𝑴𝒂𝒛𝒊𝒌𝒆𝒆𝒏'𝒔 𝑷𝑶𝑽
Everything is so loud. I can't do this! I felt my heart breaking, my head feels like it's about to explode! The rapes, the torture...everything is coming back, and I can't make sense of anything! I feel like something is tearing me up from the inside, and EVERYTHING HURTS!
"Mazikeen!"
Who? What? Wait...that sounds like...Cade? I felt myself screaming, but I couldn't hear anything. I grabbed the bond with him in my hands.
"IT HURTS!!!"
I felt him pulling me toward him. My bonds...they opened back up...but I didn't open them, or did I? I felt a hand on my shoulder,
"Squishy...open your eyes,"
It hurts. It hurts to breathe. Maybe if I just keep my eyes closed, it will stop?
"I...It hurts too much!"
"What does?"
"Everything!"
"Open your eyes, Mazikeen! I know you can!"
"I CAN'T CADE! IT HURTS!"
"You know who I am?"
"I'm remembering everything! Make it stop, Cade!"
"Squishy-"
"No! Make it stop!"
Then...it stopped hurting. How is that possible? I felt a wave of peace flow through me. I felt something touch my cheek. I opened my eyes to see Cade there, in his holo-form, his alt-mode nowhere near,
"Can you hear me now?"
"Cade?"
Cade smiled softly at me and nodded,
"Yeah,"
He pulled me into a tight hug. Oh, it's a deluxe father-Will hug that he gives me after I get hurt badly...which happens more often than it probably should. I felt everything slow down, the memories were still coming through the walls but...it was more manageable. But...Mudflap and Skids...they died. I felt Cade squeeze me softly,
"I got you, Squishy, I got you,"
I felt the tears finally slip out as I hugged him back,
"T-They are d-dead!"
"Who?"
I looked at him, even if it was hard from how blurry my vision was with the tears,
"M-Mudflap and S-Skids! They died alone!"
He sighed and put his hands on my shoulder,
"Squishy,"
I shook my head. There is no way he is going to tell me this isn't my fault,
"W-What kind of AllSpark holder am I if I let them die alone?! They died, Cade! I didn't even fragging know!"
Is he seriously glaring at me right now?
"It's not your fault! I don't know how they died. But they did not die alone! They died together, a fate that any twin wishes. If one of us dies and the other lives, that kind of pain has driven Cybertronians mad."
"But I didn't know,"
He sighed,
"Squishy, you know as well as I do that you can block bonds. Some can even snap the bonds in order to save their partners. The only exception would be an Amica Endura bond. Tell me, can you feel Tex, Sunstreaker, and Sideswipe right now?"
I frowned. I know the bonds are back...but...
"I...I haven't tried,"
He smiled at me and put his hand on my chest, right where his mark is, and I put my hand on his, right where my mark is. I could see a faint glow, were our marks glowing again? I looked at his silver eyes again,
"Mudflap and Skids broke their bonds with others to save them. Que, what did you feel when he died?"
The memory came rushing back, and I rubbed my eyes, stupid tears,
"Like something in me snapped...I felt his pain...I knew how he died,"
Cade nodded,
"And you would have felt both Mudflap and Skids die if they did not cut off the bond. When was the last time you looked at the bonds?"
Bastard. I blushed and sighed,
"Um...when I teleported into the other universe,"
When the fuck did he become a know-it-all. He chuckled,
"Okay, now. What do you want to do?"
Why the fuck did he say it like that? I immediately thought back to when Jazz ran off as soon as he kissed me...I can't believe he actually kissed me! THEN he took off??? Like, what the fuck buddy? I sighed,
"I need to find Jazz,"
Cade smirked and crossed his arms. Oh, that cheeky bastard probably knew why,
"Why is that?"
I punched his arm,
"He took off."
"Because???"
"Shut the fuck up, you scrap-pile. You probably know what happened,"
"Oh, do I?"
I glared at him, and he laughed,
"Just go find lover-bot, come home after, okay?"
"You sound more like my dad than my best friend,"
Cade laughed,
"What kind of best friend would I be if I didn't do this?"
A better one?? I punched him again, and he laughed before turning off his holo-form.
"Just don't stay out too late!"
I groaned,
"Bastard,"
"HEY! I heard that!"
"HOW?!"
"I am simply that good,"
Now. The only issue right now is...where the frag did he go? Yeah, we have a strong bond...but it's not as strong as the one I have with my brothers, son, and best friend. Cade better count his motherfucking days cuz I swear to the sky when he finds someone, I will bully him just like he did with me. But let's focus, Maze...If I was Jazz, and I didn't want to be found...where would I go? I groaned,
"This is impossible,"
Wait...where is the one place I hate the most? The fucking beach! That cheeky bot took me to this small area one time...He somehow found a patch of beach a bit away from our base, and he took me one time and promised I would love it. I ended up throwing sand at him and running away. But that has to be where he is!
𝑻𝒉𝒊𝒓𝒅 𝑷𝑶𝑽
Jazz sat in the sand, looking at the moon. His arms were wrapped around his knees as he thought about what he had just done. His processor could not keep up with his spark as it pulled at him to go back. He focused on the waves as they crashed against the sand. When his spark finally stopped pulling at him, he heard a voice,
"Jazz?"
Jazz immediately stood up and stumbled as he turned to see Mazikeen,
"Lil M,"
Mazikeen frowned up at him, and he felt his spark break at seeing the unshed tears,
"Why...why did you leave?"
Jazz looked away from her as he felt guilt wash over him again,
"I...It.I was doing the right thing,"
Mazikeen shook her head,
"No! You weren't doing the right thing! Why did you run away after kissing me?"
Jazz finally looked at her as he felt his spark painfully tug at him again,
"I did the wrong thing...I should have never kissed you. I-"
Mazikeen felt her heart crack at his words,
"You...that kiss didn't mean ANYTHING to you?!"
Jazz felt anger rush through him at himself,
"No!"
"Then what?!"
Jazz sighed and knelt down in front of her,
"Lil M...It meant EVERYTHING to me. But I should have never done that to you. I should have asked permission. Or fragging anything else. I am so fragging sorry. I understand if you don't want me as your guardian again...you can just tell Will that you don't feel a connection with me or something since you don't r-"
"I do!"
Jazz frowned and tilted his head,
"You what?"
Mazikeen put a hand on his leg,
"Jazz. I remember everything. Every fucking memory came back after you kissed me,"
Jazz's optics widened in shock as he stared at her,
"What?"
Mazikeen laughed and nodded,
"Y-Yeah! How else would I have found this stupid place? Which I hope you know, I will get you back for making me get on the sand after having a heart attack,"
Jazz frowned and gently picked her up and held her closer to his face as he scanned her over with his optics,
"What do you mean, heart attack?"
Mazikeen shrugged casually,
"Oh, well...apparently, having five years of memories rushing back all at once really hurts, but it's fine now! It slowed down after Cade did some weird shit,"
Jazz couldn't help the growl from escaping him,
"Barricade?"
Mazikeen nodded,
"Yup! I guess even with my memories gone, our bond was still strong enough that he felt my panic and pain. I don't know what he did, but yeah, problem solved."
Jazz sighed and looked at her,
"You should have Barrica-"
"Don't even think about saying Cade should be my guardian,"
Jazz sighed,
"But, Lil M...he knows you better now-"
"No, he doesn't,"
Jazz sighed,
"I dou-"
"Jazz!"
Jazz winced at how loud she was but looked back at her,
"Take off your visor,"
Jazz frowned but did as asked. Mazikeen put her hand on his cheek and smiled softly at him,
"Jazz. Cade is my best friend, saying he would be a better guardian than you would be like saying Sides or Sun would be a better guardian, and they would not. Jazz, you are the ONLY one that makes me feel the safest I have ever felt in my entire life. I have had nightmares for a long ass time. That's why Aura and Eddie were shocked when they learned you could make them go away. I can't sleep without you, nor would I ever want to. The past month has been fucking horrible. Sure, I liked everyone in the other universe, adored Wheeljack. But none of them helped me sleep. None of them could make me forget about my problems or my fears. Jazz, the reason I saved you the first time we met all those years ago, not only just cuz I noticed you were about to get offlined by Megatron, but I felt a tug at my heart. I. I have felt my heart pulling me toward you since we met, Jazz...and I was too scared to lose you...I love you, Jazz. I have always loved you."
Jazz's optics widened in shock as his spark sung,
"Lil M...I didn't know,"
Mazikeen smiled softly at him as she wiped away a tear from her eyes,
"Well, n-now you know,"
Jazz raised his other servo and softly brought it closer to her face as he gently brushed away a strand of her hair,
"Lil M...I...I've spent a long time trying to figure out why my spark kept pulling at me...I went to Ratchet, Optimus, and Will. None of them gave me a clear answer other than you. You told me to follow my spark no matter where it took me...and I learned...I learned that it has always been pulling me toward you...Lil M...you have been my anchor. Through every battle and every moment of doubt, you've been there, guiding me and inspiring me to be the best version of myself. And I'll spend every cycle of my existence proving to you just how much you mean to me. Lil M, I love you...I have for a long time as well. I knew I could never love any other being more than you when you named me the father of Tex...you are what makes my spark beat,"
Mazikeen laughed tearfully as she brought her hand to his digit,
"You had to copy what I said, huh?"
Jazz smirked and winked at her,
"Hey, I learn fast, I thought it would work,"
Mazikeen smiled at him and nodded,
"It worked,"
Jazz smiled as his spark finally felt peace, as did Mazikeen's heart. Jazz leaned his forehead against hers as softly as he could,
"Can I kiss you?"
Mazikeen giggled and nodded,
"You fucking better not run away again,"
Jazz laughed,
"I promise,"
He pressed his lips gently against hers. She immediately kissed back as a metallic taste filled her mouth, but she loved it. Their spark and heart sang as the two kissed. They pulled away to breathe, and Jazz smiled softly at her,
"I love you, Lil M,"
"You fucking better,"
Jazz's optics widened, and he gasped,
"What the frag?"
Mazikeen laughed and wrapped her arms around his face as best as she could,
"I'm kidding!"
Jazz laughed,
"I know,"
"I love you too, Jazz,"
Jazz smiled brightly and nudged her with his digit,
"Hey, now we know if you ever lose your memory again, I just have to kiss you,"
Mazikeen smirked,
"Maybe I'll just fake amnesia to get you to kiss me,"
Jazz rolled his optics teasingly,
"You can just ask,"
Mazikeen smirked and patted his cheek,
"I know. Now let's get going before Will gets a heart attack when he finds out I'm not inside,"
Jazz's optics widened,
"HE DOESN'T KNOW?!"
Mazikeen shrugged innocently,
"Eddie does,"
Jazz immediately transformed into his alt-mode, and Mazikeen laughed as she plopped into his passenger seat as always,
"You scared of him?"
"No! I am scared of Ratchet, though,"
Mazikeen laughed even louder,
"Ratch won't do sh-"
"Lil M, every single time you get injured and I get you out without Ratchet knowing, we are both put on clean-up,"
Mazikeen shuddered,
"SPEEEEED!"
Jazz laughed, and he immediately sped off toward base,
"I swear if Eddie snitches!"
"Well, what did you tell him?"
"That I was going to find you to talk,"
"That's all?"
Mazikeen nodded,
"Yep!"
Jazz turned on his holo-form and shrugged,
"Then, nothing to worry about,"
Mazikeen glanced at him,
"Why did you turn on-"
"Because I want to be with you,"
Mazikeen just gave him a look,
"You literally are? I am inside your alt-mode,"
Jazz smirked,
"But, I get a better view of you right now,"
Mazikeen rolled her eyes,
"Flirting gets you nowhere with me,"
"Oh really?"
Mazikeen smirked at him and nodded,
"Yep!"
"I guess we will have to test that out tonight,"
Mazikeen's eyes widened, and she slapped him as he laughed,
"Shut the fuck up!"
"Make me!"
Mazikeen smirked and grabbed his shirt. She immediately pulled him closer to her and kissed him. Jazz's eyes widened, and he gasped, and his engine sputtered and stopped. Mazikeen smirked and let go of him,
"You good?"
Jazz blushed and started driving again,
"Yes,"
Mazikeen laughed,
"Alriiight,"
"JAZZ! WHY IS WILL TELLING ME THAT YOU ARE WITH MAZIKEEN AND YOU ARE BOTH OUTSIDE OF THIS BUILDING?!!!!!"
Jazz and Mazikeen shared a horrified look as Ratchet's voice played through the comms. Jazz blushed,
"Oh, Hey, Ratchet-"
"DON'T YOU HEY RATCHET ME!!! WHERE THE FRAG ARE YOU?!"
"Oh, we never left the base-"
"Then who am I staring at right now as they drive inside the building,"
Jazz looked up and winced as he saw Ratchet with his narrowed optics watching them,
"Scrap,"
Mazikeen looked at Jazz,
"Nice knowing you,"
"Pleasure was all mine,"
Ratchet stomped over toward them with his arms crossed,
"MAZIKEEN MICHELA WITWICKY!"
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FRAG YEAH! Oh, I can die in peace. My babies finally admitted everything to each other, and it only took them five years and over a hundred chapters 🥰
Ratchet is going to rain fire on them, but some people are going to make some money! The bet and who won are going to be revealed!!