Justin's POV
I stared down at wooden floor as i took another gulp of my beer hearing every drop of the rain drops, i felt hurt,confuse and all guilty, after all tge things that has happened between us we never knew we've come to this point, the woman whom i loved the most is the same person that im going to hurt
I felt the most strongest guilt i have and somehow i still have the urge to follow them and begged for forgiveness, all this time i blame selena
"Justin" pattie calls out to me as she tries to take off the beer in my hands but i slap her hand away, i didn't want to be rude to her but i felt a slash of anger at everyone right now
She lets out a loud sigh as i felt her give up and sat down on th couch, there we're a moment of silent until taylor came in with andernaline rush and tense is plastered into her face
"Pattie...?" She breaths when she saw her but when her eyes found mine her face became furious as she walks towards me and before i knew it i felt her buried on my cheeks with a loud smack my head turned away from her slap, the pain still lingers into my cheeks
Pattie gasps as i face her furious tears falling down in her cheeks it was obvious she knows and i couldn't help but guess how
"You asshole!!!" She shouts at my face as other hurtful words follows all about me being at total jerk
"Taylor calm down" pattie convinces her as she tried to stop her gripping her arms and forcing her to look at my mother
"Calm down?! Calm the f*ck down?!!! How the effin f*ck should i calm down?!" Taylor shouts at my mother as her face grew redder, Pattie's face softens
And i couldn't help but notice why would she cry this much
"Selena and emory they had an accident on the way" taylor mutters almost coldly this time but still sobbing, as u stared at her wide eyes as same as pattie
"What?" I ask letting out a small pray that she was just kidding but why the fuck not she couldn't be joking in this moment
"You heard me you jerk!! It was all because of you!! All you!! You have to be guilty now asshole!" Taylor shouts at me as tears fell down and my heart clenches
I can't help but sob out loud as patrie started to cry, the words are still frozen around my body repeating over and over again she was right it was all my fault all of it, and i could only pray that they would be okay i couldn't lose them i might die no I'll die
"How-"
"Selena called me and i got surprise when the voice i have expected didn't answer , they said she had an accident with emory on the way to their destination her car was uplift unfortunately the road they drived on was to thin and was on a mountain and they falled" taylor mutters shakingly as pattie gasps covering her mouth her eyes we're glisten with painful tears
I gripped thru the bottle as tears fell down, i can't lose them i love them to death they're my life my responsibilty the family i have always dreamt of, the family me and selena have always planned about...
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I stared down at selena while she sleep heavily different cords are connected to her body, as the quiet room fills with the ticking sound
The doctor says selena is already stable but unfortunately emory is still holding on she had way more than injury than selena, and i couldn't help but be afraid to face her because if i do i would probably crumble down
I can't tell on how much i love them and how much they meant to me and i have nothing to do but pray and beg for forgiveness and another chance,
Realization hits me, it has always been them not, i was a total fool and idiot and a mindless jerk, i didn't know how to fix things especially now they wouldn't, i have too far, and i felt more guilty than ever
This is all my fault if it wasn't for me this wouldn't have happened there's nothing more painful than seeing your loved one being pained by you, it breaks me to see them like this
I sat down on the chair beside the bed that Selena's been sleeping on as i took out her soft hand and kiss her soft palms
"I promised to you Love I'll fix things and i wouldn't stop, I'm sorry" i mutter painfully as i stare down at her peaceful and angelic face as i rub her hand to my cheeks and soaked it with my tears
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A/N: Decided to update today, i ain't feeling well today it sucks but hey i got time so i watched loads of Selena's movies, pleasantly satisfied :D, So *cough* y'all heard about justin and sofia frickle frackling on public -_-
Talk about privacy but they actually did it in front of the paparazzi and He is back on instagram, yay i guess??
F*ckung disgusting 😷 I'm not really surprised I'm used to it anyways 😒
Talk about my baby selena, i miss her so much 😭😭 it's been
Iike 13 freakin days, i miss her angelic face, hopefully she's okay 😫🙏
And i really need your opinion on the new book cover guys, it's just a try i swear it's not that catchy, The old one is bomb tho but i think it's time for a new cover, do you like the old one or the new one?
Hope you guys enjoy this chapter 💋 and quick note; 3+ chapters left 😏😏
-Annie ❤