My dad started yelling at me as soon as he opened the front door.
"Me and Patricia were looking all over for you guys where were you? What were you doing? Why are you all wet?" The yelling continued. I held back my tears. I hadn't cried since my mom died. That was when I was 9. Now I was 15. And I hadn't cried for anything for as long as I could remember. I always held it in. That's what I was told to do. My dad showered me in questions. Then he yelled "you haven't been the same since your mom died. I want my old happy daughter back I-I--" k cut him off and yelled "well I'm sorry I'm not good ENOUGH FOR YOU. IM SORRY IM NOT THE DAUGHTER YOU WANTED! YOU TAUGHT ME HOW TO HIDE MY FEELINGS HOW TO NOT SHOW EMOTION YOU TOLD ME TO GET OVER IT GET OVER THE PAIN AND I TRIED AND YES IT STILL HURTS BUT I DONT SHOW IT BECAUSE YOU TAUGHT ME TO NOT SHOW IT..I'm sorry I'm not the daughter you want. I wish I could just get out of your life and stop ruining it." My voice cracked with the last part I had said. And with that I turned and left because I felt I couldn't hold the tears back any longer. I ran up stairs and opened the doors to my balcony. I walked out and shut the doors behind me. It was still pouring, but after ten minutes it stopped. My balcony was quite big and I was sitting in the corner furthest away from the door. I was sobbing into my knees. Then I felt someone's hands wrap around me. I quickly got up but then realized it was Joel. "Are you oka--" I cut him off and said "no I'm not okay ! I don't know what to do anymore. I'm trying so hard to be happy for him. But it's hard ! It's not that easy to just forget. He stood up and hugged me. I buried my face into his chest. "It's all too much. I just can't do this anymore" I slowly slid to the floor. Joel hugged me tighter than ever when I said this. "Just as you appeared in my life an started to bring actual happiness to me, this happens. I don't understand?! Am I not meant to be here?" Joel stared at me and said "tell me what's wrong. Tell me everything. I'll listen."
Double update today ! This chapter was ehh though and I'm
Not so sure how to feel about it..should I rewrite it or no? Please comment and let me know what you think.