Date
It's already dark when I woke up. I can't take off my eyes on the window. The winds are strong and the same with rain. I couldn't see clearly what is happening outside because of thick rains pouring. Is there a storm coming? Maybe. Maybe not. Baka malakas lang talaga ang ulan at hangin.
Bakit masyado yatang malakas ang ulan at hangin ngayon? It took me minutes staring at the window before I decided to close it. I move the curtains to the side to cover the windows.
I sighed when I notice that I am still wearing my shoes and school uniform. I even forgot to change my clothes and take of my shoes before I could sleep because of exhaustion.
I slowly got off from the bed and remove my shoes and changed my clothes into pajamas. I also combed my hair before leaving my room.
Bumaba ako sa hagdanan nasa taas pa kasi ang kwarto ko. My father's house is not that big just like those rich family but it can still occupy us. It's a two-storey house it has 4 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, living room and kitchen. The two bedroom in the second floor were mine and Eonoah. While the other two in the ground floor were Dad and Tita and the maids room.
Just like the usual when I got down they are already done eating dinner. I still feel sad though. No matter how many times it happens, it's still painful and sad. No matter how hard you try to train yourself not to feel anything. It can still hurt you.
I smile bitterly. What do you still expect? That they will wait for you so that you all can eat together? Like a happy and perfect family? That's not gonna work. I must keep reminding myself that. That I'm always gonna be alone forever. That there's no one there for me. It's always me, myself and I. Walang iba kundi 'yong sarili ko lang. I'm always alone.
But it is bad to wish that I have someone beside me? Someone that will understands me and take care of me. Someone that will always stay no matter how difficult it is and no matter how messed up my life is. Someone that will lend me a shoulder whenever I'm feeling blue and devastated. Someone that will shared my tears, happiness, and fears. Someone that will wipes my tears when I am crying. Is it selfish to wish it?
Sa buong buhay ko palagi lang akong mag-isa. Masyado ko naman pinandigan na maging isang strong independent woman. I laughed as my tears drip down on my cheeks.
I am tired of being alone but who am I to get tired? I'm just an unwanted child that her parents wants to throw away. I'm still lucky that they still accept me. I shrug my thoughts away. To much drama.
Naglakad ako papunta sa refrigerator at binuksan iyon. I saw a leftovers so that's all I picked up. Tinatamad na kasi akong magluto eh. I didn't saw Daddy, Tita and Eonoah inside the house so maybe they go out without me? Hindi na naman bago iyon. Every time they leave, they don't take me with them. I'm used to it.
I finished eating quickly because I didn't eat much. I don't have the appetite. I immediately returned to my room and decided to study. Siguro mga isang oras din akong babad sa libro para mag-aral bago ko naisipan na buksan ang cellphone ko.
I'm not the same with those teenagers who waste most of their time on surfing in social media. I have a facebook account but I barely used it. Siguro kapag kailangan lang talaga. I'm just using it for school purposes. Tuwing may activities, announcements and projects sa school. May mga gawain kasi na sa gc sinisend ng mga profs.
I open the facebook app. My forehead creased when I saw that it has a lots of notifications.
Silas Henley Abella sent you a friend request.
Mas lalong nangunot ang noo ko roon nang makita ang sunod-sunod n'yang message requests sa inbox ko.
Silas Henley Abella: Why did you leave me here? I look like an idiot looking for you!
Silas Henley Abella: Accept my friend request!
Silas Henley Abella: And you're not gonna reply, huh?
Silas Henley Abella: Wtf?! Accept my friend request!
Ilan lang iyon sa mga message n'ya may mga sumunod pa ngunit hindi ko na iyon binasa pa. I don't want to engage to that man. He's asshole and dangerous. I just want to study peacefully so that I can graduate with flying colors.
Before I entered college it's already my dream to get a latin honors that's why I am striving hard to study. I mean who wouldn't want to have a laude, right?
I deleted his friend request and turned off my phone so that I can concentrate of what I am reading and I could avoid of getting distracted.
Sa sumunod na araw ay wala akong pasok sa umaga kaya late na ako nagising pero pupunta pa rin ako sa school dahil doon ako mag-aaral. It's already ten when I arrived at school. Nag commute lang ako papunta ng school dahil nakaalis na si Manong driver nong nagising ako. Hinatid n'ya rin kasi si Eonoah. We're not in the same university tho. She's studying at Filamer Christian University. Isa iyon sa sikat na University sa Roxas City.
My eyes widened when I saw Silas standing beside the gate. There was cigarette on his mouth. Matilim ang tingin nito sa'kin. I felt fear and apprehension because of that. I could hear my heartbeat because of how loud it is.
Mas lalo lamang kumabog ng malakas ang puso ko nang makita siya na humakbang palapit sa akin. I even coughed when I inhaled the cigarette smoke.
"You ignored my messages. And you deleted my friend request, huh?"
It isn't a question but a statement. I swallow the lump in my throat. I don't know what I should react.
"U-Uhmm..." Wala akong mahagilap na salita.
His jaw clenched while waiting for my answer. Tila inip na inip na ito sa kakahintay kung ano ang sasabihin ko. I used that opportunity to examine his entire face.
There's a thin line on his forehead. His thick eyebrows meet. He has a thick eyelashes that suit on his round face. Hindi siya ganoon kaputi hindi rin ganoon kaitim sakto lang.
"So, you're not gonna say anything? Will you just stare at me?"
Napakurap-kurap ako roon at bigla na lang nilihis ang tingin.
"M-May klase pa ako. Mauuna na ako." Nauutal kong sagot at humakbang na.
Ngunit hinarangan n'ya lamang ang daraanan ko. And the next thing I knew he carried me in a bridal style. I roamed my eyes, I saw people staring at us because of what he did. Namula naman ang pisngi ko sa kabalastugan na ginagawa n'ya. We're making a scene here! Shit!
"Ano ba?! Put me down?" Sigaw ko at sinubukan kong bumaba.
Kinabahan naman ako nang muntik na akong malaglag dahil sa pagpumulit na bumaba mabuti na lamang at maghigpit ang paghawak n'ya sa'kin.
He open the door of the car and then he put me down on the chair. I looked at him sharply but he just smirked at me. I tried to open the door of the car but it's already lock. Tangina! Lumibot siya sa kabila at pumasok sa loob.
"Open it! Lalabas ako may klase pa ako ano ba!" I shouted.
But he just smiled at me like he was teasing me. He started the engine and smiling like a fucking idiot!
"Hoy! Are you deaf? I said open it! Hindi paandarin! If you want to go somewhere then go don't bother me because I have still class!" I said it gasping for breath.
He didn't say anything and just driving that made me more angrier. We have left the campus already. We're in St. Anthony when I said that. This is fucking shit!
"Wtf! I have fucking said to you that I have still classes! Why did I do to you? Why are you doing this to me? I just want to study peacefully. Can you just mind your own business?! Don't bother me!"
He remains quite and still ignore me. Hindi nawala ang multo na ngiti sa kan'yang labi na tila tuwang-tuwa siya sa reaksiyon ko. What a life! I've realized that he will still ignore my tantrums no matter what I do. Kahit magsisigaw at magwala ako sa loob ng kotse at hindi n'ya pa rin siguro ako papansin.
I took a deep breath. I'm running out of energy and patience for him. Sumandal na lamang ako at mariin na napapikit.
His almond eyes welcome mine. I thought it's color brown but it is amber. I could see my reflection in his eyes. Napakurap-kurap ako nang makita na titig na titig ito sa aking mga mata. Hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog na pala ako sa kotse dahil sa inis kanina.
"A-Ah..." I couldn't find any word.
He is still looking at me that made me feel awkward and nervous. My heart starting to pound louder because of his intense stare at my face. Halos pigilan ko na ang sarili na huminga dahil sa takot na marinig n'ya iyon. Ako ang unang bumitaw sa titigan naming dalawa. It seems that each of were competing in staring. Kung sino ang unang bumitaw siya ang talo at kung sino ang huli ay ang panalo.
I couldn't name this feelings. Am I just nervous? That's why my heart beating so fast and loudly? I don't know the reason anymore. I am new to this feeling and I can't even explain why I am feeling this way.
Hindi naman bago sa akin na makasalamuha ng lalaki eh pero hindi naman ako ganito ka kaba. I encountered so many handsome guys for fucking shit! Pero hindi naman ganito 'yong nararamdaman ko.
And he's not even handsome in my eyes! He look an idiot and crazy! At lalo na hindi ko naman siya type! Kaya bakit ganoon na lang ako magreact? Kaya bakit nga ba?
I shifted my sight in front of me. We're in the middle of traffic so it's even more awkward. Ang mga tunog at bosena ng mga sasakyan ang nagsilbing ingay sa paligid namin.
Kinapa ko ang cellphone sa slacks na suot. Agad akong nanlumo nang makita na alas tres na iyon. Shit! Patapos na ang klase ko!
"Malapit na tayo."
Napapikit ako at hinilot na lang ang sentido. Napabuga ako ng hangin sa kawalan. Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ba sa kan'yang sinabi? Bakit ba ako napunta sa sitwastong ito? Bigla na lamang sumakit ang ulo ko hayst.
What if inaaccept ko na lang 'yong friend request n'ya? Edi baka nakapasok pa ako sa klase ko? At baka wala sana ako sa sitwastong ito? Halos iuntog ko na lang ang ulo ko sa bintana ng sasakyan.
My eyes widened when I noticed that we were passing by is not familiar to me. Wait? Where we heading? Is this a beach? Is he gonna swim?
"Where we going?" I asked in a furrowed eyebrow.
"Ruins of Alcatraz." He answered shortly.
My eyes are wide open because of what I've heard from him. My lips parted and I couldn't hide how surprised I am because of my expression.
I saw his lips twitched after seeing my sudden reaction. Nakita ko ang pagbuo ng isang maliit na ngiti pero agad din iyong nawala nang makita n'ya na nakatingin ako sa kan'ya.
The Ruins of Alcatraz is located in Brgy. Culasi, Sitio, Nipa in Roxas City owned by the Bermejo Family. It's supposedly a resort but because of Typhoon Yolanda, the construction stop and then later on it was abandoned. And now it became as one of the tourists spot of Capiz.
I have not been there yet but based on the reviews I see on internet, it is nice and a great place.
"What we're gonna do there?" I said in excited tone.
Ngunit hindi ko lamang iyon ipinahalata pa. Baka isipin n'ya na excited akong pumunta roon dahil kasama ko siya. The hell! Of course, not.
"Date."