We kept kissing inside my car. Tinted naman itong kotse ko kaya hindi kami makikita sa labas. It was raining so hard that it was impossible for anyone to hear us even if we made a lot of noise.
There was also no one outside so I was convinced to do it now.
"Ah.." napasabunot ako sa kaniyang buhok nang bumaba ang kaniyang halik papunta sa aking leeg."Eva.."
She's kissing my neck now at paminsan ay kinakagat niya ito at sinisipsip.I tilted my head to give her more access. Wala na akong suot pang-itaas ngayon dahil tinanggal na niya ang suot kong longsleeve at bra kanina.
I bit my lower lip when her palm landed on my boobs and squeezed it. I held her tightly as her kisses went down to the center of my chest.
Every time her lips passed over my body, she leaves a mark.
"Fuck!" I couldn't stop moaning when she suddenly sucked my nipple while her other hand was playing with my other breast.
Para akong mababaliw sa ginagawa niya sa aking dibdib. Pinalipat lipat niya ang pagsubo rito. Mas lalo ko naman siyang hinapit palapit at magsimulang gumalaw sa ibabaw niya.
I started to grind on her lap and I could feel her hand moving to my legs and caressing them kahit may suot pa akong slacks.
Nang bumalik ang kaniyang halik sa aking labi ay kaagad kong sinunggaban ito.
I kissed her hungrily as she nibbles my lower lip.Para kaming uhaw na uhaw sa labi ng isa't isa.She kept bitting my lower lip before I inserted my tongue inside of her mouth.
"Take off your clothes." hinihingal na utos niya nang maghiwalay ang aming labi.
Kaagad ko namang sinunod ang utos niya. Nahirapan pa ako kasi masyadong masikip sa loob ng kotse kaya tinulungan niya ako. I also noticed that it was still raining heavily outside.
When I took off my clothes, she moved me to the backseat. Pinaupo niya ako and she immediately kneeled down. She spread out my two legs kaya kitang kita na niya ang maselan na bahagi ng katawan ko.
"H-Hey! Stop staring.." namumulang Saad ko nang makitang nakatitig lang siya dito.
I'm confident naman na malinis ako sa bahaging 'yon. Naka-shave pa ako pero hindi ko pa rin maiwasang mahiya!
"You're so beautiful, honey.." her tone was sweet kaya mas lalo akong nahiya.
Binobola pa niya ako!
I was about to speak again when she suddenly kissed me there. Napaawang ang aking labi dahil sa kiliting naramdaman. I could feel how she kissed and played me down there.
"Eva.." hinihingal na tawag ko dahil sa sarap na pinapalasap niya."Please—ah!"
I shut my eyes off when I feel her tongue inside me. Naglalabas-pasok ito ng mabilis kaya halos mawalan ako ng hininga dahil sa ginagawa niya.
She was sucking me down there while still squeezing my breast.She was also playing my clitoris with her fingers. Napasabunot ako sa kaniyang buhok at mas lalo pang idiniin ang mukha niya sa baba ko.
Why is she good at this stuff? Her fingers and tongue were like experts in playing me and it really feels so good.
She keeps doing that until I feel something.
"Fuck, I'm cumming, Eva.." I tried to move my hips pero humigpit ang pagkakahawak niya sa aking waist. "S-Stop—shit! Ah!"
I moaned loudly hanggang sa labasan ako.I rested my head on the backrest dahil sa pagod. I could feel she licked me there na parang nililinisan ako.
Napatingin ako sa kaniya noong magpantay ang mukha naming dalawa. I held her nape and pulled her closer. We immediately kissed.Nalasahan ko pa ang likidong lumabas sa akin sa bibig niya.
Banayad lang ang paghalik niya sa akin hanggang sa maging aggressive 'yon.
I bit her lower lip when she suddenly inserted her two fingers inside me.Napaangat ang bewang ko dahil doon.
I moaned on her lips when she thrust it slowly.
Humiwalay ako sa kaniya para makalanghap ng hangin. Bumilis naman paglabas-pasok ng kaniyang daliri sa loob ko at dinagdagan pa niya 'yun ng isa kaya halos mabaliw ako dahil sa ginagawa niya.
My mouth slightly open as I stared at her dark eyes. Seryoso siyang nakatitig sa akin habang namumungay naman ang aking mga mata. I shut my eyes off because of the sensation she was giving to my body.
"You're so hot, damn it.." she whispered huskily but I ignored it.
I was stunned when she suddenly held my neck as if she's chocking me. Napatingin ako sa kaniya and lust was evident on her eyes. I don't know pero mas lalo akong nag-init dahil doon.
"F-Faster, hon.." I moaned nang maramdaman kong lalabasan ulit ako. "I... I'm cumming—fuck!"
Sinabayan ko ang bawat pag-ulos niya. Mas lalo namang bumilis ang paglabas-masok nang kaniyang daliri. I don't know what to do. Hindi na mapakali ang ulo ko.
Mga ilang segundo lang ay malakas na ungol ang pinakawalan ko nang labasan ako. She's still thrusting her fingers pero dahan dahan na lang 'yon.
My legs were shaking nang tanggalin na niya ang kaniyang daliri at biglang ipasubo niya sa akin' yon.
Nagulat naman ako dahil sa ginawa niya. I didn't know what to do but I sucked and licked her fingers while staring at her intently. She gulp because of that.
Parehas kaming napaiwas tingin habang namumula ang magkabilang pisngi ko. Tinanggal na rin niya ang daliri sa akin. Ngayon lang ako natauhan sa lahat ng nangyari.
Damn it! May nangyari sa amin! Napabalik 'yung tingin ko sa kaniya noong maramdaman ko ulit ang daliri niya sa kaselanan ko.
"I'll just clean you up." she said when she saw the worry on my face.
I bit my lower lip and nodded at her. I let her to clean me.Natigilan ako nang marealized ang sitwasyon namin.
My cheeks turned into crimson red. I couldn't help but feel ashamed when I remembered that I let her to dominate me!
Naging bottom pa ako!
After she cleaned me, she threw the tissue in the trash. I also noticed that the rain has subsided. Parang ambon na lang.
Nagulat ako nang ipatong niya sa katawan ko' yung mahabang coat ko.I looked at her face na seryoso pa rin but the redness of her ear did not escape on my sight.
"Your clothes are wet. You better wear this first."she fake a coughed before moving to the driver's seat." Ako na muna ang magd-drive ngayon. You should take a rest."
Tumango na lang ako kahit hindi niya nakikita. I don't know what to say. Parang nawalan ako ng dila magsalita. Ang init din ng dalawang pisngi ko at nakakahiya man aminin but, nanginginig pa rin ang dalawang legs ko dahil sa nangyari!
And we actually did that thing inside my car! We just made love inside the car while it was raining outside!
Nice experience.
"I didn't know that our first would happen in the car. "I broke the awkward silent.
She let out a chuckled because of that.
"Who initiated it first? 'Di ba ikaw?"
"Bumigay ka naman." I replied while frowning."Gusto mo rin, eh."
"Why are we even talking about this? That's already over. "she looked at me in the rear mirror."Or maybe, it's because ikaw ang bottom that's why you throw tantrums there. "
Nagulat naman ako dahil sa sinabi niya."Hoy! Hindi, ah!"
Ano ba'ng pinagsasabi niya?
"Really, Tiffany?" her lips rose up kaya pinalo ko ang braso niya. "Ouch! Why did you do that?"
"Hindi ako nagt-tantrums because of that!" I tried to defend myself.
She nodded while caressing her shoulder. "Okay. Sabi mo, eh. Kwento mo yan. Of course, you're not bottom th—"
I smacked her shoulder again kaya napahiyaw siya sa sakit. I don't care kung lumilitaw man ang dibdib ko dahil ang tanging suot ko lang ay coat.
All I want is to defend myself!
"I'm not bottom! I just let you earlier but, that won't happen again!"
Natawa siya na parang naiinis."Alright. Why is that a big deal to you?"
"It's not a big deal." I hissed kaya napailing siya. "You're annoying."
"If you say so."
Sa mga sumunod na araw ay sinubukan kong tanongin ng tanongin si James at baka mahuli ko siya but mukhang tinuturuan na siya ng lawyer niya ng mga dapat na sabihin.
I really tried my best na wag siyang makapag-piyansa pero alam ko namang kahit anong pagpigil ang gawin ko ay makakagawa ng paraan ang pamilya ni James para makaalis ang anak nila sa kamay ng police.
And it already happened. Nakapag-piyansa na siya. Mga ilang araw lang siya nanatili sa police station.
Pero nagtagumpay naman akong maipalabas itong kaso na ito sa medya. Kumalat na ang issue na ito at halos lahat ay pinag-uusapan na si James. Kahit anong pagtago ng pamilya niya ay hindi na nila mapipigilan 'to.
Alam na ng lahat kung gaano kawalanghiya si James.
"They know, they were in the middle of the war and yet, it didn't even occur to them to help Seita. "
Pagrereklamo ni Eva habang pinupunasan niya 'yung luha niya. Nagm-movie marathon kasi kami. Tapos napili naming panoorin' yung "Grave of the fireflies".
Hindi ko naman alam na iyakin pala siya!
"I really hate her auntie! That annoying old lady!"
Hindi ko maiwasang matawa dahil ang cute niyang umiyak habang nagrereklamo! Kakatapos pa lang ng movie kaya ayan siya, nagrereklamo sa akin kung bakit gano'n daw ang ending.
"It was just a movie, why are you crying?"
"It's not just a movie, Tiffany. Setsuko wouldn't have died if only they had food." her tone was serious. Aliw naman na pinapanood ko siyang mag-explain. "Seita was willing to help or work for the old man just in exchange for foods."
I nodded as if I understood her. "Kaso nga lang natigok—aray ko!"
Napahawak ako sa kamay ko na kinurot niya. She was giving me a death glare now. Bakit parang kasalanan kong namatay si Setsuko!?
I was about to speak nang biglang may kumatok sa pintuan. Kaagad naman akong pinagtulakan paalis ni Eva para buksan 'yung pintuan.
Okay. Iisipin ko na talaga na siya' yung may-ari ng unit na 'to. Halos utos-utosan niya lang ako! Wala akong nagawa kung hindi tumayo at maglakad papunta sa pintuan.
Ito na yata' yung inorder namin na pagkain.
Kaagad na napakunot 'yung noo ko nang pagbukas ko ng pintuan ay walang tao. Napalinga pa ako sa paligid nang biglang mapatigil dahil sa isang box na nasa harapan ng paa ko.
Ano nanaman' to?
Kinuha ko ito at binuksan. My eyes widened in surprise when I saw my pictures and Eva together with a blood on it. Iba't Iba ang kuha ng angle at lugar non. Napahigpit ang hawak ko sa mga pictures hanggang sa mayupi 'yon.
I was already receiving death threats kaya hindi na bago sa akin' yon. Ang hindi ko lang matanggap ay bakit kailangan madamay si Eva?
I can't lose her. I will do everything to protect her even if I risk my life. She has been through a lot. I don't want to hurt her again. I don't want her to go through those things again.
She deserves to be happy.She deserves all the good things in this world.
Kaagad kong itinago sa likuran ko 'yung box nang marinig ko ang mga hakbang niya papalapit sa akin.
"What took you so long?" she curiously asked when I faced her. "What is it?"
"Nothing." I give her smiled. "May nagt-trippings lang."
"Are you sure?" paninigurado niya kaya napatango ako. "Alright. Let's go then."
"Ah, mauna kana." mabilis na Saad ko nang tatalikod na sana siya. "I'm gonna call someone from work. Mabilis lang."
She sighed. "Bilisan mo."
Pagkaalis niya ay kaagad akong lumabas at naghanap ng basurahan. Kaagad kong itinapon sa basurahan ang box at lahat ng picture. Ayaw kong makita ni Eva 'yon. Ayaw kong mag-alala pa siya dahil lang doon.
Tho, may hint na ako kung sino nagpadala non. They even offered me money to drop the case. Mabuti na lang at sinabihan ko ang police na magpadala ng tao sa bahay ng biktima. Sigurado ako na pinapadalhan na rin siya ng kung ano-ano ngayon.
Kinabukasan, maghapon kami hindi nagkita ni Eva. Busy siya sa university habang ako ay tinupad ko na talaga ang sinabi ko kanila mama na magr-resign na sa pagtuturo. Kaya nakaka-focus din ako sa kaso ni James.
Marami na rin akong nakukuhang evidence na pwedeng ipaglaban sa kaniya sa court. Pati pala ang head namin sa law firm ay sinasabihan akong ibasura na ang kaso. Pero wala siyang magagawa. Ipagpapatuloy ko ito.
Kung sakali man na tanggalin niya ako sa trabaho dahil doon, pwede kong ipagpatuloy ang kaso sa law firm namin.
Napatigil ako sa paglalakad nang biglang tumunog ang cellphone ko. Nasa parking lot na ako at pauwi na sana dapat.
"[I might come home late. I have a lot of work that I need to finish.]"bungad ni Eva pagkasagot ko sa tawag niya.
"Alright. I'm going home now. I will cook for our dinner. "I answered, smiling.
"[You can eat first—] "
"No. I'll wait for you."
Napahinga siya ng malalim kaya mas lalong lumaki ang ngiti ko.
"[Stubborn.]"
Natawa ako. Pinatay na rin niya 'yung tawag kaya pinagpatuloy ko na' yung paglalakad. Sa bandang dulo kasi ako nagpark.Mga ilang minuto lang ay nakita ko na 'yung kotse ko.
I was about to grab the door of my car when I suddenly fell to the floor. Ramdam ko ang pagkirot at pagtulo ng mainit na likido sa aking ulo.
"Hi, little cat."
My vision started to get blur but I know this voice, it's familiar. Kahit nahihilo ay bumangon ako para tignan kung sino ang pumalo sa ulo ko.
Pero hindi pa ako nakakaayos ng tayo nang biglang paluin niya ulit ang mukha ko ng matigas na bagay. Kaagad akong bumagsak sa sahig at napasuka ng dugo.
Fuck.
Feel ko nabasag ang pisngi ko dahil sa lakas ng impact ng pagkakahampas niya sa akin.
Narinig ko pa ang pagtawa niya. Fuck, I can't fight him in my condition. Para akong nasusuka dahil sa paghampas niya sa mukha ko.
"I've been waiting for a long time to do this to you. "he spoke again. I groaned in pain when he suddenly held my hair tightly." How does it feel to be with my wife?"
James.
I was stunned when I heard what he said. My hands were trembling in so much emotion. Hindi ko alam na kakayanin niyang gawin ito. I started to feel nervous too sa mga kaya pa niyang gawin ngayon sa akin.
I screamed even more when he hit my head on the floor.
I almost cried because of so much pain. My hand was shaking as I held it. My breathe is getting heavier. I feel like I'm going to pass out anytime.
"What? Are you happy that you stole my wife!?"
He grabbed my collar and made me stand up and leaned against the car. Even though I couldn't open my eyes, I still tried to open them to see his face.
"F-Fuck y-you...."I said, almost a whisper.
I even spat in his face so he pushed me down again. I even heard him cursing.
Even though I was dizzy, I tried to crawl away. But he immediately kicked my stomach so I spit blood again.
"Do you know that my family is ashamed of me because of what you did?" he kicked me again kaya napatihaya ako. "I'm being judged by other people now because of you!"
I covered my head noong pinagpatuloy niya ang pagsipa sa katawan ko. My face is full of blood because of my spitting and the way he smacked my face earlier.
I couldn't do anything to stop him. My body is very painful and heavy. I just want to pass out.
Ramdam ko ang panggigigil sa bawat pagsipa sa akin. It hurts me so bad.
Tinanggal ko na 'yung pagkakatakip ko sa ulo noong tumigil na siya. Akala ko aalis na siya ngunit nagkakamali ako. Nanigas ako nang maramdaman kong may nakatusok sa leeg ko.
"I'm not done with you yet. It's still not enough. "Mas lalong idiniin niya' yung kutsilyo sa leeg ko kaya ramdam ko ang pagkirot non. " It's not enough for you to ruin my life! "
I cried when he slapped my face. I couldn't bear the pain in my whole body anymore because fear was consuming my whole system.
Scared because I might never see Eva again...
I screamed in so much pain when he suddenly thrust the knife into my stomach. My lips parted as my breathing became heavier. He was not satisfied and stabbed me again.
"You deserve to die! You deserve it!"
Ramdam ko ang pag-agos at pagtalsik ng aking dugo. Every time he stabbed my body, I almost lost my breath.
I tried to stop him but I couldn't move my hands. I could feel his desire to kill me.
Blood kept coming out of my mouth. Nangingilid na ang luha ko sa aking mata. Nawawalan na ng pag-asa na makatakas sa mga kamay niya...
He just stopped when we heard a noise.Narinig ko pang nagmura siya ng ilang beses.
He immediately left me with blood dripping all over my body.
Napaubo ako ng dugo.
Hindi ko na iyon pinapansin dahil nagdidilim na ang paningin ko.Kumakapos na ang aking paghinga.
No... I can't die yet. I promised to Eva that I would cook for her. I shouldn't die yet.
Napapikit ako. I felt someone shaking my body and calling me but I didn't have the strength to open my eyes and speak.Masyadong maraming saksak ang iniwan ni James sa katawan ko.
My body is weak. I can't move.
It's like, I'm going to lose my breath in just a few seconds.
Napaluha ako ng maisip si Eva..... Si Eva na naghihintay sa akin ngayon sa unit.
No... I will not leave her.
She suffered enough.
She went through.
My Eva... I smiled when I thought of Eva's face.
How she frowned every time I teased her. How she cried just because of the movie. How she laughed at my corny jokes.
I can't leave her alone... I don't want her to get hurt and cry again because of me.
I don't want to die yet.
Gusto ko pang makasama si Eva ng mas matagal...
My chest is getting heavier. I can't breathe. It felt like something was stuck in my throat.
"E-Eva..."
The darkness is slowly engulfing me..
I want to see her...
Even for the last time, let me see her.