I wanna hide the truth
I wanna shelter you
But with the beast inside
There's nowhere we can hide
-Imagine Dragons | Demons
[15]: Gotta Find It Out
♡Thea's P.O.V.♡
BREATHE IN, BREATHE OUT. BREATHE in, breathe out.
I was up here in the rooftop, freeing myself from the tiredness, shyness, nervousness and all those feelings I don't like in the cool whipping air.
Taking a sip from my cranberry juice that Jesse bought for me, I gazed up in the clear night sky.
Wow, I thought to myself. I wish my life was this peaceful. No complications, no negativeness and no Seth.
No Seth. Did I really mean that?
"Thea," I heard a familiar voice behind me say, interrupting my train of thoughts.
Ugh, speak of the devil and he shall appear.
All those nervousness and shyness came back.
NO! Keep cool, calm and collective or else he'll notice something's wrong!
"Seth," I replied, turning around to face him. "Hey."
"What are you doing here?" He asked.
I inhaled some air the breathed it out. "Well, you know, enjoying being up."
"I feel for you, Thea." He sarcastically said. "Why don't you take those height increasing vitamins?"
"Are you trying to imply that I'm short?" I asked, narrowing my eyes at him.
"Aren't you?" He mocked.
"I am not! You're just really tall." I replied.a
"Oh, am I?"
"Yes, you are." I called out childishly and turn my back at him.
YES! See Thea? You can keep cool, calm and collective!
I smiled in satisfaction.
"Hey, you know, a while ago, you seemed to be... umm... unhappy." He said.
Oh, he already noticed.
"No, I wasn't." That came out fast before I could think of it.
He narrowed my eyes at me in a creepy manner.
"Oh yeah? What's with the letting me drive?" He asked.
Oh, speaking of him driving...
"Why did you drive slow?" I perked up.
He looked uneasy. "Don't change the subject, sweet cheeks."
I frowned.
"Don't 'sweet cheeks' me, nuthead." I said.
"Of course, princess." He said, rolling his eyes. "Now, answer my question." He demanded.
"Why do you care?" I asked, those negative feelings coming back to me again and growing strong inside me.
He sharply sighed in exasperation. "Forget it."
He went back down inside and left me there, standing alone, frozen in place.
***
"Punch Thea, punch!" Tristan coaxed me as I punched the punching bag as hard as I can.
Pour all your negative feelings in every punch. I remembered Seth's instructions
On the positive side, thanks to Tristan that I can now punch straight at where I want to aim.
And on the negative side, all my thanks to Tristan, my fists will surely be swollen tomorrow.
Yes, thank you very much, Tristan Collins.
And let's not forget how tired I was. Oh, how could I forget that?
Damn, I'm getting disoriented. I'm losing air in my brain.
Just shut up, voice-in-Thea's-brain, my conscience said.
"Thea, that's enough." I heard Seth's voice behind me.
Quicker than a lightning bolt, I was down on the cold floor.
How on earth can Seth do all these things?
"You should have seen her punches, dude!" Tristan exclaimed.
"Uh-huh." Seth said, walking towards his bag.
Me, on the other hand, was feeling crystal clear. I let out every ugly feeling in me through my punches. I sorta feel some peace settling in.
I stood up, exhausted, and Seth threw me a small towel which I, thank God, managed to catch it.
"That's enough for now, boys." Arthur said.
Just after I dabbed my face dry with the handtowel Seth gave me, I looked at my shirt.
Damn. It was soaked with sweat.
"Hey Thea," I heard Jesse call behind me. "Heads up."
I turned around and a something soft hit my face.
But that wasn't what bothered me most.
It was about how it smelled.
Then, ever so slowly, it registered in my brain.
It.
Was.
Seth's.
Shirt.
OH MY GODDD.
I quickly ran into the bathroom and hurriedly changed.
I don't know why but I got a little bit hyper over the thought that I was about to wear Seth's shirt.
◈ Seth's P.O.V. ◈
She was tired.
Like really, really tired that she laid down in the backseat of her car almost immediately as she reached it.
I chuckled mentally.
"So, there's a fight tomorrow night. You up for it?" Jesse asked.
"Of course," I answered as I fished out Thea's car keys in my pocket.
"That's my man," Jesse said.
"Adios perras," Arthur called, getting in is own car.
"Yeah, see you tom Seth." Ivan said, starting to walk to his car.
I got in my car, or should I say, Thea's car, turned on the engine and drove our way to my house.
*****
I picked up Thea bridal style and went in the house.
Mom don't show up. Mom don't show up. Mom please DO NOT show up.
No one was in the living room.
I crept up the stairs quickly as possible as I can and I headed to Thea's room.
I reached it, got in and closed the door.
Oh yeah bitches, that was almost hell.
I looked at Thea in my arms-- who was getting all comfy while sleeping.
Damn, I'm sleepy too.
I walked towards her bed, laid her gently in it and pulled away when gripped my shirt so I can't go.
I rolled my eyes as a smirk made it's way across my beautifully perfect face.
"Okay, but just tonight." I murmured.
I took my shirt off, turned on the AC and hopped in beside Thea. Immediately, she laid on her side and face me.
I put my arms under her neck and caressed her flawless upper arm. She scooted closer and I could feel her breathing on my chest.
Ha, even in her sleep, I could turn her on.
I put my gaze down on Thea. The moon outside illuminated her face so she looked like some fairy or goddess or whatever shit people call them. But hence, she was pretty.
No, she really was beautiful.
Just then, her eyes unexpectedly fluttered open.
"Seth?" She asked, looking up at me.
"Shhhh, princess. Go back to sleep." I said, rubbing her arms.
"Sing me a song." She said, closing her eyes.
WTF?
"What song?" I asked.
"Anything."
A song eventually came to my mind, remembering that Thea also likes Imagine Dragons.
(Song on the side ⇢)
"When the days are cold
And the cards all fold
And the saints we see
Are all made of gold
When your dreams all fail
And the ones we hail
Are the worst of all
And the blood's run stale
I wanna hide the truth
I wanna shelter you
But with the beast inside
There's nowhere we can hide,"
"No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come," She unexpectedly sang along.
"When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide," I sang as Thea stopped singing and started to drift to sleep.
"When the curtain's call
Is the last of all
When the lights fade out
All the sinners crawl
So they dug your grave
And the masquerade
Will come calling out
At the mess you've made
Don't want to let you down
But I am hell bound
Though this is all for you
Don't want to hide the truth
No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
They say it's what you make
I say it's up to fate
It's woven in my soul
I need to let you go
Your eyes, they shine so bright
I want to save that light
I can't escape this now
Unless you show me how
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide,"
Before I knew it, I was already sleeping.
♡ Thea's P.O.V. ♡
I think I had the best sleep I had since October 16.
But on terms of waking up, I'll let you decide if it was great or not.
Something was breathing on my hair.
I cracked my eyes open and what greeted me was someone's yummy 6-pack.
Oh. My. God.
I looked up and saw Seth sleeping.
Aww, how adorable.
But the fact that I can't move because his arm was draped on my waist is not adorable.
"Seth," I groaned.
"Mmm," he groaned back.
"Get your arm off my waist." I said.
"No."
"Seth,"
"Mmm,"
"Get your arm off my waist."
"No."
"Seth!"
"No."
I rolled my eyes in exasperation.
"Seth Deavon, let go of me!" I exclaimed.
And the more he tightened his arm around me.
"Shut up, Thea." He said.
I pushed myself up so I came in face-to-face with him.
I got a full blast of Seth's good looks.
Woah.
I propped elbow up and rested my head on my hand.
Maybe I could do this for the whole day.
Then, one word popped in my mind: Church.
Yikes! I looked at the time--7:30 a.m.
No wonder Seth isn't up yet.
I still got two hours.
"Seth," I cooed.
"Mmm," he groaned.
I don't know what devil possessed me but I leaned forward and pressed my lips on Seth's flawless cheek gently.
Sorry, I did what?
But on the bright side, Seth's eyes actually fluttered open.
"I'm that irresistible, am I?" He teased.
"You're just so cute when you're sleeping." I said, daring to poke his cheek with my free hand's index finger.
And I never thought that Seth Deavon's cheek was actually soft.
"Did you just call me cute?" He said, in a threatening voice, his face hardening.
My daringness dried up. "Okay, okay. Sorry."
"I won't forgive you." He said.
"You don't have to." I muttered, rolling my eyes. "Come on, Seth. I need to get going."
"Where are you going?"
"Church."
"Goody-goody." I heard him mutter under his breath.
"I heard that."
"Of course you did. Like I give a shit about it." He said but nonetheless, he let go of my waist and rolled off the bed.
"Adios and I hope I'll never see you again," He said, exiting the room going to God-knows-where.
Well I hope he gets blind.
***
"Hey Thea!" Jasmine exclaimed loudly and automatically, Ethan and Grace shushed her up.
"Well hello, little church girl," Ethan teased as I sat down on the pew they were sitting.
"And hello to you too, little church boy." I replied in the same manner.
"You just force me every Sunday to attend mass, you know." He said.
"That was before," Grace pointed out.
"I know." He sighed, sounding defeated.
Grace faked a gasp. "Did I just hear Ethan accepting defeat?"
"Shut up Grace." Ethan replied.
"Guys, guys, guys," Jasmine said. "If you're going to do that in here, better listen to my news."
"What news?" Ethan asked.
Jasmine took in a deep breath. "I'm so happy today because I..." She paused.
"You...?" Ethan urged.
"I..." She tried again.
"You what?"
"I... I..." She stuttered.
"You what for Pete's sake Jasmine?!" Grace exclaimed.
"My dream finally came true!" She exclaimed.
"Shhhhhhhhhhh!" The kids behind us hushed.
"Okay, fine." Jasmine ensured them.
"What dream?" I asked. Jasmine has soooo many dreams.
"The kind of dream where you want to make out with someone!" She squealed softly, mindful of the people around us.
Our eyes widened.
"Oh my god, who?" Grace demanded.
"Robert Tanner," She proudly said.
If it was even possible, our eyes grew even bigger as Grace and Ethan drew their attention to me.
My jaw dropped to the floor as the words processed in my brain.
Robert Tanner made out with Jasmine.
I slowly turned my head to the crucifix.
A little piece of me died.
Oh why, Lord? Why?
***
"Thea, wait!" Grace called out as I stomped my way out of the church to my car.
I didn't even bother stop walking.
Why? Why? Why?
That one word echoed in my mind.
I stated to drive off and one place sounded appealing to me.
The park.
Slamming the door shut, I got out of my car and marched off to the farthest corner of the park. Walking with my hands on my pockets and forcing myself not to cry, I wondered what I ever did wrong to God.
Was it when I used his name in vain?
Or was it because I didn't join a convent?
Or was it because I like Seth Deavon?
Feeling tired and frustrated, I sat on a big rock in a peaceful place and poured my tears out.
It was so awkward for me to be in a happy place while I'm crying. But that factor didn't stop me from crying.
Why? Why? Why?
WHY DID IT HAVE TO BE ROBERT?!
"Thea?" I heard a somewhat familiar guy's voice behind me call. "Is that you?"
I turned around and saw Daniel Hughes, the guy I met at the mall.
"Go away, Daniel." I said before I knew I said it.
"No. You need someone right now." He said. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing you have to worry about." I replied.
"Thea." He warned.
"Daniel, just... go."
"I told you, you need someone now."
"Thank you but, no thank you."
"I will stay if I want to Thea." He said.
"Okay. Fine." I surrendered.
It made him smile and settled on the grass below me.
"So... want to talk about it?" He asked.
"I'd rather not."
"O-o-o-kay... if that's what you want..."
We sat there in silence, my mind not focused on Robert anymore.
"How did you find me, by the way?" I asked.
"Saw you going out of your car." He shrugged. "Then I followed you."
So like, he stalked me?
"So, I kinda stalked you." He added. "It's hard to avoid the temptation to follow you, you know."
I chuckled at that with a roll of my eyes.
"Hey, I'm completely being honest here!" He exclaimed.
It's great to think that I somehow forgot about Robert for like, six or seven seconds.
"So Thea, what's new in life?" He asked.
"Nothing much. But I'm sure my worst nightmares are hunting me down."
"Nightmare?" He asked.
"Yep. My nightmares, with an S actually." I replied.
He raised his eyebrows.
"So first, a girl made out with my long-time crush." I said with no intention of mentioning any names. "The happens to be close to me."
"Huh. That kinda sucks." He commented.
"I know." I agreed. "Another is, I'll be in a seminary with the biggest jerk I know. And let's not forget, I like him. I'm such an idiot."
He scrunched up his eyebrows. "So, you like a jerk?"
I faked a smile. "Did I mention that I'm an idiot? Yes, I like a jerk. He's so... ugh! I just so can't stand him. But there's something that makes me like him."
True enough, there was something that attracts me to him.
Well, whatever it was, I've got to find it out.