When i got to to the gym Alex was over in the corner doing some dancing. He looked really comfortable. I admired his moves. Not bad and that's coming from a cheerleader.
I felt self conscious knowing Liam was just an eye distance away. Stupid right?
"Harley!!!" Alex screamed funning to me with a big hug."
"Harley." Liam said behind me sounding calm.
~~~
"5, 6, 7, 8..." I yelled as the song senorita by Justin Timberlake came on. Me and Alex began to dance. He twirled me around and around. I jumped up and fell face down to the floor.
"Oh my god Harley im so sorry." Alex said helping me up.
"its ok." I promised him holding my nose. Someone picked me up and spin me around. Liam.
He pulled me away from the crew
"Are you ok?" he asked looking at my nose
"fine." I said honestly.
"i'm sorry." he said looking me in the eyes.
"there's nothing to be sorry for." I said walking away.
"Ok I know some more routines my squad rejected." I said
"wait rejection dances, no way, not going to happen." Alex said.
"shut it bully." I teased and turned on some music.
"Hate me today......hate me tomorrow, hate me for all the things I didn't do to you...."
The music blared and I danced slowly to the beat. I swirled and lifted my left foot up taking a long big jump. When the beat got more up I popped my hips side to side and bent down to my knees and began sliding around and when the song finally finished I hit the floor with my palms.
"Ok that was amazing!" amber shouted over.
I smiled. and started to reply the song.
"Hate Me"
by blue october
(If you're sleeping are you dreaming
If you're dreaming are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me.)
(”Hi Justin, this is your mother, and it's 2:33 on Monday afternoon.
I was just calling to see how you ware doing.
You sounded really uptight last night.
It made me a little nervous, and a l... and... well... it made me nervous, it sounded like you were nervous, too.
I just wanted to make sure you were really OK,
And wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication.
You know I love you, and...
Take care honey
I know you're under a lot of pressure.
See ya. Bye bye”)
I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you
[Children voices:]
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming,
if you're dreaming are you dreaming of me.
I can't believe you actually picked me
[Girl:] Hey Justin! [x12]
"How was that a reject?" Alex asked.
"Not there type of music." I stated.
"can we do something sexy. You know us girls?" Laresha asked.
"you mean like this?" I went and turned on some music. I threw my jacket off and stepped in front of the crew.
"Oh" Ciara
(feat. Ludacris)
[Verse 1:]
This is where they stay crunk, throw it up, dubs on tha Caddillac
White tees, Nikes, gangstas dont know how to act
Adamsville, Bankhead, College Park, Carver Homes
Hummers floatin on chrome
Chokin' on that home-grown
They got that southern cookin'
They got them fellas lookin'
Thinkin' I was easy I can see it
That's when I say no, what fo'?
Shawty can't handle this
Ciara got that fire like
[Hook:]
Oh, 'round here we ridin' slow
We keep it ghetto, you should know
Gettin' crunk off in tha club we gets low, oh
Oh (oh), all my ladies to tha flo'
Handle it ladies back it up
Gettin crunk up in tha club we gets low, oh
[Verse 2:]
Buddy take a new whip, paint strip, into a bowlin' ball
Still smoke hundred spokes, wood-grain armor-all
Light-skinned thick chicks, fellas call 'em redbones
Close cuts, braids, long, gangstas love 'em all
They got that southern cookin'
They got them fellas lookin'
Wishin' I was easy I can see it
That's when I say no, what fo'?
Shawty can't handle this
Ciara got that fire like
[Hook:]
Oh, 'round here we ridin' slow
We keep it ghetto, you should know
Gettin' crunk off in tha club we gets low, oh
Oh (oh), all my ladies to tha flo'
Handle it ladies back it up
Gettin crunk up in tha club we gets low, oh
[Rap (Luda):]
Southern-style, get wild, old skools comin’ down in a different color whip (whip, whip)
Picture perfect, you might wanna take a flick flick flick flick flick
Call up Jazze tell him pop up the bottles cuz we got another hit (hit, hit)
Wanna go platinum? Im who you should get get get get get
Ludacris on tha track, get back trick, switch on tha ‘Lac, Im flexin still
Same price every time, hot song, jumped on cuz Ciara got sex appeal
And I keep the meanest, cleanest, baddest, spinnin on stainless wheels
Could care less about your genus, I bump ya status, I keep the stainless steel
Trunk-rattlin’ what’s happenin’, huh?
I don’t even think I need to speed
Bass-travelin’, face-crackilin’ huh?
Turn it up and make the speakers bleed
Dirty south we ballin’ dawg
And neva think about fallin dawg
Ghetto harmonizing, surprising, run it back cuz tha song is called
[Hook: (2x)]
Oh, 'round here we ridin' slow
We keep it ghetto, you should know
Gettin' crunk off in tha club we gets low, oh
Oh (oh), all my ladies to tha flo'
Handle it ladies back it up
Gettin crunk up in tha club we gets low, oh
I began to drop low and then came back up. I slowly slid my hand up my face and into my hair. Bent over for a quick second and bent backwards. I did a small back flip and stomped my feet throwing my arms all around matching the beat of the song. I moved my hips side to side and grinded against air.
"WOO!!!!" Eric cheered.
I felt hands around my hips. I spun around and Liam pressed his hand on my chest and bent my back a little and slightly spun my. He pulled me away only for a second before pulling me back. Our lips where just centimeters away. His breath coming out in heavy pants from working out.
"That was hot!" Laresha shouted making me lose my thought and Liam to walk away.
~~
"Ill see you later." I hugged Alex and gave Liam a quick smile and walked out.
"Harley wait" Liam said.
I turned and Liam kissed me hard on the lips. When he pulled away I saw Alex on the phone...probably Shyanne. He didn't see anything. That's good.
"you was good." he spoke
"You too." I nodded and turned to leave.
"Are you ok?" he asked.
"Fine."
"You barely said anything to me today." he said
"We are not dating to I don't have to say anything to you." I remarked and it looked like I saw hurt in his eyes but I just shook it off and left.