I snapped back to reality
I opened my eyes and looked down at Dally, he was smoking a cigarette watching me.
"Ya remember now Doll?" Dallas asked blowing the smoke from the puff torwards my face. I inhaled the smoke and quickly turned away, scrunched my nose and started to cough like crazy. "Sorry, sweetheart, here" Through my teared up eyes I saw he had extended his arm out with a cup of water
I grabbed the water out of Dallys hand and chugged it, once I recovered I nodded "Yeah I do, also stop calling me that" I wiped my mouth and handed him the cup
He grabbed the cup and put it back on the Ground "Stop calling you what, Doll?" He smirked I looked over to him giving him the really look and rolled my eyes, his smirk grew wider
"Just bring me back to my Brothers" I said reaching for the cigarette in his mouth but he moved backwards
"No way Doll, your not getting a cigarette or a beer, you bad enough last night" He blew the smoke out of his mouth but torwards the ceiling this time "Also, why would you wanna leave your with me? Yesterday you wanted nothing to do with them" I turned a slight shade of pink rasing one eyebrow, Dallas likes to toy with people, thats why he's uncapable of love in my opinion
"I just don't want to worry them anymore, also your coming to help expain" I said starting to make my way to the side of the bed "also, who said I didn't want to spend time with you? Last night was fun in my opinion" I smirked, if he was going to toy with me, he'll get it right back
I looked behind me to see his face, his eyebrows were raised and he had a hint of a smile on his face.
I started to get up, my legs were weak once I stood up they started to shake. All of the sudden I felt hands on my waist and I looked up "Need help?" It was Dallas, he had a smirk on his face
"I think I'm okay for now" I said as I spun around to face him. He was looking down at me, I then moved my hand up his uncovered chest to put one hand on his neck and leaned in"Thanks though" I whispered and spun to walk off.
My clothes where left by the chair so I went to grab them.Dallas was on the other side of the room changing "Hows your head?" He asked fastening a belt around his jeans he just put on.
I picked up the clothes and layed them on the bed "Better, but it still aches a bit" I said not looking up.
"Do you wanna borrow some clothes?" Dallas asked putting on a white shirt.
"No thanks, I'm just going to wear this shirt and my jeans."
My Jean's were actually a pair of Darrys jeans, I didn't have many things that were actually mine, I took alot of my brothers old clothes, or even clothes that they still wore, especially Soda.
"So your taking my shirt?" Dallas asked raising an eyebrow while putting on his leather jacket he always wore. I looked up to him, I grinned and nodded he just rolled his eyes
"It looks better on you anyways"
I smiled to myself and looked down. I walked to the door before turning around "Wait, Dal where's your bathroom?" He smirked and walked over to me.
"I'll show you Doll" Dallas opened the door and put his arm out as a signal for me to walk out. As I walked out of the room I stopped on the other side of the hallway to let Dally go infront of me. Once he walked infront of me I followed him two doors down. He nocked on the door. No response. So he opened the door
The bathroom wasn't that nice, but I wasn't surprised, the bathroom had two sinks, the pain chipping off the counter and at the end a small toilet, on the otherside was a closet and shower. "Here ya go" he said putting his hands in the pockets of his jacket. "I'll be downstairs waiting for you kay' Doll?" I rolled my eyes and smiled
"I won't be long Dal" I said shutting the door and making sure to hit the little lock, I changed out of the big shorts he had given me previously and put on Darrys old jeans, they were really baggy on me but I preferred lose clothing.
I had my hair down, it was long, almost down to my butt long, it was a deep brown like the rest of my siblings. I had an elastic on my wrist so I decided to put it into a messy bun with a few of my shorter pieces in the front sticking out. Dallys shirt was really big on me so it hung of my shoulder I looked at myself in the mirror and I smiled to myself
I look real good despite the massive bandage on my face
I walked over to the toilet and sat on the cover so I could put my red converse on that I had gotten from Evie. I was going to wear Soda's flannel because it was cool out and Dally drove around Buck's red convertible, but it had blood on it, then I was going to wear my black sweatshirt but it had a really big rip in the front.
Great
Once I was done I walked back down the hallway, once I got to Dally's door I opened it and threw the shorts onto his bed. I closed the door and made my way down the creeky stairs.
It was really quiet compared to last night. It still smelled of cigarettes but it was real quiet.
Once I made it down the stairs I looked to my left and saw Dallas sitting at the bar talking to Buck.
"Oh hey Doll, you ready?" He asked turning his head and standing up from his chair at the bar putting his hands back into his pockets. He walked up to me and grabbed me by the waist and spin me around pining me up against the wall. He came close to my ear "you look great by the way" he whispered pulling away
I raised my eyebrows in amusement and smirked "I always look good Winston" he rolled his eyes, I started walking torwards the exit
He walked to my side and put his hand on my back to walk with me. I looked up to him and he looked down at me and winked.
Once we got to the door he reached on the rack for his big brown jacket that he wore almost all the time in the cold and put it on before looking to me "Y/N where's your sweatshirt and Sodas flannel" He asked staring at me
"Sodas Flannel has blood on it, My sweatshirt has a rip though the middle, and I forgot the one that Evie gave me at the park" I explained
He stared at me for a second before taking off the Jacket and placing it on my shoulders.
"Dallas I'm not wearing your Jacket you'll get cold" I said trying to take of the Jacket but he placed it back on my shoulder
"I'll be fine, I live on the streets anyways man" he said shrugging "now put on the Jacket, I don't need you showing up to your bothers with hypothermia and a massive cut along your face, they'll skin me"
I laughed and started to put on the Jacket "they'll skin you if they know we slept in the same bed last night, so unless you ever want to see any of the gang again you'll keep your mouth shut" he smirked
The Jacket was nice and warm and also smelled like him, Cigarette smoke, alcohol and his Musky, Sandalwood colone
"Not like I couldn't take all of them In a fight" Dallas shrugged he then reached for the keys
"Takin' your car for a spin Buck!" He yelled back to the bar before turning to the door and opening it
"Ladies first" he smirked, I raised my eyebrows in amusement and walked past him down to the red convertible I opened the door and plopped myself down onto the seat. I made sure to secure my seat belt because Dallas was a reckless driver
And I mean Reckless
We drifted around corners, sped past stop signs and got honked at every few seconds
"Can you go any slower?" I groaned squeezing my eyes shut "your making me nauseous"
"Nah Doll, I like to go fast" he replied taking one hand off the wheel to put his sunglasses on, we had swung around the corner of the road leading to my house, he put his hand on my thigh, but not in a romantic way, in a if I don't do this your flying out of the damn car type of way
Once we pulled into my drive way he took his glasses off and put them on the dashboard. He opened his door and walked around the car and came to my side of the car opening the door and letting me out
"Thanks" I murmured I only had two things on my mind
One : how Darry would yell at me
and
Two : how they would react when they saw me with Dallas
I had started blankly walking up the stairs, Dallas right behind me
As soon as I opened the broken screen door I saw Soda almost immediately appear in the doorway to the kitchen "Y/N!" Soda yelled running up to me and embracing me, it took me a second to register the hug but once I did we embraced in a long hug "don't ever to that to me ever again you scared all of us" Soda said as he pulled away from me tearing up
"Awh Soda, I'm sorry" I gave him a sad smile and wiped his cheeks with my thumb, he looked at me for a second before noticing the massive bandage that went from my face to halfway down my neck
His eyes averted from me and looked behind me and saw Dallas standing in the door way watching us.
"Dally, did you do this to her?" He asked roughly
Dallas went to speak but then he was interrupted by another person booking it into the room,
Ponyboy
"Y/N!" Ponyboy yelled as he grabbed me, bringing me in for a hug, I could feel my shirt start to get wet and I could tell he was crying, I squeezed him as tightly as possible not ever wanting to let go of my little brother
"Hey, Pony" I whispered stroking his hair. He looked up to me, his eyes glazed with water
"I missed you" he whispered as he pulled me in for another hug
"I missed you more" squeezing him again
It was true, him and Johnny Cade were my best friends in the whole world, so was Soda but I could tell them anything and everything, sure I loved the gang but I related to them more
Once Pony had let go of me he looked at the bandage on my face and his eyes lit up with concern "Y/N.." his voice cracked and a few silent tears rolled down his cheek
"No, Pony I'm okay," I put my hand up to his face holding it and wiping his tears "I promise, Dally helped me" I nodded my head in his direction. Pony wouldn't take his eyes off the bandage but slowly nodded. I gave him one final squeeze before I noticed Darry standing in the door way of the kitchen with his arms crossed, once we locked eyes he cleared his throat
"Y/N.." before he could say anything else I ran into his arms and gave him a hug, he lifted me of the ground and hugged me as tight as possible and I started to tear up "Oh Y/N I'm so sorry, I should have never done that, it was stupid I never meant to hurt you" once he had let me down I noticed he was also tearing up
"Darry it's okay, I should've never said that and I promise I'll try to keep my cool next time" I said giving his another hug
"No it's not okay, look at your face!" He said angry at himself
"I'm okay, I swear, Dallas helped me" I grabbed his hand and gave it a reassuring squeeze.
Darry nodded and walked over to Dallas and gave him a firm handshake "Thank you Dallas"
Dallas nodded "Anytime" and returned the handshake
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Everyone came and sat down in the living room, I was next to Ponyboy, Soda and Darry sat in the two reclining chairs we had and Dally was leaning against the wall fidgeting with his skull ring he always wore.
I put my head on Ponys shoulders to rest my head, I squeezed my eyes shut and rubbed my eye. My head ached badly, I needed some water real bad. Pony put his head on top of mine.
Everyone was silent until Soda decided to speak "So.. what happened?" He asked looking to me. I slowly opened my eyes, sat up and began to talk
I told them about how, I went to Evies and stole beers and cigarettes from the convenience store.
That earned a disapproving head shake from Darry
I told them that we went to the park and smoked and drinked our worries away
"I don't think I'll ever pick up another beer again" I said wanting to vomit
That earned a grin from Soda
"Then four Soc's showed up," I started to explain before all of my brothers faces dropped "it was the one who torments me Pony and Johnny all the time, Bob"
I felt Ponyboy shift uncomfortably in his seat next to me, Bob had picked on us since day one
he picked on Pony because one :
He was fourteen and in a grade with sixteen and seventeen year olds
And two :
His name
And last but not least,
Because he was a greaser
They picked on me because one :
I was really smart and I stuck up for myself and the soc's do not like bold greasers who stand up for themselves I have noticed
And two :
I was Ponyboys sister and a greaser
And they picked on Johnny because, he was small, quiet and an easy target
He tormented us and would occasionally bring his friends into it.
I looked over to Ponyboy and he gave me a weak smile
"They started to hurt Evie because she was standing up for herself and then they pulled a blade to her upper arm and cut her" I explained
"Is she okay?" Soda asked worried. I gave him a small nod
"I was on a walk takin' a smoke and I heard screamin', at first I didn't care and kept walking then I heard someone scream multiple names, mine included so I ran in the direction of the scream" Dallas chimed in after staying silent.
"I tryed to stick up for Evie but them Soc's didn't like that one bit so Bob came up to me and started to cut my neck, I fell down screaming and the knife only dragged more along my face," I added "and just as he was about to pull it again Dallas punched him in the face and they left" I continued
The room stayed silent for a few moments before I continued
"Then Dallas took me to Buck's and fixed my face, and let me sleep there" I finished no way in hell was I going to tell them the small details
I saw Darry opened his mouth and I sucked in a small breath. But before he could say anything Dally chimed in again,
"I slept on the chair in the corner of my room, I let her take the bed" I exhaled in relief
thank god
Soda raised an eyebrow "you sure bout' that?" he grinned. I snapped my head to look at him and turned a light shade of pink
"Yes I'm sure Soda" I glared at him, he just stuck out his tongue
"Best not be lyin you two" Darry chimed in looking suspiciously between the two of us
Dally raised his arms in surrender "Swear, well I got to go, I promised Tim I'd buy him somethin'" We all nodded and he started to make his way to the door
"Wait!" I yelled jumping up from his seat and running up to him and embracing him in a big hug, it took him a second to realize what was happening but once he did he hugged me back. "Thank you Dal, for everything" I whispered so only he could hear I buried my face into his chest squeezed him.
I felt him move my hair from around my face and tuck it behind my ear, and the whispered back "no problem Doll"
I pulled away from the hug and looked up to him and smiled, he had a hint of a smile playing on his lips
"Quit makin' out with Dally or ill eat your food!" Soda had yelled from the kitchen, I didn't realize they had gotten up to get the food
"Be quiet Soda! I'm comin'!" I yelled back started to walk to the kitchen and I looked back, he was watching me and once I turned and we met eyes he winked to me before walking out of the house.
Once I heard the vrooom of the red convertible I finally walked into the kitchen, a smile playing on my lips, only then I remembered I had on Dallas's brown jacket and his t-shirt.
Damn it I hope they don't realize I thought to myself, as I plopped myself down next to Soda, and grabbed a plate of eggs, bacon, along with a cup of coffee.
Ponyboy and Darry were sitting across from us. That's how our meals usually went unless the gang was over.
"So," Soda started as he picked up some of his eggs and placed then in his mouth "Why are you wearing Dally's Jacket? And I almost swore you wore a different top yesterday" he smirked and looked at me
"Soda, no eating with your mouth open" Darry reminded him, Soda could never keep his mouth shut.
"Well, why are you?" Ponynoy questioned, picking up a piece of bacon.
I inhaled a breath, all of there eyes were on me
"Well, I didn't want to wear that shirt to bed so he gave me one of his, when I was cut from the Socs the blood got all over your flannel and it's cold outside so he let me wear his jacket" I explained, it's not like I was lying anyway
"You got blood on my flannel?" Soda groaned droping his fork onto his plates
"Don't believe me?" I said getting up from the table and walking to were I threw the clothes. I grabbed the flannel and walked back to the table "here" I said as I tossed the flannel to Soda, only then did I realize how much blood was on it.
Some on the collar, sleeve, and blood stains running down the left side of the flannel.
I turned pale.
All eyes were on the flannel before I stepped out of my trance and cleared my throat "anyways," I started as I cleared my throat and snatched the flannel out of his hand and walked over to my room and throwing it on the floor.
The room used to be Ponyboy's before he started getting these weird dreams and stuff. I used to share a room with Soda but ever since then, I've had my own room. I'm not complaining, but I do miss sharing a room with Soda, it was the best.
When I would get scared at night Soda would get up from his small twin bed and lay next to me, in my small bed to comfort me. He would lay there with me and draw shapes on my back to calm me and just tell me everything would be okay.
I wish we still shared a room
We would sometimes sneak out of the window and lay on the grass next to house and watch the stars together.
Soda was, and still is my best friend.
I walked back into the room. The rooms atmosphere was tense from what had just happened everyone was looking at me.
Ponyboy with a concerned expression
Soda with a sympathetic expression
And Darry with a stoic expression, the only way you could tell he was upset was by the way he gripped his fork in his hand
"So yeah," I cleared my throat. Trying to defuse the tension "before we left he let me wear his jacket so I wouldn't get cold"
I plopped myself down in my seat, trying to sink into the ground
oh to be anywhere but here
---
The rest of breakfast went by quietly. Soda occasionally cracking a joke trying to lighten the mood.
As I finished my plate I silently scooted out of my chair and brought my plate to the sink, we had a rule where whoever didn't make the food, cleaned the plates.
I decided I would do it, just to be nice
Darry had brought his plate after me, and soon after it was Soda
Soda put his hand on my shoulder and I turned my head to look at him. I saw the sadness in his eyes, I turned to face him fully and he embraced me again. He held me for a moment before he weakly spoke,
"I'm sorry I couldn't be there to help you"
"Soda," I pulled away from him and gave him a sad smile, holding his arms "it not your fault I got jumped-" I started to say before he cut me out
He looked down "No it is, I'm your twin brother, your brother, I'm supposed to protect you, your my only sister, I should've followed you. But Pony said you would be okay, but look your not okay," he said finally looking to my face before his eyes flew to the big white bandage, his eyes glistening "I should've been there, to help you, my sister, my twin"
All I could do was listen to him, my eyes started to glisten with tears before I wrapped my hands around his neck and hugged him tighter "It's not your fault, it's okay," I squeezed him "I love you, Soda"
"I love you to, Little sis" I let go of the hug and looked up to him, he had a smug look on his face, I squinted my eyes at him
"Only by a minute" I groaned and hit his shoulder
"Still a minute" he shrugged laughing and walking out of the kitchen
"I'm still hotter!" I yelled
"You wish, Y/N!" He yelled back and I erupted with laughter.
I turned back around and continued with the dishes, humming some song I had heard on the radio, the tune was pretty, but I couldn't remember the lyrics or where I had heard it
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It was 6pm, the same day, the heat was visible by anyone, the bugs chirped, making the rattling noise that you could hear on any hot day.
My window was opened all the way. Occasionally the window would rattle and hit my wall because of the winds.
Despite the mornings being cold, later into the day, the temperature only went up.
I had changed out of my jeans into some comfy shorts I had got from my gym class, they were a little short but I had to make do with what I had, an all black sports bra, with one white line going though the bottom elastic, it was my favorite.
On really hot days I would wear that and cute jean shorts down to the DX to get some ice cream. Darry didn't approve of me leaving the house in that a lot, I was showing to much skin.
But on unbearably hot days, he would let it slide.
I also was still wearing the jacket Dallas had gave me, because despite the heat, the sun started going down, and the peepers started to sing from the pond.
I was laying on my stomach on my bed, with my feet in the air Journaling and doodling.
I was bored out of my mind
I sighed and got up and walked over to the window in my room, I propped my arm, up and put my chin into the palm of my hand and stared out of the window, the sun started to set, forming a beautiful orange golden sky
Wow, this is beautiful, if only the sky could stay like this forever.
I thought to myself smiling
As I was watching the sunset I heard a light nock on the door, it was definitely Ponyboy, Darry nocks hard, and Soda rarely ever nocks
"Come in Pony," I said softly, not taking my eyes off of the beautiful scene before me.
I heard the creek of the door, and soft steps walking up behind me
"Woah" Ponyboy murmured stepping up next to me
"I know right" I smiled looking over to my little brother, his face glowed as he had a small smile on his face
We sat there in silence for 5 minutes watching the sunset together.
One the sun set I sighed and looked over to Pony
"I wish it could stay like that" he murmured and I nodded
"Well I guess nothing as beautiful as that can stay forever" I said slowly, closing my window and making sure I put the peg into the window so It wouldn't fly open at night.
I walked over to my bed and fell backwards onto my back, Ponyboy following in suit.
I put my arms on my stomach and looked over to Ponyboy "So what's up Pony?" I asked
"Do you think me, you and Johnny, could go to the bookstore?" Pony scratched his head and smirked
I smriked "you expect me to ever say no to that?" I gave a slight chuckle, Ponyboy grinned
"That's why I asked you"
I sighed he knew me to well
I rolled my eyes "yes I'll take us to the bookstore, but I'm not payin' for you so you better find out a way to get some money from Darry or Soda" I said as I sat up, crossing my legs
Ponyboy bolted up and gave me a quick hug
"Thanks, sis"
Then bolted out of my room, leaving the door open
I sighed and shook my head
really Pony
I got up to close the door, just before I closed it, Soda snuck in
"Soda, what's up?" I turned around after closing my door and saw him sprawled out on my bed
"Nothing, I just wanted to ask you something"
I walked over to my bed and plopped myself down next to Soda, laying on my side
"Ask away" I told him
He turned his head and smirked
"do you and Dally have something going on?"
I froze
"WHAT?" I yelled in his face sitting up
"You heard me, do you?" He pushed
"No! Just because he saved me from those stupid ass Soc's doesn't mean we have something going on, are you delusional?" I groaned falling back onto my bed
"Well if you don't, I can tell, he has a soft spot for you" Soda replied
So maybe that was true, maybe he did, but who knows?
"he has a soft spot for Johnny," I replied, looking back over to Soda "just because he let me sleep in his bed and fixed my face doesn't mean anything, I'm the only girl in this Gang, he's just looking out for me, also if he didn't save me you guys would have punched his face in" I said flatly
"Okayy," Soda shrugged "but if something happens with him would you tell me?" He asked
I nodded
Well not every little detail
"Okay then," he smiled and sat up walking over to my door "but, one more question"
I groaned and sat up
"Hm?"
"If you don't have something going on, then why are you still wearing his jacket?"
I was at a loss for words, why was I still wearing it?
I felt my face heat up
"I-I-I" I fumbled over my words, I couldn't find the right words
I was wearing it because I liked it?
Why was I wearing it?
Soda smirked "alright be that way"
Soda went to open the door and I grabbed my pillow from off the bed and threw it as hard as I could at him.
It hit him dead center of his face. This time is was my turn to look smug
He looked and me and just grinned
"Watch your back"
"I'm right here!" I said putting my arms up in the air
Soda laughed and thew the pillow back to me, and I caught it. I watched as Soda walked out of my room. As soon as I heard the door click, I flopped backwards and stared at the ceiling hugging my pillow.
I rolled onto my side, only to finally realize how cold it was, I looked down and zipped the brown jacket up, my nose suddenly filling with the sent of Dallas Winston.
I squeezed my eyes shut holding the pillow close to my stomach.
It felt crazy how, only one night ago, I got jumped and they pulled a blade, and it felt ever crazier how I was in the same bed as Dallas Winston and we almost kissed?
Then I remembered how I had told him I loved him.
how stupid does that sound?
I opened my eyes and it was very dark, the only light illuminating room was the moons magical glow, and the yellowish light shining from underneath my door.
I sat up and got underneath my covers to my bed. I pulled them up to my nose
I put my hands around my stomach and closed my eyes once more
the only thing I could smell was sent of Dallas, radiating off of the Jacket.
I cannot say that I like Dallas, but the way that held me last night was nice, no one as really held me since my parents had died and since I shared a room with Soda.
I'm not saying I want Dallas, but I want him to hold me again.
Just as I was about to drift off into sleep, I had heard a race car fly by
That was the last thing I heard before I fell asleep.