Namjoon stared at his mother for a second or two. His eyes was quickly filled with pain.
"N-no...home? Wait, what do you mean--"
"W-we're so sorry son, it's his choice." his mother covered her face with her palm.
Namjoon lost his control when his mother started crying like she confirms it already.
"Choice?! What choice, mom?"
They all remained silent.
Namjoon looked at the nurse and his mom as if he was begging for answers. He looks so depressed and fvcked up.
They both exchanged looks again and his nurse decided to spill it out.
*flashback*
After six hours...
"M-mr. Kim?"
"Mr. Kim."
Seokjin heard someone called him so his senses came. He looked at his surroundings and forgot that he already slept in the chairs outside Namjoon's room.
He suddenly realized something...
"Doctor! Oh ghad how is Namjoon?!" he breathe in.
"Mr. Kim, six hours already passed by and we never expected this..." he flashed a sad smile.
"What happened? What have you done with my baby?!"
A tear fell from his eyes.
The doctor remained silent and looked downwards.
"We're sorry but we tried--"
"Hah!"
Seokjin let out a laugh so the doctor raised his head,
"Is this some kind of a bluff? Oh lemme guess, this is Namjoon's surprise!" he shouted as if he owns the hallway.
He doesn't mind pulling his bitchy side again, at this place.
The patients and the doctor looked at him. Some are in pity and some are judging.
The doctor motioned him to stop.
"If we only wish he'll be healed." he whispered.
The thought immediately made his lips shiver.
"What--no! Why am I even talking to you? I can just confirm it to him--"
He was about to go to Namjoon's room and ignore everything they said but,
"Sir!" the nurse freaked out and pulled his arm.
He just wants to pretend that everything was okay. He just wants to be strong but...
"Listen, please....the operation was unsucessful. We're terribly sorry." she bowed down her head.
He remained silent, he expected it so the nurse continued,
"The patient's still in his room, currently sleeping. You can visit him for awhile."
"What do you need?" his sudden change of tone made them wonder.
"What do you mean, Sir?"
"He needs a new heart? No problem, I'll be willing to give him one!" he proudly said not noticing that his tears keep on falling.
"Huh? Wait--are you sure about this, Sir? We can still give him some medicines hoping that it'll work and--"
"Make his hopes high but in reality he can't be treated anymore?! Is that it, Doc?" he gritted.
"B-but--!"
"Damn! He's my life for crying out loud, this is my plan ever since I've heard the news so...please." he pleaded.
"You won't be able to make new memories with him, Sir." the nurse continued.
"I-I know...But he'll make new ones for himself." he faked a smile.
"Are you really sure about this? We'll give you some time."
"O-okay, sure. I'll go visit him first."
They all agreed with it so Seokjin made his way to Namjoon's room.
**
Seokjin's POV
As I entered the room, my tears cannot stop from falling anymore.
I sat beside him and held his hand, placing it on my chest.
"Mianhae, love. M-mianhae .." my voice broke but still, I continued talking,
"Just be happy okay? There won't be failures in your heart anymore because I've already find a way. I love you so much, Kim Namjoon." I whispered to him and went closer.
I hugged him tight and my emotions blasted. All of it, regrets, pain, sadness.. I cried and cried silently so he won't hear me.
After being decided, I went out and escaped the room.
Damn life.
**
Walking in the hallway like a dead person, with messy hair and this red-puffed eyes.
These thoughts are destroying me.
I've been thinking about this lately. Namjoon's the only reason why I'm still alive and btching.
He's the only person that gives me this happiness. So I won't think again about sacrificing my life for him. Besides, he is my life.
My parents, and friends, they are all gone. Namjoon fulfilled all of their roles. He became my bestfriend whom I can tell all my sentiments with, my lover, my superhero, and a dad who loves to order me around.
He truly saved me from depression too. I was suicidal back then but he changed me. He motivated me to live.
so I'll be willing to give my life for him.
I know it might be a permanent decision with this temporary feelings I felt when I heard that it was unsucessful, but for Namjoon it'll be all worth it.
I know he can still enjoy life without me. He will.
"We'll start the operation now, Mr. Kim."
*end of flashback*
"N-Not a dream?" namjoon whispered to himself.
What he thought was a dream did really happened earlier. And the last time he ever felt Jin in his arms.
"Sir, he almost sacrificed his heart for you..." the nurse continued.
Eight words. That eight words was enough for Namjoon to shiver and shake the hell out of him.
"N-no--! Tell me you're lying! HE DOESN'T DESERVE THIS!"
His mother hugged him tight to stop him from being wild, she keeps on uttering sorry.
"Why'd you still choose to heal me?!" he was crying for help, for someone to save him from this pain.
His mom tighten her hug and couldn't help but to cry too.
"B-but Sir--!" the nurse defended but Namjoon acted like he didn't hear it.
"I don't deserve his heart mom...I beg you all, bring me back my man!!" he cried louder.
"Listen to me first!" the nurse couldn't make her turn to speak because Namjoon is unstoppable.
"I don't fvcking care about what you will say! The fact that Jin is gone remains! If you'll tell me you will kill me now then please do!" he desperately ask.
No one can stop him anymore, namjoon feels like he lost his mind.
Her mother couldn't take it anymore.
"Oh ghad Namjoon will you please listen to her, first?! We both don't know what the news is!"
That shut Namjoon down. The nurse nodded at her mom.
She continued her interrupted words,
"Sir like I said, almost! He almost sacrificed it but that doesn't mean he did!"
To be continued...
A/N: Yaas our jinnie is alive! Please don't kill me hehe.