"Never had I imagined , living without your smile, feeling and knowing you hear me, It keeps me alive, alive"
Loren POV
I sang along to Mariah Carey and Boyz ll Men while Blake was driving me and Ford to get some ice cream
"Loren who sings this?"Blake asks
"Nigga don't start"
"Lowen I like you voice , is nice" Ford smiles
"Aww thank you bud , your daddy here thinks its horrible" I smirk
"Oh no I never said that" Blake laughs
"Daddy Lowen voice beautiful, sing de song Lowy"
"Alright buddy , you wanna sing with me?"
He nods and I change the song to "Classic Man" by Jidenna
"My name calling all night, I can pull the wool while I'm being polite, Like, darling calling all night, I can be a bull while I'm being polite, Like, oh me, oh me oh my, I know many women want to be in my life, Like, oh me, oh me oh my , Why can't every woman end up being my wife?"
I sang along and Ford was mumbling some of the words
"Daddy sing too" he claps his hands
"Im a classic man , You can be mean when you look this clean , I'm a classic man, Calling on me like a young OG, I'm a classic man, Your needs get met by the street, elegant old, fashioned man, Yeah baby I'm a classic man"
Blake sang horribly but it was cute , he had his Ray-Bans on and looked good. While he sang he looked over at me and I laughed..
"Daddy no , don't sing anymore" Fords laughs
"Did he really just?" Blake chuckles
"Yes he did" I laugh
We arrive at a near by Baskin Robbins and Blake gets out and opens the door for me
"Thank you" I say as I get out and walk over to take Ford out
"I'll get him" I say to Blake as Blake grabs his wallet which he left inside the car
"Thank you" he smiles
Flash Flash
"Loren aren't you dating Eddie?"
"Blake are you gonna marry Loren soon?"
"Blake Blake!"
"Loren look this way!"
Blake and I rush inside the Baskin Robins , Ford was in my arms and he started crying once we made it inside , the workers locked the doors and covered the windows so the Paparazzi wouldn't see us, there were no customers , just me and Blake and Ford.
"Buddy , it's okay. Sweetie what's wrong?"
"They scare me mommy" He holds on to me and I hold onto him back
He just called me 'mommy'
I wasn't sure how to feel about that , I loved Ford dearly but me and his father aren't together anymore , I wasn't going to feel any certain way against Ford because he was only a child and he was an angel who didn't deserve anyone to hate him.
"I love you Ford , I promise they will never ever hurt you. As long as me and your papa are here you're safe" I kiss his forehead and he stops crying
Blake was sitting next to us and I noticed his face expression change , he looked upset once again
"I'll be right back" He says walking to the men's restroom
I stood up and put Ford down and we walked out to the cashier
"I'm so sorry about that ma'am. I'm Amanda what would you and this cutie pie like today?" A elderly woman asked with a pleasant smile
"Baby what kind of ice cream do you want?" I ask Ford
"Dat one Lowy! Chocolate yummy" He points to the Rocky Road ice cream
Amanda grabs a mini cup and serves Ford a scope of Ice cream
"And for you miss?" She asks
"I'd like a Chocolate Chip milkshake please" I smile at her
"Will that be it?" She asks
"Umm can you wait a second , my boy- my friend is in the restroom, I'm gonna go check on him" I say to her and she nods
"Ford stay here and enjoy your ice cream, how is it?" I say sitting him on a chair
"Is good Lowy! Where daddy?" He asks
"I don't know , I'm gonna go get him , stay here okay" I say walking away
I got to the restroom and knocked
"Blake are you okay?" I ask
"I.. Um yeah" He yells not so loud
"Blake come out please , your son is worried" I cross my arms
I move back and he comes out. His eyes were red and a little puffy
"Blake what's wrong ?" I ask hugging him
"I don't have you" He says kissing my forehead
"I hurt you in the worst way and you're still here , you're being so nice to Ford and he adores you so much. I don't know why you're still here"
"Blake-"
"Just let me finish , please" He looks down at me
I nod and he continues
"I love you so much Loren and I know I hurt you and I don't think I can ever forgive myself, you're my life. Losing you made me realize what's important and what isn't , you mean everything to me and Ford.. I know you probably don't care about-"
I cut him off and kiss him
"Stop talking" I say as we continued kissing
"Lowy , daddy kissy! Ewwww!" Ford laughs with Amanda besides him
I don't know why I kissed him but it felt right