Austin
After two rings, she picked up
"Hello?"
"Hey babe, we need to talk..."
"About what? And I miss you so much, Austin. It's been weeks since I saw you"
"But we Skype everyday" I said more like a question
My hand clenched on my phone. I switched my phone from my left hand to my right and pressed it against my ear
"It doesn't feel the same. I miss your kisses"
She'll be heartbroken if I end it now.
Sighing, I stayed silent with nothing to say back
"Are you ok?" she asked with concern
"Yea, I'm fine... I-I just miss you" I lied.
"Aw I miss you too. Don't worry, summer is coming soon. Just one more week and I can visit you there in Miami. Or you could come down here to Texas"
"Either way is fine" I mumbled as if I cared
"Anyway, what was that you wanted to talk about?"
Just do it. Tell her how you feel
"Well, I-I" I cut myself off, not knowing what to say
Remembering what she said months ago
Flashback (Chapter 19)
"You're really good at doing this Austin"
"Doing what?"
She groaned in frustration
"Making girls fall for you! Do you realize how many girls fell for you?"
I still don't know what she's talking about
"Me, Taylor, and Becky. Becky told me how much she loved you but it was also the same time I did. I didn't move to the U.K. with my dad because I wanted to. I had a choice to stay but I didn't because I knew you and Becky should be with each other but NO went with Taylor because you were too stupid to realize how she feels for you"
My breath became short with every word she said
Her eyes fell on me with anger
"oh, but then you called her a jealous bitch when she tried to warn your about her and made her go into a coma. And just yesterday, she was ready to commit suicide by jumping off a damn cliff BECAUSE OF YOU! The moment you were going to make things right, you mess up. Now you -"
"Why does this matter to you if it's none of your damn business anyway?!" I yelled
She just stared at me and shook her head
"You don't realize what you're doing. You still have feeling for Becky, you hurt her, you came to me, we made out, you talk about how you use to feel about me, and...." she trailed off
"and made me have feeling for you again..." she mumbled
Now I know why she's acting this way
"Ari I-"
"Just go Austin. Just go with Becky and try to make this right with her. I don't want to be the girl you come to whenever you have a broken heart. I’m not your rebound."
End of Flashback
A struck of guilt went through me.
I don't want to be the girl you come to whenever you have a broken heart. I’m not your rebound.
Her words stuck in my head
"I l-love you. That's all I wanted to say" I blurted out. My eyes widen realizing what I said
No you don't, idiot. Now you've caused a bigger mess.
"Y-You do?"
Before I had time to take it back, she screamed on the other line
"I love you too Austin! I'm really glad I got you to move on from her"
No you didn't get me to move on from her
"Ari I-"
"Hey I have to go. Call me later, ok?"
I nodded even though she couldn't see me, and then hung up.
Another soft sigh escaped my lips as my fingers ran though my hair. I sat on my bed and lied down, staring at nothing but my ceiling wall.
You have to end it before things get worse
But it's already too late.
I grabbed a pillow and screamed into it, letting out my anger and frustration
why do I always have to mess up?
"I don't know, why do you?" someone said
Dave stood there next to my door and closed it
I put the pillow aside
Do I always think out loud?
"Yes, yes do"
"Damn it" I muttered
"What's wrong now, Austin?"
"Everything"
"By everything, you mean-"
"My love life" I answered for him
"Ohh" He understood. He knows what I'm going through because these past months, it's been only Dave here. And my mom but like I said, we've never had a heart-to-heart conversation in a while.
"What happened this time?"
He sat on a chair next to my bed while I continued staring at my ceiling
"I wanted to break it up with Ari but I backed out and told her I love her"
"Do you?"
I shook my head
"Bad move man. You shouldn't have done that." He scolded
"I wasn't thinking! Now I made things worst"
"You two have been dating for months. And you want to end it all of a sudden?"
"Yea.. Ari's gorgeous, don't get me wrong but I don't feel anything with her. I don't know why I asked her to be my girlfriend. I don't feel anything with her.." I trialed off
That makes me sound really bad.
"You do know, Austin. You and I both know why you did this. Don't pretend you don't"
I bit my lower lip, not wanting to admit it.
"We both know you asked Ari to be your girlfriend so you can get over Becky. And it didn't work out so well, as we can see. Cancelling all your concerts, not recording the rest of your songs, which you would usually stay up until 3am just to finish it but now you can't even sing half of the song without stopping, and now pretending to love a girl you obviously don't. Austin yo-"
"Stop! I know that! But what else was I suppose to do? Cry myself to sleep every night for a girl that doesn't even love me anymore? I needed a way to move on"
"So leading on another girl is better?"
"But I already told her I miss and love her when I didn't mean it! What am I suppose to say now?"
"Think about it Austin. Is this really what you want?"
I kept quiet
why is he always right?
"Look, I can't control your life but if you want my advice, I think you should end it now before it gets any more worse. Try to work it out with Becky. Maybe things are better. It's been months, she probably isn't that mad at you anymore."
"But what if she already has another boyfriend?"
"After what she's been through, I don't think she wants a boyfriend. Just go for it."
A small smile crept on my face
"Thanks, Dave"
He nodded at me with a smile. I took out my phone and searched for her name
"So what are you going to do now?"
"End it with Ari"
He got up and patted my back
"Good luck" He wished and walked out
To: Ari
I don't think this is working out. I'm sorry if I hurt you.
As I sent it, one new text appeared on the screen
my phone nearly dropped in disbelief
She replied
From: Becky♥
Hey (: