Astoria.
11:13 p.m
Astoria.
I think you're the other girl.
Me
I'm sorry what?
Astoria.
I had a feeling it was you, you two always randomly don't speak, then you're "best of friends."
But I knew for sure when I saw Pansy's story.
You're the other girl Mattheo is fucking around with.
Me
I'm sorry your reasoning is a picture of me on his back?
Astoria.
And the 4 a.m texts.
The way he looks at you.
Me
Not that it's any of your business, but Mattheo helps me mentally when I'm going through shit.
Involving my mother.
I'm sure you've heard the rumors and what not.
He helps me get through it.
As for the pictures, I am like that with all of the boys.
Theo
Draco
Enzo
So if you're also implying I'm fucking around with them too, we'll have other issues.
Astoria.
I've heard about your mother, and I am terribly sorry about the situation you're in with that, but perhaps you need to find someone besides my boyfriend to get you through it.
And no, I'm not implying you're fucking the other boys, but if the shoe fits.
Me
You're bold
Truly.
Listen, I am truly too drunk to argue, or come find you. Enjoy Mattheo, he is all yours.
Speak another foul word of me, and you'll have trouble speaking ever again.
Clear Grenngrass? Or should I sober up?
Astoria.
Crystal.
Panssss
11:47 p.m
Panssss
Woaaah
You alright over there?
Your whole mood just changed.
Me
*3 screenshots.*
Panssss
WHAT THE FUCK
WHAT THE FUCK
me
Change your face
I don't want the boys knowing there's an issue
Panssss
You're going to let her get away with that?
Me
It is her boyfriend
She can have all of it
It isn't worth it.
Panssss
Yn
Seriously?
Me
Yeah
I think I'm finally done.
Panssss
Idk if I'm proud of you, or sad for you
Me
He gave her the one thing he could never give me
Commitment
She can have him
She won
Even though idk if it's such a prize.
Panssss
We'll cuddle later okay?
Me
Looking forward to it baby.
I got up and stormed to my room. The aggravation and aggression that was filling my body was overwhelming. I wanted to punch a hole in her face.
It was my mother, whenever someone brought her up, spoke her name, something in me shifted.
Mattheo was there for me through it all, the unspeakable things I've bared witness too, he was the only one as twisted as I am. He was the only one who could calm me.
The relationship him and I developed was... interesting. Sort of dependent. Maybe he did it on purpose. But he went and got a girl friend, miss perfect Astoria Greengrass. She wasn't broken, or damaged goods. No baggage. She was absolutely perfect.
I heard a light banging at my door, and rushed to lock it.
My phone started vibrating in my back pocket as I felt a lump form in my throat.
Mattheo.🚫
1:21 a.m
Mattheo.🚫
Yn
Open
It's me
Me
I know
Go away
Mattheo.🚫
What the fuck?
I thought we were good?
Me
You thought wrong
And you need to leave
Mattheo.🚫
Can you open please before someone sees me
Me
Like who?
Your slutshaming girlfriend?
Mattheo.🚫
I'm lost
Fucking open yn
Me
Why don't you go ask her
Mattheo.🚫
Yn.
Me
She thinks there's another girl
And it's me
And she doesn't give a fuck about our friendship. And told me to find someone else to help me through the shit with my mother.
So go to her.
Be with her.
Mattheo.🚫
She said what?
Me
*3 screenshots*
Mattheo.🚫
Yn I am so sorry
I'm going to talk to her now.
Me
Stay with her Matt.
Mattheo.🚫
I'll talk to her.
Me
It's her or me, Mattheo.
I don't deserve to be hidden
Or the other girl.
Ball is in your court.
(Read.)
I laid on my bed, with my legs up on the wall, pulling the joint from my mouth.
"So you told him just like that?!" Pansy expression was shocked.
"My phones right there, read it." I shrugged.
"Good for you, yn. You do deserve better. Someone like Anthony, maybe?" She let out a soft chuckle.
"Yeah maybe. And maybe this time I won't cheat on him, you know, be an actual girlfriend." I laughed.
"That would be ideal." She laid next to me taking the joint from my hand.
"What's going on with you and Theo?" I turned to look at her.
"Ugh." She sighed. "Causal sex. A lot of it. It's great. But I don't think it'll be more than that." She shook her head.
"Why? Do you want more?" I raised an eye brow.
"Some days I do... I think. Others, I could care less." She shook her head. "At this age, maybe causal sex is best. Feelings are too fucked up, we're too fucked up."
"Yeah. Too fucked up." I agreed.
I went to bed that night, and I just couldn't shake the feeling. I finally gave him a choice, and to be honest; I wasn't sure what I wanted him to pick. Her or me. If he picked me, I wasn't even sure if I wanted a relationship with him. There was too much fucked up history and blurred lines. If he picked her, I wasn't sure if I could handle that hurt, from him. To loose him completely.
Classes went as usual that morning. No sign of Mattheo. No sign of Astoria. Astronomy was getting extra boring this day, so I decided to take out my phone, and scroll through instagram.
That's when I seen it.
Astorias story.
I clicked it.
And then my heart sank when I seen a tiny bubble around Mattheo's name.
I clicked it.
Mattheo's story.
I bit my tongue so hard, I'm surprised it didn't land on my table in front of me.
"Mr.Riddle. You're late." I heard our professor speak.
Which just made my heart speed more.
He picked her.
He actually picked her.
I needed out. Now.
"May I use the restroom?!" I didn't realize how loud I was, or the fact that I was already out of the door.
Buzz.
Panssss
11:27 a.m
Panssss
Wtf was that?
Are you okay?
Yn!
Me
Check insta
Now
Rn
Panssss
One sec
Omg
Omg
Holy fuck
Wow
I am
Sorry?
Yn wow
Me
I am fine
Just
Caught off guard
It's fine
Tell professor I got sick
I'll see you later
Pansss
Yn
Don't do this
Yn come back
(Read.)
🐍
1:03 p.m
Theo🤌🏼
Yn
It's lunch
Where are you?
Enzo🅱️
Saved you a seat
Dray🐇
Hurry Astoria is eating all of the pastries
Astoria.
I am not.
Me
Hey Astoria?
Astoria.
What?
Me
Eat glass.
*yn removed Astoria from the group chat.*
Theo🤌🏼
LMFAOOOOO
YO
dray🐇
HER FACE RN
STOP IT
Enzo🅱️
YN
I COULD KISS YOU
BRILLIANT
me
Mattheo you want to go too?
Too pussy whipped to stay?
Dray🐇
THEO IS CRYING OF LAUGHTER RN
Enzo🅱️
Fucking golden.
Me
Anyone adds her back; you'll be hexed.
She said something about my mom I don't want to talk about it.
Anthony
1:28 p.m
Anthony
I don't see your gorgeous face at lunch:(
Me
Aw looking for me?
Anthony
Maybeeeeee
Me
A bit under the weather rn :(
Anthony
Can I bring you lunch?
Me
Oh no no
Stay, enjoy your lunch please.
Anthony
I hope you feel better by tomorrow
I planned a whole date out
Me
Did you really?
Anthony
Maybe???
Me
That is beyond sweet.
I'm looking forward to it. :)
Anthony
Thank Merlin
Rest beautiful, and text if you need anything❤️
Me
You got it🤍
I smiled at the idea of someone planning a date for me. Going through those efforts. It made me feel good. How I should feel. I was going to ride this out, and see where it went.
I deserved to be shown off. Cared for.
I stayed in my room the rest of the day.
Mattheo.🚫
3:48 p.m
Mattheo.🚫
Yn
Let me explain.
6:31 p.m
Mattheo.🚫
Yn.
Answer me.
8:58 p.m
Mattheo.🚫
Fuck.
Don't make me come to your dorm.
11:24 p.m
Mattheo.🚫
I fucked up, okay?
3:01 a.m
Mattheo.🚫
Yn.
Open the door.
I never opened the door.
Instead I went to bed. Listening to him jiggling the door nob all night. It haunted me.
I got up the next morning and pretended he didn't exist. I got ready for my date. And went in with the biggest open mind I possibly could.
Anthony's story the following evening.
Yn's instagram story the following evening.
Mattheo.🚫
9:02 p.m
Mattheo.🚫
Are you fucking joking
I will break his jaw rn yn