YN'S POV
It's been a week since my birthday, since the incident with Taehyung. I sighed heavily and swirled the wine I was holding, getting comfortable in the chair of my office I looked over at the city through floor to ceiling window in my front, the city was silent, there were not so many people to be seen just a few cars passing by every half an hour. I look at the clock hanging on my right side, it is half past three in the morning and I still can't sleep, well that's been a routine for me for about a week now. I dropped Jungkook and Lisa at the airport just a few hours ago, Jungkook was worried about me I somehow managed to lie to him that I'm alright, I don't want him to worry about me anymore.
Before I could know I got back old myself, spending days and nights at the office but with a little change this time, I made sure to spend an hour or two with the kids anyhow. I'm grateful to god that I haven't run into Taehyung yet, for the first two days I avoided attending meetings with him and then he stopped arranging meetings where we both should have to be together, well that was really great of him to do that.
About my mental health, I go to therapy every day even if it lasts a maximum of up to fifteen minutes, Jimin asks me about my day and my answer never changes, it used to be like 'It was okay' every day and gradually our session comes to an end after he waits for me to open up to him but I never did, I don't want to do that.
Surprisingly Yeonjun used to bring lunch for me every day, he made sure that I ate my food in front of him and then we talked about his childhood with Dad and then he left. I was comfortable with this lifestyle, where I could never have to face Taehyung but my luck wasn't on my side as today was the Gala, Grandma already ordered me to reach the mansion by four in the noon and there was no way that I could avoid Taehyung today, this whole gala was set up for both of us, ugh!
I gulped the whole wine within one go and slammed the glass on the table, my eyes traveled to the divorce paper kept beside my phone on the table. I signed them yesterday and decided to gift them to him today, before the gala I get them signed and after that, until I get pregnant our divorce might be approved by the court officially by then. I put those papers away and decided to lie down on the couch for a while as my back was aching from not getting any rest for a week.
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It was almost four when I entered the mansion, I saw Grandma very first, she rushed towards me and held me by my shoulders examining me. She worriedly looked at me and asked,
"Where were we for the whole time?"
Well, I kinda ghost everyone but kids, so it wasn't their fault. I smiled faintly and replied,
"At the office"
The concern and anger overtook her worry, she sternly scolded me,
"How many times do I have to remind you to take care of yourself?"
"Now look at you looking all pale and weak"
"Yn, think about the kids"
"Eun-woo, he needs you more than anything"
I internally chuckled at her antics, how I wished to argue back but I stayed silent instead, everything gets better when I don't speak. Almost after fifteen minutes she stopped and ushered me into my room where my dresser and makeup artist were already waiting for me. The time flew away quickly as I took a warm shower and then the artists did their work on me and left silently.
I looked at myself in the mirror, I was wearing a lavender sequence dress, the dress was really beautiful and the artist also did a very good job of hiding my under-eye bags and pale skin, but I couldn't bring myself to admire myself. If anyone met me for the first time right now I might look most beautiful lady to them but to me, I didn't recognize the girl in the mirror anymore, I lost a lot of pounds, and when I say lot I mean it.
My cheekbones were prominently visible, my collarbone was more highlighted now and my arms looked too fragile but my thin legs they look good, well who doesn't like thin legs but the heels were too painful... I wore the gloves and put the rings on, in the process I stumbled upon my birthday gift, the pendant chain that Taehyung gifted me, I don't wear it anymore. I knew I could remove his chain from it but I couldn't wear it, my subconscious strictly said no so it rested where I found it, on my dresser.
I don't know why but since morning I felt something bad was going to happen, I mean I have to attend a gala with Taehyung what possibly bad can happen but I hope my children stay safe, i can't imagine myself without either of them...
Breaking the chain of my thoughts the door opened revealing Taehyung, after that morning we first for the first time, and it felt like deja vu. He nervously walked near me and looked his eyes with mine through the mirror, I immediately broke eye contact and picked up the setting powder, he cleared his throat and spoke,
"I'm sorry about the other day"
"I shouldn't acted-"
"If you're worried about today"
"Don't worry I can act well"
I cut him in between, I patted the powder on my chin a little and our eyes met through the mirror, he was feeling guilty I could tell by looking at him through the mirror but the damage was done a long ago. After checking myself in the mirror for the last time I stood up and walked up to the nightstand where an envelope was kept, i could feel him eyeing my every action, but I don't care anymore.
I grabbed the envelope and stood in front of him maintaining the appropriate distance between us, I suddenly remembered the day he came back to Korea and met him for the second time at this very spot, it felt too similar, and the same uneasiness crawled under my skin. I focused on my breathing and handed him the envelope, he looked at me confusingly while I tapped the envelope asking him to open it.
With almost shaky hands he tore the envelope seal and my heartbeat fastened, this was bound to happen one day so why was I feeling nervous suddenly? He looked at me and then read those papers, his eyes widened he looked at me again for confirmation while I kept my cool and stayed still. He turned the pages hurriedly and his eyes caught my signature on the divorce paper, he looked at me breathlessly and asked,
"What's this Yn?"
"Divorce paper, I guess"
I replied. He looked at me in disbelief, I didn't dare to show any emotion right despite I was shivering inside, it had been weeks since I had a panic attack. He walked closer to me and stepped back making him halt, he looked at me with almost teary eyes and asked,
"Do you really want this?"
I almost chuckled, he had the audacity now to ask my opinion. I folded my arms in front and replied,
"That doesn't matter"
I stared into eyes coldly and continued,
"This is something good for both of us"
"What bout kids then?"
He asked.
"I'll take full custody of them"
"But you can still meet them whenever you want to"
He opened his mouth but closed it immediately, he closed his eyes for a mere second controlling his emotions, and suggested,
"We'll talk about this later"
I scoffed mockingly and deadpanned him,
"I need them signed by the end of this week"
He frowned deeply looking at me, he was hurt, and that oddly made me uncomfortable that I was the reason behind it but this is the best decision for everyone. He looked around and then at me and asked,
"Do you love someone else?"
This time I frowned, what the hell he was saying?
"Is it Yeonjun?"
And I lost it, I slapped him very tightly, and my palm hurt but it was worth it. His face flew to the right side, he held his cheek and I almost yelled,
"How dare you to make assumptions like that?"
I pointed my finger toward him maintaining the distance between us and continued,
"You don't have any right to judge me when you have a fucking girlfriend"
Reality drowned him, but I didn't stop,
"You left me and my kids alone for six fucking years"
"I never said a word to you"
"Now you have-"
The knock on the door interrupted me, my hand fell to my side, I stared at him while he looked at me already regretting the choice of his words. The door opened revealing Jennie, I quickly wiped away the lone tear that escaped from my eye and smiled fakely at her, she looked between me and her brother sensing the obvious tension around, and spoke,
"Grandma is calling"
I nodded at her while Taehyung spoke,
"We'll be there soon"
She nodded and went out, I walked out too, and waited for him my the end of the hallway. I took a deep breath as my body was visibly shaking already, I needed to get ahold of myself, so I turned around and saw him walking towards me. He stopped by my side and I wrapped my arms around his left one, he put his palm on the back of my holding his biceps, and then without sharing any other word or glance we walked in front of people with huge smiles on our faces, obviously fake ones.
We both walked downstairs and all eyes were on us, thankfully there were no paparazzi, I hated them truly. As reached there, the kids walked towards us, genuine smiles kissing my lips looking at both of them dressed up beautifully, Yuri was a dress very similar to mine while Eun-woo was twinning with his dad. I kneeled in front of them and planted kisses and both of their foreheads, i held both of their hands on either side and walked towards Grandma, Taehyung closely followed us.
I bowed to the people talking to grandma respectfully and greeted them, Grandma as usual showed off me to her friends and then the list goes on. There were mostly businessmen and businesswomen with their families, some of the family's close friends and that's it. I talked to everyone with Taehyung by my side acting like we both were in love, while the kids were with Rose and Jennie, well both of them stole them away from me.
A smile kissed my lips as my eyes traveled to Dad, he just entered with Fioan and Yeonjun, I looked back at the people in front of me and spoke,
"Excuse me"
They nodded and I immediately rushed towards Dad, he looked at me, and opened his arms and I didn't waste a breath as I hugged him tightly, I needed this so much... My eyes almost teared up as Dad's arms tightened around me, the warmth radiating from almost comforted me, it was like he already knew something was wrong with me and suddenly uneasiness completely covered my body but I hid it as I pulled away from the dad sadly and muster up a smile, I greeted him,
"I missed you"
He pecked my forehead and whispered against my skin,
"My baby"
I turn and embrace Fiona, she is motherly driving me to the edge already but I need to compose myself. I pulled away a little quickly, she didn't notice thankfully, next was Yeonjun, he smiled and gave me a side hug, I patted his suit,
"You know how to dress up"
He chuckled looking at his black tuxedo, he was looking handsome indeed. He looked around and asked,
"Where are the kids?"
I turned around to locate the kids but my eyes fell on a very particular person, I blinked my eyes unable to believe my eyes but there she was...
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