"But I just want to know what are we?" I asked nervously. I looked at him, I could tell I startled him with this question. His body language read that he was uncomfortable, and I'll admit I was a little uncomfortable too, but I had to know .
He placed his hand on top of his head and began to rub it, searching for his answer."We koo, I like what we got going on, we kicking it," he said, he sounded a bit too comfortable with the idea.
"Kicking it?" I chuckled, trying not to sound offended. "That sounds like fuck buddies to me. Is that what this is? " I asked, obviously expecting a different answer, but I don't know why...
He shook his head."Nah that aint what I'm saying , but I mean I really don't know what else to call it or this," he said indecisive. "There's no clear title." He had a point, but I still felt some type of way
"Well whatever you want to call it, I want more than that, this isn't enough for me Larenz," I said, disappointed at the fact that I had let this go onto long . He looked at me as if he was appalled.
"Woa.. are you starting to get attached?" he asked with a grin on his face. "Cause I thought we was just having a good time," he said under a light chuckle, it seemed like it was a joke to him. I sat straight up from my pillow.
"What makes you think that I'm attached? To you??? " I questioned him.
"The way you just reacted says it all..and you aint gotta say it like that. "
"Look, I'm not getting attached. I just want more than sex from my neighbor. I'm looking for something real, not a booty call."
" It's not a booty call though," he said.
"Then what is it? We barely know anything about each other, what's my favorite color, what's my favorite meal?" I asked. He scrunched up his face, trying to search for an answer.
"Uuh..." he rubbed his chin. "Yea we never discussed that I guess."
"Exactly. We don't know much about each other but our door numbers, and the color of each others bed spread."
"Yea I guess we don't," he said, it seemed like it was starting to sink in a bit.
"Yea this is totally out of my character, " I shook my head. "I didn't intend to jump in bed with you, not under these circumstances."
"So you think I think less of you because of it?" he questioned like he cared about my feelings.
I shrugged. "I don't know what you think," I shook my head. "All I know is I'm looking for someone to build something with..someone I can go to bed with and wake up in the morning to, someone to rub my feet when Iv'e had a long day at work, someone I can cook for. You get where I'm coming from?" I asked. I wasn't trying to scare him, but I needed to be crystal clear about my wishes.
"Yea I do, you looking for that somebody."
"Yea..exactly. I'm at that point in my life where I want something serious, I'm too grown for games, you know?" I asked making sure he was still following. He nodded.
"Yea I get it," he spoke. I nodded then looked away for a second, I started to stare at the wall.
"You ok?" He asked.
"Yea," I nodded. "Just thinking." He nodded. "Larenz," I called out softly.
"Yea," he spoke, I could feel him looking at me.
"Um," I chuckled. "I don't know why its hard for me to get it out," I spoke shyly. He grinned.
"Just say it," he encouraged a shy me.
"Ok, this is probably going to sound like I'm contradicting myself," I spoke. " But I'll say it anyways. We haven't got a chance to know one another on a personal level since you moved across the hall. The only thing I know about you is that you DJ, and the only thing you know about me is that I work at the bank... I would like to know more about you, and I would like you to know more about me. So, I was thinking we could get to know each other better, outside of these 4 walls," I said, feeling relieved to finally get that off my chest, but I was anxious at the same time.
"Like a date?" He asked skeptical.
"Um not necessarily, not less that's what you want to call it," I grinned, I was hoping he would agree, but he seemed hesitant.
"What? Did I say something wrong?" I asked anxiously. He looked at me with his big brown eyes, I could tell something was wrong.
"Look Janessa, you're beautiful, sexy, sexy as hell and from the looks of everything smart and independent," he paused.."But I gotta be real with you now,I'm not the guy you're searching for, so I'll be a man and stop calling and knocking on your door late at night. You deserve more than that."
I swallowed a gulp of my saliva. "Ok," was the only word that escaped out. Watching every single last one of those words pour from his mouth reminded me of why Iv'e been very closed off. Every time I have tried to give someone a piece of me, they find away to throw it away.
"I appreciate you being honest," I said in a calm tone, even though my heart was beating through my chest.
"Yea...it's only right."
I nodded. "Yea it is...well I gotta get ready for bed, got work in the a.m" I said cutting the conversation short.
"Aight, I guess I'll head across the hall," he said getting up to put on his clothes, I nodded.
I watched him get dress and all I could think about was how I wanted him badly, even after he rejected me. I wanted his body, but I also wanted his soul. I wanted to know him inside and out. I wanted to know what made him laugh, what made him mad, what made him cry, what made him strive. I guess I was starting to feel this way because there is something mysterious about him, he was like a case, one that I planed to solve.
Once he had everything on, I walked him to the front. We stopped in front of the door.
"Well..." I said with my arms folded. "I don't know what to call this, its not really a goodbye."
"Nah..not at all, we still cool, you need anything just knock on my door, its literally a few inches away."
"Ok, well same here, I'm here if you need anything," he nodded.
"Well, I'm gone head out, let you get some rest," he said nodding his head in the direction of the door.
"Ok, Goodnight Larenz," I spoke softly.
"Goodnight Janessa," he smiled turning towards the door. He opened it and walked out. I locked the door and let out a sigh. My mind was made up, regardless of his self thoughts I had to make him mine.
Larenz POV
"Damn," I mumbled to myself as I walked in my apartment which was pitch black. I walked to my room and pounced down on the bed. I began to drift off into deep thought. To any other man Janessa would be a dream girl. Everything about her is beautiful, even that attitude she posses. I know I don't know hardly anything about her as a person, but I can tell she's a good woman, the kind of woman you'd probably wife and have kids with. I must admit I kind of like her, I definitely felt a vibe between us , but I know I'm not the right dude for her; I'm known for breaking hearts. Besides I can't go into something with unresolved feelings from my past, I had to handle that first.
I held the phone up to my face as I waited for it to stop ringing.
"Hello," my ex girlfriend Mila's voice rang through the phone, I could tell she was asleep.
"Wassup?" I asked knowing damn well what the answer would be.
"Um sleep, what do you want?"
" We need to talk."
"Abo-tuut?" she asked through a sneeze.
"Us," I said expecting her to cop an attitude, especially since I woke her up.
"Boy its 3 in the morning and you want to talk about us?" she questioned in annoyed tone.
"Yea..I do, I don't like the way things left off between you and I, I miss having you next to me."
"You say the same thing to that bitch that sent you that Thank you card?"
"Aey I told you I don't know who sent me that," I lied. I didn't want to put Janessa in the middle of my drama, we've had enough of that in the past .
"You expect me to believe that?"
"Yes, I promise I don't know who it came from, and I honestly I don't give a fuck, I just care about making things right between us again."
"Huuh, I am so tired of hearing the same thing, its getting played out.. I'm going back to bed, goodnight Laren-"
"Mila," I shouted, I didn't hear the dial tone so I knew she was still there. "Look I know you hurt, hurt from all my bullshit..but don't act like you don't miss me, you know you miss having me around."
It grew silent for a second.
"Hello," I said. It remained silent, then I heard her let out a deep sigh.
"Ok, I'll listen to what you have to say," she said.
"But I rather be in person, just to make sure you're not trying to play me again, I'm on the way," she said, catching me by surprise.
"Aight," I said as a smile begin to plaster my face. I hung up the phone. I was glad that she was coming over to talk things over, especially since Iv'e hurt her repeatedly.
My thoughts were interrupted by a few knocks on the door, I figured it was Mila, but I glanced out the peep hole anyway.
"Hey papi, can I come in? So we can talk," she said in her sexy voice.
"That's why you here aint you?" I asked sarcastically.
"Maybe,"she said placing her hand on my chest, making her way inside. She locked the door behind her, and immediately start trying to get freaky and shit. I should of known this would happen , especially at this time of the morning.
She start kissing and licking all over me, until she got down to my dick to give me a blow job, something she was certified in. It was too bad I had to stop her, Janessa scent was still there, that would be the icing on the cake if she found out.
"Aey hold up, let me go freshen up first."
"Why?" she questioned tugging on my pants.
"Cause I'm sweaty, I worked out at 24 hour fitness and aint took a shower yet," I said while trying to keep her from taking off my boxers.
She chuckled. "Larenz, don't act like Iv'e never sucked you good after a good work out," she said grabbing my dick.
"I know but-" I stopped in the middle of my sentence due to her taking my head out through the hole in my boxers.
"Sssh," she said, planting a few kisses on it. Suddenly her mouth covered my head, she started sucking it down to my shaft.
"Mmmm, salty, but sweet," she said continuing. I let out a few groans, but I wanted her to stop.
"Mila, baby let me go wash my shit real quick," I begged, sounding like Jody Jr. and shit.
"Un un, I like it just like this," she said sucking my head like a blow pop.
"Baby for real it won't take long," I said trying to convince her that way I could wash off the evidence, but she wasn't giving in. She put all of me in her mouth. It was so deep, I could feel it in the back of her throat.
"Fuck," I said grabbing her by her hair as she sucked me good.
I don't know why I was letting her do this, it was beyond wrong. She was not only sucking me off, but she was also sucking Janessa too. It felt too good to stop her now though. So I fought against my thoughts, allowing her to finish until I nutted.
"Damn," I said as my come shot in her mouth. She released, and chuckled as she stood up.
"Now you owe me," she said.
"Ok," I said picking her up so we could head to my room. I threw her on the bed, and ripped her clothes off. Then from there fucked her like I was a porn star until she reached her climax.
Afterwards we took a shower then got in the bed. As I was lying next to her, I couldn't help but to think about Janessa, and our conversation. I thought about it until I finally fell asleep.
Janessa POV
Today while at work, I tried distracting myself from thinking about Larenz, but instead I found myself thinking about what he said earlier this morning. I wondered why he felt that he wasn't the right one for me. Maybe he wasn't a one girl kind of guy or maybe he was just scared of commitment. Whatever reason he had, I wanted to change his mind.
After a short day at work, I arrived home with Larenz still on my mind. I decided that I would go talk to him. As I approached the building I thought about what I would say, how I would say it. I didn't want to come off aggressive or seem desperate. Maybe I could tell him that I enjoyed having him around and wanted to build a friendship, or I could help him promote his djing. My thoughts came to a halt after Larenz's door opened, nobody walked out immediately, that was odd.
"Aight I gotta go," a girl said walking out of his apartment. She was pretty, short and petite, she resembled Ariana Grande. I felt like I had seen her before, but I couldn't put my finger on it.
"I'll see you later tonight," I heard his voice. She nodded and proceeded to walk down the stairs.
"Excuse me," she giggled as she attempted to get by me. I looked at her and gave her the fakest smile possible barely moving over.
"Aey Mila," Larenz called out stepping out of his apartment. His whole demeanor changed when he saw me, our eyes locked with one another.
"Yea," she said looking back, it took him a second to respond. Until I walked past to go to my apartment door.
"Never mind, " he said. She chuckled as she turned back around, quickly leaving out the building.
As I turned the key in my lock his voice pierced my ears.
"Janessa."
I turned around. "Yea."
"Um-how was work?" he asked, it was obvious he felt slightly embarrassed.
"It was ok," I said back quickly. He nodded his head.
"That's good," he said. "I hope that wasn't weird for you or anything."
"What you talking about?" I played stupid.
"Seeing her coming out of here, I mean we did just you know what less than 24 hours a-"
"Larenz," I said. "It's ok, you don't owe me an explanation, were not together." He nodded in agreeance. "Besides she's cute, don't want to ruin that."
The look on his face was priceless as I turned around to walk inside my apartment, I smirked at him as I closed the door. I placed my back up against the door as I thought to myself. It made sense now, he rejected me for her. That's what was holding him back. I'm not going to lie, I felt like marching over there to give him a piece of my mind for the way he used me over the past week, but I played a part in that as well. Besides, if that's who he wanted then there was nothing I could do.
Larenz Pov
"Damn time flew," I said to myself as I walked back to my room to find something to put on for tonight. I had agreed to meet up with Mila at some fancy ass restaurant down on the plaza. I aint know what the hell I was about to wear. I'm not into wearing suits and shit so that was definitely off the list, but I had to look somewhat presentable for the environment, and her too.
As I got ready to meet up with Mila I couldn't help but to think about Janessa. The way she must be feeling after seeing Mila leave out of my apartment. Even though she claimed she wasn't bugging, I'm sure deep down she's pissed. I mean after all she is a woman, and we have practically been fucking each other for the past week straight. I didn't want no bad blood between her and I, so I tried calling her.
I guess her phone had died cause it went straight to voicemail. "You have reached the voicemail box of...." that annoying as operator lady spoke through the other line. I hung up the phone quickly, I decided not to call back. I had to be at the restaurant less than an half hour so I left.
I arrived barely a minute late. As I walked up to the restaurant, I called Mila's phone.
"Hello," she spoke, I could tell she was inside due to the chatter in the background.
"Aey wassup? I'm here."
"Ok come in, our table is in the middle," she explained.
"Aight," I said walking in. I scanned the crowd until I spotted her, sitting down at our table. As I approached she got up, we gave each other a hug, and a quick peck on the lips.
"You look nice," she said looking at my jean shirt, venturing off to my wrist as we set down.
"Thanks baby, you look nice too,"I said. She smiled glancing back down at my wrist.
"You still wear it I see," she said referring to the gold watch. It was a gift she got me when we first started messing around. It cost a pretty penny so I made sure I took good care of it.
I nodded. "Yup, it still looks new as ever huh?"
"Yea, you took better care of it then I expected," she shook her head.
"You know how I am about my shit, gotta stay crisp," I boasted.
"Yea I know," she giggled. I chuckled back.
"Hello," I heard a female voice interrupt our laughter. "How are you two doing?"
"Good," Mila and I said in unison.
"Great, well my name is Aubrey I'll be your server for tonight is there anything I can start you off to drink with, any appetizers?" she asked. I looked at Mila, to see if she knew what she wanted.
"Um I'll take a pina colada for now," she smiled at the waitress.
"I'll take a water," I said. Mila gave me a dry look, she always did that when I ordered just water, but shit water is free.
"Ok, well I will give you two a little more time to look over the menu, I'll be back shortly," she said. We nodded our heads, and she left.
About 5 minutes later she came back and took our orders. Then shortly after our food came to the table, that shit looked heat.
"Eew this is good, this is some good stuff," Mila said taking a bite out of her food.
"It look fire," I said before taking a bite out of mine.
"So do yours," she said watching me take a bite. I nodded.
"It is," I said, She smiled, while moving her hair to the side.
"So tell me," she paused taking a sip out of her drink. "Was that girl in the hall your neighbor?"
"Yea why?" I questioned caught off guard. She chuckled before answering.
"She was kind of rude."
"How?"
"I said excuse me so I could walk past her without bumping into her, and she act like she aint want to move," she said raising her eyebrow.
"Hmm, I mean the stair case aint that wide so.."
"So she still had room to move over, and I didn't like that fake as smile she gave me, it seemed like she had a problem or something."
"Baby, I think you just jumping to conclusions, she cool, she aint never got an attitude when I see her, at least it don't seem like it," I said sticking up for Janessa.
" I don't know, its something about her I didn't like."
"Well baby all that is irrelevant, we here, this is about us so lets not talk about other people," I spoke trying to change the subject. It was an odd subject given that Janessa and I had relations, so I didn't want to continue to talk about her .
"You right bae," she said. I nodded, then ate some more of my food , she did too. It got silent for a couple of minutes.
"So, what you been doing these last few weeks," I asked breaking the silence.
She shook her head. "Just thinking about what I want in life."
"What's that?"
"You know our big house with a 3 car garage , pool in the back, our 4 kids running around, us..just being well off," she said. I grinned she sure knew how to think big, literally.
"Damn girl, how we suppose to pay for all that without going bankrupt?" I chuckled. She chuckled at my sarcasm.
"Hush, we want go bankrupt. You forget who my pops is?" she questioned with her eyebrow raised.
"Aw yea how could I forget you are a daddy's girl,"I teased. She chuckled and fanned me off.
"Whatever, speaking of daddy, he said he would hook you up with a position whenever you were ready to work in the big office."
I chuckled. "Tell'em thanks, but I'll pass," I declined.
Mila's daddy is on the board of directors at one of the biggest health care companies, Cerner Corporation. He makes a ton of money, and that's why Mila never has to worry about scrapping for a penny in her life. So every since her and I been together, she's been trying to convince me to work there.
"But baby..you would look so sexy in a suit and tie," she playfully whined.
"Nah babe, you know I aint the suit and tie type, and that corporate shit aint for me."
"Babe, I know you don't like that type of work environment, but they make a lot of money," she preached.
"I bet they do, but like I said its not for me, you cool with that?" I asked wanting her to get off my case, I hated when she started that pressuring shit.
"Yea," she nodded." I'm sorry baby," she said dropping it, I nodded.
"Its koo," I said.
"So what have you been doing?"
"Same ol, working, doing my dj stuff..Trying to get some connections going," I said with a smile glued to my face.
Mila nodded her head and gave me a fake smile. She reached for her cup to take a sip. She was starting to give off a bitchy vibe, I wasn't feeling it .
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"Nothing," she shook her head.
"Mila I'm not dumb, wassup? It seems like you have an attitude," I said trying to get her to admit something was wrong.
"Ok," she sighed. "I'm not going to sugar coat it anymore, I'm tired of hearing about this dj shit, like when are you going to stop?" she asked, she was dead ass serious. That had to be the dumbest question she's asked all night.
"When am I going to stop?" I asked looking at her like she was crazy.
"Yes, when are you going to quit djing?" she asked. "I mean Larenz you have been doing that shit for a while and it hasn't paid off yet."
"Ok, well shit don't just happen overnight, you gotta work for it," I said adding bass in my voice, she was really trying me up in here. I wasn't understanding why she was taking shots at me. Its not like this was new to her, she knew I loved to dj when we first got together.
"Woa," she laughed. "Don't start that shit, just because my dad and mom are in the position to help me doesn't mean I aint have to work just as hard as you." I laughed to myself, because she couldn't be serious right now. Work as hard as me? That was a straight up joke.
"Please, do you even know how the fuck to spell work? You aint worked a day in your life, better yet you aint worked a second in your life," I said bringing her ass back to reality, she was obviously living in a fantasy.
"Whatever, this isn't about me, this is about you," she said. "I can't do it, I can't be with no nigga thats gone cheat and on top of that have a wack ass djing career, Iv'e done it way too long," she said like she was fed up. I was certainly getting fed up, entertaining this bullshit she was talking. So I pushed my chair back, I was abouta dip out.
"I'm bouta leave, since I make your life a living hell," I said.
"I bet you are because you cant handle the truth,"she said watching me get up from the table. I ignored her, this made her even angrier. "That's why my other nigga on the way," she spoke getting up.
"Yea whatever bitch," I mumbled, I was trying my best not to make more of a scene then we had already.
"You can't handle the truth huh?" she said. "Well here's the truth, You're the reason your brother is dead," she spoke, piercing my ears with those horrific words. I stopped in my tracks. It took a lot in me not to turn around and strangle the shit out of her. She knew how sensitive I was about the topic of my brother. I turned to face her.
"You right, you show right," I said with sarcasm.
"Wait, what are you doing?" She questioned me as she watched me take of my watch.
"Giving you back what's yours," I said. "Take it, cause I don't want the shit anymore."
"Larenz, keep it you know I didn't mean it," she pleaded.
"Its too late, we done," I spoke. "For good." I said, I couldn't be more harsh. I turned around and walked toward the door, I could hear her voice echoing behind me, begging me to stop, but I kept going.
I rode all the way home in deep thought. Mila fucked my night up on so many levels. She for one didn't respect my line of work. I understand she wanted me to make some good money, but She knows that djing is my everything. So for her to say I need to stop was a low blow. Then she proceeds to say she was gone call her other nigga, really?? Makes me think that her ass been cheating all along. But what really got me is she had the audacity to mention my brother and blame me. That was fucked up of her because she knew deep down I've felt guilty as if it was my fault. I couldn't continue to let her try to throw stones at me, I'm done with that..
I pulled up to the apartment finally, I cut the car off. I looked over and saw Janessa's black Honda accord sitting beside me. I turned back to face forward and began to ponder, until it hit me. I got out the car quickly and went inside the building.
Janessa POV
I was lying down on the couch with Pebbles watching a movie, Sprung, a classic. I needed to distract myself from thinking about how Larenz played me, but watching this made me think about it more. I swear I'm horrible at picking the right movies when I'm down.
As I ate a handful of popcorn, I heard loud knocks on the door. I got up from the couch and pebbles followed. I looked out the peep hole to see who it was, and of course it was Larenz ass, last person I wanted to see.
"It just had to be him," I mumbled as I unlocked the door. I opened it slowly, leaving it partially opened. I looked at him without saying hi.
"You need something?" I asked.
"I wanted to talk to you, you got a moment?"
"Not really, I have import-"
"It will only take a second," he said in a convincing tone. I sighed as I stepped back to let him in. I shut the door, but I didn't lock it, since he said it would be quick.
"So wassup?" I asked slightly annoyed.
At first I wasn't mad at him about his overall decision, but after having time to let what I saw earlier today marinate, I didn't want to be bothered with him.
"I was thinking, maybe it wouldn't be such a bad idea to get to know each other," he spoke. "You still feel the same?" I looked at him like what he said was a joke. I don't know who he thought he was coming up in here trying to get his way.
"Unbelievable," I said shaking my head. "Really. Larenz you was just on a date, now you over here trying to get to know me. Sounds a little shady."
"Look that wasn't a date, more like hell," he said trying to woo me in with humor.
"Oh ook, so since your date went sour, you coming over here trying to make me the rebound? You not gone play me, I'm sorry."
"I only went on that date to see what I really wanted so you can miss me with all this," he said getting attitude, which was funny considering he was the reason we were having this discussion.
"Well what the hell do you want? I'm confused... One moment you're in and out of bed with me, You want me to tell my best friend about us, then the next you calling a quits cause you think I'm attached, then you got a girl leaving out your apartment, going on a date with her. Like what the hell do you want??? I don't get-" My rant was interrupted by his lips pressing up against mine.
I wasn't expecting to feel them again, at least no time soon. I'll admit I was enjoying this moment even though it wouldn't last. He pulled away, with his hands still on my face.
"I want to get to know you," he spoke. "And your little ankle bitter," he chuckled. I gradually smiled and playfully hit him. "I want your friendship, I want you."
My heart skipped a beat, I didn't know how to feel. What I did know was the feelings were mutual. I smiled.
"I want you too...."
A/n What a chapter huh?? So much drama...What are you guys thoughts??? I really enjoy your point of views. Vote, comment and tell me, let's make it a discussion. And stayed tuned for the next chapter