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"Is this my karma for flirting with him knowing he wasn't into it???"
Yeonjun is in his room overthinking, it been almost an hour and a half
"If I don't flirt with him from now on will I lose these feelings??"
"If so will that make moa think something happened between us??"
Yeonjun is debating
"I can't keep flirting with him now it feels I'm taking advantage of him.. cause he doesn't know that i.."
yeonjun couldn't finish his sentence, he felt guilty
"I hate this why do i suddenly like him.. like of course he's a really good looking guy and hard working person and always try his best to comfort our members, even when he's felt pressured by being the Leader but still did his best for us.."
yeonjun is thinking about his reason for his feelings
"Though He's quiet and isn't the bravest type but he doesn't hesitate to call someone out when they were being rude to our members, and when I couldn't even defend myself.. I'm thankful to him"
Yeonjun is appreciating the thoughtful gesture as he can't help but feel warmth thinking about it
But still He didn't want his relationship with soobin to change cause of him.
"I should get rid of this feelings quickly so everything can be better for both our relationship and for moa I don't want my feelings to get in the way of our career, so for now I'll ignore it.."
Its the only option yeonjun seem to able to picked, he didn't know what else to do. He lean to his bed and grab the diary under the pillow out then placing it on the bed. He then got up, went to his desk, he's hand's stutter to pick up which pen but grab the one he rarely used
quickly he went to sat on the floor and open the diary, as he flip through the page of his past feelings and thoughts, he flip to a blank page. staring at it for a few seconds, he took a deep breath and began writing with a slight frowned but calmer look on his face.
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"I, Choi yeonjun is in love my group leader, choi soobin, yeah crazy isn't it?! but I will not let this get in the way of our current relationship and so I will ignored this feelings!!
"It's not the best option but its the only option. unnecessary feelings should be left behind, cause I don't want it to get in the way of our career..ㅠㅠ
"I don't want him to be uncomfortable cause of my feelings so I'll try to distance myself with him till my feelings go away.
"I can just take it as another challenge or obstacle in my life, and if I don't beat it-
"no more delicious food. actually no not that. that's too cruel.. it's GOD CAN STRIKE ME AND MY CAREER."
—YJ
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Yeonjun exhaled, writing his thoughts down makes him less stressed, it get his brain organized, he felt a lot better now. He smiled softly as he pick up his diary and look at it, rereading it over and over.
As much as he feel better and motivated then before, Yeonjun know that avoiding soobin isn't the best option, but it's the only option, and if it'll make his feeling go away, he'll do anything.
he didn't want soobin to be uncomfortable with him, so this is all for his own good. It's better if he never knew he like him, or found out about it then having to deal with it for as long as they're together in their careers.
Of course he will have to interact with soobin every once in awhile to not let anyone suspect something wrong
But even so he'll keep his distance for now.
Knock knock!
Yeonjun flinched, startled by the the sudden noise, jeez who would be up at this hour? beomgyu-?
"Hyung? You there?"
A familiar deep gentle voice called out behind the door, no it was soobin
Yeonjun eyes slightly widened, he didn't answer, he covered his hands over his mouth trying to stay quiet, for some reason..
As the silence became loud, Yeonjun could only heard his own heartbeat at the moment but suddenly, he heard something drop in front of his door, with the sound of soobin's walking away afterwards
After a few minutes later, yeonjun decided to check outside.
he look around again before taking the bag inside, as if he's a little kid secretly taking cookies from the jar without his mom noticing.
closing the door, He then opened the bag to see snacks, his favorites ones
With another thing inside was something wrapped in a small piece with a paper sticker written "for yeonjun hyung -your cute dongsaeng" he exhaled, finding the note cute, as he open it, he's eyes widened in surprise
'What the?!— A big cardigan?!? and a top!? The same top that got stained today!..'
'..Did soobin felt that bad and bought a new one..??' Yeonjun thought, still stunned, but soon his expression softened
"The snacks was already enough" yeonjun said softly smiling starring at the clothes, feeling a bit guilty cause he didn't intend for that, did soobin really felt that bad? Isn't this too much?
but then again, by the way he was acting, anyone would surely misunderstood him, people do say he look intimidated.. but he didn't mean that
Yeonjun sat on down the bed and smile at the clothing he got in his hands, it wasn't those overly expensive stuff but it was still thoughtful
He lay down on his back before turning to the side hugging the clothes feeling contend and warmth, he eyes fluttered at the light bulb that was on, he could feel his eyes tired, so he rest them
In the end he felt asleep curl up holding onto the clothes, that soobin gotten him.
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"aw again??!" Huening Kai whined as he plopped down on the sofa in disbelief that he lost another round
Beomgyu laugh playfully as he slightly lean next to Kai "you're still a noobb~" he mocked teasingly
"I can beat soobin hyung though!!" Kai said in defense, throwing his hyung under the bus
Beomgyu frowned and smirk in a playful gesture "soobin hyung is just bad at games in general" he said sarcastically as he lean back up to put on another round
"If soobin hyung heard you said that he might beat you up hyung" Huening said jokingly while he sit back up giggling
Beomgyu scoffed as he grin
"If Yeonjun hyung haven't beat me up what makes you think soobin hyung will" he said playfully with a smug expression
Huening just rolled he's eyes "that's the thing yeonjun hyung probably didn't beat you up because soobin hyung haven't yet"
"What logic is that" Beomgyu said looking confused "and if we keep talking about getting beat up, I'm gonna be the one who beat you up-"
Kai look at beomgyu while blinking innocently then automatically laughed looking away from beomgyu "HAhha- okay okay- anyway i wonder what soobin hyung and yeonjun hyung are doing—" he changed topic, kinda
"Probably sleeping?" Beomgyu said frowning as he grab his phone and turn it on
"OH SHIT..!? ITS 2AM..??!!" Beomgyu jaw dropped and Huening gulped as he smiled and look at beomgyu, in a soft tone but stone manner hyuka said.
"hyung, we're dead"
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the next day
Yeonjun yawns opening his door as he feel a tear creeps up upon his eyes, he rubs his eyes while also trying to stretched himself, feeling like he had a nice rest
turning his head left and right and there's soobin right next to him
wait soobin was right next to him—?!
yeonjun paused and stood still in his position
While soobin was leaning on the wall next to the older's room door looking at the him up and down then up, but slowly a smile popped up on the younger one face when seeing yeonjun's reaction
Yeonjun realized how stupid he look and composed himself quickly acting like as if soobin caught him acting out a scenario alone in his room, feeling a bit awkward
"YAH..!—" yeonjun started roughly
"—you scared me..- anyway, what do you want?" but tone down a little, he's eyes wandering away from the younger one
Soobin just chuckled and stood straight and went towards the older male with a mischievous tone he said "oh I just wanna ask something~"
Yeonjun look at soobin for a moment and nodded for the younger to ask away
Soobin smiled, then lower his body a bit "Hyung do you like me?"
He asked, looking at the older's eyes with curiosity
Yeonjun eyes widened, god what is this situation
"..What are you saying"
"You like me right? more then friends perhaps?"
Soobin asked again as he walk closer
"I.. I don't know what your.. your talking about-"
Yeonjun back up and stumbled on his words
But soobin just pull yeonjun closer
"Don't act like a dummy, you like me that way don't you?"
"I, n-no.. why are you asking that..!?" Yeonjun said feeling his face burn up, couldn't even look at the younger male
Soobin smirked in a amusement and pull out the older's diary
Yeonjun heart drop at that moment
"wait- where did you get that give it here—!!" In a panic he tried to snatch the diary from soobin but didn't succeed
Soobin hold the book behind himself while yeonjun desperately tried to reach it as they're upper body touched
"I SAID give it! you giant ass rabbit—"
yeonjun paused his sentences, when he realized that, ..they're a bit too close
"Hah! I can heard your heartbeat hyung, that's cute" soobin said in a teasing tone
yeonjun pull himself off soobin while feeling embarrassed by both of they're childish behaviors, he then tried to compose himself and not lose his mind yet
"Ahem- Soobin, where did you even get that..? can you just give it back—?!"
Soobin tilt his head innocently and give yeonjun an amused smile
"hyung, you know, you're hiding spot really suck" he teased as his dimples were seen
Although annoyed, yeonjun was so done at that moment, that he didn't even argue back
Then a thought crossed his mind, should he just knock soobin out and make a run for it?
that's yeonjun plan B
Soobin smirked again and continued "Or maybe.. you put it there, hoping I would found it?"
Yeonjun was speechless
"Hyung just admit it, or should I find out myself?" Soobin stated and pull yeonjun closer as he continued near yeonjun's ears
"Cause You know, seeing in words isn't enough to believe, I wanna heard you say it yourself, if you admit it, the feeling could be mutual."
'Shit, WHAT DO I DO..?!?! WHY DONT I HATE THIS..?!!' Yeonjun thought as he's face turn red he could feel Soobin tightened his grip on him, if there's a chance, should he take the risk for it..?
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To be continued✒︎♡
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A/N: this chapter was fun though I'm a bitter with myself that's it wasn't 2k words.. anyway yeonjun this is your chance go for it!!!!!!😼💪
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