Haechan woke up at 2:33 PM. It was currently his day off and he spent it sleeping all day.
Surprisingly, he's been able to get more and more sleep. With the help of his girlfriend, Umji, his insomnia has gotten better.
Yawning, he goes onto his phone to see what notifications he got.
Likes from his instagram posts, texts from his group chat, and a text from Umji.
my umji 🤍
good morninggg
idk if ur up yet but i hope you slept well :)
Delivered
good afternoonn baby
sry i just woke up
i slept well surprisingly hbu?
HIII
thats good omg!! i slept okay :)
youve been sleeping with no problems that makes me happyyy
okay? has anything been bothering you?
oh im fine just studying has been keeping up recently
ohhh okay.. well if you ever feel bothered you can talk to me okay?
okay ty hyuck :)
i gtg ill ttyl byeee
alright bye i love you 🤍
i love you too :)
my sun ☀️ loved this message
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Did I do something wrong? Haechan thinks to himself. Getting bothered on how his girlfriend was acting towards him. She doesn't have to tell him if she doesn't feel comfortable, but he just hopes he didn't do anything wrong.
He got up from his bed and left his room, seeing Mark sitting on the couch.
I need to talk to someone about this. Haechan walked up to Mark and sat down by him. Silence filled the air. Mark looked over at him, waiting for him to say something.
But he didn't. Haechan couldn't. He felt trapped in his own bubble, his own thoughts. Does Umji hate him? Is he doing a bad job as a boyfriend? Does she want them to break up?
Before he could think anymore, Mark nudged the boys shoulder, making him snap out of it and look at him. Mark raised a brow, wondering what has the boy so deep in thought.
Sighing, Haechan thought about his next words carefully, hesitating before saying them. "Am I... a bad boyfriend?" He asked, looking down at his hands instead of Mark's face.
Mark's eyebrows furrowed, making it known that he was confused. A bad boyfriend? Where did this come from? "What do you mean?"
Haechan held in his breath before letting it go. "I mean- Umji has been acting weird. Like today, she was dry and it seemed like something was bothering her. She was also quick to end the conversation, which made me confused. Did I do something to hurt her?"
Mark took all his words in, trying to grasp the situation at hand. Shaking his head, he put a hand onto Haechan's shoulder. "Dude, it's probably because of the news remember? Probably freaked her out. You got to give her some time, she'll come around when she's ready."
Haechan thought about it, that's true. She's probably shaken up. He'll give her how much time she wants and needs, hopefully she'll talk to him about whatever's bothering her.
Seeing him in deep thought, Mark gave him a pat on the back and a small comforting smile. "Don't beat yourself too much, you're a great boyfriend. Trust me dude."
Smiling as a thanks, Haechan gave the boy a nod. Mark nods back before standing up and leaving to get a drink of water.
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Scrolling through the comments on Haechan's post, Umji sighed. She felt like she was ruining his career, and making him have less fans.
She felt guilty. And she hated feeling guilty.
So many thoughts have been in her head recently, and what happen this morning didn't help. She's been stressed. Very stressed.
What if they get caught again? What if this time her face is shown? What will happen then? All these thoughts in her head, she didn't even see where she was going until she hit a body.
"Oh shit- I'm so sorry!" A familiar voice said, making her look up. She saw that it was her friend, Soojun. Seeing that it was Umji, Soojun gave her a small smile and helped her up.
She looked into her dark brown eyes, seeing that they held only one emotion, sadness. Soojun saw the tears threatening to break, a frown appearing on her face.
Seeing that she noticed, Umji quickly wiped her tears away before chuckling. "I'm sorry- I don't even know why I'm crying."
Soojun shook her head, grabbing the girls hand and dragging her to her car.
They both got in, Soojun eyeing her, waiting for her to tell her what's been bothering her.
Once nothing came out of the girls mouth, Soojun took the conversation into her own hands. "What's the matter?" She asked in a soft and gentle voice.
Letting out a shakey sigh, Umji put her attention onto her hands, picking at her cuticles.
Waiting for a response, Soojun finally gets one. "I-I don't know what's wrong with me.. I've just been bugged about my relationship. I feel like I'm failing at being a good girlfriend,"
Soojun raises a brow, tilting her head. "Why do you think that?" Umji shook her head, letting out a laugh that sound like she was hurting. And she was.
"We got caught being together. You might not think it's that bad but.. it really is. People don't like us together." Soojun looked at her, having a feeling about what her boyfriends like.
So she asked the question everyone has been dying to ask. "Umji.. if you don't mind, who is your boyfriend exactly?"
Pausing, Umji's breath stopped. She slowly looked at Soojun. Finally breathing again, she frowned. "If I tell you, y-you promise you won't tell anyone, not even your girlfriend."
Slowly nodding, Soojun agreed. Umji sighed, "His name is... Haechan. Lee Haechan. He's a K-pop idol."
It took a while for Soojun to get it, but when she did, it all made sense. Why Umji kept trying to change the topic when someone in their group chat asked if they could meet her boyfriend, or how she'd hide his face in pictures. It all made sense now.
Umji didn't like the silence. She felt antsy. Anxious.
Knowing how nervous Umji gets when there's silence, Soojun finally broke it. "That.. makes sense on why you always divert the conversation away from your boyfriend."
"You're not mad?" Umji asked, a little shocked. Soojun shook her head, "No I'm not mad. Not at all. I understand why you didn't tell us, you were just looking out for him. And even if he wasn't famous, you din't have to tell us unless you're ready."
Umji nodded, agreeing with her words. Soojun smiled, "So without these hidden words, tell me what's bothering you,"
Sighing, Umji looked back at her nails. "Since he's an idol and all, he has fans. Three days ago, someone took a picture of us hanging out, my face wasn't shown though. But it made a lot of his fans angry. I'm scared that they'll find out who I am. I'm scared I ruined his career."
"I'm just scared. I don't know what to do- I'm such a bad girlfriend, god.." that's when Umji finally broke. Her tears started to fall, cries slipping through her mouth, her body shaking.
Soojun looked at the girl with sadness, grabbing her hand and rubbing it soothingly.
"I know you're scared, I know. But you need to know that you are not a bad girlfriend. This isn't your fault, it's those creepy ass weirdos who don't know boundaries. They can't mind their business- but that's not your fault at all. You getting caught isn't your fault either. It isn't you or Haechan's. Even though I don't know him, you both are doing great in your relationship. Please don't think otherwise."
Umji listened in on her words, feeling safe and comforted by them. She couldn't help but blame herself in these type of situations, she always has. It's a habit. A bad habit.
Her tears were still falling, but her body started to shake less. Her cries were now whispers, with there only being a few sniffles here and there.
"You're a great girlfriend Umji, I want you to know that. And those 'angry' fans, aren't fans. They're fake. They aren't loyal." Soojun said in a hushed tone. Umji slowly nodded, rubbing her tears away with her sweater paws.
Soojun leaned over and gave the girl a quick kiss on the forehead, before leaning back. "Want me to take you somewhere?"
"Home please," Umji quietly said. Soojun nodded, "Of course babe."
She pulled out of the uni's parking lot, and started to drive to Umji's dorm. Once they got there, Umji was ready to leave.
Soojun looked at her, seeing that she was already staring at her. Clearing her throat, Umji spoke. "Uhm, thank you for everything.. it really means a lot."
Giving her a small grin, Soojun ruffled her head. "Of course, don't mention it. If you want to talk to anybody, I'm always here for you, 'kay?" Nodding, the girl gave her a small smile.
"Well then, you're probably tired. I'll see you?" Umji nodded, saying her goodbyes before exiting her car and heading towards her dorm.
Unlocking the front door, she walked in and took off her shoes. She brought them to her room and set them down on her shoe rack.
After that she changed into more comfortable clothing; black plaid pajama pants and a tank top.
Taking off her makeup, she washed her face and did her skin care, making sure to put on any pimple patches.
Umji walked back into her room and decided to pick out a book to calm her down so she could sleep. She picked out one of her favorites, Children of Blood And Bone.
She opened to the first page, beginning to read. But she couldn't even read because of her thoughts that clouded her mind like fog.
She recapped the whole day, it was pretty much her overthinking and having a panic attack.
Umji thought about the question Emy asked her this morning. 'Have you done it yet?' A simple question. But scared the girl so much.
After what happened with her old boyfriend, she swore she wasn't going to ever have sex again. Too traumatized about what happened.
Even showing her vulnerability scared her. Being so.. vulnerable scared her. She hated crying infront of others, or even losing her cool. She was always calm and collected.
Already opening up her feelings and getting into a relationship with the one she loves most, Haechan, scared her. She loves him, and feels comfortable with him, but she isn't comfortable enough to have sex with him.
Her old boyfriend truly fucked up her way to love and to show it.
Sighing, the girl put down the book and turned off the lights. She got comfortable and laid in her bed. She started to hear rain drops.
The soothing sound of them patting against her windows and rooftop, lulled her to sleep. Putting her into a soft slumber.
A/n: hoped y'all enjoyeddd