Our jaws hung up, as we read those little words show up on my screen.
"I think I'm in love with you."
"Holy fuck." Pansy whispered.
I couldn't get a word out, no matter how hard I tried.
"HOLY FUCK!" She was now screaming.
"Pansy!"
"HOLY FUCK!" She repeated.
I held the very broken phone in my hands, practically shaking. Mattheo Riddle, in love with me? Impossible. A boy like him was incapable of any human emotion.
Impossible.
Why would he say something like that.
We haven't spoke privately in two months.
OH MY MERLIN.
I HAD HIM HERE LAST NIGHT.
I invited the boy who is in love with me, over to comfort me. And HE DID.
"HELLO?! EARTH TO YN!!!!" Pansy was now waving her hand in front of my face.
"Holy shit." I whispered.
"What the fuck are you going to do?!" She say besides me.
"What am I supposed to do?!" I shot out of my seat, "he only admitted it because he thought I was dead!"
"Nonetheless he admitted it!" She jumped up with me.
"Pansy I have a boyfriend." My face got serious.
"And if you admit it, if not, you feel for Mattheo too. All the late nights sneaking around for months!" Her jaw dropped, "you're the girl on his story aren't you! Weeks ago!"
"Pansy lower your voice!" I swatted her arms.
"You little whore! Merlin!" She swatted me back.
We were in an all out slap fight when both our phones went off and we jumped and stared at our phones across the room.
🐍
11:32 p.m
Theo🤌🏼
Any luck with the phone?
"TELL THEM!" She screamed and jumped for her phone as I held it above her head.
"Pansy I can't!" I jumped higher.
"TELL THEM!!!!!" She insisted.
Me
Nope. Looks like a lost cause:(
Mattheo.🚫
That's too bad
I'm sure you didn't miss much
Enzo🅱️
Plus you have a new one, you got most of your shit back anyway!
Dray🐇
Ah man, sorry yn
"See! He doesn't even want me to see it! He doesn't want me to know he said it to me!" I threw her phone back to her, as she quickly opened the messages.
"You're a coward. Truly." She rolled her eyes, and walked her self to her bed.
Maybe she was right, maybe I was a coward. Maybe I didn't want to face the truth, I now had at my finger tips.
Or maybe I was being realistic. Maybe, he only said that because he thought I was dead, or dying. Maybe I didn't want to hear it, after I gave him so many changes to admit his feelings to me, and instead he chose another girl, or completely ignored me for her. Maybe I was sick of him chasing me behind closed doors, when it was convenient for him.
I laid down and got lost in thoughts. The thoughts I suppressed for so long.
I thought of the summer, how we began. All those nights we spent together. Then us once school started again, and how it all changed. From then to now, the change in us.
I knew it wasn't worth it.
This whole thing.
Getting involved with Mattheo Riddle, wasn't for the weak of heart. He was crazy, and borderline insane, possessive, controlling, but he was wild, and passionate, and did everything in the ways he knew how.
The thought haunted me for days. Those tiny words stained my memory.
Mattheo.🚫
10:38 a.m
Mattheo.🚫
You alright?
You look like you want to slam your head onto your desk.
Me
The class is dragginggggg
I'm bored out of my mind.
Mattheo.🚫
Just making sure it's not any other thoughts.
You know I'm here for you.
Me
Of course I do, Matt.
Mattheo.🚫
Just making sure
You haven't met up for studying
Or chilling in the common room
Just making sure your alright
Me
Yeah I've just been a bit busy
I'll come tonight
Mattheo.🚫
Good.
The truth was, I didn't know how to act around him anymore. A new awkwardness filled the room when we were in it. It wasn't even this bad when him and I were sneaking around.
I didn't know how to deal with this. I tried to act like I never read it, but it always lingered its way back into my mind. It was haunting me.
🐍
4:20 p.m
Dray🐇
Is miss yn gracing us with her presence studying tonight?
Theo🤌🏼
Fingers crossed
Me
I am I am
Enzo 🅱️
Thank Merlin
No one takes notes like you do
Me
Using me for my notes
Theo🤌🏼
I will give you a kid to prove I am not using you
Dray🐇
LMFAO THEOS FAMOUS LINE
me
I actually haven't heard you say that in so long wow
Theo🤌🏼
One day your bound to realize your in love with me
And you will let me give you a kid
Me
Yes Theo baby
One day
Dray🤌🏼
After dinner common room
Mattheo.🚫
I'll be there
Panssss
5:00 p.m
Panssss
Finally decided to stop running from him?
Me
Omg Pansy
Enough
Panssss
You're making it so weird you know that?
how are you going to pretend he never said that?!
Like how are you okay?
Me
Because he didn't mean it!
He thought I was dead for fucks sake!
Panssss
You're ridiculous
Me
whatever.
I spent dinner with Anthony, as I usually did now a days. I had alternating days between him and my friends, even though lately he's been joining us, no thanks to his new friendship with Theo and Draco.
But tonight was a just me and Anthony night.
And of course, all night the haunting of my own brain was killing me. Here I had a good kid, right in front of me. He cared for me, he was funny and kind, never gave another girl an ounce of attention. He was truly all about me, and I should be happy. This should be perfectly fine for me.
But Mattheo lingered in the back of my head.
Like always.
I got pulled out of my thoughts by Draco yelling, "yn! You coming?!"
"Yes!" I screamed back, "I'll text you in a bit." I bent down giving Anthony a kiss goodbye, and followed my friends.
Stories.
Yn story
Enzo's story
Pansy's story
Mattheo.🚫
9:37 p.m
Mattheo.🚫
You sure you're okay?
You jumped earlier when I touched your hand.
Me
Yes I'm absolutely fine.
Mattheo.🚫
You didn't seem it.
I don't like when you lie to me.
Me
I said I'm fine. So I'm fine.
Mattheo.🚫
Fine.
If you insist.
I'll back off like you told me too, perhaps I over stepped my self.
Me
Wait.
Matt
don't please.
(Read.)
"Fuck." I mumbled.
"Huh?" Enzo quickly turned his dead.
"Oh nothing," I laughed, "just got fucked on this question."
"Here I'll help." He leaned over.
"Thanks Enz."
"Course." He smiled; but the whole time my eyes were fixated on Mattheo.
"Hey yn?" Theo blurted out, "do you still have my green lighter?"
"Uh, yeah I should, in my bedside dresser?" I looked up confused.
"Alright, thanks." He said, heading upstairs.
Then it quickly hit me, that that's where I left my very unbroken phone.
I threw myself up the stairs, and through my door after him.
"Theo. Wait."
I was too late.