It's been officially a month since I got to New Carthage. A month since I reunited with my childhood best friend and since first met Lauren. We spent a lot of time together but I haven't got the courage to ask her on a date yet. Thinking about the green eyed girl not only makes my anxiety rates go up but also makes my protective senses worry for her safety. Since I had that "nightmare" at her place, I can't help but think about it now and then. The images started to haunt me often during my sleep, so I decided it was better to not sleep at all. I started to meditate at night every day for at least six hours. Meditating can be as relaxing and as refreshing as sleeping, but reach that point of peace isn't as easy as falling asleep. Lauren, of course noticed it, Normani and Dinah did as well, and even Ally asked me if I was getting enough sleep once.
"You didn't hear a single thing I just said, did you?" Dinah's voice pulled me out of my thoughts.
"S-Sorry. I'm just a little tired." I said and the Polynesian sighed, and I shook my head before she could ask me something. "So Marco took you to that Italian restaurant and..."
"Okay, I'm not gonna repeat it again so pay attention this time." I nodded, fighting against closing my eyelids. "He took me there and he paid for everything, then he took me to take a walk on the park, it was so romantic... And then we... Mila!"
I felt a pillow hit me hard on the face, making me sit up straight with my eyes widened. "What was that for?" I yelled, taken by surprise.
"You weren't paying attention, chancho! That's it, you're gonna tell me right now what the fuck is wrong with you and no more excuses. I want to help." Dinah said in a serious tone that made me realize there was no escaping this time.
I sighed and leaned back against the couch in our now shared apartment. "Fine." I breathed out. "I have been having some kind of... nightmares lately."
"Nightmares? Are they about..."
"No, they're not about Tori... Not exactly. I mean she is there sometimes, but... It's not her, it can't be." I shook my head at the thought of her appearances on my dreams.
"Well, it's just a nightmare, it's not like it's gonna show coherent stuff, right?" The frown on my face made Dinah's body stiffen. "Unless you don't think it's just a nightmare?"
I ran my fingers through my hair and sighed. "I don't know... It just felt too real to be just a dream."
"Well, if they're not about Tori, what are they about?" Dinah asked.
"Lauren." I said and, even though we were having a serious conversation, the girl beside me smirked. "And Ra's Al Ghul. Sometimes Tori's there as well. But... Mostly Lauren. In those nightmares, Ra's kills her. And as much as I try to convince myself it's just a dream, I can't help but worry."
Dinah looked at me confused. "But if they're not just dreams, what could it be? It's not like you're psychic or something." She shook her head. "Wait you're not psychic, are you?"
"No, I'm not psychic, Dinah. Back at the citadel, there was a sorcerer. He worked for Ra's but he used to help the warriors to 'seek their path' and he also taught sorcery for the gifted. He used to give us what he called 'the light' one night before our missions so we could have a glimpse of what we were going to face and what could happen... But I didn't..." I shook my head. "It's not even possible." I whispered to myself.
"I know I said I wanted to help but I'm so confused right now." Dinah said and I turned my attention to her.
"You know what, forget it, it's not possible. I'm getting too paranoid." I said, leaning my head on Dinah's shoulder.
The Polynesian wrapped her arm around my shoulders and turned the TV off. "You know what you need, girl? You need a night out. You've been here for more than a month and we haven't gone clubbing once. You need to get loose, forget about your problems, maybe make out with a certain hot green eyed chick?"
I rolled my eyes at her. "You do know I can't get drunk, right?"
"I do. But that won't stop you from having a good time... Or making out with Lauren."
"Stop saying that." I playfully punched her arm.
"Ow! Learn how to control that strength before punching me, Jessica Jones!"
"Sorry." I pouted playfully and she hugged me tightly.
"You're lucky you're cute." She said, pinching my cheeks, making me frown. "Alright I'm gonna go find Mani and call Ally, you go call Lauren now. And please take a nap."
"Okay, mom!" I said and Dinah rolled her eyes before leaving the apartment. I took my phone from the coffee table in front of me and sighed before clicking on Lauren's contact number.
It rang two times and my breath got caught in my lungs at the sound of a familiar raspy voice. "Hello?"
"Lauren, hey. Wassup?" I said, cringing at how awkward I sounded.
I heard her giggling and my face broke into a shy smile. "Not much really, I just finished binge-watching season five of Game of Thrones. It's easily one of the best TV shows I've ever watched, I bet you'd love it." Game of what? Why would I enjoy a show about games? "What about you?"
"Oh, um... I'm not doing anything for the present moment." Shit, why do I get so formal when I'm nervous? "A-Actually, Dinah was wondering if we could all go out dancing tonight. You don't have too if you have something more important to do, I j-"
"I'd love to go." She interrupted me and I bit my bottom lip to hold back an even bigger smile. "Where are we going?"
I frowned and face-palmed myself when I realized I didn't even ask Dinah where we are going. "I- I don't know yet. I don't know any nightclubs around here."
"I figured." She laughed. "I'll text Dinah and ask her, yeah?"
"Y-Yeah, sure... Okay." I rolled my eyes at myself.
"Okay. I'll see you later, then?" She asked and I could practically hear the smile on her voice.
I smiled, scrunching my face softly. "Sure, see you later."
"Bye Camz." I felt my heart pounding hard on my chest. One entire month has passed and I still haven't got used to that nickname.
"Bye, Lauren." I sighed before hanging up and leaning back against the couch. That girl was driving me crazy.
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It was nearly seven when Dinah got back home with Normani by her side and quite a lot of bags. I had taken a four hour nap and it was like waking up after being in coma for four months. "What took you so long?" I asked as I got up from the spot on the couch where I had settled after waking up to read a book.
"We went shopping. This -" Normani said, handing me three of the bags. "Is for you." I frowned at her. "Since you have no patience for shopping, or a good taste for anything that isn't jeans or leather jackets we decided to pick up what you're going to wear to impress Lauren."
"I think you got the wrong size, this is too small." I said, holding up the short black dress they bought to me.
"Nah, the size is perfect to show up everything you got going on there, girl. Show off those abs and Cuban ass." The Polynesian answered. "Trust me, chancho you'll look so much hotter than the usual." I sighed in defeat, and was about to ask her a question when she interrupted. "No, you can't put one of your jackets over it. You gotta show off those ta tas too. We also got you a black heel, a neckless and earrings to match. Go change then go to my bedroom, we'll be doing your hair and makeup."
I started at both of my friends with my mouth hanging open. "You guys seriously believe I'm not capable of dressing myself?"
"Yes." They said at the same time.
I rolled my eyes. "I don't have a choice, do I?"
"No." They said at the same time once again.
"Ugh, fine." I breathed out and walked towards my bedroom.
"Don't take too long though, I told the girls we'll meet them at eight thirty." I heard Dinah yelling at me before closing the door.
After a quick shower, I put the dress Dinah and Normani bought me and looked in the mirror. It was indeed too short for my liking, but I had to admit I looked good in it. I walked to my best friends' room to find both of the girls ready. They quickly sat me on Dinah's bed and the Polynesian started on my makeup while Normani worked on my hair. A short among of time after, they finished up their doings, and I sighed in relief, finally being able to have my personal space back.
"Alright Mila put on your heels. You know how to walk on these, right?" Dinah asked.
"Of course I do. Mani and I have infiltrated too many parties during our time with the League."
Dinah laughed. "Okay, good. In my mind you ninjas only wear those black robes with funny boots."
"It's called a kimono, DJ." Normani said as I was too busy tying up my heels.
Once finished, I got up from the bed and looked in the mirror, not holding back a smirk once I saw the result of almost thirty minutes of work. "Damn, Mila, if I wasn't so damn straight I'd go lesbian for you."
"Thank you, cheechee. You guys look great as well." I said. "It's almost nine thirty, shall we go?"
"Yea, mama wants to get her ass drunk!" Dinah said and I rolled my eyes, following my friends down to the garage. We got into Normani's car and drove to a nightclub called Verdant, a very popular club and one of the many places owned by Oliver Queen around the country.
The place was crowded and I immediately felt somehow uncomfortable and in need of personal space. I looked around and was quickly pulled by an eager Dinah towards the bar. The Polynesian quickly ordered three shots, even though she knew me and Normani couldn't get drunk. We took them anyway.
"There they are!" Dinah yelled once she spotted Lauren and Ally at the dancefloor. I could tell they were already intoxicated. We walked towards the duo and I felt my breath catch on my lungs once I got a clear vision of the green eyed beauty. She was wearing a baby blue squirt and a matching cropped shirt, and the way they perfectly highlight the right places of her body made my heart beat faster.
I felt a hard slap on the back of my neck and turned around to meet Normani's eyes on me. I had stopped in the middle of the dancefloor so I could stare at Lauren. After a few deep breaths I walked towards the girls who were already joined by Dinah. I greeted Ally with a hug and smiled widely when Lauren pushed the small girl aside so she could hug me.
She held me for longer than the usual, and when she pulled back, I looked into her bright green eyes and noticed how dilated her pupils were. "You look so nice, Camz." She yelled through the music, dragging her words occasionally. She still had her arms around my neck and my arms were still hanging lose around her waist. The realization of being this close to her hit me and I tried hard not to get too awkward about it. "You guys took so long to get here." She pouted playfully and I giggled.
"I see you already took your time at the bar." I smirked playfully at her and she shrugged.
"I am not drunk." She said, nodding her head way too much.
"Of course you're not." I chuckled and she slapped my arm playfully.
"Come dance with me!" She exclaimed, not giving me a choice and pulling me further into the crowd, away from our group of friends. A song by Rihanna started playing, I didn't know the name but I recognized her voice and the beat, thanks to Dinah for playing it religiously every day.
We stopped somewhere in the crowd and Lauren turned to face me, the way she was looking at me making me nervous. "I love this song!" She yelled and I smiled at how cute she looked despite being the sexiest person I've ever seen. The raven haired girl wrapped her arms around my neck again, and started to grind slowly against me. My brain didn't seem to work properly so I wasn't moving, and, once she noticed it, she moved her lips to my ear, her breath hitting my skin and making me shiver. "Relax and follow my lead." She said and I nodded quickly. Lauren then reached for my hands and placed them on her waist, moving closer to me once I wrapped my arms around her figure.
I did as I was told and followed her steps as she continued to grind against me, my heart beating unbelievably fast. When I thought things could not get better, she turned around, her hands still on my neck and my hands still on her waist, and started to grind her butt against my front. I bit my bottom lip to hold back a moan that threatened to come out, and pulled her body closer to mine in response. Lauren then moved her hair to the side and leaned her head back on my shoulder, her hands moving up to my hair as her exposed neck made me lick my lips.
The green eyed girl, pulled on my hair hard as she grinded back, making it impossible to me to hold back a moan. "Fuck, Lauren." I mumbled close to her ear and felt her body stiffen for a moment before grinding again against my front. She pulled my hair once again, moving my head closer to her exposed neck. I breathed out against her skin, feeling her whole body tense against me and, in a rush of confidence, I planted a soft kiss against her neck. Lauren immediately pressed her body harder against mine, and in response I started to kiss her neck softly.
My hands tightened around her waist, not hard enough to hurt her though, as she tightened her grip on my hair. I kissed my way up to her ear and sucked on the skin beneath her earlobe, earning the most angelical moan I have ever heard as a response. I felt my insides burn as I trailed kisses down her neck again, sucking her skin between kisses, Lauren grinding harder against me. I moved one of my hands up her exposed stomach, softly scratching the skin beneath my fingers as I sucked hard on her pulse point. "Camz..." She moaned and my whole body shivered at how my name sounded.
The Rihanna song came to an end and a fast passed song started playing. Lauren then turned around to face me and her pupils were even bigger than before. I watched as she licked her lips and I could hear my heartbeat on my ears. I squeezed her waist softly and she smiled at me, resting her forehead against mine. I knew we shouldn't be doing that with Lauren being as drunk as she was, but I could not deny it felt good. I broke our eye contact and pulled back slightly, making the girl pout. I giggled at her cuteness and placed a quick kiss on her forehead, sighing softly. "I'm gonna get something to drink. Do you want anything?"
"Yes, a shot of tequila please." She said, dragging her words and I shook my head smiling at her.
"Okay, I'll get you some water. Wait for me here." I told her and she nodded.
"Yes, ma'am!" She yelled and I couldn't help but laugh.
I walked towards the bar and waited to order two bottles of water. I needed to cool off from all the grinding while Lauren needed to get the alcohol out of her system. "Damn, that was hot!" I jumped at the sudden yell on my ear and turned to face a smiley Dinah. "Did you two already hook up?" I shook my head. She was clearly drunk as well. The barman came over and I ordered two water bottles while Dinah ordered another drink.
"Take it easy, D." I said as the guy handed me the bottles and I walked back to where I left Lauren, only to notice she wasn't there. Of course she wouldn't stay there. I sighed and started to look around for the girl. I was on my way to find the other girls and see if Lauren was with them when I saw the girl being hovered by a bigger figure. I walked closer to them to see that even though she was a little lost because of all the alcohol she had, Lauren was clearly uncomfortable and I immediately stepped in. "Hey!" I said loud enough to get his attention. "She's not interested, big guy."
The guy let out a disgusting laugh and I rolled my eyes. "What, there's not need to get jealous babe, the three of us can do a little somethin' together." I closed my hands into a fist and both Lauren and the guy looked down. "Oh, I get it, you want me all to yourself." He laughed. I walked past him and took Lauren's hand in mine, pulling her, only to notice the guy wasn't going to let her go.
"Let go of her." I said, trying to sound as calm as possible. I felt Lauren squeeze my hand and I looked at her. I noticed the despair in her face and how hard he was gripping on her wrist. He was about to say something but with no warning I took a hold of his hand, twisting it hard enough to make him let go of Lauren. The girl ran to my side and took a hold of my free hand. "I would gladly break your hand right now so no other girl has to go through that-"
"Camz, leave it." Lauren pulled my attention out of him, and my face softened. I looked at him again to see a terrified look on his face, quite satisfying to be honest. I let go of his hand and walked out with the girl, holding her hand firmly on mine.
"Fucking dykes!" He yelled. "You're not even that hot, anyways!" I turned around to face him, making the boy stiffen but Lauren pulled me and we continued to walk away.
I started looking around for the girls to find Ally sitting on a corner making out with some guy. I walked further into the crowd to look for my other two friends, never letting go of Lauren's hand, who was quite disorientated and looking like could pass out at any minute. I finally spotted Normani and Dinah and walked towards them. They greeted us with smirks on their faces that quickly washed away once they noticed how stressed I looked. They asked if everything was okay but I only shook my head. "I'm going to take Lauren home, she's feeling sick. Can I use your car, Mani?"
"Yeah sure. And don't worry about driving back, we can take a über home." She said, winking at me.
"A what?" I asked, frowning.
Normani handed me her keys, rolling her eyes at me. "Don't worry 'bout it, girl."
After taking Lauren's purse, we exited the club and went straight to the parking lot. She had once again wrapped her arms around my neck as her legs tumbled lazily. At this point I was practically carrying her. "My knight in shining armor!" She mumbled and I couldn't help but giggle.
I opened the door and helped the intoxicated girl to settle down at the passenger's seat, helping her with the seatbelt and closing the door. I ran my hands through my hair and took a deep breath, still feeling angry. So, before getting inside the car and driving Lauren home, I punched the nightclub's wall with all my strength, breaking a few bricks, and feeling the stress leave my body slowly. After a few more deep breaths I got into the car only to find Lauren passed out at the passenger's seat. I smiled softly at the vision and started to drive.
Once I got to the girl's building, I tried pointlessly to wake her up a few times, but eventually ended up carrying her up. I found her keys inside her hand purse and opened the door to the apartment I came to know well after countless visits. I walked to her bedroom and gently placed her on her bed. I changed her to sweatpants and a large t-shirt, silently thanking the gods that she was wearing a bra. I placed her in the middle of her queen sized bed and smiled once again at her peaceful features.
I was about to exit the room when I heard her muffled voice. I turned my attention back to the girl and she opened her eyes barely, tiredly opening her arms towards me. "Cuddle?" I couldn't help but giggle at how cute she looked. I shook my head and found another loosen t-shirt, taking off my dress and heels before climbing on the bed and wrapping my arm around her neck as her arms wrapped around my waist and she rested her head on my chest. "G'night, Camz." She mumbled before almost immediately falling asleep.
I sighed happily and placed a soft kiss on Lauren's forehead. I was definitely falling for her. The risks I was taking by doing so are countless, but for probably the first time I didn't think of everything that could go wrong. Instead, I thought about that one percent of chance of things working out. I thought about having a glimpse of the normal life I wished for every single day, and how the girl lying unconscious besides me gives me a kind of hope I never had before – how she gives me something to fight for.
A/N: IT'S BEEN 84 YEARS! Here's a very fluff chapter as a apology for taking so long to update. I got caught up in college and work and also I was just too lazy. I hope you guys are still interested and I promise the next update will come sooner.
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