The rays of sunlight filtered through the small, dirty windows of the cramped room, illuminating Jimin's tired face. He sat on the hard ground with his back resting against the wooden pillar it wasn't the best position to sleep in but not like Jimin had other options or luxury to enjoy, his body sore and muscles aching from another sleepless night, as he slowly stretched his limbs, as he think about last night he shakes his head at the thoughts he had and how stupid he sound when he's mad at something
While he stared at the wildflowers that brewed out of the window he wanted to touch them but his restraints were too short to let him fulfill his wish so he just watched them from afar, they looked like a hope of life in this wild darkness
Lost in his thoughts, Jimin barely noticed the creaking of the door as it slowly swung open. Startled, his gaze snapped towards the entrance, where a towering figure loomed. Clutched in the man's hands was the same canned food Jimin had consumed yesterday, the sight alone sent a shiver down Jimin's spine, how he made sure to observe his every move just to be better next time, it was scary but oddly touching at the same time
his gaze shifted from the can to the man's face, Jimin's heart skipped a beat, something was different-The monstrous man's features, once marred by dirt and grime, now appeared cleaner, although it was a slight change yet it was still visible to Jimin's forest eyes. His skin seemed scrubbed, revealing a golden complexion that Jimin had not seen before
it was as if a veil of unrevealed softness had been delicately unveiled when Jimin's eyes further examined the man he noticed that his long, tangled hair was no longer obscuring his face like he was a ghost coming straight out of his grave, Jimin had often taken a note of how his hair strands fell haphazardly, casting shadows over the man's eyes and hiding his emotions, a cover that hides the remaining humanity in him, but now, the hair was tucked behind his ears, allowing his gaze to roam free and unencumbered. It was a minuscule change, yet significant enough to captivate Jimin's attention.
Jimin's gaze remained frozen, staring at the man with a mixture of surprise and confusion. Sensing Jimin's intense scrutiny, the man shifted uncomfortably, a flicker of unease crossing his eyes. However, he chose to ignore Jimin's unwavering stare, although the hesitancy in his movements betrayed an underlying shyness.
he tugged his hair behind his ear his movement copying exactly how he had observed Jimin and the blond too noticed that, his lower lip was slightly stuck between his teeth as the man placed the can of food before Jimin, his actions were cautious and reserved, the silent exchange between them crackled with unspoken words, the air heavy with unvoiced emotions. Jimin's mind raced, attempting to decipher the meaning behind the subtle changes in the man's appearance and demeanor.
It wasn't just the physical alterations that gripped Jimin's attention, but also the uncharacteristic nature of the man's emotions, his face always had been stoic and blank not really showing what was going inside of him but right now his face was showing the battle he was fighting in him, and even to Jimin who was never good at reading those thine lines was bold enough to understand it as if the man was silently revealing a side of himself that he had kept concealed for far too long or didn't recognize it
As Jimin's steadfast gaze lingered, he realized that a complex web of emotions lay hidden beneath the surface of this towering, seemingly intimidating figure, the man's previous enigmatic persona had momentarily dissolved, unveiling an unexpected fragility and to Jimin's eyes, he looked almost humanly
Jimin couldn't stop the words from slipping through the gates of his mouth "You look... change"
Jimin blinked his eyes once and then twice as though he was rubbing them to make sure he wasn't hallucination it all and in his response, the man only blinked his wide eyes like he was caught in a secret crime as though his change wasn't the spark of light in the darkness that could be noticed by a blind person still he didn't lose his hold on the sheet of pretend to cover his truth behind the covers while Jimin was too lost in the darkness of his eyes to look for the light like his eyes found the best view to look at
The fascination in Jimin's eyes gleamed a light amidst his midnight sky eyes giving the blond boy the message that the monstrous man is as weak for care and affection as he and any other human are and his desperate side that wanted to light up the world so no one could live in the dark shadows like him utter out with subtle hesitation
"it's good...the change"
Did all the humans the monstrous man ate reincarnate in his stomach? As he felt something moving and twisting in his guts, an unsettling feeling that was new but somehow pleasing he felt his face getting warm while Jimin watched it turning crimson clover an adoring smile found its way to his lips blossoming in the same maroon field as other
with a low giggle and a shook of his head, Jimin picked up the food can, with opening the can he started digging in it consuming the food that wasn't as delicious as a freshly cooked is but was still a heavenly dish for his starving stomach and the taller man stared at him with the same affection harmonizing in his eyes that Jimin held in his own lush green eyes not a while ago
His fascinated eyes observed every move of how Jimin took tiny bites and munched on them with his lips forming out in a beak-like pout and how his Adam's apple bobbed up and down with each swallow every little detail was mesmerizing about Jimin and the monstrous man couldn't help but stare at him, awestruck.
suddenly fast air blew from outside the window making a petal of wildflower blow inside and to Jimin's luck he caught it in his palm quickly or maybe the petal abandoned his home to find a prettier flower and landed right in Jimin's little palm after staring at them with admiration Jimin said to the raven head
"I like them very much see, aren't they so beautiful?" Jimin held the petal up for the man to see with his beautiful smile and beautiful eyes
Just when the man thought he couldn't look more beautiful Jimin proved him wrong and he would do anything to lose this battle again, oh how peaceful these losses feel by the hand of this deity he found in the middle of the forest by a great fortune or blessing. He nodded his head even though he was internally raising an argument against Jimin, telling him that he's more prettier than any wildflower he had ever seen but words had long abandoned his cursed mouth so nothing came out, and they remained like that Jimin admiring the beauty of the flower while the man admires his'.
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The sun was dying in the sin of wrath melting the tide-up boy with its heat and Jimin was cringing at the sweat that dripped from his skin and made his dirty clothes stick to him it's been almost a week since he had showered and according to him he would be reeking worst than this place, even when he grows up locked in one place to another he was always managed to keep himself as clean as he could just like a polished diamond between thorns that's what one of his owners used to call him
He pushed his blond hair back from his sweaty forehead which started growing darker from the roots creating an illusion of eclipse sun, and for the first time he impatiently waited for the man to show up to ask for the offer that he was praying the other would grant him or else he won't be able to sleep at night with all this dirt and sweat coating his skin, his yearning eyes was set on the door manifesting for the other to show up praying like a dying angel and when all the gods rejected his prayers the devil heard it sending one of his heathen to grant his wish
The monstrous man opened the door holding another can of food in his hand, the apple Jimin had eaten so deliciously last time, but the thing that caught Jimin's attention the most was the same wildflowers in his hands Jimin praised a while ago, his eyes widened in astonishment when the man handed him the bouquet of wildflowers, they were fresh and prettier than the one outside his window, they weren't plucked from that bunch, as the raven head made sure to give Jimin something without taking the other way
Jimin felt his stomach churn and the dead butterflies come alive upon seeing the beautiful flowers gifted to him they were the most heart-touching gesture Jimin ever encountered, he always loved flowers and it was the gift that he dreamed of receiving for a very long time but no one ever came in his life who cared enough to give him any gift, heck they wouldn't even care to give him flowers on his funeral, if there would be one
His fate was the most unpredictable thing in the world once it attacked him with the darkness of despair and then it blessed Jimin with moments like this when Jimin started having hope in his despair life, and it rarely used to happen but now he was constantly being shower with them maybe the fate finally feels sorry for him and now trying to make up for all the damage it caused to his poor soul, or perhaps it was the man that was showing the care that even Jimin never showed to himself, enough to listen his foolish talk and pick up his unsaid wishes and then fulfilling them with so much care
He hesitantly takes the flower from his hands returning the sweet gestures with a low "Thank you"
a genuine bright smile on his flushed face that was the reward the raven head wasn't expecting but was too glad to receive, taking a mental note to bring them more often, after Jimin gets busy sniffing the flowers that have a gentle yet refreshing scent while the taller man was at war with the universe that says flowers are the most beautiful creation of it as he responds with, how could it when someone as beautiful as Jimin exists.
After being done admiring the flowers Jimin placed them in his lap and stared at the food set in front of him, it was noon time and Jimin had his breakfast but the other was too kind to feed him three times a day not like everyone else who thinks eating once in a while is enough to survive because in their head Jimin didn't need to live his life but survive the hell they was making him go through how humanly this monster feels to Jimin even more than any human felt before
Jimin, who wasn't used to eating this much didn't have any appetite to have another meal so he picked up the apple taking a huge bite of it as the man had already seated beside him on the floor, Jimin looked at him trying to collect his courage to ask for a favor and with hesitant voice and a low soft tone he speaks
"The weather is oddly hot today" he first tries to build a bridge of conversation that will lead him toward his destiny and the other man nods his head after blinking a few times processing his words
"I'm dripping in sweat" and a pout eventually found its way on the cherry lips which wasn't planned but came out absent-mindedly
"It...it would be nice if I could have a bath"
he played with the hem of his shirt with his small fingers like a child that was asking to play one more hour and even when the monstrous man didn't quite understand what Jimin was asking he couldn't help but approve of it as soon as it came out of the blond's mouth as he couldn't resist the way this cute little bean was pouting and being so adorable, he quickly nodded his head still staring widely at Jimin whose face light up like a thousand stars in the galaxy aligned together
With his wish coming true the ecstasy it brought jolted Jimin's body to the front landing right straight into the chest of the man wrapping his frail arms around the bulky figure cursing it to turn into a stone sculpture as stars shot in his jet black stare, widened in astonishment and soul dancing in glee, heart cycling on the rope like the world around him turned into a circus for it where Jimin was the ringmaster making him juggle on his fingers and something inside of him was begging him to turned into a magician and stop the wheel of time from moving so he could burn in this heat forever that was lighting his whole being from the hair on his skin to the marrow of his bones.
The curtains of his eyes closed on their own pulled by the peace he felt in his soul and he understood why he didn't kill this human for this feeling, the feeling that screams that he was finally found, not lost in the dark forest on his own abandoned by the whole world that isolated his sinful soul, but he didn't know he wasn't the only one who was feeling this way he wasn't the only lost soul in this vast world, there was another soul begging to be saved, another soul that was lightened up in the embrace of his darkness, and like the universe delivered their returned prayers from heaven to each other manifesting a bond that was odd but beautiful as they found each other in their misery finding solace in the worst
The rotten scent that made Jimin want to throw up every time the other man came closer to him felt like disappeared into thin air where Jimin lost all of his senses too as his mind stopped working in the correct direction walking astray where it was asking him to get more closer to his death, the cruel death he was embracing in his arms and it seemed like his mind wasn't the only one being crazy as his heart was on the same path too and so his body that felt a tug of the invisible string and snuggle into the other further trying to search something flickering inside of it perhaps a spark of hope
Some moments passed away just like that and none of them dared to pull back from the wonderland they found
and get lost in it escaping from hell, two lost souls cursed to dwell in desolate forever found a home at this moment, even when they didn't know what it felt like to have one and it was the fear that made Jimin tore apart from his home, a fear to lose it when it was just been found, he'd rather not have it forever than losing it after tasting how heavenly it feels and in the arms of a man that was no less than a monster would be the last place he wanted to be getting attached to
'Desperate loser'
A whisper rings in Jimin's ears making him flinch his hands back receiving an annoyed grunt from the other who had his brows frowned in displeasure glaring at him like a child thrift from their favorite toy and even with all the dirt coating him it failed to hide how adorable he looked with the slight pout that formed on his chapped lips almost hidden behind the mustache and beard
or maybe Jimin was losing his vision to find the sight of this horrifying being cute making him fall into the fist of a chuckle as he shook his head standing from his place patting the other's head slightly like he was a little puppy, not a monster at all if his past self sees him doing this it definitely would kill himself for being so absurd but he couldn't help it maybe he was losing his mind or maybe it was the effects of living with a cannibal killer that treats him like no one ever did before like he wasn't just a shackled animal but a human.
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Jimin's eyes shimmered like a turquoise lake in the bright sun as he stared at the tall mountain of supplies trying to pick up things that he'd need to bath and it was like picking up groceries from a mart as he picked up a bottle of shampoo, body wash, shaving cream and other stuff that will help him get rid of the dirt mess he was turning into, not forgetting to check the expiry date of each item and while he was doing that a low bark perked his ears up making his head turned into the direction of the sound and before he could recognize it the man behind him was already on his hunting mode snarling and growling towards the little owner of the voice
And before the terrorizing man scared the puppy away Jimin stopped him gently wrapping his hands around his arm, and like a volcano was being calmed by the splashed of the ocean the monster turned off his war mode staring at Jimin with confusion dancing in his diesel eyes waiting for a hint of fire before it burns down that little creature and fills his growling stomach but Jimin shook his head waving red flags to him and green to the puppy that hides behind the pile of water bottles from the man that once killed his owner forcing him to become stray
The monstrous man watched Jimin reach towards the puppy with a small smile on his cherry lips and warmth in his eyes as he kneeled in front of the water bottles trying to assure the scared puppy he wasn't there to harm him who quickly gave his trust to him wiggling towards him and sniffling his fingers that he held out for him before he rubs his face in his palms as though he was yearning for the human interaction that Jimin gave him with great pleasure patting his little head and body, and the puppy leaned in his touch turning his guards down wiggling here and there in excitement before Jimin get a idea that it must be hungry as there won't be anyone to feed him
"Can you look for something that has his face on it?"
He gives the simplest direction for the dog food to the man who probably won't know what one looks like nor would be able to read it, the raven head stays in his place staring at Jimin and then the puppy before he decides to obey the request looking for something with the face of the creature he would've filled his stomach with if it weren't for this angelic human asking to leave him so politely
after searching for a while the monstrous man came back holding out a can of food in front of Jimin's face who was dying from waiting "What took you so lon-" his words were cut off by a chuckle he released from his luscious mouth upon seeing the picture of the pomeranian dog in black and tan color on the canned food even the patterns of the furr was matching with the puppy Jimin was holding, how can Jimin not die with adoration?
shaking his head with a gleeful smile he opened the can of food and placed it on the ground, the starving dog jumped on the food feeding his empty little belly as Jimin patted his head with his small finger gently smiling at him while the scary man was staring at them with doe eyes thinking was he the reason behind that blessing that was romancing the other's lips and if letting a creature live would reward him with the sight like this then he'll gladly die with hunger.
After feeding the dog and patting it a million times Jimin finally decided to let go of the puppy and do what he came here for before the man got frustrated with waiting and did something of his expertise, he picked up his supplies and looked at the man "I'll need more water to bath would you please tell me if there are more bottles like this, maybe some bigger one?" He pointed at the piles of water bottles, the taller shook his head and Jimin sighed tiredly lifting the pack of bottles but he was stopped by the man who growled loudly making Jimin flinch back from the pack and look up at him
He was expecting to be met with a horrifying furious face instead he met a lit-up eyes of the taller like he had found out the biggest treasure of the world, he tugged at Jimin's sleeve and then started walking ahead without giving Jimin any time to comprehend what he's trying to tell him and without any question Jimin started following him when he turns around to look at Jimin to make sure that Jimin is following him like a cat does to his owner and Jimin smiled lowly and continued walking alongside the monstrous man into a lush side of the forest
The sounds of nature enveloped them, birds chirping melodiously and leaves rustling in the gentle breeze, they followed a winding path until a magnificent lake appeared before their eyes, shimmering under the hot rays of the sun, the water sparkled like diamonds, beckoning Jimin towards its tranquil beauty.
A smile spread across Jimin's face as he took in the breathtaking scenery, the dense forest surrounded the lake casting cool shadows on its banks. Sunlight filtered through the canopy overhead, creating a mesmerizing dance of light and shadow.
Feeling the warmth of the sun on his skin as the hot rays of the sun warmed Jimin's skin, causing a sheen of sweat to form on his forehead Jimin decided to embrace the opportunity and take a refreshing dip in the lake, he placed his bathing supplies and the neatly folded clothes he had acquired from the pile of clothing the monster had, not wanting to think where the real of the owner could be right now, he make sure the clothes are pristine and new with the help of the tag that hangs from them.
Not wasting any more minutes and with one thing on his head to feel the cool and refreshing water soothing his aching body Jimin began to undress, he couldn't help but sense the monstrous man's piercing eyes upon him, and a shiver ran down his spine as he realized the intensity of the man's gaze, it felt as though the monstrous man's eyes delved deep into his soul, causing him to hesitate for a moment.
As the raven head's eyes bore deeply into him, Jimin couldn't help but feel a mix of shyness and embarrassment, an internal battle raged within him, torn between his instincts and the need to maintain a level of modesty, but he knew that angering the man was not an option, his hand was halted in their way as he looked in the other's eyes and somehow they weren't filed with desire or any viciousness Jimin was used to but was pure as a river and Jimin found solace in the fact that the man's gaze held a level of innocent fascination and admiration instead of lust or malice, It was as if the man saw something more than just Jimin's physical form
he wasn't looking at Jimin to satisfy his desires but his curiosity, it was all new to him and Jimin understood it very well which caused him to feel at ease and nonchalant, he let go of every piece of clothing until he was in his boxers which he decided to leave not wanting to completely expose himself to the watchful eyes of the man, with newfound confidence, Jimin took a step into the cool waters of the lake, the man's eyes never leaving him as he followed Jimin silently behind, seemingly in awe of the beauty that unfolded before him
As the ripples of the lake embraced him, Jimin felt a sense of liberation wash over him, the weight of his journey, his fears, and his uncertainties seemed to dissolve with each step he took deeper into the water, and though the monstrous man remained a constant presence, Jimin couldn't help but feel a strange connection forming between them, as if they were two souls bound together by fate in this pristine, sunlit forest
Bit by bit, with each step, the water swallowed more of Jimin's lithe form until it reached his chest, he paused then, his hands gracefully tucking in at his sides as if he was a swan amidst a lake, the way he moved was like a fluid dance of it, every motion intentional and delicate, droplets sparkled like diamonds as they fell from his fingertips, creating ripples in the water around him, mesmerized, the man observed every detail, captivated by the way Jimin seemed at one with the elements
Jimin's grace and poise seemed to emanate from him, and how Jimin managed to make something as simple as walking in water look so enchanting, as if sensing the man's gaze, Jimin turned his head slightly, eyes meeting the man's with a playful glint, a small smile danced on his lips as he continued to sway his hands, the ripples caused by his movements creating intricate patterns in the water, his actions were nothing but pure and playful but he didn't know what power they hold as they were ripping apart the senses of the man
Jimin's fingers trailed over his smooth skin, tenderly caressing his supple arms as if wiping away any lingering worries. The man felt a strange warmth blossom in his chest at the sight, he could see the purity and vulnerability in Jimin's movements; it was as if he were witnessing a secret unveiling.
Suddenly, with a swift dive, Jimin disappeared beneath the water's surface, the man's eyes widened with concern, his worry growing as seconds ticked by, time seemed to freeze, and he couldn't help but hold his breath, fearing the worst.
Then, as if conjured from a dream, Jimin emerged from the depths, water cascading off his head as he gracefully broke the surface, his hair was now thoroughly cleansed of any dirt, framed his angelic face, glistening like spun gold in the shimmering sunlight, drops of water clung to his lashes, only enhancing the ethereal glow that seemed to radiate from his being.
The man's heart pounded in his chest, a mix of relief and awe flooding his senses. Jimin's presence ignited something deep within him, setting his pulse racing and his thoughts spinning. He couldn't deny the pull Jimin had over him, the way his beauty effortlessly grabbed hold of his attention and refused to let go.
Jimin, seemingly untouched by the intensity of the man's emotions, simply smiled, his eyes shining with a mischievous sparkle. He swiped his fingers through his dampened hair, pushing it back from his face, and the man felt his own heart go wild once more as he watched Jimin take a bath, it was more beautiful than any dream he ever had, a reality that was more serene than any heaven.
The clear blue sky, rays of the sun, every swinging branch of tall trees and every single leaf on them, from the first to the last droplet of the lake witnessed the slow fall of the monstrous man through his reflection that mirrored in the clear water until it was accompanied by Jimin's reflection who was now all cleaned up and dressed into fresh clothes looking prettier than ever ruffling his half dried hair that bounces around his face perfectly as though every strand was being held by a fairy creating an enchanting aura around him as the monstrous man watched their reflection in the water not helping but seeing the cruel reality
When Jimin was the angel of the heavens he was the devil of hell, while Jimin was a shimmering diamond he was a dirty coal, while Jimin was blessed life he was cursed death, while Jimin was a pure soul he was a rotting corpse and just like that there were millions of metaphors to describe how beautiful Jimin was and he, he was hideous
The storm of insecurity and rage inside of the vile man brings the violent rain pour inside of his dark sky eyes he tries to dry them out but fails horribly blinking away the tears that threaten him with a dagger to show his vulnerability to the other against his throat that tightened and ached, he stepped back making his reflection disappear from Jimin's side who shines like a full moon when the eclipse was lifted up and that's what he was, an eclipse to the moon.
Jimin turned around to see the other stumbling back with his face draining the colors he had seen blossoming day by day as it turned monochrome just like the first time he saw it
"What happened? A-re you okay?"
The blond boy asked hesitantly, fear kissing every corner of his mind and the only response he received was silent, horrifying silence that claws on his skin alarming him that the wonderland had reached its end now he was about to face his worst nightmare, the dark side of this man who capable of doing things to Jimin that he never have dreamed of even in the twisted state
The air blew from his flaring nose as the raven head clenched his jaw while his hand reached out to hold Jimin's frail arm and started dragging him away not giving him time to react or comprehend the situation, his actions were harsh but not enough to hurt Jimin in any way who was bewildered by what just happened that upset the other while his insides pray whatever the reason is won't belong to him or else he wouldn't even be blessed with grave but the monster's stomach will become his graveyard
The rage was boiling his insides as he hated the way he was feeling so weak and pathetic never in his life had he felt something so painful that he wanted nothing but to stop it, even if it takes him to peel his skin off the emotions he was feeling were too intense for him, too hard to handle when the only emotion he knows was rage, anger and now when he was introduced by the vulnerable side of it that too in front of Jimin who he wants to show the best of him was enraging him, he was angry at himself, angry at how weak he is, how ugly and pathetic he is in front of Jimin and how he can't do anything to stop it nor to stop feeling this way.
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Jimin was back in his cage shackled to the ground alone in the darkness he didn't mind any of that the only thing that was scaring him was the man who seemed to be behaving odd since the afternoon or maybe finally he decided to act normal, a normal that will lead Jimin to his worst death, and it was choking the life out of him slowly, first he tries to comfort himself that he was putting little things under the microscope but when the man left the food on the floor and didn't stayed with him till he finished his food was enough to assure him that something was really off perhaps he makes the other mad or he gets frustrated by him or maybe hunger kicked in
And just by the thought of it Jimin felt his skin aching from the crisp shivers that run a marathon, he pulled his knees closer to his chest creating a lithe shield against his body in vain defense from the man who was powerful enough to twist his head in one go without any mercy or maybe pulled out his heart and chew on them just like he does to his abductors, Tears started pooling out of his eyes as fear was making the worst scenarios in his head which wasn't lesser than any horror movie or nightmare
Is this how life supposed to feel like or Jimin was just trapped in some curse that people named life, going from one hell to another he spent years and years waiting for someone to set him free from this never-ending agony and pain but when someone finally did show up and rescued him from this curse he was thrown into a bigger one than before, he wasn't being harmed or been treated badly like before yet the fear was enough to poison this paradise that he finally found and Jimin was dying with the venom of it
Lost in the labyrinth of fear Jimin loses track of his past and falls into the abyss of slumber right into the arms of his dreamland where no one could harm him or that's what most people think.
The orphanage is filled with the sound of children playing, their laughter echoing through the hallways. Little Jimin, a six-year-old boy with messy hair and sad eyes, sits alone in a corner, clutching his tattered teddy bear tightly, he watches as the other children are picked up, one by one, by their new families, praying the heavens to bless him with one too and even when it took ages for the heavens to heard his prayers the day finally arrived when Jimin was the chosen one.
"Jimin-ah she's your mother now she will take care of you but you have to be a good boy and behave you will do that right?"
A woman in her late thirties bends down to his level wearing the black uniform of the orphanage caretaker the closeness of her face creeps out Jimin who shivers back from her but soon the fear disappears as a well-dressed woman, her hair neatly styled and a kind smile adorning her face walks towards him, Jimin's eyes light up with hope as he shot him her sweetest smile that makes his moon eyes disappears not knowing it would be the last time he would smile wholeheartedly
"So your name is Jimin?"
Her voice was sweet and gentle unlike the women working in the orphanage whose voices were as dark as their souls and hearts, Jimin nodded eagerly, a wide smile stretching across his face, this woman could be his mother, the one he had always longed for, the one that will take care of him, love him just like how he reads in the stories
"Are you my mommy?"
His doe eyes were filled with hope almost pleading to hear yes from the other, the woman took Jimin's hand gently, her touch filled with tenderness "Yes, Jimin. I will be your mother now" Jimin's heart swells with joy, believing that his life is about to change for the better, he imagines all the love and care he will receive, escaping the cruelty of the caretakers who have hurt him so many times before the long bearing torture will finally come to an end but little did he know it was just the beginning of a hell
His fake paradise only lasted for some days until they started showing the reality as the mask of happiness slipped the cruelty of his life started showing its true colors as Jimin was now standing in front of his adoptive mother his eyes swollen and face blotchy from tears, his tiny body is covered in bruises, evidence of the beatings he has endured.
"You worthless, pathetic creature! How dare you disobey me!"
Her previously soft voice was now filled with venom that she spat on the shivering boy's face who trembled with fear, his hands shaking as he tried to shield himself from the blows that rained upon him, he cried out in pain and begged for mercy, his voice drowned by his mother's harsh, cursing words as he sobs out the pleading seeking for mercy
"Please, Mommy, I'm sorry! I'll be good, I promise!"
But his pleas fall on deaf ears, and his adoptive mother continues to beat him relentlessly, her anger and hatred consuming her completely not thinking that the boy she was beating is just a child and this wasn't the only monster he encountered in the face of the human the people he soon was returning were the same too as though he was pushed into the world of monsters.
Jimin, now even more bruised and broken, stands before the woman who had once handed him away with a glimmer of hope. She looks at him, her eyes filled with disappointment and disgust her nose flares with rage as she grabs him by his arm shaking his broken body harshly
"You're back already? No one wants a useless, ill-mannered child like you! You were a burden to your own family that's why they abandoned you and now you're a burden to me!"
Tears stream down Jimin's face as he realizes that not only has his adoptive mother abandoned him, but his real mother did the same too that's why he was there in this hell at the mercy of this devilish woman his daydream had finally reached it's ending and he was back into this cruel cycle of brutality, he feels as though the world is crumbling around him, suffocating him with its savagery
The woman scornfully shouted "You will never be loved, Jimin. You'll be alone forever"
With those cruel words engraved on the little boy's brain, the woman raises her hand and strikes Jimin with such force that he falls to the ground engraving the traces of his atrocious fate, he lies there, broken and defeated as the woman takes out her wrath on him, beating and bruising his frail body as he sobs and screams for help but no one hears his pleas reminding him that it was going to be like this forever he would be left alone abandoned by everyone at mercy of these monsters that will hurt him and torture him-
Jimin wakes up abruptly, his body covered in a thin layer of sweat, his breaths coming in shallow gasps, fear grips his heart, its tendrils creeping into his every nerve, overwhelming him, trembling, he tries to gather his bearings, but remnants of the nightmare still grip his mind, refusing to release their hold
As he opens his tear-stained eyes, they widen in shock and terror upon seeing the man beside him, his features twisted and contorted however, the flicker of concern in the man's eyes goes unnoticed by the scared boy, as confusion and fear cloud his judgment, causing him to shrink back in terror
"Please don't hurt me, I'm sorry I won't do that again please!"
The panicked state of the shorter shocked the other who was foreign to such situations but the hidden human nature worked instinctively making him reach out a hand tentatively, a tender gesture of comfort, but the moment his fingers extended towards Jimin, the smaller man recoiled, his back pressing firmly against the pillar he was tied against as if seeking refuge, he wraps his arms tightly around his knees, forming a protective shield around himself, as if warding off an invisible danger turning the wheels of time thirteen years back when he was just a six-year-old boy trying to protect himself against the whole world
"Please don't hurt me!"
Jimin sobbed out in a raspy voice as his throat was giving up from all the aching of his chest, Desperation fills the man's face as he sees the pain etched on Jimin's features suddenly a yearn rise in him to offer solace, to protect him from the torment haunting his very being, but with each step he takes towards Jimin, the younger man's terror intensifies, he never felt so helpless before so desperate to help the other but anything he does adds fuel in the fire the other was burning in, Helplessly, the raven head makes a painful decision-a decision born out of vulnerability he retreats, knowing that his terrorizing presence only exacerbates Jimin's fear, intensifying the chaos within
At that moment the urge to be better for him rose in him, realizing that he needed to change, to become someone who wouldn't evoke fear in others but someone he could rely on, someone who could protect him from the fears and he'll become a better person, a normal human, so Jimin won't fear him
he could stay by the other's side not leave him alone in whatever hell he was going through, he didn't know why he was so desperate to make the other feel at peace that he was willing to change himself he didn't know where these feelings was coming from but he knew the organ in his chest was the reason behind it all at the extent where he even started to hate himself for who he is, he even willing to starve himself if it were for the other boy
Determination wells up inside him, pushing him to grow and overcome his own demons so that he can be a steady presence by Jimin's side, he resolves to confront the darkness that threatens Jimin's peace, vowing to become a stronger, safer presence for him. He will not allow Jimin to face his hell alone as he did, for he knows that protecting him and soothing his soul is an immense responsibility-one that he is now fully committed to.
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