Avu opened the diary and was about to read the first page. But Sid immediately stood up on anger and snatched it from her.
Sid: Out
He ordered her pointing his finger towards the door. His shout and angry eyes made a shiver run down Avu's spine. He could not take it that she dared to touch her personal things especially his diary when it was clearly written it was personal. She was not even a very close friend of his till now.
Avu: Siddharth please calm down
Sid: Calm down? Seriously? You are asking me to calm down. Don't you have the common sense that one should not touch someone else's personal things. Not to intervene in someone's privacy?
He shouted at the last smashing the diary on the table.
Avu: I am sorry. But seriously I had no such intention. I didn't want to interfere in your personal life
She said looking down out of guilt. Sid sighed calming himself down. He closed his eyes and shooked his head.
Sid: But you are. You are forcing me to tell you about my personal life
Avu: It's not like that. I just want to help you
Sid faked a chuckle.
Sid: You can?
Avu: Don't you trust me?
Sid: I didn't even trust my father till date. Then who are you? And frankly speaking it's not about trust. The problem is unsolvable
Avu: Everything problem does have a solution. If God has put you in problematic situation, he has also made solutions to it. But it's your duty to find it out. Aur har cheez ke hone ka ek proper time hota hai. And it's all karma honestly. Agar tumhe kisi problem ka solution abhi tak nhi mila, to ho sakta hai ki abhi right time nhi hai. But iska matlab ye nhi hai ki problem hi unsolvable ho gayi ya kbhi solution milega hi nhi. Try karte raho. Bohot baar girna bhi padta hai. But that doesn't mean you lost. You don't loose by falling down. You loose when you don't get up again after falling down. You don't even loose if you fall down again. You loose when you fall by repeating same mistakes repeatedly and not learning. So stop seeing yourself as a failiure or your problems as unsolvable. Probably the way you are solving it is not correct. It's just your mindset. If you think it's unsolvable because you couldn't solve it till now, it's definitely unsolvable. But if you see it from other ways, you might find solutions
Sid: So you mean either it is not the right time for my problem to end or maybe my way of solving is wrong?
Avu nodded.
Sid: So then also why should I tell my problems to you? Either I can think of some other way or maybe I can wait for it to end. Because agar right time nhi aaya to why should I even waste my energy on it. Jab aayega tab dekha jaayega
Avu: You can either ignore your problems or accept them as they are or you can face them and end them. It's all upto you. And sharing with someone. Maybe the other person might have that right solution to your problem. Or even if he or she does not have you will feel light by sharing
Sid: So you mean I should go and tell everyone about it to feel light?
Avu: Tum doodh peete bache nhi ho Siddharth. You are a grown up now. So act like one. You have the ability to identify who are your well wishers and who are not. You definitely cannot go out and tell each and every person what you are going through. Probably most of them won't give a fuck about it and many might use it against you. Only a few would be genuinely concerned about you. It's you who have to decide this with whom you can share and whom you can't. What you can share with one person and what with other
She stopped and looked at him for a moment. He was just silently. She sighed and walked towards the door. She was about to open the door when he spoke up in a low tone. Her hand paused near the handle of the door listening to him.
Sid: As far as I remember, it started in my childhood.....
To be continued
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