-Hiccup's POV-
"I love you Astrid" I whispered. She didn't respond so my heart started beating fast. I held her hand squeezing it slightly waiting for her response but she just looked at me with teary eyes.
"How could you say that? You- you may be just confused because Merida and you fought and broke up.. probably.. don't say that" she pleads helplessly and I shook my head
"I'm not confused. I've been pushing these feelings away and not acknowledging them. But now I'm not doing that so please.. don't push me away. I plead that you would say it too.. say that you love me" I respond breathlessly
She cries slightly before nodding and saying what I've been waiting for most "I love you too" and with that I pressed my lips against hers closing the gap between us. Our lips move in sync and as the kiss deepened the closer our body pressed against each other. Finally, we both pulled away breathing heavily as we caught our breath.
I pressed my forehead against hers and caressed her cheeks softly, our eyes closed as I felt her breath so close to mine. "I love you.. but I don't think we should be together" I halted and opened my eyes
"Why?" I asked her and she looked at me
"Merida said that I like you that's why I posted that video even though it's not true if we dated her accusations of me would be proven a fact.." she replied with a bitter sweet. I didn't think of that..
"We'll figure it out." I say confidently. I didn't want to lose her now.
"I'm sorry.. I think you should just kill your feelings for me and I'll do the same. It'll be problematic if we enter a relationship now" she sighs
"Can't you stay with me? I'll address the issue since it's gone out, please Astrid.." I plead but she didn't give in
"I'm sorry.. I just can't do this. Everything is too complicated and it's extremely inconvenient for us to date at this time" she said one last time before standing up to leave but I held her hand tight so she wouldn't be able to.
"I know.. I'll fix it please! I'll fix this just wait for me." I say pulling her back to my embrace
"Astrid please" I whispered through her ears and I felt her trembling
"As much as I want to keep you by my side things are too complicated for us Hiccup. I think we need to separate and enjoy our life all on our own for a while" she says with little sniffles before trying to pull away from my tight embrace but I was so scared I didn't even let go and I just pulled her closer to me.
"Astrid no! Please.. don't leave me. Don't break my heart" I cried at her shoulder as her hand caresses my hair to comfort me. She kissed my head before saying goodbye and with all her strength she broke free with force from me and ran away. I just broke down and cried for a minute straight and Fishlegs came over and sit down beside me.
"Where is she?" I ask him wiping my tears away. Fishlegs handed me a handkerchief and says
"She's gone home, back to Berk. She told me to hand you her handkerchief because she had a hunch that you were crying." He replied. I took the handkerchief and looked at it tearing up once more as I appreciate the handkerchiefs beauty before using it to wipe my tears. I knew that her going back home was a lie. Astrid wouldn't leave the gang here with no transportation back home so she's still here, Fishlegs just didn't want me to know because I might run looking for her.
"Do you think I could use her handkerchief as an excuse to see her again?" I ask sobbing a little
"Maybe. But not soon, she says she's going to travel somewhere far before coming back home" Fishlegs says
"Everything is too much for us right now and we just want to stay away from drama. I just want to focus on finding Heather and helping Astrid find her comfort and peace." he added
"Don't worry.. I'll tell my father about the issue. He'll be more than happy to lend us a helping hand. It's the least I could do for you guys" I cried before composing myself and looking at Fishlegs with a smile.
"Thank you Hiccup. I'll be sure to take care of Astrid along with everyone else until she's ready again" he reassures me before leaving. That night, I walked all the way to the airport and booked a flight to Berk. I could sense that lots of people were looking at me with whispers, they've probably seen the video of Merida or the live, maybe both but like I care. I just want to go home and lay on my bed where I could talk to my things as if they could hear me because no one else would be able to understand me better than objects in my room.
The airport employees then announced the flight to Berk and when entering I spotted an old lady struggling to carry her bags. She was small like her height was Toph's from The Last Airbender. I quickly came to help her since I don't even have my stuff with me since I left them on Astrid's plane. "Here let me help you Ma'am" I say and carried her bags. She thanked me and walked with me to the entrance, I asked her for her seat and fortunately she's sitting beside me. I put her bags on the luggage storage and sat by the aisle.
"You looked like you just finished crying a thousand tears" the old lady then says with her weak voice and I smiled fakely
"It didn't reach a thousand but the pain I'm feeling surpassed every word from the vocabulary that I can't even express the pain" I say back and she smiled with a pity look
"It's hard isn't it? Life isn't just fair but it's beautiful.. it should be something we cherish while we still have it" she says and took out a jar full of cookies and handed them to me. I opened the jar and took one before giving it back to her.
"It isn't about life. It's about love.. I dumped my cheating girlfriend and on the same night I realized I was falling for my best friend so I confessed but she wasn't ready to be with me, or maybe she just didn't want to actually be with me she was just trying to let me down slowly" I say and started sobbing again so I took Astrid's handkerchief and used it to wipe my tears
"Is that hers?" The old woman ask and I nod
"It's beautiful.. she's good at making her handkerchiefs. Do you think she doesn't love you back at all?" She then asked and I shrugged eating the cookie bit by bit
"Maybe today is not the time but you'll get there if you two truly are made for each other. See, if you didn't lose her today you'll probably lose her tomorrow.. everything comes with consequences. Love comes with pain, it's a 2in1 package child. But in the end, it's all worth it because there is no greater gift than Love. So if you and her truly are meant to be don't rush it because Love isn't rushed. It's patient, it comes when it's the right time. Remember, if she loves you, she will come back to you."
(The iconic "Kung mahal ka, babalikan ka" (~‾▿‾)~)
I smiled "It's a beautiful advice. I like it" I say to her and she smiled back
"I remember when I was in my late 30s, I lost my husband then and never remarried. I felt incomplete without him. No one could fill the missing part that I felt so I never remarried. That is something even love won't be able to give me back but love is everything, so I stayed loyal to one person."
I stayed still, I tried to make myself comfortable on my economy seat. How infuriating to sit here, there's so little space and I could barely be comfortable in any position. It's so annoying.. ugh.
"It's hard to find a comfortable seat if that's what you're really looking for" the old woman spoke
"Pardon? What is that supposed to mean?" I ask with a slight frown on my face, she shrugged and I sighed. I missed Astrid.. if she were here I'm sure I'd be more than comfortable in my seat right now..
After about 6 hours of flight and endurance with the old ladies chatter and old saying, I was finally able to breath as I got out of the plane and once again met the hard ground of earth's crust. I manage to walk all the way outside of the airport and made a call from my home. It was early in the morning already, 6 AM to be exact. "Hello?" Our Butler groaned as he picked up the phone
"Hey John. Could you please pick me up at Mon-gon Airport? I'm kind of tired" I say weakly and I heard him run with hurry as he assures me that our driver is on his way to pick me up. I did wait.. the wait felt like forever, I constantly checked the time and looked up at the sky every second I got just to see if my eyes would catch a glimpse of Astrid's plane flying back home.
I found my very disappointment as I spot our limo, my driver's here. He escorted me in the car before driving. He did a U-turn and drove on the highway. I felt my body fall on the couch of our limo.. the airport belongs none other than Astrid's Family, so I was hoping that she'd be back here. I opened the cover of our roof screen on our limo, expensive I know. I watched the stars under as we living beings were guided throughout the night skies. It was already 6 AM and it barely looks like it since I could still see some stars. After looking at it for 20 minutes or so, I found that a plane was flying across our car. The plane looks like it was about to land so it looks bigger and I could see it's details a little better. What I saw was Astrid's plane! She's back!
(Meanwhile on the plane)
"Do you think we did the right thing?" Fishlegs asked
"I'm sure. Astrid needs space and what we did was for the best." Ruffnut sighed
"Yes but... I can't help but feel guilty and ashamed of doing that to her" Fishlegs softly says with his head down.
"Yeah.." Snotlout briefly says in agreement
"Guys chill. Astrid is fine." Ruffnut says massaging the bridge of her nose
"Fine?! She didn't even come back home! We left her at Beserker Island!" Tuffnut couldn't help but stand up and yell
"Chill out Tuffnut! She was the one who asked us to leave her there!" Ruffnut yelled back. Then both of them crashed down the ground as the airplane started to make its landing. Snotlout with an eye roll helped Tuffnut while Fishlegs helped Ruffnut.
"You have to be more careful!" Fishlegs scolds and Ruffnut turns around but came to regret it as her face was suddenly so close to Fishlegs. She quickly looked away with her head down and couldn't help but blush at the sudden interaction.
(Back to Hiccup's POV)
John opened the door and greeted me with a smile. There was now sunlight and the sun was showing off its heat. I came back home with no response from the greetings and welcomed backs from everyone. I just walked up straight to my bedroom and shit the door behind me. I hung my jacket on my desk's chair and flopped on the bed. I buried my face on my pillow feeling a sense of warmth and comfort, everything in here was so comforting since it's so familiar to me, of course this is my room.
My eyes roamed around my room with nothing better to do. Will this torture ever end? I got up and was about to leave when I noticed that my personal library had a new door. I traced my fingers on the beautiful glass door full of carvings just like in the woods but it's glass. I carefully opened the door and I realized that my bedroom was not my most comfortable place, it's my library. Where all of my books lie and where a cozy fireplace in front of my musical instruments were placed. Pianos, Guitar, Drum and a Mic. There are also two desks inside, one as my study table where there is lots of space so I could place the things I need neatly.
"Astrid..." I whispered her name softly as I looked at my other desk. A desk dedicated to all for my creation of songs. There, most of my inspirations were hung on a wall or string so I could still have space on my desk. It wasn't as long and spacious as my study table but it's enough for me to write my songs, I'll write one now.
I sat on the chair and thought of a song title. After a few long hours or so I came up with a song titled 'She's Gone'
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