Stars twinkle
so prettily,
Where is mine?
I want to achieve
my dreams,
So give me a sign.
Be it in the music or
through your words,
I want to hear.
Your true thoughts,
I want to hear them first.
Before I decide I'm
too tired for any of this,
that I need a break
to not fall in a pit,
Where I'm lying in
bed for days.
Where when I'm
in my car,
I gas it stiff.
I leave my books
and imaginations
behind.
I'm heading
to a destination
unknown,
Me with my
dark thoughts,
alone.
After your message,
I spent several nights
in self-reflection.
I've decided we're better off
friends than something
that always stays vague
and up in the air.
I'm tired of playing this game,
I'm gonna switch my gears.
And take control of
what we are and
where we stand.
I may seem irrational
to you now, but
I hope one day
you'll understand.
Why I did what I did,
but it's fine if you don't.
You can live your life
and I'll mine alone.
I look out at the
empty streets
through my black
tinted windows.
Mascara, lipstick,
a new date night, to
feel like myself again.
Few sips of wine
with a beautiful guy,
and play pretend.
Where I'm fine
and over you, and
ready to take
the next step.
Be strong, pretty
and sharp even
without needing
your help.
This is my life, and
I'll reshape my story
the way I want.
I'm over it,
I'm over you,
I'm over giving you
more than you deserve,
because you had
your chance.
I'm tired of
putting you
above me first.
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Words collected from: Loveseatingkookies