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HER EYES WERE GLUED to mine as she passed me the paper in her hand, tears filled her eyes "what is it?" i asked, she exhaled to stop herself from crying.
"It's for you, a detective found it in robins bin and they thought it was best if you kept it" she said, her voice cracking as she spoke.
I looked down at the paper, realising it was an envelope 'pumpkin 🖤' his messy hand writing read on the front of the envelope, my lip shook as i held back another cry.
I looked up at Isabella before pulling her into a warm hug, i could hear her sniffles, her body shook as she cried "i can't lose him, not after carlos" she cried.
Carlos was robins dad, who passed away in the Vietnam war, when robin found out all he did was cry, and i held him for the night making sure he was okay, and i didn't leave his side the whole night.
"They will find him isabella" i said rubbing her back in comfort, she pulled away nodding her head, her hands wiping her tears, she looked at me before smiling.
"i'll leave you alone to read that, i'm not sure what it's about but...i have an idea" she said before leaving, i sighed closing the door and looking down at the note.
I couldn't do this, i knew i was gonna break down the second i opened it, but i had to. I walked up to my room sitting on my bed, i flipped the envelope over noticing there was a heart sticker on the back.
I let out a shaky breath before opening it up, a piece of paper was folded up inside the envelope, grabbing it out and opening it up it was a long note.
Like long...heres what it read.
(GUYS IM SORRY)
🖤
| if your an emotional person like me get tissues :) |
Dear pumpkin you might be wondering why i'm writing you
a note cause as you know i hate writing, but it's for you so i'll do it.
Let me just get straight to the point, i like you. A lot.
it's always been you that i've liked, no one else.
No one else has made me laugh the way you make me laugh
i feel like i've done a whole stomach work out every time you
make a joke cause it's that funny.
The way you make me smile so hard my cheeks start to hurt.
Meeting you has been without a doubt the best part of my life
you were always my first choice for everything.
If i and to save one person, you.
if i had to kill one person, you.
nahhh just joking, i love you too much. Even tho you get on my nerves sometimes, but that's what friends do and lovers ;)
Your so beautiful, it's easy to say that but it's so true
i don't think i'd be able to write how beautiful you are.
i'll try anyways.
Your eyes, i could stare into them FOREVER
your lips, i could kiss forever, if you'd let me.
your hair is so nice, and you always look good in every hairstyle you do.
your nose is so cute too.
your just so cute in general.
I always wondered why you were so beautiful
but it's simple, you just are, there's no why. you have just always
been that way.
Your sense of style is so beautiful, you always look good.
you smell amazing everyday, like vanilla and caramel.
Your so kind but sometimes rude, but i never take anything
you say seriously, i know your joking, you can be abusive too.
Like when you hit me in the stomach.
That hurt btw. You got a good punch.
So when i'm not around to help you can protect yourself
which is good to know.
Back to how kind you are, you are honestly the most
caring person ever, and you've taught me to be too
only to some people tho.
Like when you helped the old lady walk across the road.
Or when you walked a whole pack of ducklings across the road
and stopped all of the cars.
Or when you brought me that comic book
which is the best comic book ever in my opinion.
i read it one night!
can you believe it, I robin arellano. READ something in ONE night.
isn't it a miracle.
Speaking of miracles, you are basically one, for me at least
if i didn't meet you i'd probably be a drug addict at the age of 10
that's how dumb i am.
Then i met you and you showed me lots of things.
How to be kind, how to feel my emotions, how to feel love.
you taught me that it's okay to cry and feel emotions
because as you know i was brought up in
'boys don't cry' household, especially my uncle
he's a coño.
you also taught me lots of things like devision
fuck. i don't know how to spell that, but i hope
you know what i mean the dividid thing.
ANYWAYS
You most likely don't like me, that's okay.
i'm used to it now.
Some things just aren't meant to be.
your always friend zoning me, which is fair.
after all we are friends, just wish it was more then that.
but i cant force you to feel things you don't feel.
Who knows, maybe you do like me, or maybe i'm delusional
the second ones more realistic, the first i just hope is real.
I've seen you hanging with bruce a lot.
He seems cool, i hope you guys the best if you do like him
but i'm always here for you, i want you to know that.
Every bad day, every sad day and every good day i'll be there for
until the day i die.
And as long as i'm here, no one will ever hurt you.
And if they do, tell me :) i'll fuck em up
I also wanna say thank you for putting up with my shit
for nearly 10 years, i don't know why your still my friend to be honest
i always thought you were gonna ditch me cause i
was so annoying but you didn't.
You stuck by me ever since we met, i still replay the day we met
and i was only 5. But i have a clear as day memory of it.
I was playing basketball with my dad in the backyard, my ma
called dinner, and when i walked inside there was this
beautiful girl sat at my dinner table.
I was so confused and flustered, even when i was 5
you still made me flustered, anyways, i soon realised you would
be my neighbour, forever.
Well maybe not forever, but for awhile, and when i found out
our windows were right next to each other i got so hyped.
I would be able to talk to you when i was bored
and ever since then we were the bestest friends
i've never had such a good friend like you.
Then, age 10 came and i wouldn't realise it but the worst
thing was about to happen to me, my dad would pass away.
That was one of the roughest years of my life, and one of
the most depressing years, and you stuck by me the whole entire
time, like a true friend. I dunno how you did it.
Considering how many times i tried to shut you down
i didn't wanna talk to anyone, except you.
i wanted to cry on your shoulder until all the pain was
flooded out of me.
And that's pretty much what i did, i cried and cried
my 10 year old heart out, when i woke up i was laid on your chest
you were asleep, and your shirt was stained with my tears, your hands
wrapped around me, protecting me.
i knew then that you were the one i wanted to be with forever.
the one who's shoulder i wanted to cry on, the one i wanted to kiss.
the one i wanted to love.
And you were the one, i've seen you do the most embarrassing shit
anyone's done in the whole history of the earth, i've seen you when you just woke up, even then you still look good, i've seen you getting dressed by accident, i've seen you with and without make up, i've seen you eating.
i've seen you laugh, cry, smile, angry, confused.
I've seen everything, and i've been there for nearly every moment
cheering you on, teasing you, hitting you, flirting with you.
I'm glad i got to grow up and experience all
these moments with you
and i hope we can keep experiencing things together
as lovers or as friends.
i hope this doesn't ruin our friendship, or make it awkward
Anyways, my hands hurt from writing this
but i love you very very much.
i wish you the best with bruce, but i'm always here :)
oh yeah! i drew you a pumpkin!
it's not the best but i tried :) it's teeth are fucked up BAHAH
- love your annoying ass neighbour 🖤
Tears stung my eyes reading the note, chuckling at parts and crying at others, i never gathered that he liked me, he was so subtle about it, and i guess i never really payed attention to it.
We've been friends for that long i haven't thought about him like that, but now it makes sense why he was so upset about bruce.
NOVA SPEAKS
STOPPP 😭 i'd be bawling if this happened to me.