Days, weeks and even months passed. Me and Tasanee were more and more in love with each other, my family was so happy to see me smile again and everything seemed to go smoothly.
As my two younger brothers grew up, they started to understand that we were not a “normal” family and what we were involved in. Vegas and Macau were a little bit more aware due to their father being very descriptive with them about the missions, and having guns all over the house.
They started to come and see me train and shoot at targets, their little faces amazed by my aim, saying that they hoped to become like me when they grew up.
I remember training very hard, in order to defend myself better and also Tasanee: I was so afraid that something would happen to her that I started to bring a small gun with me when we went out together.
Apart from my worries, I wanted my family to meet Tasanee, but I couldn’t invite her to our house. She couldn’t know that we were a mafia family, she needed to remain clueless for as long as possible.
So one day we simply arranged dinner together at a restaurant, without bodyguards.
It was going to be me, Tasanee, Korn, Tankhun, Kinn, Kim, Vegas and Macau. I didn’t want her to meet Gun, he would've just been a very unpleasant presence.
I was nervous. I got myself prepared, wearing a pair of black cargo pants and a dark hoodie, brushing my hair over and over, trying to ease my anxiety
“It's going to be fine, I'm sure they will like her” Korn told me, caressing my shoulder and smiling at me through the mirror
“But what if-” I was trying to say, but I was cut off
“No ‘Ifs’. I said I'm sure, no need to be scared baby” he smiled again, hugging me briefly before exiting the bathroom.
After a couple of minutes we hoped into the car and drove to the restaurant
“What's her name again?” Vegas asked
“Tasanee! Don’t you remember, silly?” Kinn responded, laughing a bit, receiving a light slap on his arm by Vegas afterwards
“Calm down you too!” I laughed, scolding them a bit
“I want to meet her so bad!” Kim said, whining
“Me too! I'm curious!” Macau added
“I'm curious too, I'm going to ask her a lot of questions” Tankhun said with a grin on his face, showing his wary side.
Hearing them bickering and talking relaxed me a bit and made me smile too.
After maybe half an hour, we arrived at the restaurant: it was a simple and small one, serving traditional Thai food.
As soon as I got out of the car I saw Tasanee, smiling, her long hair tied into a bun, wearing a cute dark dress, not too short nor too long.
I felt Korn surpassing me and I saw him approaching her. He greeted her with a bow and a warm smile
“Hello Tassanee, I'm Korn, Ada's father. I'm very pleased to finally meet you” he admitted, still smiling, seeming sincerely happy to see her
“Hi Khun Korn, nice to meet you too!” she responded, smiling and bowing too, relieved that he was positive and happy towards her.
Soon after, all of my brothers and cousins approached her, running towards her and bombarding her with questions, which she tried to respond to, laughing.
I laughed too at that sight, feeling more and more relieved.
We entered the restaurant and we sat on our table, me next to Tadanee, Korn in front of us with Tankhun watching carefully and my other brothers and cousins surrounding me and my girlfriend.
The dinner went on smoothly, we were laughing all together, talking happily, even Tankhun was smiling and relaxing the more he talked to Tasanee.
It felt like we were a big family just having fun. All my worries faded away, and I felt genuinely happy after a long time.
We then came back home: it was pretty late, so we took Tasanee home first, and then we got to our house.
As soon as we got inside, Korn spoke “I like her very much.. now I understand why you fell in love with her” he smiled. I simply blushed and smiled back, blabbering a faint “Yeah”, embarrassed, but happy.
That night I slept on the floor covered with thick blankets and pillows, surrounded by my brothers and cousins. All of them talked about Tasanee, about how beautiful and kind she was. Some of them understood our relationship, some didn’t due to their age and their lack of knowledge about those types of feelings. But I was happy regardless.
From that day, she became part of our big and unusual family.
After that day, I kept thinking about how much I wanted to take the next step with Tasanee, how much I wanted to leave my past behind me and start a new chapter, together with her.
So, after both of us turned eighteen and after a long period of time of me trying to prepare myself for this, I decided to tell Tasanee that I wanted to make love with her.
We were at her place, on the bed cuddling, my head resting on her warm and soft chest, her arms engulfing me into a comforting hug. I felt my heart pounding and my palms sweating. I was nervous, but I was sure about what I wanted.
“Tasanee..” I called her, starting the upcoming conversation
“Yes, my beautiful motorcyclist?” she responded, smiling and using the nickname that she loved
“I was thinking a lot about something lately.. and I wanted to tell you..” I kept going, being more and more nervous
“Is everything ok?” she was concerned, seeing my nervousness
“Yes.. I was just wondering if you.. if us.. if we could.. do it..” I said, stuttering. She stayed silent for a couple of seconds, then she spoke
“Ada.. are you sure you want what you’re asking me to do? You know that I can wait for you” she reassured me, caressing my back gently
“Yes.. I thought about this for a long time.. and I’m ready to do this.. with you” I smiled at her. She smiled back at me, caressing my cheek
“If you’re not comfortable with anything just let me know and I will immediately stop, understood?” she asked, looking at me dead in the eyes
“Understood” I smiled
She kissed my cheek and then she sat on the bed, making me sit too, right in front of her.
“Do you.. feel comfortable kissing me?” she asked, knowing about my even bigger trauma about kissing
“I don’t know.. I think I need a bit more time for that” I said, lowering my head
“That’s totally fine, don’t worry Ada” she smiled and took my face in her hands. She then made me lay down on the mattress and she got on top of me. I felt a bit anxious and uncomfortable, but I brushed it off. She then started slowly kissing my cheeks, lowering from time to time, until she reached my neck, which she started kissing softly. Her hands were caressing my shoulders, then my arms, then my chest. As soon as she approached that part of my body I stiffened and took her hand “Wait..” I said, looking at her in the eyes “Can I.. can I be on top? I don’t like being like this.. it reminds me of..” I was cut off by her “Of course my love.. come here” she smiled at me and immediately got off of me and layed on the bed. I slowly got on top of her, straddling her waist, earning a smile from Tasanee
“Better?” she asked, placing her hands on my waist. That gesture didn’t make me feel that bothered like before, I felt like I had control over the situation, that if I was uncomfortable I could just get off and exit the room.
“Yes.. a lot better” I smiled, looking her in the eyes. I could see desire in her eyes, but they were also filled with warmth and love. I never had someone looking at me like that before that day.
Then she kept doing her exploration, this time starting from my waist, then she went for my chest again, softly and slowly taking my two breasts in her slim palms. I closed my eyes and got nervous again and she noticed it “Ada, look at me.. I’m not a man, I’m Tasanee, your girlfriend, and I will never touch you like this for my pleasure, I will do it just for your pleasure” she said, talking softly and reassuring me. I opened my eyes and I saw her face, her smile, her arms and hands half disappeared into my shirt and I felt some sort of spark going through my lower abdomen. I got aroused. I was going to say something, when Tasanee sat down, me still on her lap, and she started kissing my neck gently, making me feel every little contact of our bodies.
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Her lips were wet on my skin and her hands were soft, roaming under my shirt and never too demanding, always delicate and respectful.
“Can I take off your shirt..? I will take mine off as well” she asked, placing her hands on my waist again
“Yes..” I smiled at her, appreciating her questioning me for approval. She then proceeded to take off both our shirts, leaving both of us with our bra exposed. Mine was a black sports bra, hers was a white, normal one. It was the first time we were seeing each other without a piece of clothing and I couldn’t help but find her mesmerizing.
“You’re beautiful..” we both said at the same time, laughing softly right after. She then proceeded to caress my exposed torso again, looking at my skin, carefully touching every corner of my body
“You can touch me too if you want” she invited me, smiling and kissing my cheek. I then happily obliged, placing my hands on her shoulders, feeling her hot and soft skin under my fingertips. I slowly lowered my hands, feeling the beginning of her breasts, much smaller than mine. I then placed my palms on her covered roundness and I closed them a bit, in order to take them in my hands a bit more firmly. That act of mine got a reaction, an almost inaudible gasp from Tasanee. I kept palming her breasts and I also started kissing her neck, her warmth rising and her breath hitching. I didn’t know why.. but it felt good being in control of the situation, it felt empowering.
“Ada.. can I take it off?” she asked, placing her fingers on the thin shoulder straps of my bra. I was a bit hesitant at first, but then I gave in and let her do her thing.
She slipped off my bra in one swift movement and dropped it on the bed, admiring my now exposed breasts, nipples getting hard at the feeling of the cold hair hitting my skin.
I proceeded to do the same to her, and I took off her bra too, getting a very pleasant look at her breasts.
That moment felt so right, so pure and loving.
We kept taking all of our clothes off, being completely nude in front of each other, me still on top of Tasanee, my legs spread, straddling her lap, her eyes having a direct view of my womanhood.
I felt my face heating up and my cheeks turning red.
“Ada.. are you ok..? Do you want to keep going?” she asked me, her hands detaching from my body and grabbing my face
“Yes.. but please.. be gentle” I smiled at her, caressing her hands and kissing her cheek. She then brought her right hand down and placed it on my abdomen. I immediately felt goosebumps running down my spine and tension rising up.
Her hand kept going down and it eventually reached my mound, which she caressed gently.
I took big and deep breaths, focusing on her face, her perfect body, her gaze, her hand playing with my skin.
“Can I..?” she asked one more time, just to be completely sure that I wanted to go on
“Yes.. You can..” I responded, and then she brought a finger up my slit, sliding it slowly from my clitoris to my opening. I let out a loud gasp, breathing heavily at the new and pleasant, yet a bit scary, feeling.
“Relax my love.. Just focus on me and let me make you feel good” she whispered and, after gathering some sticky fluids from my opening, she brought her finger on my clitoris again, starting to stroke it up and down.
Gasps and hitched breaths escaped my throat, I could feel her finger moving so effortlessly and skilfully on my most private part, making it hers, and I enjoyed every moment of it. My mind went blank and could just focus on the pleasure, forgetting all my bad experiences.
She kept stimulating that little bundle of nerves for a little, then she spoke “Now I'm going to put a finger inside.. Are you ready Ada?” she asked, still moving her finger.
I simply nodded, gulping down a large lump of saliva, but she wasn’t satisfied by my answer “I need to hear it Ada, please tell me if you're ready to do this” she added, tenderly kissing my neck and the space in between my breasts
“Yes.. I'm ready Tasanee” I said, breathing heavily, mentally preparing for what was coming.
She detached her finger from my clitoris and slowly pressed it at my now very slippery opening. The contact made me flinch and gasp loudly, but she reassured me with kisses and caresses all over my body. She then began to insert the tip of her finger, slowly putting it all the way inside of me, and then she stopped.
I was gripping her shoulders tightly, my eyes wide open, looking at her face.
“Are you ok?” she asked almost whispering
“Yes.. It’s just.. a bit weird.. and it hurts a little” I admitted, trying to relax as much as I could
“I can stop if you want” she said, but I immediately stopped her
“No! Keep going, I'm ok” I smiled at her.
She nodded and started moving her finger, doing a ‘come here’ motion, gently, in order to understand what would feel better for me. I immediately felt a strong wave of pleasure through my entire body, a moan escaping my mouth at the surprising feeling.
Tasanee understood that I liked it and kept going, moving her finger skilfully inside my hole, earning moans, gasps and hitched breaths from me.
I was so distracted by the pleasure her hand was giving me that I couldn’t even feel her shifting back, raising my hips so that she could move and bring her face near my privates, making me straddle her face.
She then stuck her tongue out and laid it flat on my clitoris, her finger still inside of me, moving back and forth.
I flinched at the warm and wet unfamiliar feeling and I looked down: I saw Tasanee's face between my spread legs, her eyes staring at me and her tongue licking and sucking at my most sensitive part, her other free hand searching for mine and when found, gripping it. That vision alone could make me cross the finish line, but I wanted to enjoy that moment for as long as I could, so I let her do her thing, occasionally moving my hips to create more friction.
Before meeting Sunan, I already tried to pleasure myself, with successful results, but I could've never imagined that another person doing the same could make me feel ten times better.
I don't remember much of what I said or what Tasanee said, I just remember the feeling that my first real orgasm gave me: A deep, raw pleasure, my whole body tensing, my back arching, one hand gripping Tasanee's hand and the other one gripping her hair tightly. A long, guttural, almost growling sound came out of my throat without me even realizing it. My head was empty from everything, my hearing muffled and I slowly came down from my strong climax.
Tasanee was smiling, proud of herself and the pleasure she gave me, her face still crushed between my legs. She then slowly removed her finger from my hole, taking a good amount of my arousal with it and as she did that, I got away from her face and plopped on the mattress, exhausted.
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I heard Tasanee laugh softly, probably due to my tiredness, or my juices all over her mouth and chin. She got up, took some tissues from her nightstand and cleaned her face and hand, then she plopped next to me, engulfing my body into a tight hug, our foreheads touching each other.
“Was it good? Did I hurt you?” she asked, caressing my hair and detaching a few strands from my sweaty face
“It was good.. It hurted just at the beginning when you put the finger inside, but just a little..” I smiled at her
“..But can I have some tissues please?” I laughed, realizing I was soaked wet behind my legs. Tasanee laughed too and quickly passed me the tissue box. I took a couple of them and I carefully cleaned myself.
We hugged again, our naked bodies pressing against each other, our warmth and smell mixing. I closed my eyes and let myself enjoy that perfect moment, so intimate between us.
“Ada..” she called me, catching my attention. I just opened my eyes, to let her know that I was listening to her
“I love you” she added, smiling softly and caressing my cheek. I was a bit taken back from that statement, but I was pleasantly surprised by that, so I smiled too, kissing her cheek afterwards
“I love you too Tasanee” I said, hugging her even more tightly than before.
I placed my head on her naked chest, hearing her still fast heartbeat, when I remembered something
“Tasanee.. You didn’t.. finish” I let her know
“I know.. and I'm more than ok” she smiled
“Yes, but-” she immediately cut me off
“Ada, don’t. Today was about you, the next time we will do it, I’ll let you touch me and make me finish. But now you just need to relax” she said while caressing my back.
So I just did as she told me, I relaxed in her arms and I even fell asleep after a couple of minutes.
For the first time after what Sunan did to me I felt good about that act that I always repulsed, rejected and thought was just pain, bruises and blood. With Tasanee, it felt warm, intimate and sweet.
I felt at ease being naked and vulnerable in front of her. I felt respected, I felt good and satisfied. I felt loved.