"I want to be with you always Maddison, please don't leave me alone."
The sound of my name from his sculptured lips sends a good shiver all over my body.
"I will never leave. I promise."
Jeron's arms circled around my body and we lay still, just looking at each other, appreciating that he is here, with me.
"Maddison, I want to say something."
"Yes, what is it?"
"I-"
"Aaaahh!"
"Maddison!"
"Jeron help me!"
"I can't reach you! Give me your hand!"
"I can't, its too far..."
"Jeron!!"
"Maddison!!"
And I'm suddenly falling, all at once, I'm engulfed with brightness.
"Am I dead?"
"No sleepyhead, your alive and kicking, so start getting up if you don't want to be dead."
Hello world. New morning. New challenges ahead. Alexis, my dorm mate, made my breakfast, her best and famous: coffee and pancake.
"Ouch!" My butt hurts.
"Oh? Hindi ka pa ba manhid? Ilang beses ka ng nalaglag sa higaan na may kasabay na, 'Jeron! Help me!' Sana hinatak mo na lang si Jeron sa panaginip mo, baka sakaling mapunta siya dito." Siraulo talaga 'tong si Alexis! Pero hindi na bago un, lagi ko naman talagang napapanaginipan si Jeron myloves ^^
"Shut up Alex! Alam mo naman ang nangyari. Masakit un para samin ni Jeron."
Alexis walked to my side and put her hands on my shoulder and said, "Madds,
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Ang drama mo!" PAK!
"ARAY! Bakit kailangan may batok?" Makakaganti din ako dito mamaya. Wait ka lang.
"Kailangan un! Para magising ka na sa katotohanan! Let's go! We're going to be late! And Mrs. Donor will not like it very much."
Me, Alexis and Samantha are 2nd year Architecture students from the one of the oldest universities in the Philippines: University of Santo Tomas! Taray! Proud eh!
We're on our way down when Alexis forgot her phone. Naman. Bakit ngayon pa? Malalate na kami!
"I'll be back really fast!"
While waiting I saw some basketball men players going straight to the gym then suddenly that one guy that makes me crazy pops out of my mind with the memory I couldn't forget: I accidentally scraped his arm with my fingernails. Just thinking of it make me want the earth to eat me right now. It's so embarrassing! Buti na lang hindi siya dito nag-aral with his brother. Nako kung nagkataon, ay nakooo! Thank God Alexis is here, I can divert my mind to some other productive things.
After a 4-hour straight class, nagutom ako.
"Alex, you want to eat?"
"I'm sorry Madds but I will meet Dad in his office. You know, lunch, bonding."
"Oh.. Wow. Nice Alex! I'll see you later!"
"Are you sure it's ok for you?"
"Of course it's ok! Don't mind me. Bye!"
"Bye Madds!"
Alex and her Dad had a distant relationship since the legal seperation of their parents. So I'm really happy for her! Finally!
I bought some biscuits and juice at the cafeteria and ate it outside. Dami kasi ng tao sa cafeteria. Kailangang magtipid, taghirap eh. Maliit lang si allowance. Kailangan ko pa siyang palakihin, malapit na bayaran para sa dorm.
"San ko ba gagawin 'to? Nasan ka na ba Sam?"
Mas alam kasi ni Samantha ang pasikot-sikot dito sa school. Mas gala ung babaitang un eh. Mamaya pa namin siya kaklase. Irregular kasi siya.
And after walking for about 948394 years, wala na talaga, dito ko na lang tatapusin 'to, kahit naglalaro sila, gora na lang.
"Ok, bukas kailangan mas maaga tayo. Walang malalate. Subukan nyo at lagot kayo sakin!" Sabi ni Coach Pido habang nagmemeeting sila with his team. Malapit na sila matapos. Yes! Solo ko na itong gym! Haha! Mamaya na lang ako bababa sa lower bleachers pagkaalis nila.
Unti-unti naman akong umentra sa gilid para hindi nila mapansin. Dun na lang ako sa may upper bleachers para ako lang magisa. Hihi.
Let's start this. Music on? Check. Tools? Check. Stomach full? Check? Haha. Mamaya na ulit.
After 20 minutes...
Wala ng tao! Solong solo ko ung gym! Mamaya pa siguro ung ibang magtraining. Bumaba na ako sa lower bleachers and continue my work.
We will draw our own unique structure (oo bawal kopyahan, mautak prof namin eh.) and we will sketch and design it.
First, I will start from the outline. How big is it? Siguro kasing laki ng Notre Dame de Paris? Joke. Feelingera naman ako. Hindi ko pa kaya un. Mga medium size version ng The Parthenon. Rough sketch muna.
"You shout it loud, but I can't hear a word to say, I'm talking loud not saying much, I'm criticized but all your bullets ricochet, You shoot me down, but I get up..."
Sinasabayan ko naman ang kanta na nakaplay sa mp3 player ko. 100% na ata ang volume nito kaya feel na feel na ng ear drums ko ang tugtog. I really love this song, pinapractice ko nga 'tong kantahin kapag wala si Alexis sa room eh.
"I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose, fire away, fire away, ricochet, you take your aim, fire away, fire away..."
Dahil wala namang tao, magpapractice muna ako dito. Itatry ko ung high pitch tone sa chorus.
I'm catching my breath, para lang mas maganda ang version ng Titanium ko kaysa kay Charice, syempre joke lang. Nakasanayan ko na kasi na mag soundtrip at kumanta habang gumagawa ng kahit ano, like what I'm doing right now, it helps me to think more ideas kaya maganda ang kinalalabasan ng gawa ko dahil na rin sa maganda kong boses. (Pagbigyan niyo na ako) Well singing is my passion, I remembered when I was seven, I had my voice lesson every weekends. Yung teacher ko na lang ang pumupunta sa bahay namin noon, but that was in the past, a past that me and my family want to forget.
"I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose, fire away, fire away, ricochet, you take your aim, fire away, fire away, you shoot me down, but I won't fall, I am titanium! You shoot me down, but I won't fall, I am titaaanium!"
With matching close eyes and hand gestures pa ang ginawa ko, dapat pala nirecord ko, haha! Di bale uulitin ko na lang-
Oh. My. Gosh.
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Nandito si Jeric Teng. And he's frozenly staring at me. He was positioned to shoot but stopped when he heard me, I guess.
I feel my face blushed. Jusmiyo naman. Hindi ko pa naririnig ung sarili ko na bumirit. Pangit ata boses ko! Five seconds na ata kaming nagkatitigan. Nanlilit na ako dito sa hiya. Aalis na ako!
"Sorry po." Mahinang sabi ko. At sabay exit na!
"Wait! Ms.-"
Kumaripas naman ako palabas ng gym, spell niyo napahiya ? "MADDISON JANE" Hindi na ata kakayanin ng katawan ko. Bakit ba kasi ako tumakbo? Pwede namang maglakad? Sa pagkakaalam ko wala ng tao sa gym bukod sakin. San siya galing? Bakit hindi ko napansin? Anu ba yan! Isa na namang embarrassing moment with a 'Teng'! Mabait naman ako ah! Pwede sa ibang tao naman? Napansin ko lang ba't puro 'Teng', hindi pa nga ako nakakamove-on sa nagawa ko sa myloves ko eh! (>.<)
Maganda, sexy, matalino, may makinis at light tan na balat, maraming talent at mabait, halos perfect na sana but Papa God bakit may taglay na kapalpakan ako these past few days. Bigla naman may umintrada sa pagmumuni ko.
"Madds!! Where have you been? I'm searching the whole world for you!"
"Nye? Ang OA lang Sam?"
"San ka ba kasi galing?"
"Nasa Gym lang ako, gumagawa ng homework natin."
"Gym? Wala bang nagpapractice dun?"
"Meron si..." Jeric. "Wala pala. Katatapos lang pala nila."
"Let's go! Patingin ako nung sa'yo-"
"Ayoko!"
And back to normal. I can forget it. Can I?