I don't want you to think I'm falling back on my promise
I don't want you to think I'm desperate for someone
In looking back at all we've been through
I guess I'm realizing it's hard to love
It's not that now I magically trust you
It's not that now I feel like I can move on
It's not that I've forgiven you for what happened
But I think now I'm ready to talk
I have lots of gripes I haven't been able to discuss
Little annoyances and bursts of anger I must attend to
You may know I have a tendency to exaggerate things
Sometimes I write words that carry sharp stings
But in moments of clarity, I tend to back down
Remind myself how little I've missed
But then I start to wonder how truthful I am with myself
At end of the day, I know I have to be the bigger man and end this stalemate
Written on: December 9, 2023