If you got a notification that I updated earlier, it was an accident on my part. There was no update sadly.
Also, I wrote a song for this story. I believe it is decent but not amazing.
Just tell me what you think but please don't be rude about it. I'm no songwriter!
I'm fighting back the tears
strengthening my heart
Turns out my biggest fears
were there from the start
The things that I had denied
were coming true
I couldn't make up another lie
So this is what I had to do
It's more than just a little game
I'm trying to forget
not trying to spread my name
I'm healing myself instead
By just fighting back the tears
and wiping my eyes
biting back at those fears.
Turning to God
I'm focusing on my faith
being the one he wants me to
because he is my escape
from challenges old and new
I'm done hiding the hurt
I'm ready to be myself
living for he who knows my worth
for he knows how I've felt
He takes the fire tearing though my veins
the rain that drowns me
Forgiving me for past mistakes
that even I couldn't see
He scares away my fears
and gives me strength to move on
Wiping away my tears
So I know he'll never be gone
No longer fighting back the tears
I have strengthened my heart
And just eliminated the fears
That captured me at the start
Not fighting the tears
I'm letting them out
Conquering my fears
And loving him without doubt
Cause he was there when no one was around
Looking upon me
He held me close when I was down
Although I could not see
I was fighting back the tears
strengthening my heart
But now it is clear
He loved me from the start