed as I massage my head. "Sorry, I just. . .ugh. Sorry."
"You should be focusing! What if I were a Griever?!"
"Oh no, you were a rock, a big rock, and you were a lot scarier than a Griever, you slinthead."
"Thank you." He replied sarcastically.
He helped me up and we both ran again towards the Glade. Sure enough, the walls closed just after we entered the Glade.
I looked everywhere to find Newt, and he was not around.
I wonder if he got the news.
Well, last night, when I walked out of our room, I did go to that tree we used to lay down to sleep, and I did sleep there, but when I woke up, I was in Minho and Thomas' room.
And I don't know why.
Sure enough, Thomas said that he saw me sleeping there last night and he got worried that something will happen to me because he didn't trust the other boys and when he went to Newt, the door was completely locked so he got this idea to carry me and made me sleep beside him and Minho.
I said 'thanks' when I heard his story but went really nervous that morning especially if Newt finds out that I just slept beside his friends.
This is not actually a good idea, Thomas.
Finally, when I saw Newt, he was looking intently at me and he was about to step forward when Minho pulled my hand.
"Let's go."
Newt looked at our hands and walked away.
While Minho, is still pulling my hand towards the Map Room.
I wonder again, did I see a hint of jealousy on my boyfriend's eyes?
No.
Besides, he was far enough so I can't really see his eyes. Or maybe I'm just hallucinating that he's actually looking at our hands.
Right?
After Minho and I finished our jobs, we both headed to Frypan's to get our dinner.
"What happened last night?" Minho asked as we walked.
I shrugged. "Well. . .I think it didn't turn out well. I've asked him again what is the problem but he just. . . ugh, let's not talk about it."
Minho nodded. "Don't worry, It's just a little part of Newt that you can't understand, I know he loves you Kelcey, I do."
I smiled as I stopped walking.
"What's up, klunk?" He asked, stopping too. "I'm starving, let's go get our dinner, we are like, twenty footsteps away from our energy re-fill."
I looked at him, ignoring what he said . "What do you think I should do then?"
His eyebrows met. "What?"
"What do you think I should do for him to open up? To bring back the way our relationship was before he started ignoring me? What do you think should I do for him to love me again?"
He nodded then scratched his back, "First of all, I'm going to warn you again, I'm not good in advice so. . . be aware." I nodded.
"Secondly, priorly firstly. . ." he stepped forward. "Would you stop thinking that he doesn't love you? 'Love me again'? What- look, the boy cares and loves you more than his life, okay? Be aware of that."
I smiled as I slightly bowed my head to hide my face.
He lift my chin up which causes me to smile, "And lastly, young lady, just make him feel loved, whatever happens, whatever circumstances, whatever problem he had. . . make him feel like, you are always there, on his side. And I have to remind you to stop crying when things get worse, he hates to see you cry, he said that to me one time. . . He said he was like committing an unforgivable sin when he makes you cry. So please stop doing that. And also, you should kiss him everytime. . .just like that one night before-"
"Minho. . ."
"What? He said he likes it." He defended himself as he made kissing noises.
Minho is such a weirdo.
"He literally tells you everything?"
"Yes. Before." He sighed. "And it was so awkward of him telling me that he loved every second he is with you, I mean, I haven't got a-"
"A girlfriend. Yes, I know." I was just about to say 'Thomas', but I don't want to kill the mood.
"Thank you, Minho. You are such a slinthead but is. . . a great friend. I wish every single person of this world had a bestfriend like you."
He smiled, "Thanks for that. Can we grab our dinner?"
"Yeah, but one thing, can I hug you? You know, as a sign of friendship and as a 'thank you' hug?"
He smirked again, "Okay, fine. Not too tight, klunk, or I will punch you."
I laughed as I hugged him.
"You are really a rock-"
I was pulled out by someone and I end up lying on the ground.
When I looked back at Minho, I saw someone beating the crap out of him. And when I saw that 'someone', I stoop up in horror just to realize that my boyfriend is throwing punches on his friend's face.
"Newt, stop!"
Newt didn't seem to hear me, which is a bad thing because I can't let him go of Minho. "Newt, please, what are you doing?!"
My screams got the attention of the other Gladers and they came to help. Thomas ran to help me pull Newt away from Minho and when we did, I told him to take Newt to our room so he can cool his head there.
I ran towards Minho which is lying on the ground, a little blood on his lips and his nose.
"What the shuck happened here?!" Alby asked but I ignored him and turned my attention to Minho.
"You okay, Minho?" I asked him, wiping the blood out of his nose.
He didn't reply to my question, instead, he answered me, "I think I know the problem." He leaned in closer, maybe, so that I'm the only one who can hear what he said.
"Your boyfriend is jealous."
I looked at him as he said, "Now go talk to him, klunk."
He was right.
Now it hit me, he was always threatened by Minho. These past few days, Minho and I got really attached with each other. But Newt had to understand that it wasn't anything romantic.
Newt had to know, he is wrong. He's so wrong on beating his friend like that.
This is not so Newt.
I ran towards our room and when I got there, I saw Thomas trying to calm Newt, and maybe himself. When I opened our door, I thanked Thomas and let him go outside to go see his friend.
Now, it was just me and Newt with his angry expression.
"What was that out there?" I tried to calm my nerves, trying to understand what he had done. "Why did you do that to our friend-"
"Because he is trying to get you back! Don't you see it? He is trying to flirt with you again so that you will fall for him! And you are falling!" He bursts, I have never seen Newt like this before.
His eyes were full of anger, his jaw clenched, and his fists still clutched and is covered with a little blood.
"You tried to hurt your bestfriend, Newt! You don't even know the whole story-"
"I know the whole story, I was watching the both of you these past few weeks, you forgot about our little date last week just to be with him, if I did try to talk to you, you always said you are tired, when you are with him, even if I was around, I was like air to you! Do you know how that feels? To be ignored?"
I feel like passing out.
"And you, Kelcey, you were flirting with him too! Everytime he cracked a joke, you always laugh. You smile everytime he is near, and that back there. . " He paused.
"W-What." I stutter.
"You hugged him, just like you hug me! You even slept beside him last night! And I can't bear it all inside me Kelcey, I feel like this relationship is not working. It was just- "
"I am not flirting with him." I snapped, almost cracking at the end of my sentence. I tried not to cry, because that's what Minho said to me.
"I am not flirting with him and you, of all people, should know that."
He looked at me but I looked away.
"So you were watching me, and you think there is a problem, but you didn't have the guts to talk to me about it? I didn't forgot that 'little date' we could've had last week, I was just late, I admit that, because that was the day we discovered a new place on that section we are tracking and we have to summarize everything we got from that section. . I tried talking to you that night, but you just ignored me. Now you are asking me how it felt to be ignored?"
He swallows, looking down at his lap.
"I am not flirting with Minho, Newt. You are my boyfriend! You are the one that I loved. And that, will never changed. . . So if you think. . " I choke out a sob. I didn't even notice I was crying already. "this relationship is not working, we better break it then."
He was about to say something but I immediately interrupted him. "I'm not too good for you anyway."
I turn on my heel and walk out of our room.
I headed to the front doors of the Maze, which were closed. I seriously hope it will open, I just want to run and run. . .and clear up my mind.
I just broke up with my boyfriend.
It was not a very nice idea.
I looked at the doors and started to cry. I was glad there were no Gladers around here, it was dark out here, and it was pretty cold.
A good time to feel all the sadness.
I didn't want to broke up with Newt, that's true. I love him. Maybe I was just too hurt that he didn't trust me about Minho.
I sighed. I shouldn't have said those to Newt, I shouldn't have.
But he didn't even react when I said we should end our relationship.
It was a good one hour and I was still here. I don't know what to do tomorrow. I can't sleep. Even if I'm in pain physically and emotionally, my eyes won't shut off.
Suddenly, I heard movements at my back. But I was too sad to turn so I just ignored it.
After five minutes, I heard someone say, "Sorry." so I quickly turned my back only to find Newt standing timidly at my back, eyes staring at me.
He looks so young at this moment, his eyes no longer angry and harsh, but soft and slightly sparkling.
His soft pink lips curved into a little smile and he almost looked like a thirteen year old boy, not a seventeen year old one.
I stand up, and faced him.
"I shouldn't have done that Kels, I am so sorry." He hugged me, I didn't hug back at first. But I realized that I haven't hugged him for so long so I did hugged him back.
I missed his warm, tight hug. And when he pulls away, I was really eager to hug him again but I stopped myself.
"I'm so sorry Kels, I was a big klunk, slinthead, jerk. . .I reacted too soon. I didn't realize what I was up for. I tried to hurt my bestfriend. I even tried to hurt, you. . .
I stare at him, not one hour ago and we were fighting and now here he is, infront of me, trying to apologize of what he had done.
"I just missed you, Kelcey, Kels. . I was just stressed these past few days and whenever I see you with Minho, I immediately jumped into conclusions. I am really, really a bad man. I am so sorry."
He held both of my hands after he wiped a tear out of his cheek.
He's crying.
"I-I talked to Minho. . " his voice lowers to a whisper. "He told me you were stressed out about me ignoring you. . .he explained me everything. I should have never been that aggressive."
"It's okay." I was surprised I sounded so normal. "It's okay Newt."
Newt's bottom lip quivers. "I just don't want you to leave me. You are the greatest gift that is given to me after all the tragedies I have encountered in my whole life. . . and I don't want to lose you, just like how I lose everything. . . you are what matters to me, okay? I'm sorry if I did hurt you. I love you Kelcey, it will never fade."
He was about to wipe another tear from his cheek when I stopped him so I can do it.
I ended up cupping his cheek.
"I've been a shitty boyfriend. A douche bag."
"Don't ever say that." I replied as he hugged me again. "You're the greatest boyfriend a girl should ever dream and the simplest but sweetest boyfriend I have. Don't ever doubt that."
He nods and takes a shaky breath. "I love you Kelcey, always."
"I know, and I love you too, accent guy."
He laughed and I smiled, it feels so good having Newt back.
He pulls me for a long and sweet kiss in which I responded immediately. Once again, it feels so good kissing Newt, it's like even when we were trapped here in the Glade, just one kiss like this one from Newt, I gained yet another reason to keep moving and not lose hope that someday, we will get out of here, we will find a good house outside the Maze where we can call it home and I will marry Newt whatever it takes.
It was a beautiful dream that I will keep on reaching, step by step, with Newt.
Once he pulled away, we both smiled and we did hug each other again.
I told you, he likes warm hugs. (a/n olafffffff)
"So, just so I know, did you say sorry to Minho?"
He scratched the back of his neck. "Yeah. Kinda scared because Thomas was there at his side and he's kinda angry. I gotta thank you though, I'm still lucky you did get inside our room early because. . .I got a feeling that Thomas is going to punch me if you were a little bit late. But yeah! Minho said it was okay, but he said he owe me one and he requested that I should kiss you again."
My eyebrows met and I looked at him, confused. "Kiss me, what- how can he even. . . ."
And just what I thought it was, I looked back to the Homestead and found a few Gladers including Thomas, Alby, Chuck, disgusted Gally and annoying Minho standing there. Minho and Thomas pouting their lips as if they were signalling us to kiss again and Chuck, jumping, shouting and cheering all the way together with the other Gladers.
"You let them watch us?" I asked in embarassment.
"No! Just the part when we kissed."
"How could you even know that they only watched our kiss?"
"Because I trust Minho?"
"No you don't, we both don't."
He chuckled. "But he's the one who made me understand that you loved me and I can't let you go so. . . maybe I owe him one kiss. Besides, don't mind him. Maybe he was just getting some ideas on how to kiss Thomas right."
I smirked at the thought. "They were good together."
"I know. Shall we kiss again."
"Is that a question? Or a statement?"
"Whatever suits you."
"Yeah, I know." I looked back at the Gladers then to Newt. "You sure we will still kiss in front of them?"
"Are you ashamed about it?"
"No! Of course not."
He smiled. "Then let's seal it. So that if ever another Glader still plans to get you from me, for real, he will be losing hope from now on."
I nod. "I love you, Newt. I didn't mean that. . . that break-up thing. I'm sorry too, Newt. I'm not breaking up with you. Never."
"I love you too Kelcey. We both know that our life will be never as normal as we imagined. And that, in the next morning, we both didn't know what would happen to us, or to our friends. . .But I want to tell you this, and I want you to always remember that I love you, and I will never let go of you as long as I'm breathing. I will never leave your side, Kelcey. I promise to take care of you, and never ever hurt you again, intentionally."
We both smiled a genuine and sweet smile.
This will be just a one big misunderstanding for the both of us. And we will not eventually forget about this, but I'm pretty sure that we both understand each other right now.
"It's like we are having our wedding vows here, and it's so good." Newt said as he chuckled, wrinkles from the sides of his eyes began to appear.
He's right, it's so good.
I didn't wait for him to kiss me. I was the one who pulled him to yet another deep kiss I will never forget.
I could feel him smile while I kiss him, which is good.
Yes, somehow, life was never that bad.
It was definitely great, for now. But who knows?
At least I got Newt by my side.
This imagine be like 5000 words and it's so fucked up, I'm sorry.
Again, if u want a request, feel free to message me (do not write it on the commentbox guys).
But please have patience because I'm not that fast in updating (u know that guys).
And I'm not that good of a writer soooo. . atleast I give free imagines.
It's for u all because i love u all. Yea.
This is for u, Kelcey! You gotta read her book too.
In Love With the Devil
-Skittles1713
Allthelove.
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