Bitter Taste
(July 2013)
**This poem is very personal.. and I've decided it is good for me to share it with you all as it came tumbling from my soul this very moment. Alcohol once ruled my life, for many years, but no longer. Thank you all for being so amazing and supporting my poetry. You've gotten me to this point, where I can share without fear.
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reaching into the cold space
i am summoned by a familiar sight
it asks me to remember
it begs me to try again
just a sip
just a moment
the feeling is overpowering
a sense of control
seconds filled with possibilities
i am powerful
i am wanted
i am beautiful
just a sip
liquid courage that led me into darkness
giving me all the words
i could never say without
kiss your lips
toxins move thru my blood
i am without fear
give myself to you
forget you tomorrow
turn on the engine
i've done this so many times
drive past your house
drive without knowing
where it is i'm going
waking from my slumber
i am reminded of what i was
my head it throbs with dull memories
blackness and a candle
guide my way
years i was your slave
giving you my soul
and in return
you made it bleed
i ask you to forgive me
i cannot go back
not today
not again
i want to forget
all that i was
the bitter taste of poison
no longer controls my life