R O W A N S
"I dont know!" She said
"Maya just tell me I won't get mad" i said
"Ok yes I think i do like Lucas. I mean how can you not!" She said looking down!
"Tell him!" I said
"Huh? No he is with you!" She said
"I know but he deserves to know!" I said
Message to Cowboy😚💙
Riley 🌻 : meet me in the lobby asap!
Cowboy😚💙 : okay princess, im on my way ;)
I just stared at Maya who was drinking hot chocolate!
"Hey princess!" He said
"Hey Lucas we need to talk about US." I said
"Okay?" He said
" i dont think our relationship is working out as well!" I said
"Wait what? Do you not like me anymore? " he said in an angry tone
"No Lucas I like you but not as a boyfriend! As a brother!" I said inside of me it hurt so much to say that but it would hurt me more dating Lucas when Maya likes him
"What are you crazy! We are no where near that!" He said
"Im sorry Lucas. Your my brother now! Maya how do you feel about him? " I said and then walked to my room
L U C A S
I honestly didn't really care what Maya thought about me! Ive known Riley since August when school started ( now it's The beginning of December) I've like Riley for awhile now and i finally got her about a month ago and now she's telling me im her brother! Honestly it hurt so much. It felt like i was being stabbed multiple times. Why did she feel like that just a couple of hours ago she was ontop of me and making out with me!
"Whats going on with her?" I said to Maya
"I dont know?" She said
"How do you feel about me Maya!" I said
"OMGA! I honestly don't know! I feel like I like you likee you. But then I feel like i still love Josh! And i dont know!" She said
"So you confused about your feelings! And you told Riley and now Riley is stepping back! Look Maya I don't want to sound rude or anything but I really like Riley! She means so much to me. I would do anything for her. I know we aren't like Brother and Sister! We are more than that were Riley and Lucas, Princess and Cowboy, were rucas💙" i said
"Omga!" She said
"What?" I said
"I just ruined your happiness and Riles happiness! Bc of my own selfish needs! " she said
"Look maya all im saying is think this over! It seems like your confused about your own feelings meanwhile I'll go chase after Riley!" I said
M A Y A S
I did what Lucas said. I thought it over so many times. It's either that:
I like Lucas or
I miss Josh
Or maybe that Im jealous!
Dont get me wrong. I love Riley being with Lucas. But ever since Josh and I broke up ive been feeling alone! Like Lucas sometimes steals my Best friend! & it also gets me mad how i wish I had a relationship like them with Josh! Which got me to think that Im starting to miss my Joshy! I had to tell Riley but I just don't know how! I just told her i might have a crush on her boyfriend and now im going to tell her "you know what it was just a false alarm im still hung over josh and im jealous of yours and lucas relationship!" She'll probably hate me after this!