Chapter #5
wassup gays
so today we will be going through my emotional journey because thought " i wasnt gay"
(A/N: Just to inform you guys im not trying to like make fun of anyone who is still questioning their sexuality. its ok i was also there at some point in time. a confused lonely idiot. this is just for entertainment purposes. if you want someone to talk to feel free to message me! but just know im horrible at advice but im a good listener! :)
so the person who helped me get through it all was my brother felix
me and him are really close
REALLY CLOSE
literally and figuratively
cus he needs someone to hug otherwise he gets nightmares
what?
you thought something didnt you my dirty minded imaginary audience
n e ways
he was born in australia when my parents had a bit too much fun on their "business trip"
it wasnt actually a business trip
they just wanted to go live a life pretending they didnt have a child for a bit
by a bit i mean like 10 years
yea they were horrible
i was left alone at my cousin's house
n e ways
this is not the time to get into my kinda sad childhood
so he helped me get over my trauma
there was a child part in me that feared that they would come and hit me for being like they used to for hanging out with the aforementioned gay friends
i would cry in his arms acting like a child
he was there for me
he cooked me brownies
he reminded me that i was going to throw away mine and jisung's relationship over my asshole parents
he reminded me i love jisung too much to do that
and that fixed me
also i may or may not have revealed hyunjin's deep dark secret to seungmin
maybe maybe not
it was an accident okay
but well they are engaged now so i guess it was fine
and then one day i gathered up the courage to tell jisung how i felt
we hadnt hung out in a long time
he was soo worried about me
but my sad ass just ignored him
i first asked for forgiveness
and it was not easy
he was mad
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♥My future husband♥
hey sungie
oh so now you talk
and dont call me sungie
im sorry
iM sOrRy
thats not gonna fix it mister
i need a proper apology, explanation,
a picture of you and cheese cake
im so sorry jisung for ignoring you. i promise to never ever do that again. i was just having trouble sorting out my feelings. my feelings for who exactly? you
i thought i wasnt gay and i had trauma with being gay. my parents were extremely homophobic. thankfully they now live in australia. but now im sure. i like you. its okay if you dont like me back.
i just had to get it off my chest. so if you want how about a date at that cafe we always go to and ill treat you to some cheescake.
minho um i actually have a boyfriend
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ooooooo cliffhanger
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