indigo,
its been 2 months 2 weeks 4 days 1 hour 7 minutes and 45 seconds since you've been gone. vanessa has been talking to me way more than before. i'm finally starting to open up to someone new. you probably don't like hearing this, but its the truth. i think i like her. a lot.
she makes me anxious and nauseous. she makes my head hurt. she makes my heart pound. indigo, do you think i should go for her? i know your answer would have been "whatever makes you happy," but i want the truth. i love you and you love me.
love, such a funny word. the word that can make you so happy, but at the same time make you feel like you just got hit by a bus.
always,
luke