Hello everyone! This chapter has a POV, and a dream in it. However, the dream will be a flashback, ik spoiler alert sorry, not sorry. Everything in italics will be Mazikeen speaking, and I will have past Mazikeen that she sees labeled as D-Mazikeen.
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𝑱𝒂𝒛𝒛❜𝒔 𝑷𝑶𝑽
I drove over to Will's house. I remember where Lil M's room was and stopped near it. Everyone else was by the barn they had. Optimus told me to make sure I recharged, and I think he noticed that I haven't been getting much recharge since Lil M disappeared. But Optimus has known me for a long time, so I guess that makes sense. I think he and Hatchet were planning on putting me in a stasis lock if I didn't start recharging normally soon. My spark hurts more than ever before. I thought that losing Lil M again was painful...but seeing her look through me like she did earlier, I had never felt that kind of pain before...it was worse than when she almost offlined those human years ago in Egypt. I want her back...I want her to remember me again. Not just as the Cybertronian she saved from Megatron, but as her guardian and best friend, maybe even as a sparkmate. I promised Will I would tell her when she came back...but how could I tell her when she has no memory of me? Not even Tex! I want to talk to Tex, but he's still with Annabel. He's trying to distract himself from everything going on. What kind of sire am I if I can't even console my sparkling?
"Dad?"
I felt myself smile,
"Tex, what is it?"
"Can you come inside?"
I know I shouldn't...I can't risk confusing her...but what harm would it be to spend time with my sparkling?
"Okay, I will be there soon,"
I turned on my holo-form and stepped out of my alt-mode. I glanced up at Mazikeen's window before walking through the front door. I can still sense her...it's smaller than before, but it still counts for something in my processor. I immediately saw Tex running up to me and jumping into my arms. I held him softly and sighed,
"It's okay, Tex,"
Tex shook his head and looked at me. I could see the Energon slowly leaking from his optics,
"I miss my mom,"
That right there...that's a stab to the spark. I wiped his optics and got myself to smile at him,
"Hey, Lil M is still here...she will remember us, I am sure of it,"
Tex sighed,
"She...she looked right through us, dad...she recognized you...but she didn't know me."
"Tex...Lil M doesn't know any of us right now. But she will. We just gotta jog her memory,"
Tex sighed and nodded,
"Alright,"
I smiled at him and patted his head,
"Come, you need to recharge,"
Tex rolled his optics,
"I am f-"
"Don't even think about arguing,"
Tex sighed, and I smirked at him. I carefully set him down on a couch, I didn't want to bring him back to me because I don't want to accidentally disturb his recharge. Tex sighed and looked at me,
"Can you promise me something?"
I nodded,
"What is it, bud?"
"Never leave me. I don't want to lose either of you,"
Oh, the little rascal wants to break my spark,
"Tex, I will never leave you,"
"You...You stopped talking when mom disappeared...you cut yourself off from all of us...I almost did lose you,"
I felt my spark tug at me as despair flowed through our bond,
"I'm sorry, Tex...I...I couldn't handle losing your mom...I didn't know what to do,"
"Dad, I know you love mom, but she will never leave us...she will always fight to come back home,"
I smiled and put a blanket over him,
"I know,"
I stayed until he fell into recharge and turned off my holo-form. I haven't thought about what my actions did to him. I need to make it up to him. He's my sparkling...I need to make sure he stays himself.
𝑻𝒉𝒊𝒓𝒅 𝑷𝑶𝑽
Mazikeen opened her eyes and frowned in confusion as she saw herself before her,
"What?"
D-Mazikeen looked over at something and sighed,
"I know you are watching, Ratch. You and Jazz are not slick,"
Ratchet sighed and walked up to her,
"Maze, it has been a week since the last fight, you need to rest,"
"And I will,"
Ratchet narrowed his optics at her,
"When?"
D-Mazikeen shrugged,
"When I die,"
Ratchet rolled his optics at her,
"I assure you, even when you die, you will not be resting."
D-Mazikeen laughed,
"Probably, but I am almost done!"
Ratchet glanced at her,
"You say that very often. Don't make me call Eddie too,"
Mazikeen frowned in confusion. D-Mazikeen glanced at Ratchet,
"You know as well as I do that Jazz and Eddie don't always get along,"
Ratchet nodded,
"Which is why I will take the risk and call both of them."
D-Mazikeen narrowed her eyes,
"You are lying,"
Ratchet smirked and crossed his arms,
"Do you want to take that chance?"
D-Mazikeen grumbled and put down a device,
"Fine. Just call Jazz over so he can take me to my room,"
Ratchet chuckled,
"Go outside, he has been waiting the past twenty minutes,"
Mazikeen followed herself out the door and tilted her head as Jazz put his servo down for D-Mazikeen to climb on,
"Hey, Lil M, did you finish yet?"
D-Mazikeen sighed and shook her head,
"Nope, Ratch wouldn't let me finish,"
Jazz rolled his optics at her and chuckled,
"Lil M, recharge is very important for humans, and unless the day comes that you are no longer human, you must recharge,"
D-Mazikeen sighed,
"Yeah, yeah. You just want to sleep,"
Jazz shrugged,
"Maybe, but I require less recharge than you,"
D-Mazikeen smirked,
"Yet, I wake up before you in the morning,"
Mazikeen frowned
"What are you talking about?"
Jazz grumbled,
"Hey, being in my holo-form all night is difficult,"
D-Mazikeen smirked and patted his cheek,
"You poor baby,"
Jazz glared at her,
"Hey! I will sleep outside if you don't stop being a bully,"
"Outside?"
Jazz smirked at her,
"You wouldn't recharge as well then."
D-Mazikeen rolled her eyes,
"Whatever,"
They got to a room, and Jazz transformed back into his alt-mode, and Mazikeen watched as a man stepped out of his alt-mode. D-Mazikeen smiled and grabbed his hand,
"Come on,"
"What is this? Is this the past?"
She stopped right outside the door that D-Mazikeen and Jazz had walked into. She put a hand on the door but felt herself jolt.
Mazikeen jolted awake and stood up with a groan as her head pounded,
"Ow,"
She went to her window and looked out to see a familiar car. Mazikeen stared at him for a moment before deciding that she wanted some answers. She quickly left her room and snuck downstairs and out the door. She ignored the feeling of grass on her feet and walked up to Jazz,
"Are you awake?"
"Yes, why are you?"
Mazikeen sighed and shrugged,
"Weird dream,"
Jazz opened his door for her,
"Do you want to talk about it?"
Mazikeen stared, but she got in after feeling her heart tugging at her. She leaned against the seat and sighed,
"Everything is so different,"
Jazz sighed as he felt her frustration tugging at him,
"Time changes everyone. We can't stop it,"
Mazikeen sighed and nodded,
"I know...I just...I don't understand why I lost my memories...and not all of them, you know? It just doesn't make any sense to me,"
"We all think it's because of your power loss and gain,"
"But what kind of power? That's what's confusing me. Why the fuck was I given powers? I'm just a soldier-"
Jazz's engine roared a little, and Mazikeen looked over at his dashboard,
"You okay?"
"No."
Mazikeen frowned,
"Why?"
"You are not just a solder, Mazikeen. You are a sister, a friend, a protector, you...you are so much more than what you see. Yes, you are a human, but that never stopped you from protecting us, from protecting my friends and my family. No matter what, Lil M, you have always fought for those around you, for the people who couldn't defend themselves. You are strong, and you deserve so much more than the hand given to you,"
Mazikeen smiled softly and patted his dashboard as she felt it heat up under her touch,
"Thank you...I...I wish I could remember everything...I really do,"
Jazz sighed,
"It's okay to not remember, I'll take it as long as you are with us,"
Mazikeen glanced at him,
"Turn on your holo-form,"
Jazz felt his spark tug at him again,
"Huh, why?"
Mazikeen smiled at him,
"Well, you can't really transform without waking people up, and I'm sure Sarah would kill us both if we wake up Annie, so this is the easiest way to look you in the eyes, right?"
Jazz turned on his holo-form and looked at Mazikeen. Mazikeen looked right at him and felt her heart pull at her toward him. She shrugged it off and smiled at Jazz,
"Thank you for being here. Yeah, I don't remember anything...But...I think I remember something,"
Jazz tilted his head as his spark filled with hope,
"What do you remember?"
Mazikeen grabbed his hand and smirked at him,
"You can't sleep without being in my room,"
Jazz's eyes widened, and his engine immediately sputtered as his cheeks flushed blue,
"W-What? W-who told you that lie?"
Mazikeen laughed loudly as he stuttered,
"A dream told me. So get your lil ass outside, and let's go to my room,"
Jazz shook his head in amusement,
"Actually, I think your dream was telling you that YOU need ME in order to sleep,"
Mazikeen immediately slapped his dashboard, and Jazz yelped in surprise,
"What the frag?!"
Mazikeen smirked and got out,
"Sure it was, let's go already, I want to sleep,"
Jazz shook his head and quickly followed her into the house. Mazikeen dragged him over to her room,
"Here we are. It's not much, and I'm glad that I haven't decorated it in the past five years,"
Jazz chuckled,
"Yeah, but first you have to clean u-"
"Nope, sleep first, think later,"
Jazz chuckled and allowed her to drag him to the bed. She lay down, and he smiled softly as he lay down next to her,
"Better?"
Jazz sighed and nodded,
"Yeah,"
He carefully wrapped his arm around her, and she leaned against his chest as content filled them.