Kacey's POV:
"Here love have some more water" Harry handed me a brand new bottle.
"Harry I'm sorry so so sorry" I sobbed once more
"Babe stop you didn't do anything! I'm not angry. I know this sucks but --look at me." He stopped
I titled my head upward to meet his emeralds "I know this is hard, but I'm here for you. We will get through this together. I'm not leaving I swear. And even though it's the bastards baby. I know still love it" he smiled a bit
"You will?" I said sniffling "of course because I love the hell out of his mother." He leaned down and kissed me softly.
"I love you harry. But I'm still sorry. Haz?" I asked in a way
"Yes love?" He responded. I broke down again and cried some more;
"I can't do this. I can't be a mom. I'm 18! I can't do this I can't. Ill fail the poor child doesn't even have a dad" I sobbed again
"It'll have me. I'm not biologically the dad. Though I should be.. He trailed off
"I'll be there. He will be my pride and joy"
I looked at him and smiled a bit "you think it'll be a boy?" I asked
"Well honesty I want a girl...." He trailed off
"Same. Maybe well get lucky. Harry..." I trailed off
"Yes dear?" He said sliding off his trousers and shirt.
"Thank you, for everything, and I love you so much. You're my world I hope you realize that. I just... How did I get so lucky?" I said cocking my head slightly.
"You mean how did I get so lucky?" He flipped it around. He jumped in beside me in the hotel bed.
"When will we tell the lads?" He asked
"Lets wait until we know for sure... I mean 3 months how about then?" I asked
"Perfect now love get some sleep"he smiled.
"Fine" I smiled back whipping away my tears.
"Wait hold on-" he stopped me and he leaned back to to my belly, lifted my black shirt and kissed my flat stomach.
"Good night baby" he chuckled and leaned up to me and kissed me "good night kacey"
"Good night harry" I replied and laid down with him wrapping his arm around my stomach making me feel Safe and secure.
Slowly I went back to a peaceful place and was long asleep.
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I tossed and turned for the 100th time now. My stomach was in intense amount of pain.
"Ugh" I said quietly sitting up, but as soon as it did. My body felt as if it was releasing a waterfall. I looked down and gasped.
"H-haz" I said softly. "Haz" I said again and he stirred "kacey?"
"Haz- I'm- I'm bleeding" I said sliding up a bit "bleeding?!" He shot up.
"Come on" he said. He stood up and tossed me a jacket and he threw on jeans and a tee.
He wrapped one arm on my back and lifted me off the bed, I glanced back and gasped again, "haz there's so much blood" I said trying to look away,
"Come on babe lets just get to the hospital" he said softly.
He walked me to the car and helped me in since I was in so much pain.
We drove in silence. I couldn't tell if harry was angry? Or scared or what on earth it was.
We pulled up and I right away stood up letting another waterfall gush escape.
Harry saw my discomfort and grabbed me a wheelchair to sit down in
"Here kacey" he said softly setting me in it.
"haz?" I asked him and he leaned down "yes?"
"Why is it every time something good happens we end up in the hospital?" I sighed and he did too
"Bad luck I suppose" and with that he wheeled me into the lobby
"Good early morning sir how can I help you?" A lady asked us
"My girlfriend- um she's well she's pregnant, and well she woke up today in some pain, and there's blood everywhere coming from well... You know where..." He trailed off.
"Oh dear here I'll take her. Do you have any other symptoms?" She asked
"I'm just in a lot of pain by my stomach" I said softly. She but her lip and pushed me into a room and changed me quickly.
"I'll send a doctor in for a X-ray" she said and shut the door
"I'm sorry I'm such a fucking mess harry I don't see how you put up with me. I'm hell in a hand basket" I looked away from him
"Kacey, I don't care if we have bad luck you could be a terminally ill cancer patient but I would love the hell out of you everyday like I do now. Whatever this is we will fix it we can we are strong and I'm not going anywhere because I'm Head Over heels in love with you." He said slowly
I met his eyes and just before I was to speak a doctor came inside
"Miss kacey? We are ready for you" a girl came in and laid a giant robotic machine over my abdomen and moved it around.
"Oh dear" she sighed and lifted it off
"What's wrong?!" I pushed since they made it seem awful.
"Tell me please!" I begged. The doctor removed her glasses and set her hands on my bed.
"I'm sorry but miss you've had a miscarriage. The baby is gone" she bit her bottom lip.
Immediately I began to weep again and I saw harry from the corner of my eye place his face in his head.
The doctor rubbed my back for a moment and left.
"It's all my fault! I can't Even do the one thing a woman is made to do!" I cried again
"I killed it" I wept
"Kacey you didn't kill it" Harry's voice cracked. He stood up and came to my bed and placed his hands on mine "the baby just didnt attach you did nothing wrong. You were in the right. This is out of your control." He said. Slowly a tear fell down his cheek but he whipped it away.
"I'm sorry harry" I cried "don't apologize! It's not your fault!" He nearly yelled
"I just feel so awful, first I put you through hell, then I make you claim the name as a father to a baby that's not yours and now we've lost the child. I'm just a mess" I cried
"Yes I went through hell but you didn't put me there. Yes I claimed the baby as my own but you didn't force me too. And yes we lost the child but it's not your fault. You did nothing wrong and I don't know how many times I need to say it, kacey I love you unconditionally. I will forever and always. I swear on it" he said kissing me forehead as I cried
"Lets go home, you'll need rest." He said lightly lifting the sheets
"Harry?" I asked for the millionth time tonight
He didnt even answer me before I leaned up and kissed him so hard and so passionate, I wrapped my arms around his neck and tugged his curls ever so softly. He returned the kiss and wrapped his hands around my neck and back. He slowly kissed down from my lips, to cheek, to jawline, to my side neck.
"I love you harry so much. So so much. You're the one I want to be with forever" I said softly. He came back to my lips and pecked them once more
"And it will be my love" he said. Slowly after that he lifted me up and handed my night clothes to me and let me change at this point the only thing I did was face away from him, I mean he's seen it all.
"Lets go home, before they realize we were out." He sighed which I did too. We slowly went out to the hall seeing nothing but an empty way.
Harry placed one hand on my back and the other in my hand and he walked me down the hall to the elevator. And then did the same to the rental car.
Once I was down, Harry got in his car side and drove off.
"Well in a way this will sound terribly awful and hit me after I say it but.... At least this gives us a chance to have our own kid... Maybe this incident isn't all bad..." He said quietly and I made sure to smack him.
"Haz weather it was yours or not it's gone." I said softly.
"Everything happens for a reason kac" he said glancing over
He's right it does I just wish that it didnt have to be this extreme
I glanced down at my stomach one more time and sighed. I reached over and grabbed Harry's hand and let him drive us all the way back.
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Harry's POV
As I laid her down back in the bed I sighed for the millionth time.
She had fallen asleep back in the car and I felt awful waking her since she's had a hectic night so I carried her.
Once she was down I took off my shirt and Trousers and slid next to her. I wrapped my arms around her and gave her a slight hug
"Everything's gonna be okay, I know it's a struggle but soon everything thing will be behind us." I said softly before I went to sleep
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***ONE AND A HALF YEARS LATER***
I took another sip of my terrible yank tea and checked my watch.
"10:39... He's late" I rolled my eyes a bit. But not long later he came bursting through the doors and be looked around aimlessly
"Oh haz!" He yelled from afar and ran over to sit.
"Sorry I'm late I was at Nialls flat trying to help him put a new TV in." Liam laughed
"He moved to London?!" I laughed "yeah! Finally! Simon said It would make English gigs WAY easier.
"English Gigs like the O2 again tonight?" I chuckled.
"Hey, we're just living the dream" Liam smirked
"That's for damn sure" I smiled
"So you called me down her what for?" He did his classic raising of the eyebrow
"Liam hear me all the way out first please?" I said softly.
"I'm listening..." He trailed off
"You know that I'm in love with kacey. Deeply, unconditionally in love with her. And I've said to her, to the lads, to you, that I want to spend forever with her." I stopped to take a breathe.
"Liam I got the okay from your mum and dad. But I really need to hear yours" I stopped and took one large breathe
"Liam, I want YOUR permission, can I have Kacey's hand in marriage?" I said flat on.
His face was impassive, unreadable. I couldn't even sense what he was feeling
He opened his mouth slowly and then softly smiled "Yes, of course."
"Wait for real?! You're not angry?!" I rose my eyebrows!
"Absolutely not here's why, over the past few years of dating kacey and you being basically my brother, I've seen you treat her like a princess. And I can clearly see that you do love her and I know you'll treat her right. I have all the faith in you now because I've seen how you've changed your ways how dedicated you are and I can see how happy you make each other. Yes I want you to have kacey's hand." He said getting testy eyed, probably at the thought of his little sister growing up.
"Oh my god Li, I came in here ready for a battle but... Thank you" I said with a smile "thank you a thousand times"
"It's my pleasure" and with that we both stood up and shook hands,
"Oh fuck it come here" he said and we hugged
"I love you man" I said "I love you too haz" and we pulled away,
"Care to go ring shopping?" I said throwing out my tea. "Actually I need to look for Elizabeth's Promise ring." He said face palming himself realizing he needed to do that for his new girlfriend.
"Well then, time to go!" I said opening the door.
"Where too?" He asked
"Tiffany's" I stated
"The best of the best I see" he smirked
"Only for Kacey" I grinned.
Finally my life is actually perfect and it's all because of Kacey.
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Kacey's POV:
"Elle!!! I can't find anything oh my god! He said he's taking us out for a super special night after their show but ugh" I said throwing myself backwards on her bed
"Well first off it's AFTER the show which isn't over until like 10:30 soo you have about.. 3 hours. You're fine. Here let me look" she said ransacking my luggage.
"Ohh I like this!" Elle smilies pulling out white fabric
"This is niceeeee" she winked and brought it over.
"But is it TOO bad looking..." I hesitated
"Screw that wear it" she smiled
"Fine" I rolled off the bed and went to the bathroom .
I hoped in the shower and scrubbed myself with coconut and vanilla since I know harry loves that scent on me.
Once finished I jumped out and put on the dress "not bad Elle!" I yelled out.
It was. A strapless white dress that had two smalls slits under the bust on the sides revealing skin and the rest flared out to my knees. Provocative... But not to much.
I dried my hair and plugged in the curling iron.
I waked out to see Lizzy on my bed.
"Oh hey Liz" I smirked
"Hello doll" she smiled. She was so pretty; she was like a dani pretty. Except Lizzy is 22....
"So where do you think you'll go tonight?" Elle asked me leaning on the wall
"No idea! It's a big secret! But my guess out to dinner and he will get steak and I will too by default and then he'll drive us into a dead area and we will make out." I said flatly
"Make out? Oh we got a bad ass up in here" Lizzy remarked "shut up! That's kinda a lot for us you know!" I rolled my eyes
"Wait a lot? Kacey you guys haven't..?"
"Guys, after all that's happened... He made a promise to me that he will not push it, that we can wait. And I liked that because that just brings back BAD memories" I said looking on the floor.
"wow you have him whipped!" Lizzy grinned
"Shut up! NOO way! He's just different" I smiled softly
"So you guys haven't had sex?" Elle hand one hand on her hip "this is not Right! It's harry! Ugh" she rolled her eyes
"How far have you gone?" She asked creepily
"I'm not sure if I want to share my super personal life like that..." I trailed off
"Kacey it's me and Lizzy who are we gonna tell?" She asked
Okay she's right
"Just guess I don't wanna say." I said sitting on a chair
"First?" She said "been there I mean we all have" I smirked which Lizzy laughed at "second.?" She asked
"Mhm that too.."
"Third?" She said one last time ,
"Boom got it!" I pointed at her
"For you or him?!?!" She said with her eyes at golfball size
"Um both?" I said quietly
"You dirty slut!" She laughed
"Oh whatever! But that's it we haven't done anything else I swear on it"
"I Think that's a safe place to be I'm proud of you doll" Lizzy smiled
"See Elle she's okay with it!" I smirked
"Oh whatever!" She rolled her eyes and laughed
"Alright I'll be back" I said and went to the bathroom to curl my hair which it actually wanted to curl tonight.
Stepping out I slid on my white heels and smiled at my reflection in the mirror. I glanced back to see that both Lizzy and Elle were gone, typical.
I grabbed some pearl earrings and the small diamond necklace harry got me for our one year anniversary.
"Hmm not bad Payne" I said with another smile
"Not bad at all" a voice came out of no where.
I turned around only to find harry leaning on the wall
"Jesus Haz you scared me!" I whined
"Well don't you look lovely" he said grabbing my waist and pulling me closer
"Thank you I tried hard" I smiled
"You look beautiful" he kissed me
"You look handsome." I said which is true because he was In a black suit with a white shirt and a long black tie
"Shall we go, my lady?" He lifted his arm "of course sir" I smiled
He led me out to his black range rover or as I like to call it "his silly buy" since he bought it in an instant when he saw it
He drove and drove holding my hand.
"Kacey I thought we'd flip it up tonight okay?" He smiled
"Fine by me." I returned it
He drove all the way out to camp ground land and parked the car.
"Haz a picnic?! How fun!" I squealed
"Clearly someone is excited." He smirked "um hell yes!" I smiled
He opened my door and then ran to the back to grab the basket and carried it. He led me past all the picnic tables and through the real woods.
"Um haz? Where are we going?"
"Just wait and see" he grabbed my hand and smiled
He stopped and put his hand over my eyes, "okay walk slowly" he said and I did just that.
Step by step he led me and suddenly we stopped. "And look" he said lifting his hands.
The place was beautiful. It was a giant willow tree that was covered in white lights and a perfect picnic blanket on the ground
"Harry it's beautiful" I gawked in awe
"It's so perfect thank you" I said and turned around to kiss him
"I'm so happy you love it! " he grinned and kissed me.
We walked over and set out the food which happened to be Good ol nandos
"Haz this is just like our first date" I smiled biting into the kitchen
"I know that why I chose this" he winked leaning on his side eating.
"So special night? Are fireworks gonna explode?" I smirked
"No no but it'll just be a good night" he smiled
We ate our chicken and chips in peace and when we were all done Harry pulled out a mini stereo
"Who doesn't love some music?" He smirked and put in a disc
'I'll be' began to play
"Harry I love this song." I smiled
"You sang it to me on the first night I met you" I said thinking back
"I know that's why I'm playing it" he repeated the same thing
"Care to dance?" He held out his hand
"Is that even a question?" I laughed and grabbed it.
He lifted me off the ground and I wrapped my hands around his neck and he did the same to my waist and we rocked
"You're so beautiful kacey"
"As are you harry" I said looking up into his bright green eyes
"kacey I need to talk to you." He said and right away my heart sped up
"About?" I gulped
"Us." He stated "haz what's the matter?" I thought back to every bad thing I could have ever done
"I've been thinking a lot and well you know I love you." He stopped
"Quite a lot. You know you're my world, my universe, my absolute everything. You make me the happiest person Alive and without you I'd be nothing. You're such a kind hearted person. I think you'd risk your life for anyone even a stranger. You mean everything to me. And kacey there's something I need to say." He said he let go of me and reached in his pocket.
He got down on one knee and pulled out a black box.
"Kacey Marie Payne, im absolutely unconditionally in love with you," he stopped
I started to slightly cry and smile at the same time. "Haz" I saiad softly.
"Kacey, will you please," he paused and took a breath.
At this point he was in full blown tears and I was now bawling
"Will you please Marry Me?"
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A/N
THAT'S IT GUYS PAYNE LIFE PART ONE IS OVER!
Gahhhh :( I feel bad being done with this it's like my baby D;
But! Coming soon is the Payne life SEQUEL! Yay!!!!!
Guys thank you so much for all reading this book and dealing with my crazy schedule trying to write this. You guys are amazing!
I love each and everyone of you and I hope this GIGANTIC cliff hanger of an ending doesn't kill ya (;
The sequel I plan to have ready I thing the next two weeks so be watching!! Thank you so much!
Love you!
-Jordan