Minji's POV
After Jungkook told me he kissed Yeri I did nothing but cry and ditch school. It's been a week since I last saw either of them.
Sure both Jungkook and Yeri tried contacting me a few times but I turned off my phone or just deleted their messages without reading them. Jungkook even tried visiting me one time but I simply pretended I wasn't home.
Without notice I had many sleepless nights, every time I closed my eyes all I could see was Jungkook kissing Yeri.
Actually, I stayed up all night last night, I kept waiting for my tears to put me to sleep but it didn't.
I couldn't take a step out of my empty room as I forced myself into reality.
I came to accept it.
Today and tomorrow will be the same, Jeon Jungkook will be in love with Kim Yeri and me? Bae Minji will forever be an unrequited love.
My friend Suah and Suga was the only two people I talked to. I often talked to the other BTS members too but it was simple exchanges.
I held my phone in the air, thinking of Suah's message last night.
There was a group date next week and she needs another person to attend in place of a girl now with a broken arm.
I sighed and closed my eyes as I tried taking a short power nap.
The door bell rang and I winced. I just allowed it to continue ringing until the person gave up and just went home but of course they just kept trying until I got sick of listening to it ring.
I opened my eyes and rolled out of bed. Groaning and cursing under my breath at the person who was bothering me.
My back was aching, my face was bare and swollen, I was also wearing my pyjamas and bath robe but I couldn't care less about my looks right now.
I opened the door, scrawling and frowning but was startled by Jungkook's face.
His face brightened up as he saw I had finally opened the door. "Hey Minji, I haven't seen you in so long." He chuckled.
I didn't even know I existed to you anymore.
Jungkook smiled and ruffled my hair. At the hue slightest touch I could feel that electricity between our skin. I could smell his intoxicating scent and the soft caresses on my skin as he cupped my cheek.
Please stop.
Don't give me hope.
I swatted his hand away and his expression changed from warm to confusion and shock.
"Eh?"
Jungkook moved his hand again, attempting to cup my cheek again but I dodged it and took a step back away from him. His eyes brows knitted as he stepped closer to me but I put my hands on his chest and gave him a gentle push. He stiffened as he knew I was upset with him. Jungkook always knew if I was upset I wouldn't allow him to touch me which was rarely.
"Minji what's -" he stopped abruptly when he noticed the tears trickling down my face. Jungkook reached out to wipe my tears but I quickly wiped them myself.
I pushed him outside, not wanting him to see me cry.
"Please. Please just leave me alone." I pleaded with my voice cracking. I closed the door and slid down against the door.
Allowing myself to bawl my eyes out as I cried messily.
When I stopped crying I noticed I had been crying for one hour straight. The house was filled with silence, the only sound that could be heard was the ticking of the clock.
Until there was a single knock on the door, followed by another.
I didn't dare open the door. I stayed silent, clutching onto my stomach as it rumbled from the lack of food from the last few days; I've lost a lot of weight and I've began looking like a skeleton.
"Minji," Jungkook's sweet muffled voice filled my ears, giving me pure ecstasy. "I'm sorry for whatever I've done. You're always there for me but I know I always pester you about Yeri and my love life. I'm sorry that I take advantage of your kindness." Jungkook continued as a slient sob could be heard.
I fought the urges of wanting to hold him in my arms and telling him that I'm here for him. I want to go back to just having Jungkokk to myself but even I knew that was impossible.
I stood up on my knees, reaching for the door knob but stopped as I realised what opening this door meant.
If I open this door, I'm giving up.
I won't ever end up with him.
He'll end up with Yeri and I'll be the one alone.
His quiet sobs softened my heart and my hand made its way to the door knob, slightly turning the handle.
I'm let one last tear slid down my face, allowing it to hit the floor. The sound of the clock ticking was now gone and all I could hear was the sound of my heart shattering in to small shards and fragments.
It's really over for me now.
"Please leave me alone." I widened my eyes as those words slipped out of my mouth. Jungkook stopped sobbing as he muttered a small muffled 'okay'.
I let go of the down knob and buried my face in my hands.
"Bye Minnie."
My old nickname, the name he had given to me after I started calling him Kookie.
The tears brimming on my eyes fell once again. Jungkook's heavy footsteps became further and further away until it completely disappeared.
"I had enough, please, please make it stop!" I croaked as I threw the vase onto the floor.
The small shards of glass accidentally cut my fingertips. I winced in pain but didn't even move from my stop. The pain was unbearable yet the pain Jungkook is making me feel is practically killing me.
"Please...stop."
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I went to school a few days after Jungkook's little visit and my breakdown. He stopped sending me messages and didn't call me once after our encounter.
But it didn't bother me.
I stopped waiting long ago.
As I entered the classroom I didn't even look at any of my classmates in their eyes. I laid my bag down next to my chair and sat down.
One classmate walked up to me, tapped me on the shoulder and gave me the pitiful smile that I detested. "Minji-ssi we were wondering if you knew where Jungkook was. He hasn't been school for a while."
I looked up apologetically and shrugged. They smiled sincerely and politely thanked me. Before they stepped away they turned back.
"One more thing," They began, "so is it true? Jungkook and Yeri is dating?"
I averted my eyes away, my heart pounding loudly against the sound of the busy classroom.
"I don't know."
They sighed and walked away before squealing with their group of friends. The class stayed noisy until everyone abruptly became silent. I thought it was just the teacher so I didn't even look to the front. But then there was footsteps coming towards my direction.
I finally looked at them and frowned immediately at the sight of Jungkook.
He had large dark circles around his eyes, his skin was pale and his lips dry and cracking. Jungkook cracked a small smile with his dry lips.
As I looked away he grabbed my arm and carried me in his arms, bridal style. Our classmates gasped as he ran out of the classroom with me in his arms even thought it was already class time.
My cheeks warmed up and his arms wrapped around me tighter.
We got questioning stares from people who walked by.
By the time we were in the storage room he let me down but grabbed onto my hand so I couldn't run off. Jungkook shut the door behind him and locked it.
"What did I do wrong?" He asked as he pulled onto a chair. I looked away, avoiding his stares. "You didn't -"
"Don't lie to me again. I'm sick of you leaving me coldly. All I asked for was your advice with Yeri and then when I visit you and send you message you never ever reply to them." I looked at him furiously, slapping him with all my might.
His smooth and soft skin was now red, the force pushed his face to the side as he was still grasping on what had just happened.
I panted heavily as I felt my face burning with rage. Jungkook held his cheek, shocked as this was the first time I even held a hand against him.
"How dare you...how dare you try to play the victim in this situation." I huffed out, "You left me, who was grabbing on to you, not even an excuse yet you left coldly, both you and Yeri. I've been alone for who knows how long. But not once have I complained or whined to you. So don't you dare make me the villain in this story!"
I ran out the storage room without even looking at Jungkook's face one last time. I looked back before closing the door.
Typical, he won't run after me.
I don't even know what I was expecting Jungkook to do.
As I walked back to the classroom memories of Jungkook and me flooded my head, only making me feel the tiniest bit of regret.
I got back into the classroom as the teacher raised an eyebrow at me. I bowed my head and apologized for being late to class.
"It doesn't matter, Ms Bae since you can speak English you can show Mr Kang around campus even though you haven't been school for a while." He laughed bitterly. I knew he was actually mocking me but I didn't care I was overwhelming in sadness and guilt.
Perhaps I was too harsh on Jungkook earlier. He couldn't help but be in love with Yeri.
No, I have to be stern with my actions.
The boy sitting next to my desk stood up and walked up to me. He was indeed handsome but Jungkook was more handsomer to me.
"Hi I'm Kang Jun." He bowed slightly, I nodded and walked out of the classroom with him trailing along. " I heard your name is Bae Minji?" He quickened his pace so he stood to my left.
I nodded, "is it true a kpop idol comes here? Jeon Jungkook?" He asked in english. I nodded again as the sound of his name gave me butterflies in my stomach.
"Are you close with him? I heard some people say that you were his childhood friend." I hummed as a response to his question which made him furrow his eyebrows and frown.
"You don't talk much do you?"
"I do but I'm just thinking." He stayed quiet for the rest of the times as he stood directly next to me. I showed him all the rooms as he stayed silent.
By the time we got to the storage space my legs were heavy. What if he was still in there?
I opened the door and froze. There they were together.
Jungkook pinning her against the wall as he kissed her passionately. Her smiling through the kiss as she wrapped her arms around his necks, pulling him closer to her.
All I could do was stand there, with my mouth partially open like an idiot.
"Minji are you okay?" I forgot Jun was there.
Jungkook and Yeri broke apart as they widened their eyes as they looked at me standing there with Jun. Yeri looked away guilty.
Screw the guilt I had before about being harsh.
He didn't care anyway. As long as Yeri was by his side then it wouldn't have mattered.
I faked a smile as a tear fell from my eyes, "congratulations."
Jungkook smiled sadly and a small awkward chuckle escaped his lips. "Thank you." He replied. I tugged Jun's sleeve and gestured him to follow.
So they've been dating this whole time.
I shut the door, "do you mind telling the teacher that I felt sick so I went home?" He understood my korean somehow and nodded.
"Bye." He said before I walked away.
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Suga pat my head and stroked it lightly. I hugged him tighter as he was multitasking. I felt pretty bad about bothering Suga while he was trying to finish writing up lyrics for his songs but he didn't seem to mind.
I didn't know what I was thinking when I came here. When Suga opened their dorm door he knew from the redness of my eyes I needed some comforting.
Without a doubt, I was glad the rest of the members weren't here.
Jin, Namjoon and J-Hope were at Taehee's place with Jimin and V; I didn't even want to imagine what Jungkook was going with Yeri.
Thankfully Suga decided to stay back at the dorm to finish up some lyrics.
"So did you like 'I NEED U'?" He asked as he continued stroking my hair.
"I liked it." I replied, snuggling in closer to him. It was comfortable. I couldn't help but imagine Suga was Jungkook. "Was school that boring that you decided to skip and come here to hang out with me instead?"
I thought about it for a second.
Now that I actually sat and thought about it. A lot happened.
Me slapping Jungkook and screaming at him.
Kang Jun the good looking transfer student.
The teacher mocking me.
Catching Jungkook and Yeri making out which also lead me finally came to realise their secret relationship.
I didn't want to talk about Jungkook just yet so I decided to mention Kang Jun.
"Nah, there was a new transfer student. He was pretty good looking." I responded.
Suga gave out a dry chuckled as he continued typing into his laptop.
"Anything new happen with Jungkook lately?"
"Oh nothing much, I caught him making out with Yeri. They've probably been together for a while and they just have been hiding it from me." Suga pushed me away and stared at me with wide eyes. "And you're okay with it."
I smiled and nodded. Suga held me tightly in his arms. I didn't even realise I had already began crying as his shirt was wet from my tears.
"I'm here for you Minji. No matter what. Oppa will always be by your side."
I sobbed loudly into his chest.
Jungkook I hate that I love you too much.
My heart starts to beat when I think of you.
My heart cries.
My world falls apart.
This night is never ending, so lately.
These days, my tears fall like rain.
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Author's Note
I really wanted to update today since it's my birthday tomorrow :)
So happy birthday to me ~