(3 weeks later)
(Nia)
I stand by my locker watching him. He's speaking to a girl. She's beautiful. More beautiful then me. The jealousy are hurting inside of me. I know. I've been saying that I don't want him. And this is the best. Him with another girl and me alone. That's how it's supposed to be. But why am I so hurt over him speaking to another girl? They've been talking to each other many times in school. He has his pretty smile. And I can hear them laugh. My heart is breaking like a glass falling in the ground every time I hear him laugh with that girl.
-Hey, someone says.
I look up and see Chris's friend. Nathan I think.
-Hey, I answer.
-How are u?, he asks.
-Great. Wby?, I ask.
-I'm good. That girl is nothing to him, he says.
I look up at him.
-It looks like she's something, I say.
-There's a big gap since you left. He's trying to fill it. But it doesn't work. Your his everything. He spoke about u all the time, he says.
-So? Now he speaks about her, I say.
-No he doesn't. U know it too, he says.
-Do u even know what he did? Or have he told u that he did nothing wrong?, I ask.
-No no I know. What a stupid guy, he says.
I laugh.
-All guys are stupid, I say.
-Alright, he laughs.
He walks away and I actually smile when looking after him. I realise I don't hear the laughs anymore and looks back at Chris. The girl isn't there anymore. Just Chris and his staring at me. He's not looking happy anymore. Well if he can speak to girls In front of me I can speak to guys in front of him. It was literally him who started speaking to me first. I sigh and walk away to go to class and get away from him.
I meet up Bella before class.
-Hey girl, I say and hug her.
-Heeey, she says.
We have long and boring classes the whole day. I'm so tired of this. My mind isn't clear ever. I only think about Chris. Chris is my whole life even now when he's not in it. I'm trying everything to make it stop. But it never does. I'm getting crazy. Can he just stop exist? I can't live like this. I can't have him around me.
(Chris)
I drink the last of my drink and I'm starting to get a little dizzy.
-Don't drink that much Chris, Nathan says and takes my glass from me.
-He's in pain, Val says.
-What do you mean? I'm not. I'm better then I've ever been, I say.
I look trough the window. Nia's standing outside the house with some people.
-I have to go talk to her, I say.
-No I don't know if that's a good idea, Simon says.
-No i think she needs some time Chris, Nathan says.
-Yeah cause she's your new girlfriend so u know her. I speak to her if I want, I say.
-But you drunk, Nathan says.
I don't listen and just walks away. My brain is pounding and my thoughts are too. I get out and walk to Nia. She looks at me.
-I have to talk to you, I say.
-No not now Chris, she says.
-I have to talk to you Nia!, I say.
-How drunk are you?, she asks.
-Please Nia, I say and touches her hair.
She turn away from me.
-Stop. Get away, she says.
-I just want to talk to you, I say.
-I don't, she says.
For some reason I'm getting so angry. Because I'm trying and she doesn't let me.
-Fine, I say and walk into the house again.
After a while her and her friends are getting into the house too. I make sure she sees me when I walk up to the first girl I see. I kiss her before saying hi. She kiss me back. We stand there making out for a while. I look at Nia and smile. She directly kiss the boy next to her. He kiss her too. He place his hand on her ass and she is smiling on his lips. She's wearing a black, tight and very short skirt. And she has a see trough tank top so that her bra is showing a lot. Her hair looks perfect. And her face is too. Like always. The pain is starting to get trough the feeling of being drunk. I get a drink and drink the whole drink in one time. Then I take the girl and make out with her again. I'm touching her like that guy touched Nia. She stops kissing me.
-I'm Layla, she says.
-Chris, I say and then I keep on kissing her.
She's so wrong. Don't get me wrong, she's beautiful. And she's probably a good person. But she's not Nia. No cause Nia is kissing someone else. I stop and look around after Nia. She's gone. And that guy too. I start panic and push away the girl.
-What's your problem?, she asks.
-Sorry. Thought u were somebody else, I say and walks away from her.
I run upstairs and open a door. I see them. They are wearing clothes still but that was almost. I drag her up from him.
-Stop!, she says.
I drag her with me. I don't care about anything. I just get her out of the house. She lean to the wall with her back.
-You have to stop!, she's screaming.
-I can't!, I scream back.
-Don't you understand that your ruin my life? I don't want you here anymore. You have to leave me alone!, she says with tears in her eyes.
-But I love you so bad. We're meant to be. Things are getting wrong sometimes. Life goes on, I say and I'm close to crying too.
-Yes your right. But we were wrong Chris. We just hurt each other. And life goes on. Our life's will go on. Without each other, she says.
-No no. I can't life without you!, I say.
-I don't care, she says.
-I love you. Please just forgive me, I say.
-I can never forgive u Chris, she says.
I see red when she says that. Alcohol and heartbreak are not a good thing to blend.
-Your not saying that!, I scream.
-Yea I am, she says.
She sees in my eyes how angry I am. She moves to get in again. I push her hard into the wall again. She looks scared.
-Your fucking whore. Your telling me everything I've done. But have you forgot everything you've done?, I scream into her ear.
She sobs with closed eyes.
-No cause your a perfect little princess in your eyes? But your not!, I scream.
She looks up at me.
-Please stop. I can't do this, she cries.
I place my hand around her throat hard and lush her into the wall. She struggling to breath.
-I hate u Nia!, I scream.
The noice of her trying to breath isn't getting to me.
-Stop with that Chris!!, Nathan screams.
I don't. He push me away and I let go of Nia. Nia's weak to her knees. She's trying to breath. She's crying. She throws up while not being able to breath. My friends are trying to help her. That's the moment my drunk brain understands. The moment I remember. Her trauma. Her last boyfriend abused her. I just did.
-I'm sorry Nia, I scream and start crying.
She's breathing loud and sits down on the ground when she doesn't throw up anymore.
-I'm sorry!, I'm crying.
-It's.. fine.. just.. go, she says.
Simon takes me away into the house again. Who the fuck am i?