"Okay.." I say trying to read all the signs in her face so I can understand if is something that made her happy, worried.. I just need to know!
"I don't really know how you're going to react when I tell you but first of all it is not my fault."
My heart is sinking. What happened?!
"What is not your fault?"
"Probably in a few days Albert and I are going to live in the same house.."
WHAT?!
"What? How? When? Why?" I'm really confused.
"My dad is kind of dating with his mother.."
"How did that happened?" How Sophia's father can be dating with Albert's mother? This is insane! This seems some scene you watch in a tv show but it's not. It's reality.
"Well, you know.. my father 'fell in love' with his mother and bla bla bla.." Is she really making fun of this?
"But how did they met?!"
"Well, this school belongs to his mother and my dad-"
"Wait, his mother is Ellen Ross?!"
"Well yeah.. he's Albert Ross, Ellen Ross.. They have the same label, Ems."
"Okay.. so let me see if I got this straight.. your dad is going to marry his mom and then you'll be his step-sister..?"
"Wow, wow, wow!" She says with her arms in the air closely to her face. "I'm not his step-sister!"
What? How can she not think about it?
"Well, if your dad and his mom are going to be a couple, you are going to be siblings and live in the same house like you said.." I try to explain in a calm way.
"Well, I don't really think that this 'relationship" will last.. They are so out of league for each-other.."
"Why?"
"Well, because my father is so easy going and his mother has her life planned until the day she dies!"
What's wrong with planning? I love planning! Nothing goes wrong and nothing is unexpected, it's perfect.
"Well, I think that there's nothing wrong with planning.." I defend.
"Yes Emily. It's normal for you to say that.." She says laughing.
"Well, I met his mother when I made my transference for this school. She wanted to talk to me to congratulate me for my results. She is very kind! Do you know her?"
"Not yet.. Albert was telling me that his mother want to make a dinner for us four, to know eachother you know?
Sophia is going to be with Albert in the same table.. I wasn't counting with that one..
"Yes, maybe it's a good way to see if you can actually be a family or not.." It's so weird to think that they are going to be brother and sister..
"Yes.. I think you're right."
"And when you were talking to him this morning, you were talking about this?" I really need to know.
"Yep. He wanted to talk about this dinner that I've just told you."
"Mmm, well and when it's going to be?"
"Tomorrow, I think. He told me that his mother still needs to see if she's free on her schedule.. and here we go to the 'planning' thing again.."
"Can I ask you one more thing?" I say trying not to be annoying. I still want to know why she didn't tell me where she was.. Was she with him?
"Where were you when you texted me?"
She looked at me with a confused expression like she's going back in time with her mind..
"I was on my way back here.."
"But when I asked you said-"
"I didn't tell where I was because while I was texting you I received a call from him."
She has his number?
"Ohh.. okay." I say. I don't really know what I'm feeling right now.. it's like I'm sad because she's going to be so close to him and I'm kind of angry.. I don't know. I hate this type of feelings.
"You don't need to be jealous, Ems! I would never like him! He's not my type and I know that you care for him.." She gives me a cheeky smile and I shake my head at her.
"I never said that I cared for him.. I was just curious.. I don't know.." There's no way I'm admiting that I actually like him. No way.
"You really don't like feelings don't you?"
"No, I don't. It's a waste of time."
"Why? Being in love isn't that bad Emily! You feel so happy everytime you see that person and you feel so devoted to it, you're always thinking about him, you love to hear him talk and you want to kiss me every time he smiles at you because he thinks you're beautiful and laughs of your jokes because you're the funniest person and you're his. You want to be next to him at three AM just to stare at his peaceful face and you crave to hear his voice so badly when suddenly he calls you because he had a dream about you.
Being loved isn't a bad thing Emily. Feeling is what make us humans and you are a human."
"Yes and then the guy bumps you and you feel completely lost, brokenhearted and worthless. I read that, Soph. I've watched films and heard records with that stuff. Love is beautiful while it lasts but it doesn't last forever. Nothing does. And I just think people should know better than giving their hearts away like that. Hearts are breakable, that's a fact, that's science, not love."
"You're are so stubborn. You will be an amazing lawyer and a incredible professional, Ems. But remember that at the end of the day it's good to have someone to talk to besides yourself. Your brain can be amazingly and beautifully full and vast but it doesn't make you feel less lonely."
I just look at Sophia while stuffing my books to my bag. I know she's right, but honestly it's a risk I don't want to take.
"Now let's eat! I'm famished," Sophia groans and I nod with a smile.
"Ahm, Soph?"
"Yeah?"
"Thank you for telling me what you spoke with Albert. I really appreciated it."
"You're welcome, Ems! I would never hide anything related to Albert. Especially when I know how much you care for him," Sophia raises her brows at me and I gently punch on her arm with my elbow.
She's really kind and I know that she wouldn't make fun of me if I would tell her that I like Albert, but why make it official if I will never have changes with him?
We go to my favourite tea shop and we stay there for one hour drinking bubble tea.
It's curious to think that maybe we can trust in someone else besides ourselves.