It was a dark and tragic night for the Survey Corps. We were sent out on a suicide mission and as a result, lost more than half of our soldiers. As we were trying to recapture wall Maria, a bunch of abnormal titans appeared out of nowhere and wiped most of us out. I somehow managed to run away.
I hate this.
Hiding in a dark abandoned building all alone. The only sound I could hear was the storm outside. The storm and my heart. It was beating so loud... I felt like it could burst out of my chest any moment now.
I had lost all hope. I wanted to see my family so bad. I wanted to tell them just how precious they were to me. Just how much I love them.
And I wanted to tell him.
Instead I would die like this...carrying my feelings to the grave.
I felt cold. Sad. Lonely. Afraid. And angry. Angry that I couldn't do anything back then. Angry that I just ran away like a coward instead of facing the titans and dying like a hero. Tears started falling down my cheeks.
"I don't want to die. I don't. Save me...somebody save me already....Levi." I cried out.
Suddenly I heard a very loud noise. As if something broke. In a second I realized what had happened. The roof above me had disappeared. As I felt the rain falling down my body I looked up and froze in fear. A 15 meter tall titan was staring at me. I had to run away. I knew that. But somehow... I couldn't move. Its arm reached towards me. I closed my eyes.
That's it.
I'm done for.
Goodbye everyone.
I'm sorry I wasn't that good of a person. But hey, at least I was a good soldier right? I did my best. I contributed to humankind. Right? I knew the answer to my own question but I tried to believe in the beautiful lie I had longed to hear one day.
At least I get to see everyone now. Heh...I wonder if they would be mad at me that I ran away that time. Would they hate me? I waited for some time but nothing happened. No hand grabbed me. I was still there, alive. I looked up and saw the Corporal standing above me.
I was laying in a bed. A nice comfortable bed. My room? But how did I get there? And why was he of all people looking at me like that. He was opening and closing his mouth.
"Just like a fish." I thought.
And then I realized he was actually calling out my name.
" Y/N! Y/N! Answer me!"
"Y-yes, Corporal!"
"Are you alright? Are you feeling okay now?" He seemed worried.
"Yes, I... What happened?" I asked confused.
"A titan almost devoured you, that happened. You were just staring at it unable to react on time. If I hadn't been there, you'd be-"
"Wait... You saved me?"
"Who else could have saved you, brat."
Tears filled up my eyes and as they started falling down my face, I recalled the horror I felt back then."Thank you, Sir. Thank you..." I cried.
He showed no emotion as usual but he held my hand in his as I cried.