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Seunghwan's Pov.
Why does you keep living, and breath even everything falling apart ? Because you know, the feelings that you felt right now, It will make someone you loved happy. If sehun find his happiness, why would I'd be sad ?
"Mrs Son, you can come in now" I nodded and take me step slowly. As the door flung i see Doctor Hwang and Mr Kim is having their tea time. "It's been a while since you're here, what's the matter ?" Mr Kim take a sip of his coffee and take a glanced of me.
"The path, the agreement with Oh Sehun" I paused. "Ah.. What with that ?" I take my breath and look into his eyes. "Whatever you signed or whatever the agreement about. It doesn't matter. Because everything is my decision" Mr Kim stand and walk slowly to me. I can feel the heat of his angry. "He sign something, that saying okay even If you die" Doctor Hwang snapped.
"So, what do you want ?" He smirk and give me unreadable look. "Cancled this whole thing and leave him alone. This war for Piramid Love is between you and me" I need to protect you oh sehun, I don't want him to die because of me. It would just hurts me even more, you need to stay alive for your girl. You need to live longer, because you deserve the whole happiness. And I don't want to be the one who ruined it.
"Seunghwan.." Doctor Hwang's turn to speak up. I turn my gaze at him as he smiled at me. "The path..." He scoff and laugh slightly. "The path never bothered me, and it wasn't that important. because you know what ?" I look at him. "Because you'll never recovered, you'll having this illness for the rest of your life. Why do we bring sehun to your life ? For this..." He snatch my hand and gripped it.
"Your illness getting worst because of him, he's the one who killing you in silent. Why do we want you to live with him ? Because we want him to hurted you, and.... The illness will killed yourself" He smirk at me and rolled his eyes. "I want you to love him like before, so that he will hurted you and you know what ? We didn't need to dirted our hand for killing you because your mental illness is actually making yourself dying" I felt like thousands knife stabbing my chest. Why would love killing me ? But the most important why would I protect sehun from these jerks. Atleast sehun gave me sweetness of life, before I dissapear forever.
"And you ended up with getting hurted by him again, the real medicine is when he choose to be with you and loved you. But... Song Mihye. She appear now. And you lost" I'm giving up, not losing. "Listen, Take me and don't touch sehun... Do what you want. Take away Piramid Love! But it's me, you deal with, don't barge Sehun in our business" I look at Mr Kim, he closed his eyes and take a long breathe. I just don't want someone die just because somebody that didn't even deserve him. "Look Seunghwan, whatever you do. He will never love you! Mi Hye cheat on him but he still choose her over you. You'll ended die too, because he will never love you"
"That's why! I know I won't owned his love, I know he won't love me back. And why would I let he contributed his life just for the girl that he don't love ?" Even my words hurted me, I acted like it didn't bother me but it's killing me inside. "He's still won't love you, even you did this..." I throw the vase away and breathe a uneasy. "Stop this already! Today, Tonight. I'll ask him for the last time did he love me ?" Even he won't.
"And then ?" Mr Kim smirk, I look at him. "If he said No, we are all now what will happened to me" Mr Kim slowly approaching me. He hold my shoulder and whispers. "Your illness started with, a dark sight of you. You'll cry and scream. And slowly you'll dying"
I'm already death a few years ago, and It's because the same person...
"But just leave oh sehun alone, deal ?" I try to hold my tear. But mostly, I hate the way I can't hate sehun. I just want to lay on his chest and heard his heartbeat. Looking at him choose someone else beside of me it's already killing myself. But why I pretend to be strong ? Because I know he's my one, the only guy that I can falled over. He's my precious, and here I'm fight for him. I wonder if his chest ever aches at the sound of my name the way same as mine, does whenever I hears his.
"Deal, you will die anyway" I closed my eyes. I love that that connection, being someone's love, being someone's special one. Just theirs. You know. "Why did you being this pathetic with a guy that will never, you never did appreciate you even once ?" He did, 7 years ago. And he did. Yesterday.
Oh sehun, it's time to say goodbye. Forever.
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[Recommend to listen any sad song]
I stare at the sky, there's no stars. Why are you hiding ? I want to see your sparkles, when I'm in my darkness. I forgot to turn on the light but your light shine my empty space.
"I'm home" Even movie and drama have their own sadness. Maybe I'm still a lucky person. I will never get a right one, because I never let the wrong one. And I'm ended up with loving someone that hurts me in the past. "How's works ?" Smile, because it will cover your sadness. Don't trust someone who betrayed you twice, once was a warning, twice was a lesson.
"Hey" bye. This is will be our last greets. Or our last time before I'll gone from your live forever. "Dinner ?" I sent him my wide smile. "It's okay, I already fulled" I nodded, and we stare at each other like we talk using our eyes. Maybe our mouth didn't talk. but we forgot our eyes is speaking, I look into his, I didn't see happiness. I see unreadable stare. It is because of me ?
It past a minute.. before he cough. "Uh, yeah. Go take some rest. You're tired right ?" I said while sending him a smile. I walk slowly to him, and took of the coat from him. This will be the last time. "Something happened ?" He asked. Alot happened today sehun. Alot. "Nothing" I hurted. "Something wronged, sehun ah?" I stare at his bitter smile, he shook his head and smoothly ruffled my hair.
It was a silent moment again. "Why are you still here ? Go and take some rest" I give him a light massage over his shoulder. "Go.. You look tired" atleast, you're not broke. "You too, Seung. You look tired.." He sighed as he finished his sentences. "We should stop saying tired to each other, and take a nap" I wink and hold his arm. For the last time, just let me hold him tightly. Pretend that he's mine, Act like everything is okay.
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"Why the sky look so dark ?" Sehun said, while lying on his bed. "It will cry soon" I said. I look at him and see his question look. I scoff "I meant it will rain soon, soon" but it seems like it was hold their tears, even it was really hard. Harder than letting him go. "Seunghwan" He stopped. "Hmm ?" just spill it sehun, I'm okay. It's love.
"I'm a stupid person that ever life" No, you're not. You never and you won't. "People said, chance is hard. Second chances is harder but third chances is miracles..." You will never get the third chances, you broke the first and you're going to broke the second. I'll never give you the third one, not because it's hurts but because will i even breathing or living ? I feel the warm arm wrapping my waist from the back.
"Spill it" I close my eyes, I said it. I finally say it. "Spill what ?" Spill that you.. It even more harder now. "You knows better, spill it" The arm left my waist, I can feel a gaze beside me. Immitating the sky, or... I don't know. "I just met.." Mihye "Mihye"
You have to let it go Seunghwan, they way he look at you. The way he hugged you, kissed you. Muttered those love to you. The way he touched your waist and pulled you in. You have to let it go and you have to let him go. Because it was who's he was, not he is.
I turn my face at him. "17 September 2008" i heard the sound of thunder. The ligthing everywhere around me. "I park at my apartment, I jump excitedly, and I feel sorry for Yewon because you'll be awkward with her. As i enter the aparment, I saw something that i'll never ever hope it to happen" I smiled, the tears slowly falling down, I wipe it. Because who will even help me wipe my own tears ? Him. Dreams.
"I saw you kissing Yewon, almost. The sight broke my heart. No matter how long it's already happened, the pain is still the same" I took his hand, and turn his face to look at me. "And now 17 September 2015, 7 years flew away. In excited, I went to your office with a bright smile like 7 years ago. And i heard something that hurts me even more, and I know the wound in my heart is bleeding when I heard you loving someone else than me" Sehun's stare is blank, I can't tell what it was. I can't ask because I afaird what it will be. I can't said, because I don't know.
"This date, the dark side of me. I forget to turn the light on and dark bring me here. And once again, I meet you. I'll ask you to choose again... It was me or mihye ?" I'm ready. I admit it, it was sad when someone that gave you memories, became memory. "But, Thanks. Even now, you still make me smile like before. I admit it was not the same but it always the same because it's you who made it. Sehun look straight into my eyes, He sent me a smile.
"You're not there when I'm falling apart, Seunghwan. I think... We. Us. It was just meant to be a sweet memory" I never thought you'd be temporary. That's my girl, this is the cutest things you ever said. It mentally and physically hurts, your words, your smile, your happiness which is not with me. I often said, I just want you to be happy but deep inside I want to be your happiness, I want to be the reason why.
"I've to let you go"
A goodbye ever be the sweetest thing ever, I went through our memory, I was lying if I said i didn't smile. And i was lying is i said I won't cry. Because you always promised you'll be there. Always beside me. And it's broke.
Not just the promise, but also my heart. Once I stop caring you're not getting back, i'll be cold as ice. I promised. I am tired, and I want to be held by someone who love me. Some things doesn't last forever, like a good songs, like a good movie, like a good drama or a good memory. And even good thing didn't last forever, how about us ? I acted like It didn't bother me but inside it was killing me.
"It never stops hurting does it ?" I look up to the sky. It will be a time, if i'm raising from my death please kill me so then i won't loose you again.
"What ?" He asked.
"Giving someone the best of you, and watching them choosing someone else"
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Sehun's Pov.
The sunlight hitted my eyes. I groaned slowly. It feel so quite, and nothing. I took the small notes stick on forehead.
Goodbye.
The truth now unfold,
The story is now told,
Now it is, forever. Like before.
I have closed the door.
Door of chances, love, and hopes.
Thanks for all memories.
The memory will knocked my door's heart.
But I promised, I'll never opened it.
She left.
Seunghwan left.
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- Kayxx