Holding Back My Feelings (Ras...

By rdcrdxxx_

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A story that will turn their world upside down. More

Prologue
Chapter I
Chapter II
Chapter III
Chapter IV
Chapter V
Chapter VI
Chapter VII (Updated)
Chapter VIII
Chapter IX
Chapter X
Chapter XI
Chapter XII
Chapter XIII
Chapter XIV
Chapter XV
Chapter XVI
Chapter XVII
Chapter XVIII
Chapter XIX
Chapter XX
Chapter XXII
Chapter XXIV
Chapter XXV
Thank You (Author's Note)
XXIII
Epilogue
Another Story
Nostalgia

Chapter XXI

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"Hi Bestie!!" Bati ni Rhian nang sagutin nya ang tawag ni Bianca

"Hi Bestie! Are you free tonight?"

"I dont know pa Bestie baka kasi magdate kami ni Wabwab. Hihi alam mo na it's our 11th month!!"

"Ow! I see. Congrats Bestiiieee forever exists between the two of you haha wait... Binati ka na ba?"

"Actually hindi pa nga eh. Pero I'm sure hindi nya naman makakalimutan tong important day for us."

"Okay bestie. Call me kung pwede ka later ha? Let's watch Chynna. May gig daw sila sa isang bar. Iniinvite tayo. I already called the squad. Sama ka ha! Kayo ni Glaiza!"

"Okay bestie! Byeee!"

"Bye!"

She ended the call. Tanghali na pero hindi pa rin sya binabati ni Glaiza. Alam nya naman na busy ito pero hindi nya mapigilang hindi mainis lagi naman kasi itong sweet sa kanya except lately hindi ito masyadong nagtetext o tumatawag.

*bzzzztt bzzzztt*

She jumped out of the couch at dali daling tumakbo papunta sa pinto upang buksan ito.

"Hi Lab." Bati nito at ngumiti

"Hi Lablab! I miss youuu!" Sagot ni Rhian at niyakap ng mahigpit si Glaiza.

"Kumain ka na ba?" Tanong ni Glaiza at pumasok na sa loob

"Nope." Maikling sagot ni Rhian

Hindi ba ko babatiin nito? Kanina pa ko naghihintay ah! Kahit man lang flowers wala! Ang Manang na to!

"Oh? Bat ganyan mukha mo Love?" Tanong ni Glaiza nang makita ang poker face na mukha ni Rhian

"Nothing." Maririnig ang asar na tono nito

Glaiza held her hand at tinitigan ito "Hey. Are you okay? Meron ka ba?" Tanong pa ni Glaiza at hinawakan ang pisngi ni Rhian

"I'm fine." Rhian replied without looking at her

Umayos naman ng upo si Glaiza at naglean sa couch. "Nakakapagod yung rehearsal ng concert Love."

"Really?" Walang emosyong sagot ni Rhian na ngayon ay busy busyhan sa cellphone nya. "Iniinvite pala tayo ni Chynna and Bianca sa gig daw later."

"Hindi ata ako makakasama Love. Kasi ano.." Marahan nyang kinamot ang kilay

"..kasi baka may rehearsal mamaya."

Napasimangot si Rhian sa narinig. Ang Manang na to. Hindi ata talaga na-aalala na monthsary namin!

"Okay. Ako na lang sasama." Maikling tugon ni Rhian na ngayon ay nakayuko

Napangiti naman ng tago si Glaiza.

Im sorry Lablab. Kailangan ko kasing gawin to for my surpise eh. Isip ni Glaiza habang nakatitig sa nakasimangot na si Rhian

*I heart you Love-Loooooovvvveee*

Tumunog ang cellphone ni Glaiza boses ito ni Rhian na nirecord nya at ginawang ringtone

Inabot nya ang cellphone sa bulsa ng leather jacket nya.

"Hello? Yes. Okay okay i'll be there in a minute. Okay byeeee!!"

"Love I have to go. May rehearsal kami ulit with the band eh. Enjoy later!" Paalam ni Glaiza

Hindi naman talaga sya pupunta sa rehearsal for her second concert pupunta sya sa bar kung san gagawin ang surprise para kay Rhian.

"Okay Love. Ingat." Maikling sagot ni Rhian at hinalikan sa labi si Glaiza

"Bye Love. Maglock ka ng pinto pag-alis ko okay? Ingat mamaya. I love you."

"Okay. Ingat." Walang emosyong tugon ni Rhian at sinarado na ang pinto kahit na hindi pa nakaka-alis si Glaiza

~

"Miss Glai dito po? Okay na?" Tanong ng isang lalaki kay Glaiza na busy naman sa pagbasa ng papel na nasa clipboard

Nag-angat sya ng tingin at nginitian ang lalaki "Okay na yan Jeff! Thank you!"

Pinapa-ayos ni Glaiza ang bar para mamaya.

"Oh ano Tsong? Ready na? Bakit ba hindi na lang sa RK tong kaartehan mo. Mabuti pumayag yung manager." Tanong ni Chynna

"Yung Runner's kasi. Gagamitin ko sa pag-propose kay Lovelove." Biro ni Glaiza

"Sus corny mo. Di pa nga kayo umaamin propose ka agad! Malantod ka." Tumatawang sabi ni Chynna sabay gulo sa bangs ni Glaiza

*I heart you Love-Loooooovvvveee*

"Hello Bianca? Oo okay na. Yes ayain mo na si Rhian. Okay byeeee!! See youuu! Thank you!"

~
9:00 pm

"Hi bestie! Ready?!" Excited na tanong ni Bianca

"No." Rhian replied and rolled her eyes tsaka sumakay ng kotse ni Bianca

"Bestie. Hayaan mo na alam mo namang busy si Glai sa upcoming concert nya." Bianca started the engine

"Pero hindi naman sya ganun. I know her. Hinding hindi nya kinakalimutang batiin ako." Malungkot na sagot ni Rhian

~

Nang makapasok sa loob ng bar si Rhian at Bianca ay simula na ang pagkanta nila Chynna.

"Mom?" Takang tanong ni Rhian nang makita ang nanay nyang nakaupo sa isang stool

"Yes anak?" Nakangiting sagot ni Clara

"Kelan ka pa natutong mag-bar?" Natatawang tanong ni Rhian

"Hay nako talaga ang bunso namin. You know what? I don't know if you were born special..." Makahulugang bulong ni Nadine na biglang sumulpot sa likod nya

Makikita ang mga close-friends nila Rhian at Glaiza sa loob ng bar. Pamilya ni Rhian at mga kapatid ni Glaiza. Matapos batiin ang lahat ng nasa loob ay umupo na sya sa isang sofa sa aisle ng bar. Kutob na nyang si Glaiza ang may dahilan ng mga nangyayari.

Lumapit kay Rhian ang isang waiter at inabot ang isang clipboard. Tsaka umalis, tinignan naman ito ni Rhian at binasa.

"When you love someone there's no word in the dictionary that can explain how you love her, why you do, or when did it start, all you know is that you love her with all your heart, because everything happens accidentally, at a certain moment, time and place."

"Ang landi ng jowa mo no?" Bulong ni Katrina sa kaibigan pero nginitian lang sya nito.

Dumating naman ang isa pang waiter at nilapag ang isang baso na may naka-roll na papel sa loob. Kinuha nya ang papel sa baso at binasa itong muli. Patuloy ang pagkanta ni Chynna.

"Everyone has its own different characteristic that other person love. And in that qualities you will never truly know why you fall to that person. Your feelings for her is hard to forget and hard to explain."

"Ehem." Napa-angat ang tingin ni Rhian sa stage nang marinig ang isang pamilyar na boses

Nakatayo sa gitna si Glaiza habang nakatingin sakanya. Nakasabit ang gitara nito sa likuran at nakatapat ang mic sa bibig nito.

"Hi!" Bati ni Glaiza

"So ako lang po itong nagpumilit sumama sa "gig" ni Chynna. Actually hindi naman na to gig eh. Kasi I asked everyone inside this bar na pumunta dito. So.. thank you sa pagpunta  kahit alam kong busy kayong lahat. At kung nagtataka ka Lovelove..." Ngumiti si Glaiza habang inaayos ang chords ng gitara

"Yes! Sinadya ko na hindi ka batiin. At sinadya kong asarin ka nung sinabi mong nag-aaya si Bianca sa ginawa kong gig ni Chynna.."

Nagtawanan ang lahat. "Sorry Lovelove." Sabi ni Glaiza bago umupo sa stool at inayos ang pagkakapatong ng gitara sa lap nya

"Jusko lumalantod na naman yang Manang mong jowa." Inip na bulong ni Katrina

"Sus pesteng to lumamon ka na naman ng amplaya no?" Sagot ni Mark sabay batok kay Katrina

"Bakit?" Tanong ni Kat sobrang slow talaga nito

"ANG BITTER MO KASI!" Sabay sabay na sigaw ng magkakaibigan

"Itong kantang to ay inaalay ko sa taong napakahalaga sakin. Sya yung taong nagparamdam sakin kung paano maging totoo sa sarili. Sya yung nagparamdam sakin na karapat dapat akong mahalin, sya lang yung taong nagparamdam kung gaano ako kaimportante bukod sa pamilya ko. So Love-Love sana magustuhan mo tong kanta ko. Happy Monthsary! Iloveyou"

~
Rhian's POV

"Itong kantang to ay inaalay ko sa taong napakahalaga sakin. Sya yung taong nagparamdam sakin kung paano maging totoo sa sarili. Sya yung nagparamdam sakin na karapat dapat akong mahalin, sya lang yung taong nagparamdam kung gaano ako kaimportante bujod sa pamilya ko. So Love-Love sana magustuhan mo tong kanta ko. Happy Monthsary! Iloveyou"

I felt liquid on my cheeks. Umiiyak ako habang sinasabi nya yun. She gave me a quick smile. Pagkatapos nyang sabihin yung "Happy Monthsary." Kanya kanyang sigaw at ngiti ang mga tao. She started singing her version of Like Only A Woman Can by Brian McFadden

"I wasn't perfect
I done a lot of stupid things
Still no angel
I wasn't looking for forgiveness
I wasn't laid up by my pride
Just shocked by her attention

Did someone sign me up for love?
I didn't want it
But now I can't live without it..."

She looked at me straight to my eyes. I can feel her. I can feel how she sings. I can feel how much she loves me. Naalala ko tuloy yung ginawa ko kanina. Gustong gusto ko na syang awayin at umiyak sa harapan nya sa bigat ng nararamdaman ko.

"She changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I'm sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can"

"Mahal na mahal ka nya no?" Bianca said as she handed me a box of tissue.

Pakiramdam ko kumalat na lahat ng eyeliner and make-up ko. But I don't care. I thought she forgot our monthsary. Pero hindi. She never fail to surprise me everytime.

"She's kinda perfect
She's kinda everything I'm not
Yes, she's an angel
It's amazing how she's patient
Even more at times I'm not
She's my conscience

But who decided I'd be hers?
I want to hate them
Cause now I can't live without her"

Tears were streaming down my face. I am smiling but tears are falling down my eyes. Nakatingin lang ako kay Glaiza. She looked up at me again.

"I love you." I mouthed

She smiled. That 'kilig smile' of Glaiza De Castro. I can't help but to fall inlove with her over and over again. Oh God! I really love this woman so much!

"She changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I'm sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can

Like only a woman can

But who decided I'd be hers?
I want to hate them
Cause now I can't live without her..."

I was staring at her when Bianca hugged me tight.

"Sana makakita or makahanap rin ako ng taong magmamahal ng ganyan sakin." Bulong nya

Instrumental of the song was filling the whole bar.

"Love is an UNCONDITIONAL COMMITMENT to an IMPERFECT PERSON. To love somebody isn't just a STRONG FEELING. It is a DECISION, a JUDGMENT and a PROMISE."

I was looking straight to her beautiful eyes. Tears are also falling from her eyes.

"Alam kong palagi ko na lang tong sinasabi sayo but I promise that no matter what happen. I will always stand by your side. I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU SO MUCH LOVE-LOVE."

I felt eveyone was crying including Bianca on my side. I don't know. I can see in my peripheral vision that they're wiping their cheeks and faces. But I dont care. All I can see now is GLAIZA and I, the both of us.

"I love you too." I whispered while sobbing

She smiled at me and continued singing.

"She changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I'm sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can.."

"She's so sweet!" Bianca exclaimed while wiping her tears

I looked back at Glaiza who's now standing beside Chynna.

"Humuhugot eh!" Asar ni Chynna

Ngumiti na lang si Glaiza at bumaba sa stage tsaka umupo sa tabi ko. Maririnig pa rin yung mga palakpakan ng mga tao.

"Happy Monthsary Love. I love you." She whispered then kissed me on my cheek

"I thought you forgot. I love you Love. Happy eleventh." I whispered back

"Bakit ko naman makakalimutan? Sorry Love. Alam ko namang halos sabunutan mo na ko kanina pagdating ko sa condo mo eh." She smiled at me yung 'pacute smileng isang Glaiza.

"You know me so well Galura." Nangingiti kong sabi. Well hindi ko naman maitatanggi na kilalang kilala na namin ang isa't isa

I handed her a small box "Happy Monthsary." I repeated

"What's this?" She asked "Ready ka ha?" She teased

"Open it." I said

She then opened the box. "Wow!" She exclaimed

"You like it?" I asked

"Nope." She replied

"Why?" I nervously asked

"I love it!"

I gave her a personalized necklace with a pendant saying "For Keeps".

"I have something for you too." She whispered

"What? Lovelove this is enough." I shyly replied

"Here.." She gave me a small red box too

I opened it. It's also a necklace with a pendant saying "RaStro"

"RaStro For Keeps. Iisa lang talaga tayo magisip Lovelove." She giggled

"Because we are one." I said which made her blush

"We are one." She repeated

"Omygooodd you two look so inlove!" Umiiyak pa ring sabi ni Bianca

"Thank you sa pagsama kay Love dito Bianca."

"I knew it!" I said habang nakaturo kay Glai and looked back at Bianca

"Sorry! Si Glaiza kasi sabi nya this is her plan wait bakit ba kasi hindi pa kayo umamin dalawa? Eh you're too obvious na."

"Oo nga! Kelalantod nyong dalawa!" Biro naman ni Katrina na biglang sumulpot sa gilid ko

"Alam mo hindi ko alam kung insecure ka lang o bitter ka talaga Kat! Grabe ka dito sa dalawa!" Sabi naman ni Mark sabay turo samin ni Glaiza

Nagtinginan na lang kami ni Glai tsaka ngumiti sa isa't isa.

~

Last 4 chapters guys. Thank you so much for supporting and reading my story.

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