I woke up the next morning feeling literally like crap. I hadn't responded to any of Ian's texts, scared that he would notice something was wrong and constantly attempt to get it out of me.
I got to my locker early this morning, wanting to take the longer way to class to avoid Christian. Honestly, I have no idea what had gotten into me the night before. I guess I was just fulfilling the gaps in my relationship; nothing that romantic ever happens when i'm with Ian. We barely ever make out.
Slamming my locker door shut, I began to walk down the hallway. I felt so... paranoid. I kept looking left and right out of the corners of my eyes, feeling like everyone was staring at me. Like everybody knew I did something wrong. I felt so guilty.
I turned the corner and saw my math class. I hesitantly walked in, trying not to glance at Christian's side of the room. Today was a lesson day, thank god; I wouldn't have to meet up with him to study during this period.
I set down my books and listened in on the lesson, writing down notes and example problems. I kept daydreaming about how furious Ian would be if he found out what happened last night. I wonder if he would break up with me, or scream at me until my dad would have to tell him to get out, or even just ignore me for a month.
"Psst. Alex."
I picked my head up and looked around.
"Alex."
I glanced to my right when Mr. Falkland was writing something on the board to find a girl two seats over trying to get my attention. I don't really know her that well, but I think her name is Patricia.
"What?" I whispered back.
Patricia gave the boy next to her a slip of paper and the boy passed it on until it got to me.
I opened it up under my desk.
I didn't come for a fight but I will fight till the end
And this one might be a battle, might not turn out okay
You know you look so Seattle but you feel so LA
And I love the way you hurt me
It's irresistible, yeah
I love the way, I love the way
I love the way you hurt me, baby
I love the way, I love the way
I love the way you hurt me, baby
Confused, I flipped the piece of paper over to look for anymore writing. There was another scribble on the back that I made out to say, Irresistible, Fall Out Boy.
Shoving the paper back into my pocket, I looked around the room to see if anyone was looking at me as loud crumpling sounds filled the room.
Mr. Falkland was writing out the homework. He didn't seem to care, and nobody else did either. My eyes fell on Christian and we made eye contact.
This boy and his green eyes.
The bell rang and I was thankfully the first person out of class. I rushed to my locker, emptying my pocket, throwing away the note, and getting my books for the next class I had.
I shut my locker and turned around, keeping my head down low. That was a mistake, though.
My books fell on the floor and made the loudest sound. I'd collided with someone, but I didn't do anything besides apologize and pick up my books. When I stood up, Christian was staring at me with a guitar in his hand.
"Don't say sorry, it was my fault," he said.
"It's okay," I stated, and turned around whilst avoiding eye contact. I started to walk towards my class when I heard the strum of an acoustic. The entire hallway stopped what they were doing to keep their eyes on Christian. I didn't dare turn around as a melody was created, and he started to play Kid in Love by Shawn Mendes.
"I know that we just met
Maybe this is dumb
But it feels like there was something
From the moment that we touched
'Cause, it's alright, it's alright
I wanna make you mine,
The way you're lightin' up the room
Caught the corner of my eye
We can both sneak out the back door
We don't have to say goodbye
'Cause, it's alright, it's alright
To waste time tonight,"
I heard footsteps behind me and the noise of the acoustic got louder, and I realized he was walking towards me. I swallowed, and continued to walk. I heard him follow me, and tried to avoid the stares.
"Maybe I'm just a kid in love,
Maybe I'm just a kid in love
Oh, baby
If this is what it's like falling in love
Then I don't ever wanna grow up
Maybe I'm just a kid in love
Maybe I'm just a kid in love
Oh, baby
It'd be cool if it's the two of us
But I don't ever wanna grow up,"
"You really should," I mumbled, clenching my books to my chest.
"Cause I got it all
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
And I got it all
And I don't ever wanna grow up,"
I turned around to face him, which was a mistake. Christian walked up close to me and put his forehead on mine as he sang.
"Said, your place is kinda close
And your 'Rents are out of town
Baby, there's no pressure
But if you're down, I'm down
'Cause, it's alright, it's alright
To just talk tonight...
If you're feeling kinda crazy
Turn down the lights
We can take our time
Do whatever you like
It's alright, it's alright
I wanna make you mine,"
He smiled at the last sentence of the verse, then I backed away and he followed me down the hallway.
"Maybe I'm just a kid in love
Maybe I'm just a kid in love
Oh, baby
If this is what it's like falling in love
Then I don't ever wanna grow up
Maybe I'm just a kid in love
Maybe I'm just a kid in love
Oh, baby
It'd be fine if it's the two of us
But I don't ever wanna grow up,
'Cause I got it all
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
And I got it all
And I don't ever wanna grow up
'Cause I got it all
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
And I got it all
And I don't ever wanna grow up,"
I walked a bit faster. We had obviously caused a scene, because teachers were shutting their doors to keep quiet in their rooms. Others were coming out of their classrooms trying to pull Christian back, but when I looked back, he had escaped their grasp and was now trying to catch up with me.
"You make me feel like I got it all, yeah
And you make me feel
Like I'm just a kid in love
And you make me feel like I got it all
And you make me feel like I don't ever wanna grow up
Maybe we're just kids in love
Maybe we're just kids in love
Oh baby
If this is what it's like falling in love
Then we don't ever have to grow up
Maybe we're just kids in love
Maybe we're just kids in love
Oh baby
When we're alone and it's the two of us
I can't get enough,"
THANK GOD. I reached the Science classroom, which was my next class, and sat down. As more students filled the room, I could still hear Christian's voice, but it was getting fainter and fainter.
"I've got it all, yeah
I've got it all, yeah
And I've got it, and I've got it all
And I've got it, and we've got it all
And I've got it, and I've got it all
But I don't ever wanna grow up."
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A/N
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