Nathan dominated me in such a way that I felt so much pleasure. It scared me. I've never had sex, never had someone eat me out, never gave head, never did anything like that and here I am, had Nathan eat me out and had my first organism. Nathan someone who I had a strong connection with because every time he touched me, It sent me over the edge and I didn't know why we were so drawn to each other, in only a few days. I haven't even experienced driving the boat on my lake yet. I had just moved in. My grandma is in the hospital and I couldn't even think about that, because Nathan made me forgot about it. After he ate me out, I was laying on his bed in my tee shirt and my skirt which I pulled down were on and Nathan had got up to lay down with me. Pulled me into his chest and put his muscly arm around me. Why was this gorgeous man into me? I call him man because he isn't a boy, he's way more mature than boys.
Nathan nuzzled his face in my neck and hummed a song which I didn't know. I felt comforting laying in his arms but this couldn't be real, I can't let it be real. How do I feel about him? How could I not fall head over heels in love with this man? Nathan is dominant where he can be in control and mess with me, but on the other hand, he can be so loving and affectionate. Nathan began kissing my neck, and I moaned like this man was my drug. He made me feels things I couldn't explain, things I never felt before. Nathan made me want him. I wanted him all to myself but then again did he or was he just going to screw me and then leave? I really didn't want to get hurt, I did what any normal girl who didn't want to get hurt do get up and leave. I got up and headed for the door.
" Where are you going?" Nathan asked
" I- I got to get home." I said
" Okay.. C'mon I'll drive you back to school to pick up your car."
" No I can walk." I stated
" It's 10 miles. Ill think I'll drive you." Nathan chuckled
We got in his car and drove back to school. It was an awkward silence. Nathan would speak and I'd just say hmm or yeah. I didn't realize how badly I was hurting him. Sadness was written all over his face and I couldn't let myself feel bad. I don't want to get hurt either. Arriving at school, I said bye and quickly got out. Nathan got out also.
" I'll see you tomorrow." Nathan smiled
" See you tomorrow." I whispered
" Drive home safe."
"Okay"
I opened my door and shut it behind me. Nathan walked to his car and drove away. I felt horrible, what was wrong with me? I thought he'd hurt me and he hasn't. I got home late, and my parents didn't seem to care, too busy with everything. My grandma, dads work, getting ready for the baby. I was glad then I didn't have to talk about it. I quickly walked upstairs and laid on my bed. Nathan was all I could think about. Touching and kissing me. Myself moaning like crazy at his simplest touch. I can't believe I wanted him right now. My cellphone rang, it was a text message. I looked at it, the number I didn't recognize until I opened my phone. It was Nathan. How did he get my number? The text message wrote. " Hey beautiful, have a good sleep."
Why did he have to make this so hard? He was really trying to make me fall for him when he didn't even like me. The next morning I got ready for school. I wore a floral dress with my converses. I got to school on time. The classes went by fast. I didn't talk to Nathan even though he tried. When lunchtime came around, I walked in accidentally bumping into a girl who's name was Sabrina, I apologized immediately.
" Oh sorry" I said
" Next time watch where you're going loser."
" What?"
" You heard me. Now leave. No one wants you here, so you might as well go. You're an outcast, you don't belong here."
" Whoa, did I do something to make you mad? If so I'm sorry."
" Bitch, you didn't do anything, I don't like your face. Leave slut"
Sabrina was so mean to me, and for what reason? I didn't do anything. What she said made me upset, my eyes started to tear up.
" Oh what now you're going to cry?, bitch get out of here."
My eyes were ready to cry. Why are girls so mean saying stuff when they don't even know you?
" Sabrina this is unacceptable, I will not accept the way you are talking to her." Nathan said
Nathan had come up from behind me.
" Nathan, she's a bitch, she doesn't belong."
" I swear, you better stop yourself right now." Nathan glared
Angry in his eyes, his hands were balled into fists.
" Shit, I'm sorry."
" Apologize to her now." Nathan said pointing to me
" Im sorry Jamie, didn't mean to hurt your feelings. Nathan sorry about that" Sabrina bowed
Whats up with all the bowing? Sabrina walked away. I looked at Nathan and also walked away. Nathan grabbed my hand and pulled me back.
" Let go." I said
Nathan let go but still followed me, I went into the girls locker room and he followed. Shutting the door, Nathan locked us in.
" Please Open the door"
" No" Nathan shook his head
" Fine then we will just stay here in silence."
" What's wrong?" Nathan signed
" What are you talking about?"
" You're different. Not acting the same well toward me after what happened."
" Im not different."
" Look, I know you're confused about about how you feel right now, and I will explain it later but you can't hate me"
" I don't hate you. I want know what's going on." I said
" You will. Just stop being weird around someone who cares about you. I care about you, I want you, both ways in my arms every night and also to screw you whenever I want and if makes you feel better, I won't ever hurt you"
" I can't, you can't, I have to go, please unlock the door."
Nathan comes closer to me.
" I can, you can't deny how you feel, what you want. It won't go away. Like I said I'm not letting it."
I push past him but Nathan grabs me, pulling me back before I can unlock the door. I spin around so I'm facing him but he's holding my arms.
" Why is it that I'm so drawn to you? Wanting you? That after what happened last night that I can't stop thinking about you and how that felt so amazing that I don't want it to stop?"
" C'mon we are leaving." Nathan smiled
" Where are we going?"
" My house"
***
I went with him for one reason to find out what he's hiding from me. Nathan parked his car in the driveway. We walked up the stairs.
" Are your parents home?" I asked
" Their not home. Even if they were they wouldn't care, You're amazing."
I walked into his room. Nathan sat me on the bed and he sat beside me.
" I'll explain it all when I can." Nathan said
" Just tell me why do I like you?" I huffed
" Because it's what you want." Nathan smiled
Suddenly complete fear took over Nathan's face, he gripped the sides of his bed.
" What's wrong?" I asked
" Shhh"
Nathan gets up and pulls the curtain back, looking out the window.
" What's wrong? I ask again
" Baby, you'll be okay, just stay here."
" Wait where are you going?"
" Just please stay here."
Nathan was about to walk out when we heard howls. Nathan walked over to the window again and I followed. Outside were four brown, and gray wolves snarling.