Y/N - yah
I'm just trying to read my book but all I can hear are them, chatting away and giggling to themselves
Suzy - what? Can we not?
Nat - yeah Y/N, can we not?
Looking down from my book, left and right they were each on one side. Nat was on my left and Suze was on my right,
Y/N - I don't know why you two are so giggly.
Suzy - can I not enjoy my time with you?
Nat - because we like you
I let out a smirk as they both kissed me on the cheek.
Y/N - yeah yeah, it's not like this would happen.
I mean.
Of course it wouldn't.
They distorted in front of me, their eyes turning inside out into black satin eyes of fear.
I have no mouth, and I must scream
Fingernails sharpened to devour, dug into my arms but no sound can't come out. The walls closed in, the both of them sitting by in front of me
Can any of these?
Ever end?
My eyes opened, my voice was hoarse with my yells or even cries echoed as I sat up in my bed
Suzy - hey, hey
I felt Suze's hand on my back, gulping while I turned my head to face her
Suzy - it's okay, it's okay I'm here
Looking at her, It was too much to bear.
Sometimes, I think it was real. But most of the time, it wasn't.
She tries putting her hand to my cheek, but I flinch.
Suzy - it's okay. I'm real
My eyes were wide open as if I saw the light of god strike upon me.
But, I forgot.
Her soft gaze was the only thing that keeps me afloat alongside any of the girl's quirks that I have known to adore in my comfort.
My chest softened, the breathing less, and she was able to slowly put her hand on my sweaty cheek
Y/N - I'm- I'm sorry.
Suzy - it's okay, I'm sorry that you keep having them
I gulped, putting my hand on top of her, dragging myself closer to her
Being like this, it's misery.
I thought it would be over but I want it to stop.
I just want it to all end.
Not me, but everything that ruins it.
I feel like a child right now, like a toddler running to its mother for comfort.
Wrapping my arms around her waist, my head laid still on Suze's chest with her hand retracting from my cheek but now around my neck with her other caressing the back of my head
Y/N - I'm sorry
Suzy - don't apologise. You'll get through this, we'll get through this. I don't know why you keep having them but I promise you it'll be okay.
Y/N - I'm sorry
All I could repeat were those words every time.
Because I truly felt sorry for Suze for doing this for me. She doesn't deserve this.
Suzy - it's okay, I'm here. Don't you ever feel sorry for this. I love you too much to know this isn't bothersome to me. I'm just as a person as you are too.
But I remained quiet this time, indulging in her elegant voice, calming me down.
Suzy - I don't know what cruel entity decided for you to suffer. Because you don't deserve so. But like I promised. I'll be by your side till I die. And it's a promise I'll never break.
With those words, she kissed me softly on my forehead, telling me it's gonna be okay.
My head looked up unconsciously, looking at her makeup-less face that I've always preferred.
The moonlight shining part of her face, her gorgeous beautiful soft elegant smile that was so soft, it felt like an angel came from above.
Suzy - you know, most girls would tell you that you should be lucky to have me. But I'm lucky I have you, you know that?
My time was to make a move and that I did.
After she said that, I let go of my hold on her and put my hands on her waist
Y/N - I kn- know that.
Suzy - there you are.
Y/N - you're not most girls anyways. You're just Suze
Suzy - your Suze. though Suji would be nice to hear once in a while
Y/N - Suji, sweetheart.
Her lips curled so far higher than I have seen since our first kiss. Her cheeks turned rosy in an instant, but I could tell she wasn't the Suzy I know anymore. But rather, Su-ji. The part of her that wanted to be away from what she portrayed, only staying true to herself from now on.
Suzy - god, I always knew you were a smooth talker.
Y/N - thank you, I feel better now.
Suzy - you already got your hands on my waist. You gonna kiss me or what?
Kissing her, always felt like a reward.
Not from her or neither me, but rather from the nature that is human life. I have so much more to uncover, more to package in with the girls as well. But, slowly. We'll get to it
Suzy - mhm, do you wanna stay up with me and talk?
Y/N - I can do that, yeah.
Nodding my head, I pulled away from her so I could sit up against the headboard.
Sitting up a bit and pushing myself with my strength to go against it, she rested her head on my shoulder while holding my hand shut with hers.
Suzy - anything on your mind honey?
Y/N - nothing much.
Suzy - hm, by the way. It's been a week since you and Nat ended up like us as well. Didn't expect her to grow a pair but, looks like she did.
Y/N - seems so Suji-ah
Suzy - Suji-ah?
Y/N - do you not like it?
Suzy - no no, I like it~
Y/N - but uhm- *clears throat* It's sort of odd. The way everything has been. We've been working our asses off day and night, coming home to each other. And then all of the shit with the girls except Haneul
Suzy - hmmmm, it is sort of odd. We're like coming home to each other like a couple ain't it?
Y/N - seems so.
Suze didn't blush, her lips curled into a sly but soft happy smirk, it seems like she's loving every part of being with me.
Suzy - ain't too bad isn't it?
Y/N - no, not really.
Suzy - and to have those 3 other girls waiting for you when I'm off for work? You're so popular aren't you?
Y/N - that's also weird too considering I was never a popular kid in secondary or even Primary
Suzy - what's that?
Y/N - sort of like, Secondary is like Junior high to High school? And Primary is Elementary to middle school
Suzy - the more you know
Y/N - but we're getting off track
Suzy - sorry. But, despite the differences in our relationships and with theirs towards you. Wouldn't it feel amazing on your side?
Y/N - what do you mean?
Suzy - like, are you happy about this?
I took the time to think about it, dropping my head with my arm wrapped around her neck to her shoulder.
Y/N - I- I am.
Suzy - a bit hesitant there?
Y/N - no it's just- I truly didn't expect them to feel that way towards me like you did for me right?
Suzy - mmhm.
Y/N - it still catches me off-guard with the way that things will change from here on then.
Suzy - still scared of change?
Y/N - a little.
Suzy - don't try to lie
Y/N - *sighs* still am.
Suzy - Change is good for you, for all of us. Look where it got you and me right now
Lowering my head, she smirked as she put her hand on the back of my head
Suzy - you've got your arm around me and my hand on the back of your head, there is nothing much more better than this. In the arms of the man I love.
Y/N - Ain't nothing better than this at all.
She pulls me in,with me accepting the passionate sweet kiss from her.
It's always so peaceful with moments like this.
Sometimes, I just don't want to let it go.
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Y/N - eugh...
Opening my eyes slowly. I rubbed them with the middle of my fingers but, I felt a weight on top of me.
Y/N - Suji-ah?
Taking a minute to get my eyesight back, I grabbed my glasses off my nightstand and put them on to see her.
Nat - morning babe.
I lifted an eyebrow with her suddenly pouncing on top of me which, was quite unusually uncharacteristic of her to do.
She held onto me so tight that it was quite, weird?
Y/N - Nat?
She cuddled and held onto me like a baby, even so far to get under my sheets. Wrapping herself around it and put her head on my chest
Y/N - what are you doing here? Where's Suze?
Nat - oh, she let me in here since she was going to work.
Y/N - she let you in? At what? 5am?
With tired eyes, I wanted to question her even more but she kept a recurring smile on her face.
Responding to me, she nodded with a cute smile but I just accepted this as my fate as of now.
Nat - mmhm. What? Not excited to see me?
Y/N - no just weird to see you in here so early. And in my bed. And you were on top of me.
She giggled to herself like a schoolgirl before giving me a kiss of her own loving self towards me
Nat - sowy, just couldn't help myself.
Y/N - yeah yeah, they asleep?
With my weak morning arm, I put it on top of her hair where I began to caress it softly, letting her calm down and laying her chin on my bare chest.
Nat - mhm. We got the day off. So they might come over in a bit, they were planning to ask you to have breakfast here today
Y/N - I know, Jules texted me about it.
Nat - can- can I help you with breakfast?
Y/N - of course you can Nat. but one question.
Nat - yeah?
Y/N - you know I am like, almost bare naked right?
Nat - yeah so?
Y/N - it just means I am in my boxers correct?
Nat - andddd?
Y/N - does- doesn't it like, I don't know? Fluster you in any way?
Nat - you're sort of my boyfriend now right? Why wouldn't I be flustered?
Y/N - no offence Nat, you're weird sometimes, y'know that right?
Nat - I get that sometimes from them, so I understand it.
Y/N - huh. Okay....
Nat - can I kiss you?
I scratch the back of my head while admiring her from this angle.
I know she's only a year older than me, so our generational gap is non-existent but sometimes I do feel I am older than her.
Even in the way we act towards each other. Maybe that's just me, I don't know.
But putting that thought aside, she was dressed quite. tropical?
Given I do feel the heat from where I'm lying in the bed, it's a pretty warm summer day.
Y/N - yeah, of course. You can kiss me
She leans in, grabbing the back of my head, our lips pressed against each others while I held her cheek
I pull back from her after a minute of so as she chuckled once more
Y/N - you know, I never seen you in shorts at all
Nat - really?
Y/N - mmhm. And or a tank top
Nat - it is quite warm
Y/N - I can feel it
Nat - I was planning to see, if you wanna go to the beach with me?
Y/N - why not bring the rest of the girls?
Nat - true, but I want you
She puts her finger up to her lip, seductively biting on with a flirty smirk making me softly smile myself
Y/N - calm down there, you already have all of me. Let them have their fun too with me
Nat pouts for the first time in a while, which again. I'm just not used to it.
Nat - awhh, fine.
Y/N - but, I might have to turn your offer down Nat, I don't think I'm able to go anywhere today
Nat - aw what?!
I sat up in my bed, with her suddenly pouncing on me wrapping her arms around my neck
I patted her back softly as she groaned out of frustration
Y/N - hey I'm sorry, I have to deal with something with Jisung today
Nat - with what?!
She shouted which, again, was weird. I pull her back from me but all she could do was be shy
Nat - so- sorry.
Y/N - what is up with you man? It's sort of freaking me out
She pushes me off with a 'hmph' and walked out the door while I just watched her go
'What the fuck?'
Jumping out of bed, I ran out the bedroom door just to catch her walking to the front door
Y/N - hey talk to me
Nat - no, I'm mad, you made me mad.
Y/N - I did?
I turned her around and she was acting, cute?
Y/N - how did I make you mad?
Nat - first you can't go out with me. Second, I'm trying to act like a girlfriend to you and it's freaking you out or whatever
That's kind of, adorable seeing her like this.
Y/N - wait. You're really trying to act like my girlfriend or something?
She was still sulky as I let out a soft laugh, just honestly admiring her for her efforts towards me
Y/N - awww Nat, thank you. But, I like you the way you are. Really. I should've told you this because I told Suze this as well.
With me saying that, I could tell on her face as she listened. She drops the act and became her usual self with a big smirk on her face
Nat - ah right. You lo- love good old me right?
She was blushing hard with her head turning away to try hide it from me but I could tell
Y/N - yes Nat, I like good old you. It's much more cuter than what you were putting on there
Nat - y- you think I'm- I'm- cute like this?
Y/N - mmhm. It's the best part, seeing you like this everyday
Boom.
That was the last straw for her. She suddenly became a blushing mess with both of her hands on her head trying to process it
Nat - huh?! What?!
All I could do was just wrap myself around her, giving her another kiss. Softly swaying her back and forth, putting my chin on her head as she calmed down.
Nat - fu- fuck you Y/N.
Y/N - what for?
Nat - for making me this way.
Y/N - I'm sorry.
Nat - don't be *sighs* you idiot. I'm glad I fell for you.
Y/N - me too.
Nat - I hope Haneul-ah doesn't like you too, would it be too much for you to handle?
Y/N - probably.
Nat - always up for a challenge are you?
Y/N - I'm willing to try.
Nat - well, if it does happen. I'm gonna scold the shit out of her/
Y/N - please don't do that
She let out a laugh. The both of us were now ready to continue on with our day.
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I wouldn't want to bore you with the details of such.
After that whole thing with Nat, I made us breakfast and I went on my merry little way to Jisung after dropping her off at her place.
All he asked me to do was to help him build a crib.
Y/N - Hyung, are you really gonna have a kid?
Jisung - yup.
We were knee deep in wood and safety gloves as his fiance watched from the doorway
Y/N - congrats again noona
Fiance - thank you Y/N
Y/N - you guys have a name yet or do I have to wait for the baby shower first?
Jisung - wait for the baby shower first
Fiance - honey, don't be like that
Jisung - Miahne, but *coughs* we're hoping for anything, we already do have names lined up, girl or boy
Y/N - something meaningful perhaps?
GF - he wanted a cool name if it was a boy
Jisung - look, Goku is a cool name
I facepalm, his laughs were joyful to hear alongside his fiance's.
Maybe I too, dream about it as well.
A family of such.
She walks up to up, he nods to me while I take the hammer off from him as I hammered a nail into the piece of wood
Fiance - you know Y/N, despite him being all so stupid at times or so hectic to deal with. He's caring and loving, even he's too shy to show it
Jisung - Hajima
It was weird seeing Hyung smile so brightly yet flustered red.
Maybe that's what I dream of too.
Evenso, it brings me down to my knees to make me smile too.
After a few hours of helping them with it.
Getting the crib finished and actually having to repaint the room and decorate it a little. It was time for me to go home.
I waited outside the bus stop where I get a text, prompting me to look at my phone while waiting
Y/N
Hm? Suze?
Suzy
Honey, I think I'm early tonight. Do you want takeaway or anything?
Y/N
I don't know, what are you feeling?
Suzy
I'm not sure either
Y/N
Also the girls are coming over tonight, that fine with you?
Suzy
You don't have to ask me sweetheart, you own the place
Y/N
Half of it, the girls also live below too
Suzy
Right, anyways. I gotta go, sorry. Just used my 5 minute break to tell you but, I'll grab us some drinks on the way home
Y/N
Lovely, thank you
I put my phone away as coincidentally, the bus came at the right time.
Sitting at my usual seat, I looked out the window.
Processing everything that's happened lately.
Confessions from the heart from everyone, the fear of fear from myself.
It's all so concerningly weird.
Concerning because I have my own problems but it's also coincidentally for all of these events to happen simultaneously in an order like it wasn't my own life.
I'm glad though, that it has happened.
I always knew I wouldn't have the courage to face it head on.
Always undeveloped in my books in what I read for comfort and to be away from reality.
Now that I'm sucked into it again, into the perspective of being a real person.
I understand what it's like to love again.
Without the worries of never feeling good enough.
Time passes by quickly even in the blink of an eye.
I was already at my stop, which made me quickly get out of the bus and walked towards home.
Tonight seems lovely, I won't lie to you.
The glistening moon with its perfect clouds that wrap its shape, feelings like a transformation to occur anytime soon.
Going up the stairs, I could hear faint giggles from the inside.
'The girls are already here'
Without having to take out my keys, I took a big sigh, preparing myself as I opened the doorknob
'Y/N!'
Their voices.
All of them saying my name, being greeted with the sight of them, all happy to see me
Haneul - oppa!
Haneul ran to me, wrapping me in a hug as I patted her head
Y/N - oh hey, Haneul-ah, haven't seen you in a while
Haneul - where have you been? You haven't been busy have you?
Y/N - I have, you?
Haneul - still preparing for the new comeback and stuff, kind of boring
Y/N - hm, I wonder how that usually goes, tell me on the couch?
She pulls me by the arm where I was greeted by the girls
Y/N - Hey Jules
She blew me a kiss which was quite, ravishing.
Y/N - Belle
Belle - Hey there playboy, miss us?
Y/N - y- yeah?
She laughs to herself, averting my eyes lastly to Nat who I just saw this morning
Y/N - Nat
Nat - o- oh. Hi!
Y/N - Hi Nat
It was different now. Knowing that everyone had changed since we first met.
All of them being so comfortable with me but with parts that had clearly changed.
I don't know if I could get used to this at all.
Oh god, I'm coming in and out of my decisions. I really don't know if I could get used to this at all.
All of a sudden, our heads turned to the front door where we watched Suze, clumsy walk into the house as she trips on herself, making me get up and walk over to her.
The rest of the girls followed as she laughed to herself while she held a bag of food in her hands. Presumably the takeaway
Suzy - aw whoops, sorry! Hey girls! Hi Honey!
The girls never saw me kiss Suze or the other way around at all so this was a first for them with her suddenly wrapping her arms around my neck and giving me a big kiss.
Haneul - oppa?!?
She pulls off from me, only seeing Haneul was the only one flustered as the girls of the girls had their arms crossed and then looked at each other
Suzy - hm? Did I miss something?
Julie - oh, nothing unnie. Just a really long talk after all of this is over
Y/N - goddamn it.......
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The dinnertime with all of us had passed by quickly as we came in.
And here we were now, all of us on the couch where I had Haneul sleeping on my lap with my hand in her hair caressing it gently while the girls were around us.
Suzy - and that was the time when Y/N walked in on me
Belle - Y/N, I didn't know you were so~~~
I took a sip out of my beer before turning to her
Y/N - no listen, It was an accident. I didn't know!
Suzy - pfffft, even these girls would pay money to see me naked ain't that right?
They nod as I sighed to myself
Y/N - yeah yeah, I don't see it as getting lucky though
Julie - but you were lucky, you're acting like you never saw a pair of tits before!
Y/N - I haven't!
The girls were clearly taken aback, not even laughing at all. Looking at me with surprised faces
Nat - you literally saw mine!
Y/N - It was dark!
Belle - you saw Natty's boobs?!?!
Julie - what the fuck?!?
I could tell Suzy was enjoying this with a big ass smile on her face as she took another sip of her own beer
Suzy - safe to say I was pretty much his first pair of tits he's seen at all
They look at her with disappointed faces then looking over at me
Y/N - what?
Nat - you're so low to do that y'know?
Julie - really it's always Suzy-unnie and never one of us
Y/N - why are you blaming me?!?
Belle - I don't know why we even do these nice things for you
They were clearly distraught, with I. in the middle of everything that sorely made me hella confused.
Suze nudges me with her elbow, making me turn to look at her
Y/N - hm? What?
Suzy - nothing, see what you have over them?
I turn back to look at their faces, still patiently waiting for me to talk
Y/N - huh.
Suze chuckles to herself as I cleared my throat
Y/N - anyways loo-
We look towards the front door in an instant.
The sound of the doorbell going off as we all looked at each other in confusion
Suzy - I didn't order anything else?
Belle - neither did I
Y/N - hm?
I get up slowly, letting Julie taking my position so she could rest Haneul's sleeping self on her while I walked over to the door
Scratching the back of my head, I put my hand on the doorknob, opening it slowly.
Y/N - Hello?
Immediately after saying that, I got put into a headlock but reassured, I could recognise her laugh from anywhere
Amy - how's my little bro doing?!?
Y/N - yo stop!
We laughed our asses off with her still trying to choke me out but the girls were adamantly confused as I could hear them from behind me, rushing to run over to me
Suzy - who's this!?!? Get off my boyfriend!
Amy lets go of me, confused too as the girls surrounded her
Amy - boyfriend?! E/N what the fuck?
I held Suzy and them back, calming them down
Y/N - guys it's okay! This is Amy! My sister!
They calmed down, noticing Jules was still on the couch with Haneul on her lap
Julie - who's there Y/N?
Y/N - My sister Jules!
Julie - oh, I can't really get up from here you know!
Y/N - I know, give us a second!
Turning back to Amy who held a smug smirk on her face while crossing her arms, Belle decides to be bold and puts her chin on my shoulder while grabbing my still arm with her hands
Belle - oh baby, you didn't tell me about your sister~
She bites my ear but I glare at her to stop but I could tell she did not want to stop.
Nat - baby, you didn't remind us about her coming here~
Nat was trying to do the same, either intimidating her or I don't know? These girls are weird
Y/N - Yah, Hajima, you're in front of my sister
Amy - woah there, maybe we should calm down first
Belle and Nat shake off their act and suddenly came back to being themselves while I stood in front of her
Y/N - you didn't call, that's weird
Amy - wanted it to be a surprise, care for a hug?
Y/N - hell yeah
Me and Amy hug it out like usual, but as I came to hug her, I could notice some hair sticking out from behind her that wasn't hers
Y/N - wh- who's this?
We pull off from each other with all of us looking towards Amy
Amy - come out would you?
She jumps out to the side, exposing herself to us
? - Annyeong!
We wave at her, greeting her hello
Amy - this is- well. Hard to explain.
Y/N - how?
? - Hi oppa!
Y/N - m- me?
Amy - she- we should get on the couch first
I close the door behind her, letting her introduce herself to the girls.
Feeling a bit suspiciously odd, because of how this mysterious girl was looking at me
? - so, you're Y/N right?
Y/N - yeah?
She takes out her hand for me to shake
? - Bae Jinsol
Y/N - Jinsol? Sounds familiar
Nat - wait a second, aren't you that girl from NMIXX?
She turns to face the Kiss of Life girls with Amy facepalming to herself
Amy - I told you not to reveal yourself yet!
She laughs out loud.
The girls were confused as ever, and I am too.
I'm not sure on how to approach this anymore.