Special Chapter: 'I'm No Channing Tatum, More Like Chandler Bing.'
This is told from Finn's POV of the events in chapter 5. I did Drew's so it only felt right to also do Finn's as well.
We all have that one person in our life with whom we share our hopes, dreams and on occasion KitKat after they guilt trip you. She gets all happy over little things like when Ryan Gosling takes his shirt off in The Notebook, she doesn't make fun out you for having a My Little Pony collection which you just can't grow out of and is the only girl who doesn't assume that just because I have a penis I'm some sort of macho man who is after a screw or doesn't know all the lyrics to my girl Taylor. She's there when you need her and never lets the opportunity go to remind you of your most embarrassing moments. It's the one, the only, Sophia Davis, or who I like to call the only girl who can never eat enough food.
Sophia. Sophia. Sophia. She was the sweetness to my Muffin, the laughter behind my jokes and the girl who I was so gone on that I didn't think there was any coming back. Don't get me wrong, she still annoyed the hell out me when she would be late or claim that Swiftie was 'overrated like teenage pregnancy and those guys called MPs'. However, none of this was enough to surpass her spark which shone brighter than the sun and it was this that caused my heart to skip a beat or for the world to slow down when she shot me a goofy smile. I didn't think I would care for anyone so much again.
The most important person in my life was my sister, who sadly passed away 2 years ago. I watched her suffer a lot towards the end of her life and the pain I felt at losing her was seared into my heart forever. One moment she was here and then the next she left us. She was the only one who ever understood me without passing judgement that even my parents on occasion did, and the best moments of my life were spent holding her hand as we walked through the park on a Saturday afternoon as a child as I babbled on my friend at school who would eat my lunch as well as her own *cough* Sophia *cough*.
I didn't think I would ever love anyone as much again until Sophia. She held me as I cried after the funeral, she made a fool of herself many times just to see me smile and when I felt down she would face the wrath of her parents by running up her phone bill so we could talk until early into the morning. It wasn't an overnight thing, it changed from friendship gradually as I realised she was the only other person I could never bare losing – her sweet smile, her honest eyes and her lovely, lovely heart. When you want to sweep your hand through your best friend's dark, soft hair and listen to her voice until three in the morning then you know that Harry was right all along while Sally just deceived herself.
Let me tell you about Sophia: she's the smartest girl I know who can also be the most oblivious sometimes. Countless guys I've heard her say she has a crush on, and she even went out with that twat Harry, but when it comes to me then I may as well just be a Draco because the one girl I want doesn't want me. It's so embarrassing but I even tried to show her my barely there abs to see if she has any physical attraction to me yet she seemed distracted by something else...my pride was hurt...well not really since I don't even want to look at my non-existent abs either. I'm no Channing Tatum, more like Chandler Bing. My awkwardness never became more apparent than when we spotted Phoebe out at Nandos one evening.
Phoebe Williams was a really pretty girl who was funny, outgoing and so understanding after I drunkenly started singing to her about how we should play My Little Pony together and of course the girl I'm actually crushing on has video footage of this – alcohol bad, Finn bad. Due to this Sophia, Dina and Lucy had gotten it into their heads that I had a crush on her, and while she was really sweet and smart, this was not the case. Only one girl I want to play with my pony.
"I can't believe that the staff here doesn't remember my name!" Sophia moaned as her eyebrows wrinkled as she took a swing of her diet coke. "Next time I'm saying I'm the biebs and then let's see if they forget."
I grinned at her little rant and took this as the opportunity to take her in.
You couldn't really describe Sophia because there were so many different facets to her apart from her looks. She had a really simple style with her printed t-shirts, slick of signature red lipstick that made her pillowy lips all the more appealing when she licked them unconsciously, and how you didn't notice her less than perfect complexion because a smile always graced her face.
As her best friend, and somewhat secret admirer, I might have been biased but her beauty truly came from within because she was so bad ass and she had a figure to die for if I was being a shallow prick. Not super skinny, her hips were slightly big but I wondered what it would feel like to run my hands over them, to push her mid length hair back to kiss the crook of her neck, to have her want me as well...She must have worked on a chicken farm at one point since she knows how to raise a cock...NO, FINN! DON'T BE A PERV! DON'T TURN INTO SOPHIA!
"Hey Sophia!" Phoebe said coming standing next Sophia as I cleared my throat awkwardly as Lucy nudged me suggestively.
I quickly turned my attention to the menu, even though I already ordered, since I couldn't bare the looks from my friends which couldn't have been more wrong than Bella choosing Edward. The girls greeted one another as I heard Will, the guy who seemed to think that Kayne was better than Swiftie, speak up. Game on, bitch, game on.
"Finn, I see you're out on the town with the girls again," Will said in a deep voice that made him sound less like a geezer and more like he had a really bad cold.
I was used to some of the guys ragging on me because my best friends were girls, however, I failed to see what was wrong with my being friends with people who had lady parts. They were funny, smart, somewhat annoying and the coolest people I knew...why shouldn't I be friends with them? They're the only ones who seem to accept me for who I am. Oh and this constant suggestion that I must be gay was very offensive in the sense that it's so stupid to assume that only certain groups of people can like particular things - I'm comfortable with who I am, if others aren't then that's their problem.
I glared at Will. "What can I say William? The ladies seem to love me."
"You're always hanging around with these girls. You're not turning into a girl, right?" Will enquired as I saw Sophia narrow her eyes at him. She's about to lose it. "I mean you do like ponies after all if I recall."
Will was clearly trying to assert his dominance over me and didn't regard me as a 'brother' if the way he mocked me was anything to go by. It was also obvious he had the hots for Phoebe and, while I was in no position to pass judgement considering my current position, I wanted to tell him that niceness cost nothing while being a prick cost yourself respect.
I was about to reply back then I felt Lucy lean over and smugly declare, "Oh trust me, he's all man."
I felt myself hot up as Dina and Sophia started shaking their heads in agreement and the thought that Sophia may have thought about me in anyway other than her pathetic, awkward friend popped into my head. That thought went out of the window as soon as it came in as I realised she was probably pissed that someone other than her was picking on me – she had special privileges as my best friend and the girl who I craved to call late at night just to tell her about my day.
I pushed my glasses back and retained an indifferent expression as I turned to look at Will who was smirking. "Dude, you're so stuck in the friend zone so don't try to act any different. See I'm a nice guy, I hang out with girls and I get still get some but guys like you that hang out with girls all the time never end up getting some. That's just weird."
I felt anger flare up at his words. Yes, I had strong feelings for my best friend but I never once expected anything from her apart from her comforting company and witty humour. Dina and Lucy were pretty amazing too when they wanted to be so if anything I was the one wondering why they were still friends with me. I didn't want 'some'. Well, I did but I wasn't going to manipulate my friends, who were too smart for that as well by the way, in order to have a quick fumble when I could take care of that little problem myself. NOT LITTLE! I MEANT NOT LITTLE! It's a BIG...kind of big problem!
"I'm not in this 'friendzone' that you're talking about," I spoke up, no trace of a smile on oh so pretty his face. "I have enough respect for girls not have an ulterior motive and even if I was in love with one them, which after they treat me is not possible, then I would have the guts to tell them with no expectations of anything in return. I'm not into the whole secretly pining malarkey."
So the last bit was kind of a lie but I would eventually tell Sophia how I felt. One day when I know I'm strong enough to look her in the eye and listen to her say I'll only ever be a friend. I just needed time to deal with this in my own time because after losing my grandmother, I couldn't lose Sophia as well. It's been two years...enough now, Finn, enough.
I was too lost in my thoughts to pay attention to the fact Will, Phoebe and Leah had left or that my friends were talking about how Sophia was going to help that Drew guy.
It was stupid but I didn't want her to go see him. Not because he was better looking than me or had that whole brooding thing down but I was pissed at him for kissing her like that a few weeks ago out of the blue. The dare was only ever meant to be a laugh and he had to force himself on her – his lips, his body, his hands touching her – without even seeing if she was okay with it. It wasn't all jealously, I didn't like the thought of anyone taking advantage of her and it fucking annoyed me that he humiliated her in front of everyone. Still I trusted her to make her own decisions...she was too stubborn to listen to anyone anyway.
The rest of the evening went by in a blur with us arguing about whether Sheldon was better than Howard (um, yes!) and if Will was a dick because he actually had a small dick (the things they bring up).
I was in my small box room, in bed in the dark, as the phone on my bedside table taunted me. Despite spending the whole evening with her I wanted to speak to Sophia more, without the others there, it was different when it was just us. I loved the others girls but with Sophia there was this unmistakable understanding. I was there for her and she was there for me no matter what. It didn't matter that I hated poetry I still went to her poetry recital as I knew no-one else would go and she would hold my hand when she knew I was feeling down but probably didn't anticipate the sensation that ran through me at the simplest gesture.
It was one in the morning and I was lying in bed wanting to call her and talk to her about everything and everything. It was stupid but she made me feel better in a way no-one else ever has and so before I knew it I was ringing her. She's not going to pick up! This is so stupid! YOU'RE MORE DESPERATE THAN THE HOUSEWIVES! Hang up now...
Just as I was about to end the call I heard her sleepy voice. "Finn?" she sleepily slurred and I felt like an arsehole for selfishly waking her up. "What's up, Muffin?" she yawned.
I smiled at her saying my nickname which only she got away with. It was like this unspoken rule that only she got to call me it and I didn't even have any idea why. Okay, it might have something to do with the fact that it sounds wrong if anyone but her says it. You're so weird, you weirdo.
"I just wanted to tell you that Matt Smith is leaving Dr Who," I said trying frantically to come up with a valid excuse for calling her up so late. It seemed to have worked.
She gasped dramatically and I had to supress a smirk. "SHUT UP!" she screamed at the news which had been out for only a few hours now. "NOOOOOOOOO!" she yelped and I wondered whether she would wake her family up.
"YESSSSSSSSSS!" I sarcastically screamed back at her not caring if I woke up my parents as my room was right at the side of the house anyway.
"This best not be a prank," she warned as I snuggled down in bed with the phone clutched to my ear.
"Oh like you pranked me that time into thinking that Draco had hidden feelings for Harry?" I reminded her as I rolled my eyes at the memory.
"That was funny."
"No, it wasn't."
"It was."
"No."
"Yes."
I rolled my eyes. "You're so damn stubborn, Sophia."
"Only for you, Muffin," she declared and I closed my eyes to listen to her adorable little laugh that followed.
Just like that we ended up speaking for another two hours about the most mundane things yet it felt interesting and exciting because I was speaking to her about them. I was so gone on a girl who didn't even realise how much light she brought into my dim life. It was something like...my whole world being that much better because she was in it.
She was it.
What do you of Muffin?? Did you like the chapter?? Let me know, I love reading your comments!
This kind of explains Finn's feelings a bit better (I hope!) and shows the depth of his feelings.
FeministGrrrl1001:*gets all emotional* FORGET SOPHIA, MUFFIN! PICK ME!
Finn: No.
*clears throat awkwardly* No? Fine, I'll just go with Drew then.
Drew: YES! Score! In ya face Muffin Man.
FeministGrrrl1001: Calm down, Drew, all the girls want to ride Finn's pony not yours.
Drew: *whispers* Not just the girls.
Finn: What did you say?
FeministGrrrl1001: Finn, go out with me otherwise your 'big' problem will find it self becoming small...
Finn: *groans* Not again, you crazy lady.
Drew: Look, Muffin Boy, no-one speaks to my baby like that.
FeministGrrrl1001: Drew, shut up! I'm not your lady.
Drew: *starts crying* ALL BY MYSELF, DON'T WANNA BE ALLLLLL BY MYSELF ANYMOOOOOOOOORE.
Finn: What the hell is going on?!
Drew: *all emotional* I've had my heart broken, okay? You can be so insensitive. LIKE I'M A BOY WHO LOVES A GIRL WHO WRITES ABOUT OTHER BOYS ABS!
FeministGrrrl1001: Here we go again.
Drew: ONCE MORE YOU OPEN THE DOOR *sniffles* AND MY HEART WILL GO ON AND ON!!!
Finn: Can I please change books? This is freaking me out...
FeministGrrrl1001: Me too, me too.
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