A/N: Okay I know I just updated a bit ago but I had to post this up before it started to eat away at me lmao, yikes.
If you like Shawn, you might react the way I did while writing this...
If you hate Shawn...well this long ass chapter is for you so smile and laugh through it babes LOL
Either way, good luck getting through it holy shit it's long.
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"Would you chill? I'm sure it'll be nothing more than just getting ingredients and coming back home," Shawn chimed irritated into the phone.
He was trying to have Iris calm down and not stress over spending time with Yoongi downtown. He chuckled when she grumbled out an "okay".
Just as he was about to hang up, she stopped him. He sighed, knowing exactly what she was going to say.
"Y/N's crashing at my place now...she came this morning," the woman said softly.
Shawn nodded to no one in particular. "I'm glad she has someone," he said lightly and Iris sighed.
"She'd love to have you back too," she piped, hopeful.
Shawn didn't say anything and Iris pouted. He could almost hear the "hmph" through the phone.
"Have fun with Yoongi," he said softly.
Iris smiled lightly, "I will."
He smiled at her laugh before shutting the phone and moving through the hall and over to Kai's bedroom where she told him to meet this morning. Sighing as he opened the door, moved into the girl's room, smiling at the sight of Kai greet him with a quick kiss.
Smile faltering immediately when she seemed to look at him, he scolded himself to not fall for any of what she was probably going to try and persuade him to do. Blinking his eyes shut as he began to make his intentions clear, she simply kissed him, cutting him off before shyly moving towards the bathroom.
"Wait here," she said softly and he forced a smile on his face as he moved towards her bed. Pacing a light bit while walking about. He couldn't handle another person trying to tell him to go and confront you again. It hurt him to just think about you and the constant reminder that he was a tool didn't help his stubborn mind.
Eyes hard while staring at Kai's bed, he tried not to fall forward when a sudden body jumped on to his back. Hearing the girl giggle at his ear as she hugged him from at his shoulders, she kissed his cheek quickly before giggling more into his ear when he tried to maintain balance.
"Did I scare you?" Kai asked cutely, cocking her head forward so that she could try and get a glimpse of his expression.
Shawn smiled warmly at her being adorable before he moved to put her on to the bed.
She gasped lightly when he threw her a bit on it. Grinning as she tried to stay balanced on two feet, she stood on the bed, grinning down at the man who stood at the edge of it.
"I'm sorry I kind of borrowed your shirt," she piped, grinning when he seemed to swallow visibly at the sight of her in nothing but his clothing.
"I-It's cool," he nervously added, "I wanted to talk I-"
Kai smiled, chuckling before pecking his lips. "Talking can wait," she said playfully as she kissed him again, her feet at the corners of the beds edge.
She kissed him lightly, arms hugging at his form as she let her lips tease his softy.
He hated this. Pulling his head away, he let his forehead rest against hers for a quick moment. Finally blurting out what he had to say.
"I know you believe that I should go see Y/N," he said at her lips. She froze, moving away so she could look at his face that was scrunched up. His eyes were shut. "But I can't," he sighed out, pained, "she doesn't want me around I-"
"She was angry," Kai said softly, hand moving to the back of his neck, rubbing at it reassuringly.
"So was I," he said lowly, trying not to remember much of what that night had in store.
"You need to move on Shawn," she said lightly, "you've kept this burden all on your cute broad shoulders." She patted at his shoulders and he smiled. "It's time to let it go and just be happy...accept what life is now."
He swallowed and she hugged him tightly, scolding him playfully. "Y/N loves Jungkook," she said softly, "you should be happy for her finally finding happiness with the one she loves."
Kai's eye were soft at that. Her eyes searching his intensely.
Shawn's brows jumped at that, a nervous laugh escaping him when seeing the girl's expression. There was a double meaning to that same remark and he felt sweaty just thinking about what she could possibly mean. "Let's not talk about love yeah?" He popped laughing.
Kai bit her lip a bit, watching as he moved away from her and slumped onto the bed by her feet. Slowly sitting down, she let her head lay on his shoulder as she cuddled into his side. He was awkward in trying to move away but she simply mumbled a "please". He swallowed, staying put. In all the days of seeing each other, Kai had never been in Shawn's arms...she had never experienced cuddling with him. He had always just run off or slept on the couch later. Giving him his space, she understood that he felt uncomfortable with staying the night after having sex. She understood...
But it did bum her out when he was genuine and popped out a soft "I don't know how to cuddle" the first night she had asked him to lay with her. He was an awkward penguin when leaving the room after.
Sighing at the memory, she took the best of this moment when cuddling into his side more. Shawn swallowed hard, trying not to tense up.
"I know you've got a problem with admitting to the ones you love that you care for them," she said softly by his neck, "but this is Y/N...you two are amazing together."
Shawn eyed the ground, listening to the woman talk.
"If you truly love her, you'd try for her," she said slowly, propping her head up to look at the side of his face.
Shawn's eyes shut at that, he swore.
Kai giggled as she pecked his cheek.
"Did I persuade you?" She asked excited. Feeling like she just won all types of different lottery packages.
"Might've just," he mumbled, smiling when she sang out a "yay" and instantly hugged his side.
He laughed, hugging her back. He wasn't tense however as he softly kissed her.
She looked down at him, pecking his lips about twice. "Promise to stay with me after?" She asked slowly, her heart on the line.
Shawn swallowed, his heart aching when looking up at the girl who seemed to be sweetly looking down at him.
She was nervous.
He nodded. "Yeah," he said slowly, smiling hugely when she squealed and hugged him. He chuckled by his ear before hugging her back.
"I'll stay," he said softly.
Kai nodded, gently kissing him as she sat onto his lap. She smiled at him softly kissing her back.
Shawn let himself be vulnerable with the woman above him...
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Here Shawn was, making things right. Sighing as he tried not to back out from his made up thoughts, Shawn knocked at the familiar door before him.
Don't be a dick, he reminded himself, feeling nauseous as the the door seemed to creak open. He felt instantly relieved when seeing Jimin.
"Oh thank god," he breathed out, catching himself a bit as he regained his composure.
Jimin was confused but managed to let out a "hi", looking down at his phone for the time. "Aren't you a little early?" He asked laughing, "I thought we were going for drinks later I-"
Shawn swallowed. "Yes we're still up for that later," he said as he rubbed his palms together, "but uh, for now I was wondering if Jungkook was home?"
Jimin almost dropped his phone. Shocked, Shawn rolled his eyes when Jimin mumbled something he couldn't quite register.
"Jimin work with me here I'm trying," Shawn said laughing a little out of nerves.
Jimin nodded, yelling past his shoulder for Jungkook.
"Yeah?" A distance voice cooed and Jimin called again.
Watching the maknae who was smiling, walk over to the door in an instant, Shawn felt even more awkward when seeing his smile fade immediately at the sight of him.
"Shawn?"
"Hey dic-" Shawn shut his eyes, scolding again, "I mean, hey Jungkook."
Jungkook's face fell in awe of that. Confused, he simply watched the man grow awkward before him as he spoke.
"I uh, I've been thinking a lot," Shawn started, glancing over at Jimin who was amused, "about Y/N and you...and how I've been a dick."
Jungkook nodded. "You have," he said lowly and Shawn smiled lightly.
"Yes. I have," he sighed out, rubbing at his palms again, "which is why-for my lil princess's sake, and for your uh, sake..."
Jungkook couldn't believe what he was hearing. Waiting patiently for the man to finish, Jungkook felt his mouth dry up.
"For both of your sakes," Shawn said slowly, "I think it's my duty as her friend to not be so close-minded and give you a shot."
Jungkook grinned hugely at that, almost childish and Shawn couldn't help but smile a bit at the expression.
"Really?"
"Y-Yeah," Shawn began slowly, "only if you're okay with maybe trying to start over?"
Jungkook nodded so quick it almost freaked Shawn out. Laughing nervously when the maknae moved to hug him. Shawn's eyes widened as he stuck his hand out, interrupting the boy mid hug. Jungkook looked down at the hand. "Just baby steps okay?" Shawn asked, laughing when Jungkook shook his hand fast.
The maknae didn't let go and Shawn glanced at Jimin for help.
Jimin simply walked away, laughing.
Trying to slip his palm away, Jungkook was wearing the biggest smile on his face as he held on for dear life.
"Come by with Jimin for drinks later, we'll all hang out alright?" Shawn asked, struggling a bit in trying to move away.
Jungkook nodded, laughing. Forgetting all about boundaries, Jungkook didn't seem to care for any of it as he moved to hug the man instantly.
Shawn tensed under the man's foreign touch. Trying to pat the boys back in return, Shawn couldn't find his arms to move as they were being squished into his sides.
"Thank you thank you," he sang out, laughing, "you don't know how much this means to both Y/N and I."
"I'm glad," Shawn said slowly, "don't fuck up," he teasingly let out and Jungkook chuckled.
Shawn tried to pull away but no use.
"Have you told her yet?" Jungkook asked, just imagining the look of happiness that would cross your face if you were to hear.
"No," Shawn said, trying his hardest to breath for air, "going to go over now."
Jungkook grinned, eyes shutting as he took in this moment.
Shawn was going to cry from not being able to breath. Seeing a figure move down the hallway, Shawn called for help.
"Yo Tae! Taehyung!" He begged and Taehyung simply shrugged, moving away slowly and teasingly into the house.
Shawn whined, deciding on waiting out the monstrous hug. He couldn't help but admit that it was a sweet gesture.
"Alright mister tough guy," Shawn sang out trying to move away, "let me go before my lungs collapse."
Apologizing, Shawn chuckled as he boy moved away from him. Jungkook was shocked when the man patted at his cheek.
Flinching a bit, Shawn sighed, stepping back. He was scared?
"Punch me," Shawn said, wanting to end this once and for all.
Jungkook was taken aback. "What?" He asked confused.
"Punch me," Shawn said, jumping in his spot as he wiggled out his arms, "I deserve it. Go for it."
"I'm not punching you," Jungkook said shocked and Shawn grinned.
"I know you want to," Shawn sang out, moving his head in a way to taunt the boy.
Jungkook rolled his eyes. "I'm not punching you Shawn," he said chuckling before turning around for the door.
Shawn sighed, defeated as he watched the boy go in a bit.
"Oops," the maknae piped before turning around and knocking Shawn straight in the nose with the strongest punch he could muster.
Shawn's breath shook, his eyes instantly watering from the impact at his nose. Surprised it didn't break, it still killed.
Jungkook's eyes widened immediately when seeing the boy's nose bleeding. "Holy shit I thought I'd be all funny," Jungkook chimed, shocked.
"Ha ha," Shawn said through his teeth that were now having blood pour into them, "just like me back when."
Jungkook nodded, slightly scared. "Here wait I'll get you an ice pack and some tissues."
"Ah no no," Shawn sang out, leaning his head back as he pinched at the bridge of his nose. He took hold of Jungkook's shirt so he wouldn't fall over. Jungkook held on to his arm, trying to help him out as much as he could.
"It's alright," Shawn chimed, arms wide, "here, bring it in."
Jungkook awkwardly moved to hug the dude who had his arms wide open.
Sighing as he managed to tap the boy's back, Shawn planned to move away from the boy now.
He groaned when Jungkook was suddenly glued to him again. "Kook this was supposed to be a bro hug!" He chimed irritated.
Jungkook felt teary, "a bro hug?" He asked shocked as he simply held on harder. A bro hug with Shawn?
Shawn's eyes softened when hearing the slight waver in the maknae's voice.
"Shit, you crying?" He asked, his voice a weird tone as he still held on to his nose.
Jungkook laughed, a few happy tears escaping him as he shook his head by the man's shoulder.
Shawn stood there, frozen and in pain.
"This is weird."
"Good weird," Jungkook said as he patted the man on the back.
Shawn couldn't find himself to move against the man. He feared that soon he'd start to feel things he shouldn't while against his friend's boyfriend.
"Alright you can cling onto me later, deal?" He mumbled and Jungkook chuckled, moving away with difficulty as he wiped at his cheeks cutely.
Shawn tried not to showcase how cute that was with his face. Trying to maintain his hardcore exterior, he couldn't help but pinch lightly over at the boy's right cheek.
Jungkook grinned instantly.
Shawn wanted to leave that very instant. "Alright bud help me to the car? I see all black right now," Shawn said, still holding on to his bleeding nose.
"Bud?" Jungkook asked shocked as he helped guide Shawn towards the car.
Shawn groaned in frustration over Jungkook still in awe of the situation.
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Iris watched you continuously vent and yell on her bed. She listened quietly, watching you slowly let out all your feelings and frustrations out. It hadn't even been an hour since she had come back from her time with Yoongi and she didn't dare mention any of it as she focused on you exploding.
"I try and call him, he doesn't pick up," you piped annoyed, "I see him at school and try to talk, he walks right away?!"
Iris sighed. "Y/N this is hard for him too you realize that right? You know Shawn better than anyone...he's been through a lot."
You grit your teeth, wanting to rip out all your hair from your scalp.
"So have I," you argued back, "so have you! That doesn't mean we let that shit control our every move right?"
Iris sighed, eyes shutting as she heard you slowly start to get louder and louder.
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Shawn nervously knocked at the door, wiggling at the knob and knowing it would be open, he sighed as he moved towards the the apartment, looking around for either of the girl's he had grown close to. Sighing when neither were found near the kitchen or the couch, he moved towards the hallway when hearing yelling coming from Iris's room.
His eyes softened as he looked at the little crack the opened door was creating. His expression falling when hearing you speak.
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"You know what no," you yelled, having enough of the moping, "I'm pathetic for opening up and falling in love?! I'M THE PATHETIC ONE?"
Iris watched you get worked up, eyes squinting over at the form that seemed to stop before the door, the woman's eyes widened instantly.
Shaking her head over at you and about to have you stop, you simply got off the bed, angry.
"He's the pathetic one!" You yelled annoyed, "he gets hurt one time by some bimbo that he chose to fall for in the first place and he's suddenly some love guru who knows what's right and wrong with every relationship!"
"Y/N Shawn's-"
"LET ME SPEAK!" You yelled and glared over at Iris.
Iris looked over at Shawn who opened the door, his form leaning against the door's side as his head ducked. He listened intently, moving a hand over at Iris to state that it was alright. "It's okay" he mouth to her slowly, his form tense as he listened.
You obliviously continued.
"He's got the nerve to always criticize Jungkook over what he's done but can't take a second to see how he's fucking up?!"
Shawn licked his lower lip slowly, hearing all you had to say quietly.
Iris's eyes softened while looking over at the boy who was just hearing all loads of shit. She didn't stop you again. Both of them needed this... you had to come forth with your feelings and Shawn had to hear them, so Iris remained silent.
"I'm pathetic?" You piped so close to crying.
Shawn's eyes softened when hearing the waver in your voice.
"He closes himself off and is a total tool to everyone...no wonder Jess left him before," you sang harshly, "he's got baggage no one can fucking handle. I'm glad he's no longer speaking to me, I'm frankly done with it. He can go fuck himself."
Iris's eyes widened at that. "Y/N!"
You bit your tongue at what you just said. Knowing the history involving Shawn and his ex, you knew what you said wasn't alright in any possible mood. Jess was never to be mentioned. No matter what or how badly the boy were to fuck up and be an idiot, Jess was never supposed to be mentioned.
Shawn almost had his forearm slip while against the frame. Eyes darting up at what you just said, his teeth grit immediately. He was trying so hard not to have his eyes glaze over.
Iris noticed the man trying to compose himself and she couldn't help the tears that sprung up at her eyes.
"You don't mean that Y/N," she quickly tried to make the situation great again, "you love Shawn wh-"
"Like he said," you spat, "love doesn't exist right?"
Iris's jaw clenched hard. Her eyes shooting over at the door but you didn't get it. You also didn't understand the girl's eyes watering.
"If it doesn't exist, then I didn't care for him," you said softly, "I'd rather relive my heartache with Racy than ever have met that son of a bitch-"
Shawn nodded slowly to himself, a tear escaping him as he wiped at it quick and moved away from the door. Frustrated with tears falling, he wiped at his eyes quick before scolding himself mentally to get a grip.
"Good to know," he numbly let out, his voice incredibly low.
Your mad stature fell instantly when hearing his voice.
Iris sighed defeated. If that's how you felt, there was nothing the woman in glasses could do. Shawn needed to be aware.
Turning to see Shawn smile painfully over at you, you swallowed harshly, you knees about to give out.
"I love you," he said softly, trying not to have his eyes water again. Swearing internally when they did, he moved one hand down his face in attempts to get rid of the tears quick.
Your lips parted at him saying that. After all the times spent with one another, he had never dared to say that to you so openly. Maybe once or twice he'd accidentally slip it out, but overall meaning it genuinely, it was a shocking first.
"I-I," he licked his lips, smiling over at Iris real quick, "I love the both of you."
"Shawn-"
"Coming from me that means..." He stopped, his throat closing up.
Iris finished for him, tears falling freely, "a lot."
He moved back a tiny bit, moving into the hallway.
Your heart hurt. In awe of him crying before you. The fact that Iris was now crying didn't help either.
"I love you too," you whimpered out and he chuckled at that.
"Sure you do," he said softly, broken.
"Shawn!"
"Take care of each other-"
"N-No Shawn wai-"
He moved from the room, lazily moving down the hallway.
About to rush after him, you looked over at Iris immediately when the woman took hold of your arm, shaking her head over at you as she held you back.
"Wha-"
"Let him go Y/N," she said pained, "he needs time to himself...give that to him."
"Iris no! Not after all that I just said I-"
"You spoke what you truly believed Y/N...you spoke what you felt. Stick to what you said and don't tow around with him."
"Why didn't you tell me he was here?" you asked shocked.
Iris pursed her lips. "I tried...but then I found it to be better if he heard all that you had to say. He deserved to simply listen. I'm sorry, but he's my friend too."
"I wasn't, I-" you were hysterical, bumbling and trying not to hiccup as you cried.
"He'll come back for his lil princess," Iris teased lightly, pointing over at your nose.
You simply whimpered hugging her instantly.
"No he won't," you said, your head shaking by her neck, "he won't."
Iris hugged you tighter, trying to maintain herself from crying profusely. She had to stay strong for you...
"No he won't," you softly let out, heart absolutely shattered when the image of him crying sunk within you.
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In the near future...
The grown man swore to himself, struggling to sew on the loose button that half dangled off the spare dress shirt in his hands. Pricking himself with the little needle, Shawn winced in pain, waving his hand around before trying to give the button a go again.
"Jungkook!" he roared, laughing from his spot on his bed, "Couldn't you have bought yourself a new shirt?!"
"Ahh," Jungkook laughed back from behind the bathroom door, "I've just been so caught up with the venue. Thanks again Shawn!"
"Yeah yeah," Shawn chimed, trying not to prick himself again as he tried to sew up the maknae's shirt together again.
No use with being extra careful as he simply poked himself again. "Fuck," he said, standing up from the bed as he waved his hand around now.
Hearing a giggle from the door, Shawn rolled his eyes over at you grinning.
"Wear your clothes," he mumbled under his breath, pricking his skin again, he moaned lightly.
You smiled, tightening the towel around yourself, you moved towards him as you cutely outstretched your hand out.
Watching as he gladly gave both the needle and thread over to you, you looked down at him already dressed before mumbling a quick, "Strip."
Shawn's brows jumped, chuckling when you simply urged him again, Shawn looked over at the bathroom door. "Ay, calm down there, your fiancee's in the bathroom," he said as he started to unbutton at his white dress shirt.
You simply gave him the shirt to wear and helped him button it up halfway until the loose button caught your eye. "I just need it on someone as I do this," you explained, moving in closer to him as you tried to move the needle towards the button.
Shawn nervously moved back, scared of the needle being anywhere near his bare chest. "Ah, okay hold up," he said laughing as he held your wrist loosely. You playfully tried to pull away and move to stitch up the fabric. "I know you've always prefered Iris over me but killing me won't cut it, I've got so-"
Shushing him as you shook your head at his idiocy, you playfully scolded him with your eyes before grabbing the button again.
"Would you trust me?" you piped, annoyed, tongue slightly out as you concentrated on moving the needle through one of the tiny holes that centered the little white button.
"I've always trusted you princess," he chimed smugly, stepping near you playfully, his arms wrapping around your waist.
You whined, trying not to laugh at him grip around your towel. Trying to shove away from him, he laughed, loosening his hold lightly but refusing to let you go as you worked on the button, practically pressed against him.
His eyes were on the needle the whole time, terrified for his life.
"Okay now be mature," you teased and his brows furrowed lightly.
Watching you lean over to his chest so that you could bite off the thread, Shawn whispered down into your ear, grinning when you squealed in disgust over him speaking dirtily down at you. He grabbed you close to him again.
"Ew you nasty little-"
"Ease up dude," Jungkook said laughing as he moved out of the bathroom, buttoning up his pants as he moved in shirtless.
He glared at Shawn and Shawn simply grinned.
Shawn didn't move his grip off of you and you flushed, reaching out for Jungkook but the maknae seemed to simply roll his eyes as he focused on fixing his hair. Pouting, you looked back at Shawn who was amused over you struggling.
"Ah come on, it's not like I've never held you like this before," he chimed, practically carrying you now.
Gasping when he picked your struggling form up, you were surprised he didn't drop you when he flipped your body to the side, having his arm wrap underneath our legs and his other around your back. You yelped, not expecting him to throw you around as you held on to his shirt.
"Shawn!"
Laughing as he put you down near Jungkook, you shoved him back when he started to unbutton the shirt.
Tossing it to Jungkook as he caught it, Shawn smiled kindly over at the maknae when he nodded in a thanks. "I promise. This is the last time I ask for your shirts," Jungkook reassured.
Shawn waved him off, putting his shirt back on.
"Nah its cool, what's mine is yours," Shawn sighed out, buttoning up his shirt in a hurry.
"Let me know if the water fixes up at your place, if not just stay in the guest room for a bit," Shawn sang out, grabbing his jacket. Jungkook nodded, thanking the man again.
Shawn nodded quick, hand slapping into Jungkook's outstretched one before he patted the maknae on his back hurriedly, moving back in goodbye.
Moving to you, he disrupted you moving back into the bathroom with your dress that once lay on Shawn's bed.
Whining when he grabbed you again, he chuckled, kissing the side of your hair as he mumbled a quick bye. Giggling, you kissed his cheek quick when he pointed at his jaw, bending down for you to finally roll your eyes and return the gesture.
Grinning when you did, he kissed your cheek and sang out a loud "mwha" by your cheek before rushing out the door.
"Alright bye bitches," he sang out, "got a wedding to attend. Don't be late or else Namjoon and Jin will definitely kill ya. Hobi's already been stressing out-being the groom and all that...so don't make things worse."
Sighing as you glanced over at Jungkook who was simply rolling at his eyes, you laughed before moving into the bathroom.
Freezing by the door when Shawn suddenly popped his head in again, you and Jungkook both seemed to shout out a "what?"
"No sex in the bathroom alright?" he chimed grinning, "Just got it cleaned a few days ago. Don't play that card."
Jungkook laughed, "Shawn leave! They need you there!"
Grinning, you laughed at what Shawn sang out so easily, right before running back into the hallway again...
"I love you!"
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Present day...
"I love you," you whimpered into the phone, sighing in defeat when the operator cut you off again.
You had been stuck in Iris's room for almost the whole evening now. The moment the voice asked if you wanted to leave another message to Shawn's phone, you sighed as you slowly cut the line off.
Tossing your phone onto your bed, you hugged at Iris's pillow. Hearing the woman move around outside and in the kitchen, you smiled painfully at her making both of them dinner in hopes to cheer you up.
Sighing, you rubbed at your aching head, blowing out your nose before grabbing your phone and checking you on Jungkook. You made sure not to make it sound like you had been crying for hours while on the phone with him.
It was ringing for a while. Your brows furrowed when he finally picked up, all cheerful.
"Hi sweetie," he chimed and you forcefully let out a quick chuckle, greeting him back.
"You doing okay?" You asked, knowing he had been stressing about the new songs the company had them all recording. It didn't help that her drama with Shawn that night Jungkook still carried all on his shoulders as well.
"Yeah I'm doing more than okay today," Jungkook said smiling, looking over at Shawn you seemed to smile painfully over at him.
Jungkook didn't notice how tense the man got as he tried to focus on you again.
"That's good."
"Yeah I heard Shawn finally came to talk to you huh?" He asked chuckling and your brows furrowed lightly. Before you could say anything, Jungkook spoke, "he came to me first before you."
Your eyes widened, suddenly worried, you panicked. "W-What why? Are you okay?"
Jungkook laughed, "yeah don't worry, Shawn has been kind to me."
"What?" You asked confused, feeling the pit at your gut growing.
Shawn swallowed. Smiling at Jungkook, he waved for the boy to not talk about him. Jungkook was slightly confused over what the boy was trying to say. Shawn sighed, speaking up a bit. "Forget about me, just focus on yourselves," he said softly and Jungkook nodded, laughing as he apologized.
The maknae was just super excited to be out with Shawn. It helped that Jimin was with them, made it less uncomfortable in the beginning. They were alright as the night progressed however.
Your eyes widened at Shawn's voice. "Shawn's with you right now?"
"Yeah," Jungkook said confused, thinking that you should've already known, "he invited me to hang this morning. Didn't he tell you when meeting up with you today?"
You felt sick.
"O-Oh yeah," you lied, eyes watering all over again, "he did."
Jungkook grinned.
"You want to talk to him?"
Shawn's face scrunched, his hand rubbing at the side of his head a bit as he waved over at Jungkook once more.
Jungkook was confused at Shawn telling him to leave him out of it again.
"Sure," you breathed out breathlessly, hugging Iris's pillow again as you straightened up to talk to the boy.
"Okay," Jungkook sang out and Shawn forcefully laughed at the maknae who smiled at him sweetly. Taking the phone, he put it slowly to his ear, staring over at the tv behind Jungkook.
You felt tears instantly fall.
"Shawn?"
He didn't say anything.
"Shawn why are you with Jungkook? Don't tell me out of all days, the day I fuck up is the day you decide to finally be a decent human being."
Shawn's eyes narrowed at you speaking.
"I'm sorry..." he said slowly, his voice barely above a whisper.
You whimpered at him sounding so genuine. "I didn't mean that you aren't a decent human being I-"
"Kook's sweet," Shawn said softly, seeing Jungkook smiled over at him at that. Shawn smiled a tiny side grin over the maknae excited. Looking back that the screen, Shawn took a swig of his drink before speaking, "I'll eventually try to see how much he loves you...open up a bit and not be such a dick."
Your teeth gritted. "Why are you so fucking nice? Be a dick!" You whined, not able to face that he was being so sweet, "is this all to make me feel bad? Is that what it is?"
Shawn's brows furrowed deeply at that. His heart hurting. "No," he said softly, "not at all. I just thought I'd finally be a good friend for a change."
"You've always been a good friend," you said softly and Shawn swallowed hard at that, remembering all that you said.
"Aye, I'm below Racy tho, that's weirdly sick," he piped, taking a longer chug of his beer.
"I didn't mean that," you softly reassured, heart shattering as he didn't say anything.
"I'm not trying to make you feel bad," he said slowly, still in awe of her thinking that, "I'm not that big of an ass..."
"I wasn't implying that you were," you defended, wanting to throw yourself at the boy and never let go.
"But you were," he said chuckling lightly. His tone was dry however.
"Shawn can you please just come back and we can talk about this?"
"I can't," he said softly, "Serina's in town and I'm going to be with her for a while."
Your heart fell to your stomach. "That's an excuse for basically telling me you'll never see me again," you breathed out, seeing right through him.
Shawn swallowed, ignoring her as he went back to talking about his little sister. "Serina will probably come to visit you," he said softly.
"But you won't," you popped and he sighed.
"Bye," he said softly, licking down at his lower lip.
"I-"
"Stay safe princess," he softly finished.
Your eyes shut when he ended the line before you could say anything more.
You tossed the phone back on to the bed, laying down, you waited for Iris to call you for dinner so you could mope some more. You were a mess and you didn't care.
"Shawn!" You whined, shuffling on the bed as you pouted into the pillow.
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Shawn's grip tightened around the woman, sighing out loud as he stared up at into the darkness of the room.
Not able to slip away from Kai who was fast asleep, he simply allowed himself to look over at her, trying to memorize her face as much as he could. The darkness of the room however was an issue, his eyes squinting as he remained quiet.
"Kai?"
She was fast asleep. He simply held on to her, almost hugging her entirely as he felt tears in his eyes.
"I," he swallowed, his nose still killing from Jungkook's punch. However, the pain in his heart seemed to rule over everything else as he whispered at her sleeping form, "I love you."
She unknowingly seemed to nuzzle her head closer to him when let his lips gently kiss her forehead. His nose lingering as he sighed. "Fuck," he mumbled to himself as he let his head rest on to the pillow again.
Hating to move away from her, he knew he had to. He had grown to love laying next to her today, never wanting to stop. But he had to. He had to leave for a bit...
Slowly sitting up on the bed, he moved to grab his duffel bag from the corner of the room, preparing himself to leave the room as soon as he could.
Tears blocking his vision, he tried to compose himself as he through the bed over his shoulder and places a sealed envelope on the pillow where he once lay.
Looking down over at her, he let his hand rub gently and soothingly at her lower stomach as he leaned down to kiss her temple. Kai seemed to lean into his touch and his heart broke.
Not wanting his lips to leave her head, he forced himself away when his tear almost fell on to her. Looking down at his hand at her lower stomach, he smiled lightly to himself.
"Bye kiddo," he said softly over at her stomach, his voice so soft that the very creak of the wood under his feet seemed to roar with terror.
Sighing as he moved to the bedroom door, he slowly moved out of the room, about to leave for the hallway.
"Where you goin?"
Shawn almost fell as he jumped high over at the loud voice.
Looking over at Freeda, Kai's troubling roommate who hated his guts, he swore at her for scaring him.
"I had to leave for a bit," he snapped softly, fixing the bag on his shoulder, "family reasons."
"Does Kai know?"
Shawn didn't say anything and his eyes widened when Freeda bent down to pick up her shoe.
"Who the fuck are you?" He snapped slightly scared that she was going to chase him around the house with her shoes again, "my mom?!"
"You better not break her heart I swear-"
"I'd never," he piped, "I'll be back soon."
"You better or else-" she said, cutting herself off when realizing she was about to spill out a secret.
"The baby won't have a father," he said softly, nodding, "yeah I know."
Freeda's eyes widened. "Wha...what b-baby, I-"
She was nervous and Shawn smiled lightly. "Next time I come to stay over, remind Kai not to pee on a pregnancy test and then throw it away in the same bathroom I use with her?" He teased laughing, "especially if she wants it as a secret."
"You're happy?" Freeda asked shocked over his reaction.
He smiled, "of course I am," he said grinning, "but it's her body at the end of the day. So if she wants to keep it, I'm here. If not... I'll stick by her either way."
Freeda was catching flies with her mouth.
Shawn grinned hugely, "Bye Freeda."
"You better come back you lil manslut or I swear-"
"You can aim 50 shoes at me if I don't," he sang out, moving past and towards the door.
"Take care of her," he said finally as he left.
Freeda's eyes softened at his saddened form. She swallowed, nodding.
"Bye Shawn..."
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A/N: *nervous laughter* *extends a platter of food towards you as promised* did you um, did you want to share the nachos now?