Read the title with the narrator voice from SpongeBob.
So guys it's me again (insert username here cause I'm drawing a blank at the moment)! I feel like my story is moving too fast and I'm sorry but... You know. Just live with it. Anyways i have been desperately trying to start my other story but I've hit a major case of writers block so I'll keep you updated. Love you all and super appreciate your votes and comments and views! We're halfway to 1K so woohooo!!!!
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Magnus's POV
The bed was empty. Not surprisingly but still it was empty with his warmth lingering in bed beside me. He always left early. But usually...
No I remember now.
"Magnus I'm not leaving without a kiss" Alec's voice was laughing. Even though my eyes were closed I could see his brilliant smile.
"Then I'll never kiss you again if it means you stay here forever" I grumbled. My voice sounds deep and warm and I want him back here in bed...
Oh yeah.
I sit up with a sigh and yawn trying to shake off the disappointment. I mean you would think after a year I would be used to his sudden leaving.
But I'm not. I'd much rather him not leave at 5 in the morning so he get back before anyone noticed his was gone. I'd rather not have he be ashamed of me-well not ashamed but definitely not proud. I'd rather be a huge part of Alexander's life. I'd rather meet his family as a boyfriend not the High Warlock Of Brooklyn-although I'm proud of the title. I would give it up for him. If I could be the proud Warlock Boyfriend of Alexander I would give it up.
I can't think like this though. I really shouldn't think like this it's not healthy.
I'm happy with what I've got.
Alec's POV
"Alec!!"
Why is that wall talking? Why does it sound like-thump! I fall to the ground with a painful grunt.
"Jace that hurts!!" I growled looking up at him as he offered his hand.
"I literally told you to get into stance five times! What's on your mind bro?" he laughed yanking me up to my feet. I dust off my shoulder and look at him debating. What would you do Jace? Would you hate me like everyone else would? I'm going against everything we've always been taught, though you've never been one for rules...
"Nothing" I say instead shrugging with a yawn. I'm yet again lying. I don't like lying. I hate lying. "Long night I guess" Not a lie. But not for the reason anyone's thinking I'm sure.
There was a lot of yelling and screaming and thumping from our apartment.
"AGAIN?!?" I screamed at the tv and Magnus giggled from his seat on the couch.
"It takes years of practice and an actual tv in your house babe" he drawled holding up his Mario Cart remote innocently.
"Ok. Start it up. I have a good feeling this time"
"Alec!! Again seriously man pay attention!!" Jace said snapping his fingers in my face. "Ok. That's it. Go to bed I'm not getting any training out of you"
"Jace hey I'm sorry man it was just-"
"I don't want your lies Alec!" He suddenly snapped glaring at me with those intense gold eyes. They remind me why I liked him in the first place. They make me want to scream everything, that I spend my nights at Magnus's and that I'm disobeying the rules.
That I was in love with him at one point.
That I'm in love with someone else now.
"YOU'RE DOING IT AGAIN ALEC!!" He yelled shoving me hard on the shoulders. "YOU ARE NOT EVEN LISTENING TO ME!! WHEN WAS THE TIME WE TALKED?! OR TRAINED PROPERLY?!... What happened to my parabatai?"(BECAUSE YOU GUYS WILL NOT STOP BOTHERING ME!!) Ouch.
"Jace I'm right-"
"No. Just go. Please" he sighed rubbing his forehead.
"... Ok Jace..." I go over and put a hand on his shoulder. He looks up at me then away which gives me a little hope that maybe this will work out.
My room was quiet and cold. I hated being cold. I wish I was home-my real home, by Magnus's side and in his arms watching stupid movies with Chairmen and the happy bright loft not this grey dark room. He hated the dark but I've never really personalized my room like the others. Jace's was a soft tan, Izzy's bright pink, mine black. Just how I found it when I moved in here at 8 years old.
There was a soft tap at my window that made me jump.
"Magnus?!"
Magnus's POV
I grinned at his cute shocked expression. His beautiful eyes got so big they looked like the ocean was trapped in them. But these seas were stormy. Suddenly he was charging over to me swinging the door open and nearly knocking me off my tree branch.
"Magnus Bane what the he-by the angel if anyone saw you!" he hissed making me flinch and lose me smile.
"I wanted to see you" he grumbled back looking anywhere but in those raging eyes.
"Magnus we agreed-you can't come here-"
"Why?" I said suddenly so softly I hoped maybe he'd just keep ranting but he froze mid sentence.
"... What? Magnus you know why. My parents-"
"Why are you ashamed of me Alexander." That's right I'm using your full name you arrogant shadowhunter.
"Magnus you know I'm not its just..."
"Just that you're ashamed... You think that loving me, heavens sake Alec!" I'm close to tears. I fought every instinct to come here but I thought he'd be happy to see me, welcome me in and maybe we could even talk to his parents but-
"I am... I am ashamed of what I feel for you..."
The words stick in my skin like daggers. All the "cool guy" attitude had worn off around Alec because I never had to keep my cool. I just had to smile. And be happy. I was not prepared for this. I never planned for this. To be attacked like this.
"What?" I hissed venomously through hot sticky tears.
"That doesn't mean my feeling are fake it just means-"
"YOU WISH YOU DIDN'T LOVE ME" I'm being hysterical now I should just walk away with my dignity but I can't stop the sobs that come out as screams at him.
"Magnus! Please be quiet what if-"
"Someone finds us? Oh I'm sure you've thought of every excuse. I'm merely some downworlder scum trying to feed off of your greatness or-or you lent me some life saving weapon and I was returning it to you. It's always something heroic. You always come out on top. Your reputation is never hurt. And I was just an experiment!"
"Magnus you know none of that is true!"
"It is!! You don't actually care about because if you did you wouldn't care about what your family thinks of you. You wouldn't care that I'm a guy or a warlock for that matter. Well hey I guess you don't have to worry anymore because we're through." I spat my last words and began down the tree. Alec was desperately trying to hiss something to me but I was too deaf with my own heart beat and blinded by my own tears. It finally registered what this feeling was and the knife twisted even farther.
I was heartbroken. I told myself this would end in tears and it did. And it hurts. I forgot how much it hurts. As I storm down the streets of Brooklyn I vow that I will never date another stuck up shadowhunter again.
They aren't worth my time.