one plus one equals seven
Anonymous
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Summary:
Five times Jungwon got jealous and one time he did something about it
Notes:
I hope i did the prompt justice
Work Text:
One: Heeseung.
Jungwon is, by no means, a jealous person. He's never been. Being jealous means being possessive over something/someone; feeling entitled to something/someone. It's just not in Jungwon's nature to be like that.
However-
Nature or not, this is not something he can pick and choose, it's just how he feels.
It's not necessarily something akin to possessiveness, it's more of a but why not me kind of situation. Is that jealousy?
It should've been me. I could do that, too.
And aside from this untitled feeling, Jungwon also feels utterly betrayed. All of this jumbled mess caused by one person and one person only: Jay.
Well, okay, technically two people; Jay and Heeseung. Jay, as the second oldest in the group, is the one doing the babying, not the one being babied, makes sense, right?
And yet, obviously, sometimes he just likes being the younger one. The one that someone takes care of. And as Jungwon already mentioned, since Jay is the second oldest, the only one who can really do the babying without making it weird is Heeseung. Heeseung hyung who loves his younger members and has been friends with Jay the longest. Heeseung, who currently has Jay's head on his lap as they play video games together.
Jungwon is sitting on the floor, technically next to Jay, as his head is on the same level as Heeseung's knees. If he tilted his head to the side, the crown of his head would probably touch Jay's. So really, it's not like Heeseung is keeping Jay all to himself, no. It's just that Jay never comes to Jungwon for this. Jungwon's strong, he wouldn't crumble if Jay laid his head in his lap. And he's the leader, Jay should feel comfortable with coming to him for comfort. So why, why did he choose Heeseung over him?
He always says he likes to cuddle Jungwon, likes hugging him, but it's always just when cameras are around. It's an act.
Jungwon huffs at the realization. Fan service.
"You look constipated," Sunoo informs him. He looks to the side at his best friend. Best friend, someone who shouldn't be smirking at him knowingly. Jungwon just rolls his eyes. "I'm serious, Jungwon-ah, you look in pain. He's not stealing him from you."
Jungwon glances at Heeseung who's trying to braid Jay's short hair and snorts in irritation. Not trying to steal him, my ass.
Jay, obviously, hears the snort and tilts his head back to look at the leader. "Everything okay?"
Heeseung's hand slides from Jay's hair down to his perfect jawline, his fingers graze Jay's neck and Jungwon feels something ugly bubble up in his chest.
"Just peachy," he mumbles back and kicks at Sunoo when the older boy chuckles. They go back to playing games and Jungwon grips his phone a tad too tight, trying not to look at them being all cute. Jay could be cute with Jungwon, too. Should be all cute with Jungwon.
"You could just tell him how you feel," Sunoo whispers. Jungwon shakes his head furiously. Absolutely not. "I'd rather go through i-land all over again than to do that."
Two: Jake.
Even though Jake is fluent in Korean and can express himself very well, sometimes he still prefers saying things in English; which is perfectly fine as Jungwon himself kind of uses it as his English practice. He never really indulges Jake with full blown conversation, dropping a few English words here and there, but as Jake is more comfortable with English, Jungwon is definitely more comfortable with Korean.
Someone who doesn't mind either language is, of course, Jay. He's actually said several times that he liked speaking English with Jake as he got used to doing everything in Korean and was afraid his English got worse. And so they talk in the other language quite a lot.
"Jay, pass me the remote," Jake says in English and stretches out his hand. Jay puts said remote on top of his palm. "Here you go, bro."
As much as everyone likes Jake's Australian accent, there's something so nice about Jay's American accent, his voice drops lower and honestly, Jungwon could listen to it for ages.
"Wanna watch a movie tonight?" Jake asks. "We could watch it on my laptop."
"Your bed or mine?" Jay shoots back and something very ugly, something very similar to the bitterness of jealousy makes an appearance at the back of Jungwon's throat.
"Dude, mine. Your bed is creaky as hell," Jake chuckles. Jungwon shoots them a look. They might think they're super sneaky, speaking English, but they seem to forget that Jungwon understands very well. Jay notices and puts his hand on Jungwon's knee. The touch sears through his pants, Jungwon is hyper aware of the spot where they're touching. It's pathetic.
"It's weird to watch a movie with a chair with the laptop on it, between our beds," Jay explains. "It must've sounded strange, right?" Jungwon shrugs, feigning indifference.
"So you just...cuddle on one of your beds?" Jake shakes his head furiously. "Hell no, cuddle him? He's an awful cuddler."
Jungwon doesn't think so; actually, he thinks the exact opposite. During the very few occasions Jay wanted to cuddle with him, Jungwon thought that he was a great cuddler. Warm and soft in the right ways. Jake doesn't know what he's talking about. Jungwon desperately wishes he was rooming with Jay so they could cuddle and watch movies together.
"Bad cuddler, huh?" Jay snickers. "Last night you crawled into my bed after having a bad dream and suddenly you didn't mind that I was supposedly a bad cuddler."
Once again, Jungwon understands every single word. He doesn't wanna hear it anymore. He gets up from the couch, decides that he's going to take a shower now that the bathroom is empty. Jay and Jake continue to bicker. Jungwon thinks Jake might've called Jay a little cunt.
"You sound like an old couple," he says bitterly, in English. Because he can speak English, too. Jay could talk to him, too.
Three: Sunghoon.
Now that it's established that Jungwon is indeed jealous, it's so easy to pick up on all the little things that set him off.
And it really is the littlest things that can send him into a jealous frenzy. Maybe he needs therapy.
One of the things that act as a trigger is Jay being touchy feely with others. Jungwon clearly remembers Jay saying that he wasn't the physical touch kind of guy. It's not his love language, it's never been. Lately, however, he drapes himself over anyone and everyone. Even Sunghoon, which is funny, because these two are literally Tom and Jerry in human form. Their love language is bickering and teasing each other; not physical touch.
So, why the fuck are they all over each other?
Jungwon stares at them as they're wrestling on the living room floor. He's stiff all over, no pun intended, really uncomfortable with the situation.
Both Sunghoon and Jay are squealing as they're playfully hitting each other. Jay's shirt rides up and reveals his stomach. Jungwon is just about ready to risk it all.
Sunoo plops down next to the leader and hands him a popsicle. "Don't glare at them like that. Jay hyung won't get it anyway."
"He never wrestles with me," Jungwon mumbles petulantly.
"Because you would pop a boner," Sunoo pokes his forehead. "And he still wouldn't get it."
Jungwon huffs and puffs, still frowning as the two keep tickling each other. "Lame."
Four: Sunoo.
Probably the only person Jungwon would never expect getting jealous of is his best friend, Sunoo. He knows Sunoo like the back of his hand, he loves the dude (no homo, of course); so it's the strangest feeling to see Jay and Sunoo chitchat about their high school days, all excited, and feel the dread in the pit of his stomach.
He feels incredibly excluded from the conversation, however Jay wanted him there, and so he's here.
Another thing that bothers him is that he's going to be so lonely at school now. No more Sunoo and Jay just a few meters away from him.
Currently, Jay's cooking for them. The same meal he made for them when he and Sunoo graduated, something Jungwon really enjoyed. Then again, he enjoys anything Jay makes. He enjoys Jay's company, Jay himself- gosh he's down bad.
"Do you need help?" He asks and jumps on the kitchen counter, far enough from where Jay's working so he's not close to the food. "No, it's okay," Jay smiles at him with that kind of smile that's only for Jungwon, a mix of fondness and amusement. "Love you, Won-ah, but I don't trust you with sharp knives."
Love you. Jungwon's stomach swings uncomfortably. He said-
"Uhm, I-" I what? Love him, too? That's not what he meant, idiot.
At that moment, Sunoo waltzes into the kitchen and puts some bags down on the dining table. "The corner shop is now completely depleted of anything delicious, I bought it all," he grins at Jay who washes his hands and pats Sunoo's hair. "Good job." Something stings in Jungwon's chest at the sight.
"What did you buy?" He asks Sunoo to distract himself.
"Kimbap, and some ramen, too. Oh and soy sauce eggs. Jay hyung said we were having a feast tonight."
Jay nods enthusiastically. "It's hard being a single mom of six, truly. Gotta feed all of you." Sunoo bursts out laughing and slaps Jay's arm. Jungwon bites the inside of his cheek. Damn it.
"Need any help with that?" Sunoo peaks over Jay's shoulder. "Just cut up the kimbap, will you? And get to plating. I'll start making the ramens for the kids." Sunoo gives him a blinding smile and if Jungwon didn't know any better he would think that Sunoo likes Jay, too. He would, if he was Sunoo. Well, he likes him already as himself, so of course he would.
Jungwon jumps off the counter and quickly wipes the surfaces with some disinfecting wipes. "I feel useless now, hyung," he whines. "Is there anything I can do?"
"Can you call others, then? And wake Heeseung hyung up, I think he's taking a nap."
And Jungwon knows it's just something Jay might genuinely need help with but he feels like he just wants him out of the kitchen so that he could be alone with Sunoo. Not that Sunoo wants to be alone with Jay. Hopefully. This is some sort of bro code, right? Sunoo wouldn't do this to him, right? "Okay, hyung."
Five: Riki.
It doesn't happen very often that they get a whole weekend off. But they just wrapped up their new album promotions and they more than deserve some time to rest. Jungwon plans on going home for a night, right after he finishes the last vocal lesson of the day, then he'll spend most of Saturday and Sunday in the dorms doing absolutely nothing. The rest of the members plan on going home, too. Well, all except for Riki, for very obvious reasons.
Jungwon is packing up his backpack when he hears Jay enter the room and sit down next to Riki on the maknae's bed. "You can come home with me," he tells him. "Mom misses you. And she wanted to try some new Japanese recipes, you can tell her if it tastes any good."
Riki leans into Jay. "You wouldn't mind?"
"Of course not! I love spending time with you. We could go bowling again."
"Jay hyung, you suck at bowling," Riki chuckles and Jungwon can hear the little hitch in his voice. He's crying. Probably because he can't see his family as often as the other members. Or because he's grateful that Jay takes care of him like this.
Jungwon is grateful, too. He's happy that Jay took it upon himself to make sure Riki never feels lonely. It's a good thing, it's admirable and YET he can't help but feel a little bitter because he's never been invited to Jay's house.
Well, technically he was, but that was the whole group, all six of them. Riki is there, all the time. And Jungwon feels terrible to be jealous over such a thing, but he wishes Jay wanted to spend time with him in his childhood home, too.
Then again, maybe he could invite him over to his house, first, to show him that he's even interested in that.
"You guys have fun," he smiles at them, completely fake. If either of them notice how forced the smile is, they don't comment on it.
Plus one:
It's Saturday evening, Jungwon has the dorms to himself and he's about to doze off on the couch when he hears the front door lock rattle and the door itself open a second later.
He gets off the couch, excited to see who it is to return into his arms first, and that's when he hears Riki's excited voice. Oh. Jay hyung and Riki.
"Wonnie!" Jay smiles at him brightly and pulls him into a hug. He smells like his favorite perfume and faintly of sweat and somehow it's comforting to Jungwon. "Hi, hyung." He chuckles into the material of his shirt. "Had fun?" The question was more or less for Jay, but Riki jumps in. "It was great, hyung took me to this fancy ass restaurant where the portions were really tiny and I had to wear fancy clothes."
Jungwon nods and smiles. "Sounds fun." Sounds like a date.
"You should've come with us," Jay adds. "It was fun, we went shopping this morning and had some really nice coffee."
"Well I wasn't invited, was I," Jungwon bites back bitterly. Jay cocks his eyebrow at him. "I told you several times you were welcome to join us."
Jungwon sighs in exasperation. He's tired of constantly being just another one to join, Jay's second choice. He used to be his favorite.
"Maybe it'd be nice if you wanted to spend time just with me, for once. Without others. It's like you avoid being with me at all cost." Jay laughs. Straight up laughs at his face. "Or maybe I'm just tired of asking you to hang out with me and you inviting other people. So I just figured you didn't want to be alone with me and stopped asking you out on dates."
Dates? Jungwon finds this hilarious, in the most messed up way. "How was I supposed to know that you were asking me on a date? If it was me, I would-"
"Then do it," Jay interrupts him. "Ask me out on a date." Jungwon's face flares up. Damn it, he didn't want to- ah, fuck it.
"Jay hyung, would you go on a date with me?"
Jay gives him the biggest smile. Riki, still standing a foot away from them, sighs in relief. "Finally. Finally I can tell the rest that they don't need to make you feel jealous anymore."