~ Nick's POV ~
We've finished eating and i can't help but smile because of how proud i am of Charlie. No matter how much he was struggling this morning he decided to have some breakfast and he almost ate it all.
We're standing in the kitchen kissing for a little bit until i pull away "we really need to go to the store now so we're hopefully back before Luna wakes up" i state and Charlie nods. We leave a letter on the counter in case she does wake up 'hi goodmorning, hope you slept well! We're at the store really quick, we'll be back soon, don't hesitate to grab anything you want! - Nick and Charlie'
We get in the car and i drive us to the store.
~ Luna's POV ~
It's 10.30am and i wake up after not sleeping a lot last night even though i'm so tired. I'm having a really bad day already, my depression is bad but today is even worse. I'm not in the mood to get out of bed, i don't want to do anything and i don't want to talk to anyone.
I really don't know how i'm going to hide how bad i feel. I can feel the tears starting to leave my eyes, this day already sucks and it just started, i just want to sleep, i want my mind to be quiet, i don't want to feel. I hate my fucking life.
I lay back down under the covers and decide to scroll on my phone in the dark. I'm not in the mood for anything else but just lay here in the dark all day.
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It's 12pm right now and i'm still laying in bed on my phone. I hear the front door open and close, i didn't know that Nick and Charlie we're out of the house but i guess they're back now.
I'm so hungry but getting out of bed is the hardest task and i decide not to eat anything, i just want to lay in bed.
~ Nick's POV ~
It's 12pm now and we arrive back home with the bookshelves for Luna. The house is still really quiet and it doesn't look like Luna has been downstairs yet. We brought lunch with us but if Luna is still asleep then we can just save her something.
We bought some salades for lunch because Charlie was actually excited to eat it so that's good. "i'm going to check on Luna, i'll be back Char" he nods at me while getting everything ready to eat soon.
I walk up the stairs and see her room is still completely dark, i decide to still go up to her room to see if she wants some food. I knock on her door waiting for a response and a silent yeah is coming out of the room so i open the door a little. "hi hope i didn't wake you up?" "no i was awake already" "okay good, do you want some lunch? We brought some salads and we have soup" "yeah i would love that, i'll be down soon" "okay great take your time" i leave her alone and go back downstairs.
Charlie set the table already and everything is organized by colour, some of the cupboards are open as if he was going to organize those next. I can tell he's really struggling today, his OCD didn't make him do this for a really long time but now he's sitting on the floor again and by the way he's looking around i think he's really overwhelmed by all the food.
I kneel down behind him and wrap my arms around him putting my head on his shoulder. "Char lets go have some lunch" i try to distract him from everything else. "n-n-no i n-need to- to d-do t-this!" he says while breaking the hug with me.
"Char can you look at me?" he looks at me and his whole face is in panic mode. "Take deep breaths with me" he does as i say and follows my breathing, calming down a little bit. "How about we put some music on while we eat and then we're going to watch a movie together?" i really want to distract him but i know that he thinks a distraction won't work even though it does help him a lot of the times.
"b-b-but-" Charlie is looking around panicked "hey focus on me baby, how about you are going to choose some music while i put this away?" Charlie nods hesitantly i can tell he's still uncomfortable but he stands up grabbing his phone to search for music. I put everything away where it belongs and then we sit down together.
I put my hand on his thigh and give him a kiss and Charlie takes some deep breaths. He looks around the organized table and he puts his face in his hands "what's wrong Char?" "I want my brain to shut up, i'm fucking 30 and this is still my life, i want it to stop!"
"This is just a bad day my love remember? It'll get better again, i'm here to support you. And if you want we could always schedule you an appointment with your therapist again" Charlie doesn't really respond, only nods, he let his body fall against mine and i hug him tightly.
Luna comes downstairs with bags under her eyes and it looks like she's been crying, she doesn't look okay at all but i don't know how i could start that conversation because i don't think she's ready for conversations like that yet. Luna slightly smiles at the sight of Charlie and me hugging and then we break the hug.
"hi how did you sleep?" Charlie asks, definitely noticing the bags under her eyes too. "uhmm o-okay, i slept okay" she says but i can tell she's lying. She sits down with us and we all eat our lunch.
After finishing our lunch, Luna stands up getting ready to get back upstairs. "Luna, we actually have a surprise for you" Charlie says with a smile and she turns back around fidgeting with her hands and the sleeves of her hoodie.
I don't know what's going on but i can tell she's not okay today, she seems really down and more shy then yesterday. "it's still in the car so we'll show you there" the three of us walk to the car and i open the trunk.
Luna's whole face lits up and it's absolutely adorable to see. "IS THAT-?! OMG are you serious?" she turns around to look at us and her whole face is filled with joy. I'm glad this cheered her up. "Charlie and i thought we could set it up in your room together today?" i say smiling, i can't stop smiling, i love seeing her so happy.
"I would love that!" she cries out happily. And then she does the most unexpected thing i thought would happen on day 2 of her being with us. She embraces us both in a hug tightly "thank you" she whispers. "we're glad you love it" Charlie says smiling too.
We spent our afternoon setting the bookshelves up together in her room, making it all cozy with music on in the background. When we're finished she looks around and takes a deep breath "i love it"
When we're all done setting up everything we decide to leave her alone. I can tell both Luna and Charlie are overwhelmed and tired. Charlie and i lay down in our room talking about how we loved her reaction and how happy she is with it.
After some time Charlie fell asleep on my chest and i can feel my eyes starting to get heavy too.
~ Luna's POV ~
I can't believe this is real life right now. I actually have my own bookshelves right now, they don't have to be storaged in suitcases anymore. I absolutely loved this surprise and it cheered me up a little.
Nick and Charlie have both been so sweet since i came here and i'm starting to think; maybe there are still people in this world that i can trust and can make me feel loved...