"Turn around, Vixen"
surprise and perplexion coat Felix as he stops in his tracks, and repeats Hyunjin's words in his head before looking to his left, then to his right with the phone still pressed against his ear and his eyebrows still furrowed. At last, he finally turned around and what he saw shocked him to his core. His mouth fell apart and his eyes widened "Hyunjin?" he let out in sheer astonishment and the blond smirked, stepping closer as he hung up the call and shoved the phone in his pocket.
"Hello, Felix" Hyunjin stands just a few steps away from Felix, and the blue-haired still hasn't recovered from his initial shock. He really can't fathom how and why Hyunjin was here, right in front of him. "Where did you come from?" Felix queries, putting away his phone and closing his shocked mouth as he stepped toward Hyunjin as well, making the space between lesser. "I was heading somewhere, and you were here too" Hyunjin states and Felix looks around, finding the street completely empty "How long have you been behind me, why didn't you say anything?" Felix has a thousand questions and Hyunjin doesn't mind answering them as he takes a step to continue walking
his hands land in his slacks' pocket, his long coat swaying in the air as Felix joins him as well, keeping his eyes on him "Five minutes" Hyunjin states truthfully and looks at Felix who still has shock written on his face "So bizarre" the blue-haired states, shaking his head and looking forward but Hyunjin doesn't look away "Don't want me here?" He queries even though he knows the answer well and Felix quickly looks at him, eyes widened slightly "No, that's not what I meant, our paths crossing so weirdly is what's bizarre" Felix shakes his hand in front of his face and Hyunjin bites back a smile
he doesn't say anything else, doesn't ask or answer so the blue-haired turns to look ahead. Silence hangs for a short second between them before Hyunjin asks "Why did you call me?" His voice blends nicely with the sound of trees rustling in the near distance as Felix looks down at the pavement beneath them "Just...needed a distraction" He couldn't find a lie, couldn't think of an excuse and he also didn't want to keep Hyunjin in the dark so he spoke honestly, unaware of the pang that left on Hyunjin's heart. The blond finds anger rushing in him at the way his stupid heart had reacted, how it stopped beating for a near second as he grits his teeth and looks away from Felix
staring ahead with his eyes darkened and angry "Distraction?" he wasn't going to say anything but his tongue slipped like it often does around Felix and the blue-haired sighs "I...yes, distraction" Hyunjin could've said more but he chose not to, instead he slipped his hand in his coat's pocket and took out a cigarette, nearing it against his lips and lightening it up. They remain quiet, the only sound being of nature and their shoes against the road. Felix feels guilty for having stated it that way but it shouldn't matter, right? it wasn't as though they were close or anything, he tried assuring himself.
Hyunjin takes a strong whiff and offers the slender stick to Felix, who looks at the cigarette in Hyunjin's hand, then up at him, and then shakes his head no "I've already had five, I couldn't have more" He gulps and fights the desire rising within him to take just a small hit but he ignorea it. Puffs of smoke dance around them, their bodies passing by flickering and saturated street lamps, soft clouds hanging in the ebony sky alongside glimmering stars, the wind is cold but not so much that it would make their teeth chatter
It's nice and quiet, and Felix doesn't realize but just by Hyunjin's company, the thought of his ex-lover had been lost somewhere in the back of his mind because what he was fixated on was Hyunjin's expensive perfume and how it smelt when mixed with smoke "Heading home?" Hyunjin breaks the silence, though still a bit bitter about being called a distraction he doesn't let it bruise his ego and makes up an excuse for the rational part of his brain that asked him to insult Felix back 'We don't know each other, he wanted to fuck likely, it's nothing much' he assured the taunting thoughts and soon enough, he made peace with himself and Felix's words
"Yes" the blue-haired smiles at him softly even if there is no need to be smiling and Hyunjin is just a simple man, there is only so much resistance he can do so he smiles back and upon that curve of lips, Felix finds his tiredness flushing away and ease spreading over him. He doesn't understand how this worked but something happened and he felt much better than he did earlier, silence fell over them again and it wasn't uncomfortable, or one that needed to be filled, it was peaceful and intimate.
"Where were you heading?" It's Felix this time who questions, their steps in sync and leisurely as if they had no hurry to be to their respective destinations "Just...somewhere" Hyunjin shrugged and Felix could sense the way he had dodged the question so he didn't bother pressing further "When exactly is your birthday?" this time around, the silence didn't have enough time to reside between them because Hyunjin had asked the question right after Felix's
"September fifteenth" Felix answers and Hyunjin takes a moment before responding as if doing the math in his mind "So two days from now?" he asks and Felix nods which makes him let out a soft sound of 'oh'. Before either of them continue speaking, Hyunjin's phone rings and disturbs their harmony, halting them in their steps as the blond clicks his tongue, takes out his phone and stares at the screen, contemplating if he should answer it or not before he sighs loudly and slides his thumb across the screen, pressing it on his ear "What is it?" His voice comes out rough and tone rude, Felix keeps his eyes on the ground
"I took care of hi--" Hyunjin's eyes flash to Felix for the shortest of times before he clears his throat "I took care of that" His jaw is still clenched and his eyes seem angry, like he's upset about something "Can you get one fucking thing right?" He speaks through clenched teeth and exhales a sigh, eyes shut and doing his best to hold back on his anger as he removes the phone from his ear, fighting the urge to send it flying across the street as he shoves it in his pocket and calms himself down, turning to look at Felix "I have to go, pretty" Is all he says, tone much polite and voice silkier
Felix looks at him, eyebrows furrowed and the inside of his cheek being chewed as he varies if he should say something or not "It's a lonely road, you want me to call a cab for you?" He offers though he knows he doesn't have to, Hyunjin seems like a filthy rich man so he probably has this figured out and doesn't need help "No, I'll turn the corner and my guard will pick me up, he's already on his way" Hyunjin sighs yet again because his rage is simmering and he's having a hard time controlling it "Oh okay, well, good night then" Felix smiles gently at him and Hyunjin who was about to turn away stops abruptly, his entire system shutting down
what was happening to him? why was his anger slipping away this easily? His throat goes dry as he desperately tries to cling to his wrath but it's faded now, with just one single smile from the latter all his bubbling and frothing fury washed away like it never existed and all Hyunjin was left with was the pretty sight of Felix's face. A soft sigh rushed past the blond's lips as he stood in disbelief while Felix stopped his steps too, furrowing his brows and looking at Hyunjin with confusion
"What's wrong, Hyunjin?" He asked, bringing the man out of his world as he gulped and shook his head lightly, stammering over his breath before he spoke "Nothing," he whispered like speaking too loudly would ruin this moment that was so weird to him but equally precious. Felix keeps his eyes locked with Hyunjin's dazed ones "Goodnight, Felix" the man mumbles, and Felix smiles again, worsening Hyunjin's state "See you later" The blue-haired mumbles, shaking his head as he turns to walk away from Hyunjin who stands there quietly, trying to fathom what the living hell just happened to him
before he can comprehend it, a question rose within him and he immediately looked up from the ground to look at Felix "Hey, pretty?" His voice echoed in the quiet street and Felix turned around "Yes?" he questioned softly but it sounded loud enough "You'd be okay walking back home?" Hyunjin asks with obvious worry and Felix has to bite down a smile "Yes, yes I will be" Felix answers and it was true, tonight he didn't feel like he would have to spend it crying, he felt like he'd fall asleep in peace and it was not because he decided to exhaust himself physically but because he was at peace mentally.
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Felix's birthday rolled around so quickly that it was hard to understand if it truly had been two days and not just two hours. Though that one night had helped Felix sleep well and soundly as if all his worries had vanished and nothing bothered him anymore. Still, when morning came things changed and the effect of Hyunjin's presence, the calm that emitted off of him, and the way he had helped put Felix's mind to ease all vanished and Felix was yet again left all alone with his dreary mind
The past few days he had been living in a loop; wake up, eat, feed Noko and Coco, go to work, come back home, shower, eat, feed Noko and Coco, talk to his friends for a short amount of time and then go to sleep. It was as annoyingly boring as it sounded and Felix was so glad his birthday was finally here and now he could have some fun, unwind, and forget all about his ex and just live his best life with his friends
except that didn't end up happening.
All his friends ditched him because surprisingly, something had come up for every single one of them and none of them could come along with Felix. Seungmin's aunt fell sick so he and Changbin were leaving town to go see her, Jisung's father called and he wanted him back in London immediately because apparently something had happened to his mom and his boyfriend; Minho, was too busy with work
Momo had to leave the city to attend some charity event that her father was forcing her to go to and had even threatened to not talk to her for a month if she didn't, Felix knew how strict the man could be so he didn't even feel bad that she ditched him for a charity event. And Lastly, Sana was suddenly occupied by her job, and considering she was a doctor, Felix understood completely. Saving a life was more important than joining his pity party. Felix knew his friends had valid reasons to not come by and that was why he wasn't angry with them or even remotely upset by them
the only problem was that he had been looking forward to his birthday for the longest of times but then Chan had broken up with him which made him forget all about his excitement. And now that he was starting to feel the slightest bit of okay, everything ends up being canceled and he has to sit here, alone in some bar he doesn't care about, dressed up and drunk and sad. He was initially going to visit the bar he has been going to regularly but then he was reminded that the bartender won't let him pay and he has been feeling like he's lost enough control over everything in his life and he didn't want that bullshit right now.
So one drink after the other, Felix downs the liquor like it's water and finds himself absolutely wasted by the time 9 PM rolls by and he's sitting there, on a squeaky bar stool with his arm over the counter and his head on his arm, fighting tears because what else was he supposed to do? In nearly three hours he was about to enter a new year in his life, turn twenty-four, but he wasn't celebrating he was brooding bleakly with too much liquor in his system and too much pain in his heart
Then there was this ache that came not because he was alone but because of his past love. He missed Chan, so terribly fucking bad and now he was all alone on his birthday, could things have gotten any worse? He had thought about texting Hyunjin but then he just felt like wanting to be alone, in the solitude of himself, the only company being his agony.
His tears slipped on the glass and glistened while he sniffed and didn't try to contain them because there was no point anymore. And after there had become a puddle against his face of his own tears he sat up straight, downed three more shots of iced whiskey, and wiped his cheek, sniffling with his throbbing head as he shakingly got up from the stool, vision completely blurry as he gulped but something formed in his chest and refused to go down.
His feet shook under his weight but before he could fall his hand grabbed the counter in front of him and steadied himself as he raised his hand, eyes half squinted, and waited for the bartender to arrive while the man was already standing there, waiting for him to continue "Yes, sir?" He speaks, feeling pity for the man who had been crying for so long in front of him "Bill" Felix smiled through his headache and the man sighed "You've already paid" He answers for the second time now and Felix burrows his brows "What a liar" blowing a raspberry the boy turns around and burps softly
"Oh," A soft smile appears on his lips because how funny is it that he had burped? (not at all, he's just wasted) His rocky feet make their way out of the bar and he can feel a numbing sensation go all the way up to his thigh on his left leg and his right arm had almost given out because he was weighing himself on it for so long. His fuzzy head helps him understand as soon as he steps out of the bar that it is pouring cats and dogs and he doesn't have an umbrella on him, the clouds above him are roaring and thundering, clashing loudly like a wild animal confined in a cage
the blue-haired shivers and gasps lightly in shock, squinting his eyes and looking up to find the rain falling against his face as he whines and straightens himself, trying to sort out through the situation but his head is too heavy and the alcohol in his system is striking worse than it ever has so he doesn't think twice and runs through heavy puddles of rain, soft steps splash the water collected on the roads as he rushedly makes his way through the water, arms wrapped around himself and teeth chattering as minutes later his feet suddenly slow down and he stands amid the empty road, just staring ahead
his heart is filled with a few too many emotions but since he's drunk off of his face, it's hard to understand what those emotions are and why they are there in the first place, his heart grows heavy and he feels his throat close up nearly, tears shining in his eyes but they're not visibly because the rain is too heavy and the night is too dark. His lips quiver softly and he's still confused why he feels so sad, tears stream down his face and sobs slip out of his mouth yet nothing makes sense as he falls to his knees, the water sloshes with a loud splattering noise
his eyes shut tight and lips shaking as he let out loud wails, the sadness finally dawning on him through his thick haze of drunkness, his mind reminds him of his ex-lover and his lonesomeness so he lets loose and cries his heart out. May come the rain, wash away his tears and take away his aches. And by the end of his night, even the excessive amount of liquor didn't remove his ache. But then, arrived his savior, dressed in black, cloaked in enigma.
Flashing lights and a loud horn, screeching tires and a door banging shut. That's the last thing Felix remembers hearing and feeling before the rain above his head is blocked off and he meets the sight of something--someone.
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I know I promised a double update but It's a constant shit-show where I live, the internet and electricity were out the entirety of the 14th so I never got around to it, sorry I love u mwah thank u for reading <3